(A/N): Hey guys! Yeah I got another chapter up already! :)

Thanks to those who reviewed on Chapter 10!

Oh, and I forgot on the last chapter, thank you to all of the reviewers who told me that AU stands for Alternate Universe ;)

Here's chapter 11!

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Renee and Charlie looked horrorstruck. Renee tried to be very soothing, but it didn't help. I didn't deserve a mother like her.

"But he loves you so much dear. Why would he leave?" That made it so much worse, but I knew that my mom meant well.

"No," I whispered, "He doesn't love me." They both left the room as the realization of that statement hit me hard. Tomorrow would be the last time I would see Edward. Ever again. I couldn't do this. I wanted to be happy for him, but something felt very wrong. Like there's more to all of this than what Edward was telling me, but I couldn't figure it out. I cried myself to sleep, having nightmares all the while.

EPOV

How was I supposed to face Bella tomorrow? The look on her face when I told her I was leaving… it was betrayal. She looked heartbroken and so betrayed. My Bella. What have I done? Carlisle made me so frustrated a couple nights ago, and now I was paying for it. I can still remember the conversation as if it just happened five minutes ago.

"Son, did you ever make a decision about that internship?"

"Yeah, dad, I'm not going."

"WHY? All because of some girl? Why would you risk your future for that?"

"Because, dad, I am in love with her. She means more to me than anything else in the world, and I don't want a future without her!"

"Well, Edward, that is the wrong choice. You are going to Phoenix. I know you'll make the right decision here."

"You know, dad, just because you didn't have this opportunity doesn't mean that I should take it. I never wanted this. You put this idea in my head that your dreams could matter so much that I should live them. You are happy as a doctor, dad, with Esme. I won't ever be happy unless Isabella Marie Swan from Forks, Washington is by my side."

"Edward! That is insanely ridiculous. You can be happy without a girl. It's just high school dating anyway, right? How serious could it be?"
"Dad, I LOVE her with everything that I am. I care for her with every core of my being. This is more than a petty high school relationship, dad. I am planning on marrying her! My future isn't worth it without her."

"Stop saying that, Edward. It's nonsense. You don't know what you're saying. This internship is a once in a lifetime thing! Be a man! Men put their careers before anything, and it's not healthy for you to put Bella above everything else. You need to man up, Edward."

"Whatever dad. I'm still not going."

"Edward, I really would hate to see you drain your life away. You are way too young to be thinking about marriage. Go to phoenix, and I will support you. I will be very disappointed in you if you don't take this internship. I guarantee that you will wonder what would have happened every day you don't go down there. You need to go there and spend time with your aunt as well."

It was so unfair. I didn't want to let him down, and I couldn't take him telling me this every day I didn't go. I was getting very angry with him at the moment.

"Dad, stop. I'm not-"

"Oh, yes you are, son. This only happens once. You can start packing now. You won't win this battle, Edward."

"Then why did you even give me a choice to begin with? You just chose for me, and it's not right or fair."

"I thought you would be sensible and choose the right path, Edward."

"FINE! I'LL GO! HAPPY?"

"Yes! You are going. Good job son, I'm proud of you for making the right decision."

After that I packed roughly and angrily until I couldn't handle it any longer. Then I realized what I had said and done. I had agreed to go to Phoenix, Arizona possibly forever. Away from Forks, away from my family. Away from Bella. I would never see Bella ever again, and that pierced my heart as I tried to sleep, which didn't happen. All I could think about was Bella, and how I couldn't see me living life without her. I would live, but it wouldn't be a life. No, I couldn't do this again. When I said goodbye to her, it really hurt me, and I don't think I'll ever be the same. I was such a jerk. I wouldn't be surprised if she hated me for all eternity. I was so stupid. How could I let a few words from my father keep my from my beloved Bella Swan? I lost control of myself and I felt horrible. I didn't know what to do, so I went to talk to Carlisle. I knew he just wanted what was best for me. He probably did think that Bella and I were just some petty puppy love fling. I knew better. I found him studying at the computer about some rare diseases.

"Hey dad. Can I talk to you?"

"Sure son. What is it?"

I was so nervous as I approached him. I didn't want another fight.

"Do I really have to go to Phoenix? I mean, I don't think I can handle saying goodbye to Bella again. I don't want to go to La Push tomorrow. I can't look at her face when I say goodbye again." I felt like I was going to cry, or puke.

"Well, if you want, I can get you on an earlier flight. You'll just miss you're farewell party, but if that's what you want, I'll do it for you." I guess he wasn't going to let me off the hook that easy.

"Yes. Thank you, dad."

"No problem, son."

I would leave first thing at 5:00 so I could catch my 7:00 plane. Bella would probably still be sleeping, then. I knew Alice was going to kill me for this. I had to get some sleep, if it were possible, so I could get up in the morning. I figured I could just sleep during the dumb airplane movie on the way to Phoenix, anyways. I lie down in my bed, thinking of nothing other than my one and only love, Bella.

BPOV

I was relieved when the sun rose, and I could stop pretending to sleep. I didn't really rest all night, and I was exhausted. I waited in the driveway for Edward's family to arrive, and slowly I drifted off to sleep on the cold concrete. I had yet another nightmare, and someone was shouting my name.

"Bella! What happened? Bella!" My eyes shot open, realizing where I was.

"Emmett?" My voice sounded dead, detached.

"Wow, Bells, you are really tired. Your voice gives it all away." Oh great. I put my hand on my cheeks, and realized I was bleeding from sleeping on the concrete. I started to faint at the blood, but thought it was weird how I wasn't in any pain. I stood up afraid that I would fall, but Emmett was there to catch me. I quickly removed myself from his grasp before it reminded me of someone else. I had already showered and everything before laying on the driveway, so I got a small cloth to go over my cheek until it stopped bleeding. When the Cullens' pulled up I realized that Edward wasn't with them. Wasn't this his going away party? Alice came out and looked worried when she saw my face.

"Don't worry, it's just a little blood." I sounded like an undead person, and Alice looked alarmed. She led me into the vehicle, and Jasper came outside because he was coming with us now that Edward wasn't. I didn't ask where he was, and I didn't care to know. I couldn't even look at anyone. Jasper put his hand on my shoulder in comfort, and told me it would be alright.

No! No it won't ever be alright. Without Edward, everything seems completely and utterly pointless.

I didn't know how to feel anything anymore. An overnight transformation had occurred, making me completely numb to feelings. I didn't know if I was sad, angry, happy, or even depressed. I had no idea what was going to happen at this party, and I couldn't look at anyone. I couldn't stand to meet anyone's gaze. They all looked so sad when they looked at me. My eyes were puffy, I guessed, from my recent nightmare. I must've cried myself to sleep, my subconscious feeling more than my conscious self. We've only had a few months together, not even a whole year. I didn't know what I was doing with the Cullens' today. I shouldn't have come.

"Couldn't I have gone with him?" I was desperate to find a way out of my despair.

"Oh, Bella. You have responsibilities here. Think of Charlie, Esme, Jasper, and Emmett. They all need and want you here with them." Alice sounded very uplifting, but it didn't help me at all. I just nodded my head, looking down. I didn't want responsibilities to keep me away from Edward. I felt a sharp pain in my side as I thought his name, and remembered this twinge when Edward and I separated, even just for a few moments. Like it was telling us that we were meant to be. Guess I was wrong. Alice seemed to understand part of the pain I was going through. I mean, she had to live without her only brother. The one person she was closest to in the whole world. And now that Rosalie spent all of her time with Emmett, Alice must have felt almost as alone as I did. We finally reached our destination in silence, until Carlisle parked and opened the door.

"Hey Billy!" Carlisle climbed out of the car, and we followed. Esme darted to my side.

"Dear, I am so sorry he chose to do this. Well, he was more talked into it until he would go, but I am so sorry." Esme was a very sweet woman.

"Yeah, me too. I wish I'd never-"

"Shh. Don't. This isn't your fault. He loves you with all of his heart, and this is just as hard for him as it is for you." I couldn't believe that.

"How? I trusted him and love him with everything that I am, and he had to yank it all out from under me. I'm never doing this again. He will always have my heart. Wait…did you say he was talked into going?" Esme looked like she was debating whether or not to tell me something, but I didn't press it. I couldn't even cry, even though I wanted to so badly. I was beyond tears, and the whole time I was talking, I sounded like an undead zombie. Alice walked over to me and put her arm around my shoulders.

"Bella? Can I speak to you for a second?" I nodded and she led me away from everyone.

"Bella, you have to do something. You have to call Edward to come back! I know it's going to be difficult for you, but you must. No, don't use your phone, I guarantee you he won't answer it."

"Why can't you do it?" The thought of having to say goodbye to him again made the pain even worse. Alice shook her head and dialed Edward's number.

"You aren't the only one who will suffer from him leaving, Bella." I saw the pain deep in her eyes. I didn't say anything to her, but gathered up my courage as I got ready to talk to Edward. I had to do something to help Alice out.

"Hey Edward, this is Alice. No! Don't you dare hang up." She put the phone back into her pocket.

"Edward hung up on me. I don't know why."

"PLEASE DON'T GO AWAY! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE! MY HEART HAD BEEN SHATTERING INTO SMALLER AND SMALLER PIECES EVER SINCE YOU LEFT! AND ALICE. THINK OF YOUR SISTER, EDWARD!" I was shocked at myself. I still sounded like zombified robot, but everyone in the vicinity could hear me. They were all staring at me, and I fell to the ground, still unable to cry.

"Hey pretty lady! Is this Edward guy bothering you?" A handsome Quilete boy, obviously drunk, pointed to me. He disgusted me already.

"No, please go away." I hoped heard the pleading in my tone. I had nothing to do with drunks.

"I'm Jacob. Jacob Black."

"I really don't care." I was careful not to use my name.

"Who is this?" He pointed behind me and I thought I had died.

"E-Edward??"

"Oh, so this is the boy you went hysterical about! Hi, I'm Jacob." Did Jacob see him too? I thought I was hallucinating.

"Get outta here, Jacob." I didn't want to deal with this anymore.

"Bella Swan?" I would know that menacing voice anywhere.

"James," I responded curtly, although I still sounded completely detached from my body.

"What's wrong? Did your so called boyfriend make you sad? Like anyone would want to stay with you. HA!"

"Shut up, James." I was not going to discuss this to him or my hallucination standing directly behind me.

"Did you see who's standing behind you?" HE could see it too?
"Are you hallucinating too?" I was so confused. Edward was halfway across the country by now. He couldn't really be there.

"Oh, nice James. It's another trick, isn't it? He's not really there. He's gone…forever. I don't believe that you and Jacob could see my hallucination…"

"You idiot. You aren't hallucinating!" Jacob came back and put his arm around James' shoulders.

"Hey James, look, isn't she pretty?" Jacob, it seemed, had even more to drink in the past five minutes.

"Ugh, get off me you idiot. She doesn't deserve petty compliments. She's stupid. As if I could ever like her.

"That was like, three years ago, James. Lauren and Jessica set me up. Speaking of which, I'm sure Lauren is getting pretty lonely over there, Jacob." Jacob came to his senses and ran over to his girlfriend.

"Well, you fell for it. That makes you even dumber than I thought!" He laughed in my face, then looked at something behind me.

"You're the one who treated Bella so vile? And here you are treating her worse than anyone ever has. I can't take it anymore." That familiar voice...it could only be…but he's gone, and my hallucination…

"Oh? Is this your "lover" everyone's been talking about ever since you made that outburst? Are you Edward? Good job pretending. No one could ever really love you, Bella." I felt the tears coming, and I tried to blink them back. They slid silently down my cheeks anyways. I stood up with all the strength that I had to go back to Alice.

"I know that," I whispered, and walked away slowly, but I bumped into something. I looked up, and saw Edward Cullen. He seemed pained somehow.

"How did I bump into a hallucination?" He started chuckling.

"I'm no hallucination, Bella. It's me. Edward." I didn't know what to do.

"Whatever. I'm going to comfort Alice." My voice sounded worse than before. Edward sighed loudly.

"You son of a gun! How dare you say those things to My Bella!" I turned around and saw James against the side of the Snack Shack.

"You honestly think you can beat me in a fight? Besides, why would you fight for her anyways?"

"Because I love her with every part of my being and you have the nerve to try to make her believe otherwise!" Edward looked furious.

"Oh, see, I didn't make her believe anything. I'm pretty sure she thought you didn't love her before I found her lying on the ground."

"Well I do love her, and that could never change!" He still loves me? I thought he didn't love me anymore. He loves me. I felt the realization hit me, and everything came back in a rush. I had feeling again, warmth in my face. I felt the pain on my cheek from when I scratched it on the concrete this morning. I felt my heart beat again with record speed. I felt worried. Oh! Edward was fighting James! He couldn't get hurt because of me. No way was I going to let that happen.

"Edward! Stop! Don't do this! He'll hurt you." Edward looked at me, shocked. His face lit up when he realized that I was back from my numb stupor.

"Haha! Too bad for you!" James' tone was menacing. Edward bared his teeth and growled.

"Actually, I am the luckiest guy alive, because she loves me, too. And you are pathetic because you can never have a girl like Bella, and you know it. Wasting your time picking on the girl you would rather have over anyone else is stupid. Especially because she is mine and I am hers, forever."

I stood there in awe and wonder. I smiled, and the whole Cullen family looked at me in shock.

"Bella's back!" Alice was bobbing up and down with excitement.

"He still loves me…" Alice slapped my back and replied, "Of course he does! Bella, did you think that he left because he didn't love you?" I shrugged and looked down.

I felt two strong arms wrap around my waist, but noticed that they weren't Edward's. I turned and saw it was that idiot, Jacob.

"Get off me! I don't like you. Go AWAY!"

"But you're so pretty lady! What's your name?" His words were slurred and he was extremely tipsy.

"I'm not interested, so leave me alone. Besides, you have a girlfriend named Lauren right over there." I pointed in the direction of Lauren, who seemed completely oblivious to what was going on. I struggled to break free of his grasp, but I couldn't. Alice came over with Rosalie and pulled me away from Jacob.

"Thanks guys." We all hugged until I heard one voice that I would never forget.

"Bella? Are you okay?" Edward was concerned.

"I think I am now, but it sort of depends."
"On what?"

"If you leave again, or stay."

"I'm not leaving Bella. The whole way to the airport I tried to picture my life without you, and I couldn't do it. I don't want a future without you in it. I called and told them that I changed my mind when I got to the airport."

"You're staying? But-"

"Sh, love. I cannot live without you. Being that far away from you would be much too painful for the both of us. The whole time I was away from you, I felt this rare pain that only broken hearts can bring. I never want to feel that again, or make you feel that pain." He was very apologetic.

"Oh." I didn't know what to say. I felt so euphoric, I smiled my biggest smile, and he returned it.

"Let's go back, before James and that stupid Jacob kid assault you again." He intertwined our hands, and I knew that we would always be together. When we got back to my house, Emmett ran to me and said, "Sorry Bells. I shouldn't have let you sleep on the driveway." He was looking at the scrape on my cheek, which he quickly bandaged. Edward looked confused.

"It's okay. I didn't sleep all last night."

"I know. I heard you screaming."

"Sorry!" Oh, how I hated the fact that I talked in my sleep.

"Yeah, Bella. You were all 'No! Don't leave me! You can't go!'" Jasper was reaching his arms out into the air. He and Emmett were laughing, and my face was bright red.

"Were you that upset, Bella?" Edward looked pained.

"Well, she also shouted, 'Why? I thought you loved me! Never love again, never love again!'"

"Thanks a ton, Emmett," I said sarcastically.

He and Jazz were still laughing.

"You believed that I didn't love you?" I didn't say anything, my eyes looking toward the ground. I shrugged, and he took my face in both of his hands, gazing into my eyes.

"Isabella Marie Swan. I love you now, and I will love you forever. My heart is sealed within you, as it shall always remain."

"I love you, Edward." It felt so nice to say that again, and he locked his lips with mine as I smiled. He pulled away, and Emmett hugged me.
"I'm proud of you, Bella. By the way, what happened in La Push? Rose and Alice looked murderous when they came in. They left just before you pulled up, though." I looked at him and laughed.

What? I want to know what happened!"

"Okay! Well, James found me and this drunk named Jacob tried to hit on me, and Edward fought James while Rose and Alice pulled Jacob away from me." I shrugged, and Em started laughing.

"How did Edward decide to come back?"

"I couldn't live without my Bella. I wasn't coherent and I was in more heartbreak pain than I would have ever imagined."

"Weird. Bella went through the same thing. She was like a zombie this morning." He widened his eyes. I blushed, and wanted a change of subject.

"Well, Alice said that she tried to call you and you hung up on her. She was going to have Bella convince you to come back. Oh, and Bella apparently went crazy and shouted out something about Edward so that everyone in La Push could hear it." I grimaced, remembering that too well.

"I saw Jessica and Lauren fighting again." I groaned. They fought almost every day after school, because Jessica saw nothing wrong with what she did and Lauren didn't want to talk to her.

"I saw Lauren and Jacob still together at La Push today, even though he kept hitting on Bella. Jessica was with Mike, too," Alice contemplated.

"Poor Lauren. Why would she go out with that stupid drunk?"

"Maybe he's decent when he's sober. I have no idea, love. Does it really matter, anyway?"

"No. All that matters is that we will be together forever," I replied with intensity.

(A/N): Hey did you like it? Did you hate it? See, I couldn't let Edward leave :P

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