Nick, Jeff, David and Wes all met up an hour after Kurt had finally admitted to them why he was with Sebastian. They thought they would get some relief knowing but it just made them more devastated.

"I can't believe he did all this to save me and I treated like an asshole this whole fucking time." Nick said with sorrow in his voice.

"Nicky baby, you wasn't to know. None of us was but now that we do we can help him. We can help you." Jeff had his arms wrapped round his boyfriend soothing him gently. That bastard. He knew Kurt loved them so it wasn't a surprise to him that Kurt did it to save Nick.

"I know it just doesn't mean I regret it any less." Jeff agreed and kissed him lightly on the head.

"All this fucking time that scum knew them Nick.. He fucking knew. Even before Kurt left he was making plans." David was knew Sebastian was heartless but he didn't know how much until now. Nick nodded numbly before placing a hand over the box Kurt had given him.

"Do you want us to go Nick? Give you some privacy?" Wes asked concerned as he wanted his friend struggle.

"No.. please stay all of you."

Nick took a deep breathe before opening the box. He riffled through it until his hard felt a stack of cards tied around with an elastic band. He pulled it out gently and pried the elastic band off. Kurt was right. It contained photocopied laminated ID's. He recognised all of their faces. Names scribbled out but they was legit all right. He shuddered and looked away. All the nightmares coming back to haunt him. He carful placed them to Jeff and he started to look at them passing them around to the group. He found a small jewellery box and lifted it up and opened it curiously. He gasped in shock. It was his mother and father's wedding ring. They took it off him during the struggle and it was the one thing he wished he had the balls to go back for. He picked it up and threaded it through his fingers.

"Is that your parents wedding ring?" Jeff said confused as he lifted himself up and placed his chin on Nick's shoulder. Nick nodded and looked away. If this wasn't proof enough he didn't know what is.

"I'm so sorry Nick." Wes said sympathetically as he looked at Nick.

He started to cry. He couldn't take it. Seeing his parents wedding ring broke him. They all walked over and pulled Nick into a group hug, letting him cry it out. They knew they had to keep Kurt's secret for Nick's sake, they just didn't know how they was going to do it knowing what Sebastian had done.

Kurt and Blaine hadn't moved yet. They was still soaking eachother up and they loved every minute of it but Kurt felt sick still. He really needed to take his medication.

"What's wrong beautiful?" Blaine said as he turned towards the love of his life. Kurt knew he would have to tell him he wasn't handling it very well.

"My medication Blaine. I just… I haven't took it since I came to Dalton. I didn't want to feel numb but." Kurt looked everywhere but Blaine's eyes. "I'm not saying I'm not happy being here for you but with everything that's happened I'm falling apart again."

Blaine had heard kurt's conversation with Carol and it clicked. He sat up quickly and asked where they where kept. Kurt bit his lip and told him it was the box on top of his desk. Blaine stood and made his way over to kurt's room and grabbed the box followed by a bottle of water from his fridge. He found Kurt standing up.

"Can we shower first?" Kurt asked quietly and Blaine held his hand out. They showered quickly and got dressed and changing the bed sheets before sitting cross legged facing eachother. He went to open the box and then there was a knock on the door. Kurt started to panic thinking it was Sebastian until he recognised the knock. It was Jeff. Blaine stood up and answered the door and the four boys walked in and Blaine locked it tightly.

"Comment allez-vous pétale?" (How are you Kurt?) David seen that his friend looked defeated.

"I'm okay Davi-

"No he's not. He's not okay." Blaine spoke over Kurt.

"Blaine."

"No Kurt. You don't need to lie anymore. We are hear you help you." Blaine said as he traced a finger down kurt's cheek.

"Not good." Kurt nervously laughed out.

"How can we help porcelain?"

Kurt smiled up to Nick and pointed to the box that was in front of him. Nick slowly opened the box to found a stack of medication boxes.

"I haven't taken them since I've been here. I think that's why I broke earlier. I hate taking them Nicky.. they make me feel dead but I need too now." Nick nodded before taking them out the box. They knew most of the medication with them being around for so long.

Anti- depressives

Anti- Anxiety

Sleeping pills

Calmers

There was also an inhaler. Wes leaned over and lifted the inhaler up and showed it to Kurt.

"Asthma." Wes nodded before placing it down onto the end. Nick started to pop the pills according to the descriptions. He placed them into kurt's hand and Blaine handed him the water bottle.

"Just take them baby. It will help I promise you." Jeff put a hand on his leg and Kurt nodded. He looked at the three pills in his hand and knocked them back and downed them with water. Now it was just a waiting game.

"Can you call Finn for me?" Kurt asked out loud.

"Of course, I'll go and call him now." Wes said as Kurt handed him his phone and he looked for the contacts. He couldn't find his name until he came to a contact

Frankinteen

He rolled his eyes before pressing the call button. It rang three times before picking up.

Hey dude!

"Hey man. It's actually Wes. You remember me-

Of course I remember you dude. Why are you calling me off Kurt's phone? Wait he-

"He's here with me now. He asked me to call you."

"He knows Wes. He knows everything." Kurt said looking up sleepily.

I'm on my way

The line was cut off in a rush and Wes pulled the phone back to look at the screen. He realised his phone was nearly out of battery so he walked over to Blaine's phone charger that was plugged in the wall and he plugged it in when he heard the small tune notifying that Kurt's phone was on charge he walked back over to the bed and sat down.

"Do you mind if I just shut my eyes for a minute?" Kurt said towards his friends and they shook there head.

"No of course not. Rest baby." Blaine said lovingly as he watched Kurt curl up and place his head into his shoulder. A few minutes and Kurt was out like a light and was snoring softly.

"He's been through so much. No one should have to deal with that amount of stress." David said and looked at his sleeping friend.

A few hours later and Kurt was still asleep and they heads Kurt's phone bleeping.

"That should be Finn. I'll go and let him in."

Wes stood up to go and let Kurt's brother in to Dalton. As he shut the door he seen Sebastian approaching from down the hallway. He started to panic and opened Blaine's door quickly and shut it behind him.

"Sebastian is walking up the corridor towards the room." He said breathlessly. They shot up and scattered. Blaine quickly carried a sleeping Kurt through to his room and placed him in bed as the guys got rid of any trace of Kurt in Blaine's room. Stumping out the sage that was burning. They turned the tv on and got comfortable. Perfect fucking timing. They heard Sebastian knocking on Kurt's door and he got no answer so he knocked on Blaine's. They needed to keep their composure. Wes sent a quick text of kurt's phone to Finn telling him they had company. Nick nearly growled and Jeff placed a hand stopping him. David stood and opened the door.

"Hello Thompson. Is my boyfriend with you?" He smirked looking over David's shoulder.

"He's not here Smythe, he's sleeping in his room. His brother has a visitation. He's just on his way." David said smoothly, matching his body language.

"Ah I see. How's it going Nick? You look pissed."

It took every fibre of his being to jump up and smash the shit out of him. He laughed and turned towards Sebastian.

"Fuck all to do with you Smythe, keep you nose out." Nick spat out quickly.

"Well when he wakes up, tell him to come see me." Sebastian smirked one last time before walking away. Wesley quickly followed and went to let Finn in finally.

"How is he?" Finn was rushing out the car slamming it shut. He knew his brother would kill him for that.

"He's good Finn. He just misses you." Wes shook his head at the same time, indicating he wasn't good but he couldn't talk.

They quickly made there way back through Dalton until the came to Kurt's room. The other guys had moved themselves to his room also. Wesley opened the door and Finn walked in.

"He's had his medication hasn't he?" Finn said before walking over to his brother before sitting down.

"How did you know?" Blaine questioned. Finn was different now. His love for Kurt was unconditional.

He smirked before clapping his hands loudly in Kurt's face. The other guys jumped and waited for Kurt to stir but he didn't.

"He can sleep through a earthquake when he's had them and that's not even with his sleeping pills. You should see him when he's on them." Finn jumped on his bed and laid his feet up next to Kurt.

"He always goes incredibly limp. Like a worm." Finn lifted Kurt's arm up and it dropped down instantly falling limpless to his side.

"When did he take them?" Finn questioned.

"Just before we called you." Finn nodded and folded his arms across him body.

"So the cats out the bag?" He looked over to Nick and spoke. "Sorry dude."

"Yeah he told us today. I think the stress of keeping the secret was to much for him to bare." Nick said softly.

"It's nice to see you guys again." Finn said truthfully. He guys smiled and nodded.

"You too you big lump." Jeff laughed out as he walked over and half hugged him.

The guys watched Kurt sleeping. He looked so peaceful. The best sleep he's most likely had since he's been here.

"Has he told you anything else?" Finn looked down at his brother and laid a hand on his arm.

"Like what Finn?" David asked curiously.

"How he was when he left Dalton?"

Blaine bowed his head. He didn't want to break Kurt's trust but they needed to know to be able to help him.

"He mentioned the erm.. cutting. He showed me his wrist. He said that you found him?" Blaine took a deep breath and looked over to his lovers brother. Finn nodded.

"It was bad dudes, really bad. I don't think I've ever seen so much blood." Finn said quietly. They looked at Finn and he looked like their was tears in his eyes.

"We had suspicions. Kurt never has taken that watch off since he came. It was on right right wrist too." Nick sighed. Knowing that his friend had tried to kill himself was heartbreaking.

"Kurt was like a zombie when he came back from Dalton. He sat on his bedroom floor for three days. He hardly drank and ate and he didn't change his clothes or shower. We wasn't speaking then but Burt had a talk with me and made me go and just look at him." Finn paused being lowering his head in shame. "I went down and seen him. I had never seen anything so sad. He was just lying on the floor staring at the ceiling. It was like he was there but he wasn't." Finn looked up and see the vampires starring at him. "I tried talking to him, nudging him but nothing it was like he was a ghost or something."

"What did you do?" Blaine asked sadly.

"I dragged him off the floor. He started to kick and scream it was like something from the scary movie when they tie that girl up to the bed-

"The exorcist?" Wes chimed in.

"Yeah man that."

They sat in silence for a few moments. Before finn spoke up again.

"I dragged him into the bathroom and undressed him and he still had his uniform on. Man, you wouldn't think he was strong but Jesus, he nearly knocked me out a few times." Finn laughed out and the guys followed.

"I put him in the shower and started to wash him. He didn't even say nothing when I only shampooed his hair." Finn smiled.

"Is it then when you realised how much of a asshole you had been?" Nick said with a smirk.

"Nicky you can't just say that!" Jeff said shocked as he looked at his boyfriend.

"It's good dude he's right." Finn said with a nod of his head.

"So yeah. I got him out and tried to do his creams and shit on his face and he just sat there in silence and let me. I'm pretty sure I ruined his face for the next few days. I put body lotion on his face." Finn chuckled with the rest of the guys.

"He was never really the same after that and then there was Burt."

The guys knew how much he meant to Kurt. The love they had to each other was unbreakable.

"He found him. The medical dudes had to drag Kurt away from burt. He had been doing CPR for like fifty minutes none stop." Finn paused "They said that Burt had died there and then and the CPR was doing nothing for him."

"That's so fucking sad." Jeff said a tear running down his face.

"A few days after that I found Kurt. There was a note that was left too." He reached into his pocket and pulled the blood stained letter out.

"Read it."

Finn nodded towards Blaine and he opened it with his fingers and he started to read it out.

It's to much. I'm sorry Finn, I'm sorry Carol. I can't take it anymore. I thought I could do it but I can't. It just hurt's too much. Tell my family I'm sorry. Keep Nick safe Finn. Keep his secret, take it to your grave.

He stopped reading the note and he looked up and seen Nick had started to cry softly.

Tell Blaine it wasn't his fault. Tell him I did everything in my power to keep them all safe. Tell him I love him and not to be sad. One day he'll find someone who would fill the hole I left. I want him to be happy, always.

Tell Jeff that he was one of the best things that happened to me. He saved me more than once and I'll forever be grateful to call him by best friend. He's my hero.

Tell David I appreciated his friendship before my time ended at Dalton. He kept he sain even on my darkest of days. Our french lessons together always was the best part of my day.

Tell Nicky I'm sorry. For everything. Give him the key that is wrapped round my necklace and give him these instructions.

Kurt's room. The fourth tile down on the third row. There is a box. It will explain everything. Don't give up Nick. You're one of the strongest people I know.

Tell Wes I enjoyed his presence even though it seemed like I didn't at times. Our light banter kept me going. Tell him I loved him just as much as everyone else and I can't thank you enough for what you do for the guys. I'll never forget it.

Finn. I know we had our differences but in the final months of my life I knew we was meant to be brothers. This is not your fault. The way you cared for me, made me feel safe and secure and it meant everything to me. I love you brother

To Carol, thank you for being the mother I missed out on. Your kindness consumed me and I'll forever be grateful for the life you gave me and my father. Thank you mom, thank you for bringing me Finn.

Look after each other.

Love you always, Kurt.

Finn stoped reading. They was all crying. The note had made them realise how much Kurt loved them, it made them realise how much he was dying inside.

"He told me to get rid of it. He didn't want anyone finding out but I kept it. I couldn't throw it away." Finn said truthfully.

"I just need a few minutes.. I'm sorry." Blaine got up quickly and went to his room.

They was silence for a minute. The suicide note had shocked them all.

"I'm going to see if Blaine is okay." Nick stood and followed Blaine into his room.

Blaine started to hyperventilate. Hearing Kurt's word's made everything so real. Nick ran in quickly and grabbed his friend. Pulling him in for a sweet hug. He pulled back but he couldn't talk. The sage was in Kurt's room. He gave Blaine a moment to gather himself. He loved Kurt so much. They took there for ten minutes before Blaine pulled back and nodded and mouthed a 'thank you' and they started to head back into Kurt's room.

"I'm sorry it was just a lot to hear." Blaine said walking back into the room.

"It's alright man, I was the same."

Finn felt Kurt stir next to him. He turned towards his brother and Kurt turned on his back and cracked a eye open. His head felt fuzzy. Jesus, how long was he out for? He tried to sit up but he fell back down.

"It's okay dude. Just relax."

It was Finn's voice. It was soothing. He closed his eyes and opened his mouth to talk.

"How long have you been here?" His voice cracked half way through. Finn chuckled

"Not long man."

"Where is Blaine and the guys?"

"We are here Kurt." Blaine said softly.

Kurt tried to raise himself off the bed again but Finn placed a gentle hand on his body to lower him back down. Fucking meds. He rolled his eyes and tried again but Finn was having none of it. He pushed him back down and Kurt groaned in frustration.

"Stop being so stubborn bro."

Kurt huffed and closed his eyes again. He couldn't remember anything since he fell asleep. Not even a voice. He licked his lips profusely and coughed.

Blaine grabbed hold of his bottle of water and walked over and held him up while he drank from it.

"God.. thank you." Kurt moaned out after he swallowed the water down. They laughed together and kurt's head fell back into the pillow.

"I'm sorry for bothering you Finn-

"Shut up."

"Kay."

Kurt became tired again. It washed over him quickly and he felt his eyes closing over. He felt better. He didn't feel sick anymore. He didn't feel anything really. He reached over trying to find Finn but he kept missing his arm. He giggled. He was out of it

Finn grabbed his hand for him and Kurt signed in relief. He felt drunk. He turned on his side slowly and let go of his hand and loosely put a arm round him. He quickly drifted back into sleep.

"What the fuck are we going to do about him?" Finn knew that the guys was click on to what he was saying.

"Don't worry Finn, that bastard will get everything that's coming to him." Nick spoke with confidence. "He's dead Finn."

Finn nodded. "Make sure he suffers."

"Don't worry Finn, he'll be begging us stop." Blaine said loudly looking round at his friends. Sebastian wasn't getting away with this.

Kurt phoned buzzed. Wes reached over and read the message.

"It's fucking him." Wes said out loud.

"What does it say?"

"He wants Kurt to meet him." Wes replied back to Finn. He gestured for Wes to message him.

It's Finn. He's sleeping, what do you want?

They waited for a reply back for it never came. Sebastian just read it and ignored it.

Wes left shortly after to speak with Mr Alexander. They had missed most of the school day. He knocked on Mr Alexander's office and he heard a 'come on' He smiled polity before taking a seat in front of him.

"I heard that you all didn't attend most of your classes today. I'm assuming it's something important for you to break your promise."

They could speak freely in his office without having to worry about unwanted listening ears. Wes gave him a brief summary of what had happened. He explained everything from Kurt leaving Dalton to Sebastian having a hold on him and he mentioned the suicide attempt to Kurt's medication. Mr Alexander was beyond shocked. Kurt had been down the banks.

"Is he okay? Kurt?" Mr Alexander asked concerned as he passed Wes a plastic bottle. Wes accepted it quickly and gulp down some of the liquid.

"I don't think so. I mean he's Kurt. He's stubborn and he has a tendency to hold everything until he blows. He's strong, he can get through this." Wes said truthfully before standing up out the chair and leaving over to shake his hand.

"What about Mr Smythe?"

"I honestly don't know. He'll get what's coming to him but for the time being we have to do right by Kurt and Nick." Wes nodded again before leaving the office.

Kurt woke up just after Wes entered the room. He finally managed to sit himself up with the help from Finn and Jeff. He smiled sleepily looking around the room before his eyes landed on him.

"Hi."

"Hey you. How do you feel?" Blaine walked over and sat on the bed next to Kurt. He lifted his arm and joined their hands.

"Sleepy but I feel okay." Kurt answered truthfully. He hadn't woken up fully yet and his eyes kept opening and closing. Blaine laughed before leaving down and kissing him on the forehead.

"You sure you're feeling okay baby?"

Kurt looked around and found his best friend. "I don't really feel anything to be honest but I feel okay. If that makes sense." He let out a nervous laugh and grinned showing all his teeth. It was very rare that he did that. It was so adorable Blaine thought.

He seemed a lot better Nick thought to himself.

"We need to do this soon Wes. While I feel up to it." He looked at Wes tiredly and smiled. Wes nodded.

"What do you mean Kurt?" Finn asked confused. Shit. His brother didn't know.

"Wes is going to compel me. He's going to help with Sebastian."

He waited for the screaming match but it didn't arrive.

"Okay dude."

Kurt snapped his head to the side and squinted his eyes at his brother. "No screaming match? No telling me I'm being stupid?" Kurt deadpanned and smacked his palm into his forehead. Finn laughed before snatching his hand away so he didn't hurt himself.

"Dude, seriously you're going to end up hurting yourself."

"Been there, done that and got the t shirt dude." Kurt rolled his eyes before laying back down.

"How can you joke about that Kurt?" Blaine couldn't understand how he was so good about this.

"Because if I don't laugh I'll cry Blaine and I think I've cried enough tears the past year for a lifetime don't you think?" Kurt said bluntly before leaning over and kissing him. Kurt turned to Wes.

"I'm ready when you are."

Wes nodded before standing up and making his way over to sit in front of Kurt. Kurt turned towards his friends and his brother and smiled. "I can do this."

He turned back to Wes and nodded. He grabbed Kurt's face his hands and looked at him in his eyes. He could feel Kurt going into a trace. It's working. Vervain is out his system.

"You're going to enjoy your time with Sebastian. Every part of it. You know he's done wrong but for the time you're with him you're going to forgive him. You're going to care for him, love him and be everything he could possibly want."

He could see Kurt soaking up the words.

"Don't hesitate, you're strong. You can do this."

Kurt sat there listening to Wes. He couldn't move. The words was cutting through him, rearranging his brain.

"What are you going to do Kurt?"

I'm going to care for him, love him and be everything he could possibly want. I won't hesitate because I'm strong. I can do this.

Wes smiled. It had worked. Kurt was still staring into space the words running through his head. He knew being with Sebastian was wrong but he felt okay being with him. It was a strange feeling. He was ready.

"I can do this."