A/N: Hey guys! Sorry it took so long to update. I know it's been almost a week. Sorry! I have such a busy life right now. School and 2 babysitting jobs, plus I'm trying to clean my room and my closet out of stuff I don't need anymore. im a packrat so i have soo much stuff lol! And homework is quite time consuming. I would much rather be reading or writing, but school is importatin too. I also have a real job and I close 3 nights a week. Plus, I started to help lead a drama team at my church now, and I might be singing in a worship band on Sunday nights. hehe ;) It's all good I love being busy, although I will try to update sooner than a week for the next chapter. Well enjoy reading Chapter 4!
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His car smelled amazing. It was the greatest smell I had ever known in my entire life. I cannot even explain how wonderful it was. I inhaled as much as I could, breathing deeply, not wanting to ever forget this sweet smell of his scent. He interrupted me when he asked, "Bella? Are you alright? You seem distressed. Look, I know Rose can be possessive at times, but they will learn to balance it. I promise it will be okay." Tears formed in my eyes, and he stared back at me in horror. He just started leaving the school. He opened his mouth to speak, but I cut him off.
"It's okay. I'm okay. You are just being really nice to me, and I don't deserve it. I should have been happy for him. Instead, criticized him for finding someone he could be truly happy with. I feel awful about it. That's why I'm upset. It wasn't you. You could never upset me that way." I wondered if he heard what I meant in those last words. There was only one way in which he could upset me now. I couldn't bear it if he ever left me or didn't want me at all. I didn't care if he just wanted to be friends. As long as I was around him, I would be perfectly fine.
"Bella, it's alright. You're not horrible for that. It caught you off guard. You shouldn't have found out like that, but I am not going to get into how I think it should have been done." His smooth, velvet-like voice was so soft it was almost a whisper. I was barely paying attention to what he was saying. His voice was so lovely, I just loved hearing it, so I was a little sidetracked. It took me a while to speak.
"Well, I guess in a way, I was…jealous." I sighed, not wanting to admit this but felt that I had to in order to right myself.
"Jealous? Why?" He looked skeptical.
"Well…Emmett has finally found someone that he likes, and she likes him back. I've never found anyone. I guess it made me sad that I might not ever find someone. Sure, he's had other girlfriends, but the way he looked at Rosalie…it's like they were meant for each other. What if there's no one out there like that for me? Sometimes I'm worried that I'll end up all alone, and Jasper and Emmett will be too busy with their lives to notice me anymore. Sorry." I didn't mean to say all of that, but it's been itching to get out of my system for so long now. Until Edward, there was never anyone that I even wanted to be with. He stared at me incredulously. We had reached my house by this time, but I didn't want to leave the car. Well… I didn't want to go away from him. Isn't it crazy that I have only known him for one day? Gosh, it seemed like a lifetime ago that we met. My face was pink from his stare, and the fact that I was wishing Edward could be the one I ended up with.
"I'm sure there is someone out there for you, Bella. Some really lucky guy is going to meet you and sweep you into his arms because he won't ever want to let you go. I promise you that. Well..I really have to get going. Bye, Bella. See you tonight."
"Thanks, Edward, for everything."
"Anytime." He winked at me and waited until I got inside before he drove away. That was the longest first day of school I had ever had, but it was also the best first day I had ever been through. One person could make all the difference.
"Hey Bella, sweetie! How was school today?"
"Long, but pleasant in a way. Where's Emmett? I really need to talk to him, mom." I suddenly felt remorseful for my behavior towards him earlier. Charlie stood up from the couch and sauntered over to me.
"You weren't with him? He dropped off Jazz and he thought Emmett was going back to get you." Charlie looked alarmed, but I had a pretty good guess where Em was, although I was really surprised he wouldn't at least call Charlie and Renee.
"He didn't call? Must have slipped his mind. Well, he met some new friends today, and I'm sure he's just hanging out with them this afternoon." My parents relaxed almost immediately. I wondered if they would be so calm if they knew that Em's "friends" were really just one girl. The prettiest girl I had ever seen. I shuddered and thought it best not to tell them. Emmett would tell them when he was ready. Besides, I had caused enough damage between us for one day.
"How did you get home Bella?" My father looked at me accusingly. I blushed and looked down, hoping he didn't notice. The door creaked open, causing all three of us to jump. Big Emmett walked into the kitchen with us, grinning ear to ear.
"My friend Edward brought me home." I felt tears well up in my eyes at the sight of Emmett, but Renee spoke before I could say anything.
"Did you have fun with your friends? Next time, you ought to tell us where you're going. We were worried sick until Bella told us about the friends you made today. Jasper is in his room. At least you remembered to bring him home." It wasn't Emmett's fault that I was such a jerk today. Jasper was in his room playing video games, as usual. My head was still swirling from Edward, and I couldn't think straight at the moment.
"Yeah! I had a great time with my friends. And I'm sorry I was so irresponsible. I should have called you. I just got sidetracked. My friends and I had a great time. Thanks mom, dad." He stressed the word 'friends' as he was only referring to one friend, but only so that I would catch it. I guess he was testing me or something to make sure I wouldn't slip. I deserved it for how I treated him.
"Alright! Enough talk about school! Em, can I talk to you in my room, please?" This conversation could get ugly if I didn't intervene soon.
"Yeah, sure." He seemed reserved, but sincere. When we got to my room we both sat on my bed and he put his arms around my shoulders, and for a second I wished for a different set of arms around me. I shook of the thought, and said "I'm Sorry," at the exact same time as him. We both laughed until I looked at him and said, "What are you sorry for, Em? You didn't do anything, I-"
"No, Bella. I shouldn't have let Rose talk to you like that. You were right. But I'm going to do my best to make sure I don't put her before everything I already have. I love you, little sis. And thanks for not ratting me out to mom and dad." He squeezed my shoulders and I was extremely glad that we were okay again.
"I love you too, Emmett. I am sorry for how I acted, though." He waved it off like it was no big deal. To him, it probably wasn't.
"Yeah, well, you don't have a boyfriend to take it out on." He smirked and I blushed.
"Very funny, Emmett." I was bitingly sarcastic.
"You know, I heard Edward's single…"
"EMMETT!" I felt the heat rush to my face as I realized he knew my secret. Was it that obvious? Gosh, I hoped not. He was rolling on the floor laughing. I wanted to bite his head off.
"I knew it! You like him!" He couldn't stop laughing…until he saw my face. He stopped and looked at me with concern.
"Why so sad Bella? Your first crush shouldn't be so depressing."
"I think it's more than a crush, but I don't think he likes me that way." He looked at me knowingly.
"I know it seems like he doesn't, but he most likely does. You were the only girl he willingly talked to today. He looked like he wanted to puke when anyone else talked to him." Emmett smiled at me, and I felt better.
"So? When are we leaving to meet Alice and them for the movie?" I desperately change the subject.
"Well…they are bringing everyone here later. But I'm not going with you, remember? Jasper!" He turned off his games and came into my room.
"What? When is Alice getting here? "Emmett looked pleased.
"So, you're going. Good. You are two are coming a long way this year. Especially Bella." He winked at me, and I flushed again. Jasper looked confused.
"Bella's got a crush, Jasper," Emmett explained.
"Bella has never liked anyone before, though. Hmm… Strange. It's obviously someone you met today. Could you please tell me Bella?" I was succumbed by his ability to influence my mind to give him what he wanted.
"Edward Cullen." I put my hand over my mouth as the the front door closed, and someone walked up the stairs. Mom was probably home and wanted to check up on us.
"Wow, Bells. Good luck. I heard almost every single girl talking about him today."
"Great. Well, I'm trying to convince myself that nothing will happen anyways, so don't worry about me." Emmett shook his head at me.
"Hey kids. Charlie just left, but we are going out for the night. We should be back around eleven or so." Renee looked rushed.
"Cool! Bella and Jazz here are seeing a movie with friends from school, mom. And I am hanging out with my friend Rosalie. They are all part of the same family, and they just moved here." Emmett was almost bouncing with anticipation.
"That's nice. I'm glad you're finding friends. And Bella, I'm so proud of you. Well, have fun making the newcomers feel welcome. I'm proud of all of you! I've got to go. Call me if you need anything!"
"Kay! Thanks, mom!" My voice was thick with relief that they hadn't let Edward in the door. We heard the door close and I sighed. We didn't get much homework and mine was done, so there really wasn't much to do while we waited.
"Oh-Bella?" Jasper sounded apprehensive.
"Yes, Jazz?"
"Uhhmm…what's it like…you know…hanging out with friends?" I laughed.
"Jasper, I have as much experience as you do." It wasn't entirely true, but I didn't bring up my old 'friends'. They really weren't friends, if you know what I mean.
"No- you used to hang out with Lauren and Jessica in elementary and middle school." I tensed, and I saw Emmett had a disgusted look on his face.
"That was different. They were never really my friends."
"You though they were. What happened with you guys anyways? I heard about the fight they had after school today. But why did you guys stop being friends in the first place? Ever since three years ago, you never hung out with anyone." My heart was stuttering in fear. How did he notice so much? He knew it had been three years. I was not going to relive that moment just yet.
"I don't want to talk about it." I didn't ever bring it up. Only Emmett knew the real reason why I stopped hanging out with people. Lauren and Jessica purposefully betrayed me. I didn't want to think about it, so I pushed it from my mind.
"Sometimes it helps to talk about things." I knew he was trying to help. His voice was so soothing, I almost gave in completely, but I only told him a little bit.
"In middle school-we were friends-or so I thought. They had been pretending the whole time, Jasper. They weren't very nice to me, and when we got into high school, we split off." I was careful not to mention why. It was an awful experience, and I tried not to think about it.
"Bells, can I talk to you for a second?" Emmett took me out of the room and said, "I really think you should talk about it to someone. You haven't told anyone the truth about how much it truly hurt you, and you need to tell someone."
"I don't want to put that burden on Jazz. It would worry him-that it could happen to him, too."
"You're lucky nothing happened besides what did that night, but you need to get it out of your system. They set you up."
"I know, Em. I'm just not ready to relive it yet." I sighed, and went back to my room with Jasper.
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