p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.7999999999999998; text-align: center; margin-top: 17pt; margin-bottom: 11pt;"span style="font-size: 10.5pt; font-family: Arial; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"**Thanks so so much for all the people who have read, favorited and reviewed this so far. Please let me know what you think of this chapter**/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.7999999999999998; text-align: center; margin-top: 17pt; margin-bottom: 11pt;"span style="font-size: 10.5pt; font-family: Arial; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"Chapter 4/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.7999999999999998; margin-top: 17pt; margin-bottom: 11pt;"span style="font-size: 10.5pt; font-family: Arial; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"As Olivia slowly began waking up from her fitful night of sleep the next morning her breath caught in her throat as everything that had happened came flooding back. For a moment Olivia was distraught thinking she was still with Lewis, she whimpered in both fear and pain, unwilling to open her eyes and face reality. Amanda awoke with a start, realizing she had dozed off for a little while at some point. She immediately reached out and grabbed Liv's hand, speaking softly to her, "it's okay Liv, you're safe, you're safe. It's me Amanda." Liv pulled away, wincing at her touch, "don't touch me, don't touch me," Olivia muttered over and over. Amanda softly talked to Liv again, trying not to scare her or make it worse, "Olivia, honey, open your eyes, look at me. It's okay, you're at the hospital. It's me, Amanda." Olivia began shaking, closing her eyes even tighter, and yelled out, "GET AWAY FROM ME, PLEASE!" she whimpered and in a quieter voice whispered, "I'm a police officer, my team is going to find you soon." Amanda shuddered, filled with anger and hate towards Lewis. In a more forceful voice, "Liv! Olivia! Wake up!" Olivia's eyes shot open, darting all over the room as she tried to catch her breath. "Where is he? Where is he?" She asked in a panic. "Olivia, you're in the hospital, you're safe, it's just me, Amanda here." Olivia's wild eyes finally stop the frantic search of the room, relief written over her features, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I thought he was here...I thought he was..." Amanda gently leaned in to hug her and to her surprise Olivia allowed it, cuddling into her arms./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.7999999999999998; margin-top: 17pt; margin-bottom: 11pt;"span style="font-size: 10.5pt; font-family: Arial; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"The women were interrupted by a soft knocking on the door as Munch, Cragen, Fin, and Nick walked into the room carrying a bouquet of flowers for Olivia and donuts for everyone to share. Olivia and Amanda quickly pulled away from their embrace and Amanda wiped the stray tears from her eyes before looking up and giving a small smile to her colleagues and friends. They sat around the room, everyone chatting together quietly, about nothing in particular, light hearted topics. Liv was thankful to have a break and not have to think about the past few days from hell. She stayed quiet mostly but enjoyed being with her colleagues and she slowly snacked on a donut. Realizing she hadn't eaten in a very long time, and she was a lot hungrier than she had first thought. Fin smiled at Liv, seeing she was enjoying the donut, powder all around her mouth, he chuckled with her, and to his happiness Olivia joked right along with him. Fin offered to go get something for Olivia to drink, but she adamantly shook her head 'no.' Fin looked concerned, "Have you drank anything since coming in yesterday?" She shook her head, 'no' again. "Liv, you're gonna get dehydrated. You need to drink something. I'll go get you something, you need to take a few sips." He said with a smile, but his smile immediately turned to a frown when he saw Olivia's eyes shut tightly, rocking back and forth in bed. "Liv, what's wrong?" He asked, concerned for the sudden change in demeanor. Her eyes still closed she slowly muttered, "I don't want Vodka, please, I'll do anything." The group of friends suddenly realized what was going on, she was having a flashback. Fin put a glass of water next to the table for her, "okay Liv, I got you water, it's not vodka, it's on the table next to you." Liv didn't seem to hear, getting sucked further into her flashback, shaking harder now and screeching at the top of her lungs, "Stop! Leave me alone! Stop forcing me, it burns." She gagged now, fully convinced that she was being force fed vodka and pills again, her face paled a good three shades and before the detectives could do anything Olivia threw up all over the bed. Amanda, who had been sitting quietly, unsure how to help her distressed friend jumped into action. Talking strongly but soothingly, she begged Liv to open her eyes, promising her over and over that she was safe, that she was just having a flashback and that they needed to clean her up. Finally Olivia's eyes fluttered open, fear written all over her tired face. Looking at Amanda, the group of her colleagues and friends and suddenly noticing the vomit covering her bed. She shuddered, humiliated, tears playing at the corners of her eyes, "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry." Fin spoke up quickly, "it's not your fault Liv, I am sorry I said something that triggered you." Liv looked up at him with a sad smile, "don't feel bad Fin, it's not your fault either and I should be able to have a normal conversation without breaking down." Fin looked at her sadly, "This isn't gonna be forever, you're gonna get through this. We are all here for you." She nodded, not making eye contact. "Amanda, can you help me get cleaned up please?" Liv asked in a shaky voice. "Of course Liv," she looked to the guys who, understanding their cue, left the room so that Amanda could help Olivia get cleaned up./spanspan id="docs-internal-guid-1196b397-7fff-b170-b5ef-5a87d19443bc"/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.7999999999999998; text-align: center; margin-top: 17pt; margin-bottom: 11pt;"span style="font-size: 10.5pt; font-family: Arial; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"Chapter 4/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.7999999999999998; margin-top: 17pt; margin-bottom: 11pt;"span style="font-size: 10.5pt; font-family: Arial; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"As Olivia slowly began waking up from her fitful night of sleep the next morning her breath caught in her throat as everything that had happened came flooding back. For a moment Olivia was distraught thinking she was still with Lewis, she whimpered in both fear and pain, unwilling to open her eyes and face reality. Amanda awoke with a start, realizing she had dozed off for a little while at some point. She immediately reached out and grabbed Liv's hand, speaking softly to her, "it's okay Liv, you're safe, you're safe. It's me Amanda." Liv pulled away, wincing at her touch, "don't touch me, don't touch me," Olivia muttered over and over. Amanda softly talked to Liv again, trying not to scare her or make it worse, "Olivia, honey, open your eyes, look at me. It's okay, you're at the hospital. It's me, Amanda." Olivia began shaking, closing her eyes even tighter, and yelled out, "GET AWAY FROM ME, PLEASE!" she whimpered and in a quieter voice whispered, "I'm a police officer, my team is going to find you soon." Amanda shuddered, filled with anger and hate towards Lewis. In a more forceful voice, "Liv! Olivia! Wake up!" Olivia's eyes shot open, darting all over the room as she tried to catch her breath. "Where is he? Where is he?" She asked in a panic. "Olivia, you're in the hospital, you're safe, it's just me, Amanda here." Olivia's wild eyes finally stop the frantic search of the room, relief written over her features, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I thought he was here...I thought he was..." Amanda gently leaned in to hug her and to her surprise Olivia allowed it, cuddling into her arms./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.7999999999999998; margin-top: 17pt; margin-bottom: 11pt;"span style="font-size: 10.5pt; font-family: Arial; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"The women were interrupted by a soft knocking on the door as Munch, Cragen, Fin, and Nick walked into the room carrying a bouquet of flowers for Olivia and donuts for everyone to share. Olivia and Amanda quickly pulled away from their embrace and Amanda wiped the stray tears from her eyes before looking up and giving a small smile to her colleagues and friends. They sat around the room, everyone chatting together quietly, about nothing in particular, light hearted topics. Liv was thankful to have a break and not have to think about the past few days from hell. She stayed quiet mostly but enjoyed being with her colleagues and she slowly snacked on a donut. Realizing she hadn't eaten in a very long time, and she was a lot hungrier than she had first thought. Fin smiled at Liv, seeing she was enjoying the donut, powder all around her mouth, he chuckled with her, and to his happiness Olivia joked right along with him. Fin offered to go get something for Olivia to drink, but she adamantly shook her head 'no.' Fin looked concerned, "Have you drank anything since coming in yesterday?" She shook her head, 'no' again. "Liv, you're gonna get dehydrated. You need to drink something. I'll go get you something, you need to take a few sips." He said with a smile, but his smile immediately turned to a frown when he saw Olivia's eyes shut tightly, rocking back and forth in bed. "Liv, what's wrong?" He asked, concerned for the sudden change in demeanor. Her eyes still closed she slowly muttered, "I don't want Vodka, please, I'll do anything." The group of friends suddenly realized what was going on, she was having a flashback. Fin put a glass of water next to the table for her, "okay Liv, I got you water, it's not vodka, it's on the table next to you." Liv didn't seem to hear, getting sucked further into her flashback, shaking harder now and screeching at the top of her lungs, "Stop! Leave me alone! Stop forcing me, it burns." She gagged now, fully convinced that she was being force fed vodka and pills again, her face paled a good three shades and before the detectives could do anything Olivia threw up all over the bed. Amanda, who had been sitting quietly, unsure how to help her distressed friend jumped into action. Talking strongly but soothingly, she begged Liv to open her eyes, promising her over and over that she was safe, that she was just having a flashback and that they needed to clean her up. Finally Olivia's eyes fluttered open, fear written all over her tired face. Looking at Amanda, the group of her colleagues and friends and suddenly noticing the vomit covering her bed. She shuddered, humiliated, tears playing at the corners of her eyes, "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry." Fin spoke up quickly, "it's not your fault Liv, I am sorry I said something that triggered you." Liv looked up at him with a sad smile, "don't feel bad Fin, it's not your fault either and I should be able to have a normal conversation without breaking down." Fin looked at her sadly, "This isn't gonna be forever, you're gonna get through this. We are all here for you." She nodded, not making eye contact. "Amanda, can you help me get cleaned up please?" Liv asked in a shaky voice. "Of course Liv," she looked to the guys who, understanding their cue, left the room so that Amanda could help Olivia get cleaned up./spanspan id="docs-internal-guid-1196b397-7fff-b170-b5ef-5a87d19443bc"/span/p