"I'm so sorry Carol, I had no other choice." Jeff lowered his gaze. He wanted to be the one to explain what he had did to Carol and Finn. He felt so guilty for doing that to his friend.

"Sweetheart it's okay. I'm thankful you did it. He would never of been able to forgive himself if he hurt the donor. Can't even imagine what he would be like if he hurt your Nick."

Carol pulled him in for a tight hug, she felt him crying softly in her arms and it broke her heart. She ran her fingers through his hair and pulled him back slightly so she could see him.

"You did everything right." Carol said sweetly and Jeff sniffed and nodded.

"You did what you had to do dude. No hard feelings." Finn lifted up his fist for Jeff to first bump. Jeff laughed before knocking his fist with his.

"How's Nick's hand?" Finn said with a smirk and Jeff rolled his eyes.

"He's recovered. His hand is still attached to his arm thank god." Jeff laughed out before turning to Carol.

"Your son has a good grip on him I tell you that."

"He must get that from his father. He was a fighter when he was younger. Always getting into trouble my Burt." Carol said sadly.

"I'm so sorry Carol. I wish I knew. I wish I could have been there for all of you."

"Don't be sweetheart. I know how hard you tried. Kurt didn't want anyone to know and I wanted to respect that." Carol kissed him on the cheek.

Kurt woke up in a gasp bolted upright. Jesus fucking Christ. He looked around. He wasn't in the viewing room anymore, he was in the common room. His vision was blurred. He felt a hand on his and he knew by touch who it was, it was Nick.

"I'm so sorry Nick." Kurt mumbled coming back to reality. He felt a gentle push on his shoulder to lay him back down. He heard him chuckle.

"Don't be. You did good porcelain." Kurt rolled his eyes. I nearly tore your arm off your shoulders and drained the donor to death. I didn't do good Nicky

Kurt heard Nick sigh before lifting Kurt's head up and placing it on his lap.

"It was your second feed Kurt. You was amazing."

Kurt closed his eyes moaning at the contact of Nick playing with his hair. He never ever let anyone touch his hair but now? He would have someone running their fingers through it all day every day.

"How's my left arm?" Kurt knew that would of killed Jeff to do but he was so proud of him for doing it.

"You know Jeff. He's a bag of emotions, just like you. He'll be okay when he see's his right arm is awake." Kurt laughed and reached out to join Nick's free hand with his.

"How's my secret lover?" Nick burst out laughing.

"Secret lover huh? Head over heels for you and pinning because you're not awake. He's with Finn and Carol."

"How's my little french toast?"

"Fuck off Kurt." They both laughed. Damn he was a funny kid. Nick rolled his eyes before replying.

"David said he didn't want to ever get on your bad side. He would prefer his heart being inside his chest."

Kurt rolled his eyes playfully. "He's so dramatic."

There was a few minutes silence before Kurt broke it.

"How's my life long nemesis?"

Nick felt like suffocating him. He knew why he was doing it. He was doing it to make Nick laugh. Nick played along, enjoying there time alone.

"Wesley is fine. He's playing happy families."

"I wouldn't peg him for the family type. He's a misanthrope Nicky."

Nick couldn't contain his laugher. He threw Kurt off him quickly and laid down next to him. His stomach hurt with laughing to much and the tears was rolling down his eyes. Kurt was the same. He lived for these moments. Once they finally calmed down Kurt rolled to his side to his was facing Nick.

"Are you sure Wes is okay?"

"I hope so man."

"How's my hot headed hero?" Kurt said with a smile. He reached over and brushed a hair from Nick's face. Nick couldn't thank him enough for what had done for him, what he had given up.

"Better knowing that you're okay." Nick grinned before turning on his side so he was facing him.

"And my beautiful family?"

"They are having something to eat in the kitchen. Jeff had ordered Chinese for them." Kurt smiled and nodded.

"Do you want to know a secret?" Kurt said to Nick, lifting his arm up so he could lean on his hand. Nick copied him, getting comfortable. Nick nodded and waited for Kurt to talk.

"I don't want this Nick. I thought it was what I wanted but I don't. I don't want to be this way. I want to get my degrees, I want to get a house, start a family, have children." Kurt bit is lip and looked away for a second.

"It's okay Kurt. You can say it." Nick said lifting his arm and turning his friend to face him.

"I want to be married. I want to grow old. I don't want to be stuck in time." A tear left Kurt's eye.

"You can say it sweetie." Nick lifted his hand and swiped the tears away. He knew what he was going to say but he needed Kurt to say it.

"I don't want to be a vampire Nicky. I don't want to be a vampire." A sob left kurt's lips and he covered his face in shame. The past two days has absolutely ruined Kurt. He couldn't cope with this any longer. He wished they had just let him die. Nick sat up and pulled Kurt gently up with him and he held him while Kurt cried. Nick started to cry too. Hearing Kurt admit what he had always knew broke him. Kurt didn't know that Blaine, Jeff, David and Wes was all there watching and had heard the whole thing.

"Why didn't you just let me die."

Nick lifted his head up and faced his friends, the tears flowing down his cheeks. It had been a while since he had cried like this. It takes a lot for Nick to feel this way. Don't let him see you.

They nodded. Blaine was silently crying, Jeff too. Wes had his arm round David. Wes didn't know how to react. His had always struggled with his feelings. Being a vampire just made that ten times more difficult for him. He was almost embarrassed when he let them slip through. He swallowed before lifting his arm away from David and silently walking out.

Kurt was gripping onto Nick's hoodie like he was scared Nick was going to leave him. Nick never left, he stayed with him and held him through it. They knew Kurt would feel embarrassed knowing they had seen him so they left too, letting Nick be there for him. Kurt's sobs stabilised and Kurt placed a kiss to his neck, hearing Nick make a noise of enjoyment. He pulled back.

"Shit I'm sorry. Breakdown or what ay?" Kurt laughed trying to make a light of the conversation.

"Don't ever apologise. We all need a breakdown now and again don't we?" Nick joined in with the Kurt's laugh.

"Thank you for being there Nicky."

"I'll always be there for you."

Kurt quickly wiped the tears away and stood up holding his hand out for Nick. He stood with the help of Kurt and they hugged.

"I'm going to see my family."

"Are you sure Kurt?"

"Yes. I need this. I won't let myself hurt them."

Blaine, Jeff, Wes, David, Finn and Carol was all sitting around the large kitchen table eating Chinese when they heard the door open and Nick and Kurt walked through. Oh this is a bad idea.

Kurt could hear their heart's racing, blood pumping through their veins and he felt the hunger seep through. His fangs extended but he was determined. Family, not food. Carol stood quickly and turned towards her son.

"Hey sweetie. How are you feeling?" Carol's voice was like silk.

"Do you trust me?" Kurt voice was low and his eyes was closed. The scent was flowing to his nose and it was intoxicating.

"With all my heart."

Within a few seconds Kurt was in front of Carol and pulling her in for a hug. Carol gasped in shock before returning to hug and wrapping her arms round him. His head was by her neck, his fangs was so close to her. She's your mom Kurt.

They watched while they stood. Getting ready to step in. Kurt felt like he was at home. His eyes was flashing red, he heart was pounding. He pulled back and looked at her. His whole body was shaking and he leaned over and placed a kiss to her cheek. Carol beamed and placed her two hands on his face. He closed his eyes and try and block out the hunger, he lifted his hands to meet hers. It was to much. He stepped back quickly and smiling. He fucking did it. He took a few deep breaths before looking at his brother.

"Come here dude." Finn had his arms spread out wide and he had a smile so big Kurt swore his face was ready to split in two. Kurt quickly made his way over and let his brother pull him in. He smiled through it. Feeling the urge becoming more intense. His body was rattling. Every inch of it. He wanted to rip his brothers head off his shoulders. He gripped onto his brothers arm. Family, not food.

Kurt bit his lip and Finn could see him about to break. Kurt couldn't do it anymore. If he stayed for any longer he didn't know what he would do. He pulled back and quickly made his way out the room before shutting the door behind him quickly, sliding down it. Family. Definitely not food. He started laughing, fangs penetrating his mouth and with a flash of light he was back in his room.

"Oh my god he did it." Jeff was beaming in joy. "Fuck yeah!"

Carol was crying happy tears and Jeff pulled her in for a hug. They couldn't believe Kurt had did that. They kept hearing what he was saying. Family, not food. It helped him, more than helped. His love for his family was much greater than the blood lust even if it was for a few minutes.

"My baby did it!" Carol said excitedly and Finn started to laugh. "He sure did mom."

"I'm so proud of him." Blaine grinned before sitting back down.

"We are all proud of him Blainers." Nick said before ruffling Blaine's hair. Blaine rolled his eyes before trying to straighten it back in place.

"Thank you dude." Finn said looking at Nick. "It's no problem man but it wasn't me it was Kurt, all Kurt."

"Even so, thank you. All of you for helping him." Carol said sweetly turning to the other Vampires.

Wes couldn't watch it anymore. What the fuck was wrong with him?

"Wes? Are you okay man?" David stood and approached his friend. Wes hasn't said much since they had seen Kurt with Nick in the common room. He hasn't said anything at all. Wes looked up and realised everyone was looking at him. He started to feel insecure.

"I'm more than fine. I have some other commitments I have to attend too. I'll see you all later." Wes smiled and nodded before walking out the kitchen. David went to follow him but Jeff put a hand on his shoulder.

"Leave him too it day."

David nodded and sat back down. He was really worried about his friend. He didn't know why he was acting this way. He thought his feelings towards Kurt had changed but there was something underlining with him. He needed to talk with him later. They all made small talk while they ate. They knew Kurt and Wes both needed time.

Wes didn't know why he ended up outside Kurt's room. He paced back and forth outside, debating if he should knock or not. He went to walk away when the door opened.

"Wesley?" Kurt was confused. "David isn't here. Did he not stay with the others?"

Wes tilted his head. Did he really think I wouldn't just knock just to see him?

"I'm not here to see David, I'm here to see you."

Kurt made a O with his mouth. He was here to see him? Oh did he feel it too? Kurt laughed a little before opening the door. "Come in."

Wes walked in standing with his hands clasped together. He looked around the room, he didn't even know why he was here. He heard the door shutting and Kurt appeared in front of him. They stood together in front of eachother, not saying a word. It was extremely awkward. Kurt matched Wes's hands and starting to rock back and forth. His eyes darting round the room.

"So." Kurt said finally.

"So." Wes said bluntly.

It became awkward again. Wes bowed his head and Kurt let out a nervous laugh and Wes's head stop it.

"Wesley, I don't mean to be rude. This is kinda awkward and erm." Kurt laughed again. "Why are you here? Not that I don't want you here I'm just saying you wanted to talk and you're not talking you're just standing there having a staring competition with the floor." He hoped he wasn't he only one.

Wes shook his head and chuckled. "I don't know why I'm here Kurt. I just felt like I needed to be."

"Do I need to burn the sage Wes?" Wes nodded and Kurt set everything up. Kurt knew what he meant. He looked so conflicted. He thought Wes hated him today. He hardly talked to him and it started to really upset him. Kurt had made sure the sage was burning before looking up and taking a step closer.

"Do you hate me still Wes?"

"What no Kurt I don't hate you. Why would you think that?"

"Maybe the sudden change in attitude towards me."

Wes looked at him. He was right. It did seem like he hated him. He was acting like a uptight asshole. Wes sighed and looked back up to Kurt.

"How do you feel about me Kurt."

"What? What do you mean Wes? Like my feelings towards you or my feelings for you?" He knew what he meant. He was waiting for this conversation for two days.

Wes let out a nervous laugh, rubbing a hand on the back of his neck. "I mean in general. Don't worry hummel I'm not hitting on you."

"Thank fuck for that. That would have been even more awkward turning your uptight ass down."

They both looked at eachother and laughed. Kurt sat down on his bed and tapped next to him. "C'mon Wes, I don't bite. Much." He winked at Wes.

"Don't flatter yourself Hummel." Wes rolled his eyes and sat down next to Kurt.

"Are you okay Wesley?" Kurt questioned. He was starting to get worries for him. He knew he wasn't down with the whole feelings thing.

" I don't know."

Kurt leaned up and lifted one of his legs over Wes so he was straddling him.

"Wow Hummel. I think you're getting the wrong idea." Wes felt himself blush. Fuck you Hummel.

"Shut your mouth and relax." Kurt said sternly before placing a palm on Wes's shoulder and gently pushed him so he was laying down. Kurt followed him and he was on top of him. "Red suits you by the way." Wes rolled his eyes before chucking.

"We haven't connected yet." Kurt whispered. Every vampire connected. It was a way to show eachother they care. Wesley was the only one he hasn't connected with yet not because he didn't want too but because he didn't think Wes wanted too yet.

"I can stop Wes. Just tell me to stop." Kurt looked at Wes for any indication to stop but there was none.

"I don't want you to stop." Wes was shocked it came out him mouth. Kurt smiled before nodding. He lowered his body down lower so his head was inches from Wes's.

"I love you Wes. I love you just as much as I love the others. I've never thought of you any differently, just because we clash and we argued all the time it didn't mean I didn't love you any less." Kurt said truthfully, he eyes never leaving his.

"I have feelings." Wes said dumbly with his eyes closed.

"Do you feel it too?" Kurt knew what he meant. He thought he was going insane. Wes nodded.

"What are they like for you?" Wes asked. He didn't want to look at Kurt just yet. Kurt placed a hand on his shoulder and he relaxed instantly at the touch.

"It's just… weird. It only started to developed yesterday after I transitioned." Kurt said quietly.

"Me too." Wes admitted. He finally opened his eyes to meet Kurt's.

"I feel the need to be around you. I want to be close to you. Not in a sexual way. I just want to be in proximity of you all the time." Kurt looked away. He thought it was strange. He knew turning into a vampire would stir feelings in him he didn't have but this was different. It felt right.

"I want to protect you, shield you from everything. Keep you safe. I want to be there for you. I want to hold you." Wes rushed out. Finally admitting it out loud. "I didn't know why I was feeling this way so I kept it to myself. I didn't want Blaine to think I was trying to steal you. It's not like that Kurt."

"I know it's not Wes. Trust me I know. I feel the same way." Kurt sat up pulling Wes up with him. He was still straddling him but now they was up right. He wrapped his arms round his neck. He pulled back and looked at Wes and smiled. Wes slowly wrapped his arms round Kurt's torso and let out air he had been holding in.

"Have you told anyone?"

"No Wes. I mean what do I say? How can I say it without it sounding like I'm leaving Blaine for you? Declaring my love for you?" Kurt laughed and Wes joined in. Yep. It sounded even worse when it was said out loud.

"What is it Wes? Why do I feel this this way about you since I turned?" Kurt said looking at his friend. The last thing he wanted was for them to think he was cheating again. I know how that one goes already.

"I think we are bonded Kurt."

"What the fuck is bonded? It sounds so kinky and Fetishy." Kurt wrinkled his nose and Wes rolled his eyes.

"When a vampire turns they can develop a bondship with another vampire. It doesn't always happen but it can. Its like we are connected Kurt. When you're sad, I feel it. When you're happy, I know. It's like we are supernatural twins."

"So if I punched myself in the face would you feel that too?" Kurt smirked.

"If you was to be hurt then yes. I would know and vice versa."

"so not only am i a natural, i'm bonded too? why can't i just be a normal fucking vampire?" Wes chuckled "i wish i knew kurt."

"Why do I have the urge to kiss you Wes?" Kurt said before giving a nervous laugh. He was trying not to overstep boundaries but he couldn't help it. Lying to Wes was becoming extremely different now that they was bonded.

"It's not even sexual Wes. I'm sitting on your lap and I feel nothing if you catch my drift." Wes smiled. "I know you don't either." He pointed down to both their crotches. Wes let out a laugh before nodding.

"I'm not even gay Kurt and all I've thought about all day is how much I want to kiss you. Terrible fucking friend." Wes throw himself back so he was laying down again but he kept a hand on Kurt's thigh. he knew the kiss thing was completely platonic. kurt did too.

"You're not terrible Wes. It's normal right?" Wes nodded. "So we should tell them. Right?" Wes shook his head to indicate no and he heard Kurt sigh in frustration.

"We have a stupid supernatural twinnie thing going on. So what? C'mon Wes it's fucking cool. I mean all day I've known when you've been in a shit mood. I was starting to think I was physic." Wes smirked before looking up at Kurt.

"Just because we have a stupid supernatural twinnie thing going on between us doesn't mean I have to like you all the time. Deal?"

Kurt grinned. "Deal."

"Oh and Kurt?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you too."

Kurt looked over to Wes as they was walking back to the kitchen. He could see how nervous he was. Kurt stopped him quickly before turning him around to face him. He stepped forward and brought him into a hug. It was so soothing to them both. Wes has wrapped his arms round his torso and he had to refrain from moaning into Kurt's ear. He could hear Kurt do the same and he felt kurt's body shaking, trying not to laugh. After they felt they was both relaxed enough they pulled back. Wes was hesitant at first, ghosting his fingers over kurt's before finally joining them together. Kurt grinned at their hands before looking back up to see Wes was doing the same.

Are you ready?

I'm ready

They got to the double doors. He could see Kurt inhaling his families scent. He squeezed his hand comforting him and Kurt looked at him and smiled and nodded. They dropped hands and Wes opened the door letting Kurt through first.

"Oh there you both are! We was ready to send out the search party!" Nick stood laughing picking up a napkin and waving it like flag.

"Where have you both been? It's been like." Jeff looked at his watch. "Over an hour! We missed you both!"

"You both good?" David said looking at the pair. They looked a lot more comfortable now. I think they've talked.

Wes looked at Kurt and nodded. "Yeah we're good."

"I'm sorry. It's just a lot and the smells and the blood. Blah blah blah was all too much." Kurt said dramatically throwing his hands up in the air.

"It's okay bundle, it's going to take time." Carol said sweetly.

"Yeah dude. It's cool."

Kurt could feel the urge again and he quickly walked over to Blaine and sat on his knee. He grabbed his arms and wrapped him round himself tightly. "I missed you."

Blaine grinned before kissing Kurt. "I missed you more."

Blaine could feel Kurt tense every time the smell hit his nose. He was really trying. He squeezed tightly on his arm nearly drawing blood. He leaned back to whisper in his ear while everyone was talking. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to grab you-

"Grab as much as you need too. You're doing so fucking well Kurt. I don't think I've ever been this proud of you. You're incredible." Blaine whispered back in his ear. Kurt moaned before kissing him on the lips.

The sage was burning on the table but Nick could sense something. Movement getting closer and closer. Sebastian. They all looked up in realisation. He was walking towards the kitchen. The only good thing about this was that they knew he couldn't hear them. Wes quickly explained to Finn and Carol and they nodded and Wes blew the sage out. They knew about the plan so it was going to be a lot easier for this to look less suspicious. They all looked over to Kurt. He wasn't going to be able to last so long with the smell of humans lingering in the air. Kurt jumped off Blaine and first instinct was to go to Wes. He sat himself next to him and reached over and grabbed his thigh. He was alot more closer to Finn and Carol now. He groaned, feeling the rush of adrenaline kick in and the change started to happen. David sat next to Blaine, fixing his tie for him that Kurt had undone playfully while they was kissing. Nick moved next to Finn on his left and then Carol was sitting next to Finn and Jeff had squeezed a chair in between Carol and Kurt so Kurt wouldn't be directing next to her.

"Thank you sweetheart." Kurt said before kissing him quickly on the cheek. Just as Kurt leaned back the doors opened.

"Oh sorry. Didn't know there was a family meeting. Must of lost my invite in the post." Sebastian smirked. Why was they all playing happy families?

Carol stood up and made her way over to Sebastian. "You must be Sebastian who my Kurt talks about all the time? My names Carol. I'm Kurts mom. It's really lovely to finally meet you sweetheart!" Carol took no time wasting. He pulled him into a quick hug and gestured him over to sit with them. No one was going to mess with her family.

Jesus she's good Nick thought. He picked up his drink and swallowed it down quickly, trying not to laugh at Sebastian's face.

"It's a pleasure to finally meet you too Mrs Hummel. He talks so highly of you."

Sebastian joined the table and looked to Wes. "Can I swap with you so I can sit with my boyfriend?"

Wes's grip tightened on Kurt's hand. If this bastard hurts you I'll kill him.

"Montgomery?" Sebastian said more sternly this time. Wes loosened on his grip and smiled up to Sebastian.

"Of course. My apologies I was in a world of my own." Wes nodded before standing up and swapping with Sebastian. This was the first time they had seen eachother since their argument. Step the fuck up Kurt. blaine didn't say anything. it was best not to with the plan.

"Hey you." Kurt said sweetly with his eyes closed. He leaned to the side and lifted a finger to his cheek. Sebastian smirked before kissing him there. Kurt wouldn't to fucking bury himself for moaning but he couldn't help it.

"How are you feeling?" Sebastian said concerned. Kurt was shaking. Most definitely with hunger. He knew he was keeping his eyes closed to block out the harsh light. Sweat was trailing down his forehead and his fangs was sitting on his bottom lip. Sebastian nearly came in his trousers just by looking at him. He looked fucking gorgeous.

"I'm doing okay. I'm trying Seb. You should of seen me yesterday and earlier today, I was a mess." Kurt said with a rasp in his voice. He was speaking quickly trying not to inhale the scent. One of his legs started to bounce up and down. Sebastian knew he was struggling. Sitting this close to humans was killing him. Sebastian lifted his hand and placed it on his leg and pushed down gently to stop the bouncing.

"You're doing perfectly fine gorgeous."

Kurt smiled and nodded. He started to feel angry rise up inside of him. Oh I would do anything to rip off your balls and hand feed them to you, you fucking nut job

He opened his eyes when he heard choking at the table. It was Wes. David and Blaine had jumped up to try and help his but Wes but quickly sat back down when he started to laugh hysterically throwing his head back. Wesley is fucking laughing? Nick thought turning to his boyfriend. Jeff mouthed 'what the fuck'. Wes calmed down laughing and lifted the drink back to his mouth realising everyone was staring at him.

"Sorry." Wes laughed out again before carrying on eating. Kurt was smirking through the urges. Did you fucking hear me?

Twinnie powers Kurt

Kurt laughed and placed a hand over his mouth in horror and then they all turned to him.

"I need a minute sorry." Kurt lifted himself off the table and made it out the kitchen. I fucking hate you

No you don't Hummel.

Kurt made his way into the communal bathroom. He ran the cold water and started to splash it on his face. It felt amazing. He placed his hands on the sink to support himself. He was an absolute wreck.

Heads up.

He turned to the side when the door opened and Sebastian walked through. He leaned on the side of the wall.

"You look absolutely delectable." Sebastian licked his lips and moved closer. "Vampire looks good on you."

Kurt laughed before shaking his head. "Will it get easier? I feel like I'm just going backwards."

"It's only been two days Kurt." Sebastian could see the frustration in his eyes.

"Fuck I know. It's just the blood lust. I can deal with everything else but that is killing me." Kurt wasn't lying but he was making Sebastian know he was comfortable to talk around it with him. Sebastian got closer and wrapped on arm around his waist quickly, a small gasp leaving Kurt's lips. He had him right where he wanted him.

"Kiss me Seb." Kurt said with his mouth open slightly and he gripped onto Sebastian's shirt for good measure. He waited for the crashing of the lips, getting pinned to the side of a stall, the ripping off his clothes but it never came but he got something else instead. Sebastian had leaned in and lightly brushed his lips against kurt's and pressed down gently. It was intimate and everything Sebastian wasn't. His hand came up and cupped Kurt's face, caressing it with his thumb. Kurt inhaled deeply and wrapped one of his arms round his neck. He didn't want to admit it but it took his breath away. Sebastian slowly pulled back and looked at Kurt in his eyes.

"I love you."