(A/N): Hey everyone! I know I kinda left you hanging for a while and I am really sorry!! :( I meant to get this up a long while ago, but it didn't happen. First of all, I was in a car accident the weekend before Thanksgiving, and I still haven't gotten all of that mess taken care of. Don't worry no one got hurt :) And then I thought I would have time over Thanksgiving wkend, but wouldn't you know it, I had no free time, not even to see my friends. I had 3 different Thanksgivings not including my immediate family. Plus I worked a lil bit ( we were off on Thanksgiving) and I had homework due. And then after that, I got a lil sick again and tried to get caught up on everything i missed there. Then I started getting loaded down with homework at school (not to mention I have church and babysitting lol) and things haven't really calmed down until today... I'm almost done with finals ; I'll be finished on Friday :) yay! But anyways, that is the reason I have not been able to update.
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Thanks for reading my story! Without further ado, chapter TEN!
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The next few weeks went by in a blur. Edward and I grew closer each day we were together, and our love was stronger than I could have ever imagined. Jessica and Lauren still hadn't made up, and Lauren and I were actually becoming better acquaintances. We talked every once in a while, but not often enough to consider each other friends. We just weren't enemies anymore. Around Halloween, a new student named Angela Weber joined my group of friends. She was very sweet and kind. Her, Alice, and I were inseparable (away from our boyfriends, of course). Angela started going out with little Ben Cheney about a month after school started. Life was perfect. Right now, anyway. Around the beginning of November before lunch, Jasper found me in the school hallway.
"Hey Bells! Can you help me with something?"
"Sure, Jazz! What's up?" He seemed nervous.
"Well, Alice means a lot to me, and I wanted to get her something nice, but I have no idea what to get her."
"Aw Jazz, you're so sweet! I'm proud of you, and of course I'll help you!" I couldn't help but hug him tightly.
"After school, you, Emmett, and I can all go shopping, okay?"
"Sure. Sounds good to me. Thanks, Bella."
"No problem, anytime little bro." I ruffled my hand in his hair and skipped off to lunch. Jasper didn't follow me. He must have been trying to keep this gift thing from Alice. I smiled to myself. Maybe I should get Edward something, too. I found him waiting for me at the door as usual, and we got our lunches as we sat down. He had an odd, distant look on his face, and Alice looked troubled.
"What's wrong, Edward? Is there something you need to tell me?"
"Everything's fine, my love." He didn't look fine. Oh well. If it was really important he would tell me…right? He barely spoke in biology, and Jasper and I left to go shopping with Emmett as I was contemplating what was bothering Edward. I knew that it had been going on for a while, and I was worried about him. When we pulled up to the small store, Jasper and I excitedly went inside, while Emmett slowly stepped in. I pointed out little trinkets and things that Alice would enjoy receiving from Jazz, and he decided to get her a shiny, gold bracelet (not real gold, of course).
"Oh! She'll love that, Jazz! I hope Edward likes his new digital watch." I was going to give him a watch that had the words "Time Will Never Distance Us" on the back of it. Emmett got Rose a new change purse for her bag. Her purse was huge.
"Let's go back to the Cullens' tonight to give them their gifts," I said anxiously. I hope Edward would tell me what was going on with him.
"Good idea, sis," Em said as he drove in the direction of the Cullens' place. We rang the doorbell, and Carlisle answered. He looked really happy.
"Oh, hey! What a nice surprise! Come on in." We walked into the living room to see Alice dancing to some music on her iPod, and Edward was staring out into space. Rosalie came over and hugged Emmett, looking pleadingly at me.
"Bella, can I talk to you outside?" I noticed Edward's gaze moved toward us as she spoke to me.
"Sure." I was glad that she wanted to talk. All this time I was worried we would never be friends. Once were back out front, she looked at the ground.
"First of all, I feel the need to apologize for how I treated you before. I'm very sorry, Bella. You are the best thing that has ever happened to Edward, and he knows that too, no matter what he might tell you tonight. But with that aside, you must be strong when Edward talks to you tonight. And remember- Alice and I are always going to be here for you. Promise."
"Okay, thanks, Rose." We went back inside, and we gave our significant others their gifts. Edward thanked me and looked as though he were about to cry as he examined the watch. Alice squealed with pleasure as I predicted, and Rosalie embraced Emmett. Alice put a Jonas Brothers CD into the stereo, and we were singing along to "When You Look Me in the Eyes." We were jamming out when Edward caught my eye. He had an odd, detached look on his face that I couldn't comprehend. I walked over to him and put my hand in his. This time, he was going to talk to me.
"What's wrong, Edward?"
"Nothing, love. There's nothing for you to worry about." He smiled and softly kissed me. Did he really think I'd let him off the hook that easily?
"No, something is up. You have been keeping something from me for a while now, and I think that makes it important enough to tell me. I want to help you, Edward."
"You can't help me, Bella. You've done so much for me already…" He looked away and I knew that the conversation was over. I sat on the couch in silence for a few moments, and I was still wondering what could be bothering Edward when Carlisle came up to me. He caught me studying him.
"Stop worrying, Bella. He's fine. Say, our family is going down to La Push tomorrow morning and we wondered if you would like to join us? We are only allowed one guest to the shindig, and I know Edward would like it very much if you came. Emmett and Jasper already agreed to let you come instead of them. He smiled and I waved at Emmett as I said, "Sure! Sounds like fun." I had been to La Push a few times with Charlie, but not many. Renee didn't like the beach very much.
"Great! Edward will be ecstatic!" Did he honestly think I'd say no? Edward came over to me looking furious. I was seriously frightened. He pointed out the back door and I sat on the bench where we first kissed. I smiled at the memory of so long ago, and he sat down next to me. He didn't look ecstatic that I was going with his family tomorrow.
"What are you thinking, Bella?"
"Why are you angry with me?" I was utterly confused, and hurt. His tone was menacing. What could I have done to make him so upset? I kept replaying everything I did and said over in my head, but didn't think I did anything to make him mad. He just kept staring at me.
"Carlisle said that you wanted me to come tomorrow, so I said I would…"
"But Bella! There will be alcohol and other younger boys, and it really won't be much fun at all. Besides, you don't like the beach."
"Well-maybe not- but I'd go to spend more time with you." He looked shaken; debateful. He was pondering something and he finally asked me, "What would make you happy, Bella? You keep doing things for others, and I am completely amazed by it. I just wish I could do something you really wanted." He was such a perfect guy. I didn't deserve him.
"You've already given me you. I don't need anything else to be happy. I've already gotten what I wanted- you." I blushed and looked at him with a large smile on my face. He looked chagrinned. At that moment, Alice came barging through the screen door that led outside.
"Edward, can I talk to you for a second?" She had a very stern look on her face.
"Why? I'm talking to Bella, if you can't see that." He sounded like he was in pain.
"Edward, NOW!" Alice grabbed Edward's hand and pulled him away so that they could talk in private. I started really thinking about everything that Edward just said, and his reactions. He looked detached and pained. I hoped that he wasn't thinking about ending it. All of the signs were there, but we were different than the other high school couples. We had true, genuine, and real love that most people only find once in a lifetime, if they find it at all. Edward came back over and Alice looked horrified but went back inside to Jasper.
"I'm sorry, Bella." What did he ever do that would cause him to apologize?
"For what?"
"For leaving. I'm leaving Forks." My heart sank. NO! I didn't just hear that. This was all a terrible nightmare, and I would wake up any minute now.
"You're…breaking up with me? And leaving?"
NO! NO! NO! I'm having a nightmare, right? This can't be happening for real. It just can't. I knew he could never love me. He's just been leading me on and playing me this entire time. It has to be nightmare…I don't know how I'll go on if this is for real…
"Tomorrow is my farewell party at La Push. I'm sorry, Bella. My father really wanted this for me, and I didn't want to let him down. I'm leaving, and I'm not coming back." It took a moment for all of this to sink in. All I could do was stare blankly into his eyes.
"Never?" I couldn't find words or my voice at this point.
"I've got an internship in Phoenix, and they can keep me there for life. I'll be studying Aerospace Programming. I will also be staying with my Aunt Victoria, whom I haven't seen in years. It's all been arranged already." He looked very sad.
"Congratulations. That's great." I tried to be happy for him, but how could I go on without him? I thought about everything I had shared with him, and everything that I could never get back. I would never love or trust anyone ever again. I suddenly found my voice.
"You are putting some career before us? After everything we've been through? You're just going to throw it all away for a job? I can't believe this! I wish I never would have met you. I wish I didn't love you right now." I stared deep into his eyes and all I saw was that distanced, detached look again. He looked as though he were in great pain. He was so distant already. This wasn't going to end well. I instantly regretted telling Carlisle that I would come tomorrow now. I regretted trusting Edward with everything I was. I wanted to roll over and die at this realization.
"Bella…I'm so sorry. I cannot put into words how incredibly painful this is. I love you, and I always will. My heart will always belong to you." Tears ran down his face as he dropped his head into his hands. I walked back into the house, feeling totally empty. Emmett took one look at me to glance at my face. He looked scared when he turned away, but didn't say anything.
"Em, I'm walking home." He nodded and pointed to the front door. We didn't live very far away from each other, and I needed to think alone without Jazz and Emmett hovering over me. Not to mention Alice. Renee and Charlie had already gone home. I waved as I walked towards my house. There were a few cars that went by, and I thought about letting one of them hit me, just to numb the pain. Then I thought about Charlie, Renee, Em, Jasper, and Alice. No, they couldn't go through that kind of pain just because of my selfishness. I sighed, torn. My heart was tearing into pieces. I didn't know what to do. My heart couldn't shatter like glass, could it? I was in so much pain already, just thinking about never seeing him again. Why did he have to do this? Ugh. I could never trust anyone ever again. I placed my hand on my heart-shaped charm on the bracelet Edward had given me for my birthday and decided that I would never take it off, for my heart would always belong to him. When I finally reached the house, I felt numb and totally unfeeling. I burst into the house, running to my room, hoping just to lie in my bed and suffer through the night. When I walked into my bedroom, however, Renee and Charlie were sitting on my bed, looking worried. I saw that Emmett and Jasper's doors were closed, and guessed that they were sleeping. Em must have told them about how I looked back at Edward's house.
"Bella, honey, what's wrong?" Renee looked straight into my eyes and a look of comprehension crossed her face.
"Everything, mom. Everything." I sounded like a living dead person.
"What happened, Bella?" Charlie was angry.
"He's…he's leaving…never coming back," was all I could manage to choke out before I fell face down on the floor.
(A/N): So did you like it? I know it's kinda sad right now, but keep reading! I promise you won't be dissapointed ;)
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