HEY Y'ALL THIS IS A SHE-RA story because I am absolutely obsessed AND THIS IS CALLED I HATE MY SELF
WARNING: THERE IS SUCIDEL THOUGHTS, SELF HARM, AND DARK THINGS PLEASE DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T LIKE THOSE THING
DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN SHE-RA OR THE CHARACTERS
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It's been a few months after horde prime has been defeated and catrahas been living in bright moon! She still have nightmares and flashback and they get worst everyday she so scared of losing her beautiful amazing girlfriend and hurting her again like the scars she caused on her backand all over her body andshe could never forgive herself for that. Catra was laying on her bed next to Adora sleeping but not peacefully she was having a terrible nightmare in the nightmare she sees Adora hating everyone "why catra what is wrong with why are you like this why why did you hurt me" with a evil smile and a horrible looking face with scratches all over it she speaks to catra. "No I'm so so sorry Adora I didn't mean too" catra cried trying and hoping this is a dream but looked to real. "Remember when I told you I love you" Adora asked with a vicious tone. "What?" catra asked with confusion. "When you told me you loved me and I said it back I said it just to save etheria and to keep everyone alive but that meant to keep you alive and to make sure you aren't" she said walking towards catra with a knife. "What what are you doi-AHHHH" catra said with anger and pain she couldn't focus she was dying. "You deserve to die and WAKE UP" Adora screamed "CATRA WAKE UP" ADORA SAID YELLING. Catra wakes up and starts having a panic attackwith tears running down her face. "Hey hey what happened" Adora asked with a sweet soothing voice. "I-i can't breathe" catra said while taking deep breaths but couldn't catch her breath. "Hey it's ok just breathe ok breathe" Adora says rubbing her back. "Ok I can breathe" she says still sobbing. "Can you tell me what happened babe"Adora asked hoping she'll get a answer. "You-you didn't forgive me for whatI did and then you killed me and I'm so sorry i-i can't believe everything I did i-" catra said so fast and upset but her girlfriend interrupts her "wowo please calm down catra I am never ever going to kill you or hate you even if someone gave me all the money or anything in the world" "I'm so sorry about every-" catra was interrupted again "catra stop you are fine and your with me that all that matters I am not going to leave you and you don't have to say sorry I love you and I always will no matter what happens so please please just calm down ok" Adora says trying to make catra stop. Catra finally calms down and breathes and hugs Adora very tight and then Adora hugs back thankful that she calmed down. "Thank you and please stay" catra says never wanting to let her go. "Catra I will always always stay with you and that's a promise I am keeping" those words made catras heart flutter but she still had guilt and hatred in her heart not to anyone but her the hatred was for her hate everything she done and could never forgive herself "I promise the same" catra said those words in a softer tone. "Do you want to go back to sleep?" Adora asked "sure" catra answered with a fake smile. They both lay down Adora went to sleep fast on her stomach and catra is still awake looking over Adora is wearing her grey tank top and the back is low to more than half her back so catra can see half the scar that she gave her on the battle of brightmoon where she almost destroyed the whole kingdom and then starts sobbing but quietly so she doesn't wake Adora up again and goes off to the balcony watching the stars and trying to get fresh air so she doesn't do anything. But then she looks down stairs the edge over hundreds of feet off the ground and starts having the thought, one jump km gone no more pain and nightmares, Adora will be safer but she really did promise me and I promised her so if I jump would I have broken that promise! But then catra hears the door to the balcony open and see her terrific girlfriend "hey baby couldn't sleep it's really late" Adora asked so gentle and sweet. "Hey Adora ya I couldn't sleep but the moon was bright so I came and decided to look at it and the stars" catra answered. "Mind if I watch with you?" Adora asked hoping she would said yes. "No I dont mind at all" she said while patting the floor right next to her. Adora walks to her girlfriend and sat down and within a blink of in eye catras head was on he shoulder where a blush start creeping on her cheeks! "Hey Adora?" Adora looks at catra and catra starts talking "am I worth of being loved and being here" catra asked with tears in her eyes! Adora is growing concern with the way catra has been acting the last few days and has the biggest answer ready! "Catra look at me" she says while making catra look at her while moving her chin "you have had problems in the past and made mistakes I've made so so many too I should have taken you with me to brightmoon and stop showing off she-ra but I was excited so there's that, and I am so proud of you that you have changed but listen to me, you are worth more than what you can give to other people, You deserve love to! you need to love yourself and accept love from the people around you. Also speaking of love, I love you I would do anything like anything to keep you here with me and I couldnt ask for a better girlfriend and someday I want to marry you and make a family with you and go on trips with you and so so much more with you catra. And if that doesn't answer your question then yes you are so worth being loved. " Adora answer so passionately and confidently. Catra was just amazed by what she said and couldn't help herself so she grabbed adora and kisses her so hardly that she could never ever stop and didnt want to. Adora kissed back to and also didnt want stop but they bihh had to take there breath so they broke they kiss. "I love you adora" catra said "i love you too catra" adora said hugging catra. Adora then yawns and catra could tell she is really tired "tired?" catra said with a smirk adora nods and then catra had a idea catra picks up adora and starts spinning around with Adora laughing in joy "since when did you get so strong babe" adora said still laughing a bit "learned from the best" catra answered with a smirk. Adora chuckles then catra places her on the bed and adora Imedeitly fell asleep. Catra lain on the other side of the bed but still didnt feel ok and she fell asleep
NEXT CHAPTER COMING OUT SOON