Oh, my girls. You're the meaning of my life. I love you all. I don't know whether you will ever get to read this letter, but, regardless of that, you know that I love you.
In my life, I have come to realize that it is possible to love more than one woman indeed. There are so many wonderful females out there. Why limit your love to one single person? Each of all those wonderful girls I have met has something different to offer to me.
Of course, I'm not saying that I love you all girls in the same way. Just as each of you is unique, the love I feel towards each of you is unique too.
First of all, you, Leafa. Oh, my crazy Leafa. You're so crazy. You're 100% crazy. Have I mentioned you are crazy? But I adore you! You are my closest, most trustworthy friend. You're the best BFF one could ask for. You showed up in my life when I did not know shit about what truly living means. And you taught me that, in your own, crazy way! You taught me how to make the most of any circumstances, how to make delicious lemonade even when Lady Luck throws me rotten lemons. You emancipated me. You rid me of pointless sexually 'moral' inhibitions. I have never thanked you for that, though I should!
Lisbeth, you're the sweetest, the most docile, the most considerate creature I've ever met. But, at the same time, you are a calming force. You are the glue that holds any group together. You are the soothing lake whose waters I can always rest in whenever I have got exhausted by the exciting storms other girls drag me into. Always ready to sacrifice yourself for the sake of others. You even swallowed a condom to save my butt once! (Umm, I probably shouldn't have mentioned that last sentence.)
Seven, you're the girl that, one moment, gets on your nerves with her arrogance and blathering on about incomprehensible stuff (which she blathers on about in the first place merely to belittle others and inflate her ego) and, the next moment, makes you want to take her in your arms like the loli she is. Because, above all else, you are a loli. A sensitive girl that needs someone to hug her, to take away all her insecurities, to somehow make everything okay, even though you never admit it.
Suguha, you're a thorn in my side. The sister I wish I never had. Just kidding! I love you so much, you baby sis. (wink, wink)
And you too, mom. I have known you practically all my life, I have known you even longer than I have known Asuna! You have seen me as an infant, you have seen me cry over trivial things, as infants do, you have seen me mess with my potty! And yet, you still love me and admire me! Unconditionally!
You two, mom, you and Suguha, Suguha and you, are my family. I don't know what might happen with, say, Leafa or Sinon or any of all other girls I have had sex with and who are so many that there is no way I can remember to mention all in one go! Life circumstances might break me and all those girls apart someday. Past a point, I might never see them again! But you, mom and Sugu, will always be in my life, no matter what happens. Even if the sexual relationship between us is over someday, the bond we shared even before we started having sex and will keep sharing even after we stop having sex is eternal, it is a union beyond space and time.
I apologize to all girls I have forgotten to mention. Is it my fault that you're so many, ladies? (mischievous laugh) But you know I love you all nonetheless.
Lastly, you, Asuna, are my one and only true love in the most romantic, fairytalish, old fashioned (in a good way) sense of the word. You are my princess. You are my future wife, the future mother of my children. We have been together since we were awkward (both at looks and demeanor) early teens, since we were two lost, confused creatures that did not know what the hell to do with our existence. We have come such a long way since then. We have grown up together, both physically and mentally. We have evolved together. We have learnt together. All in all, together, we have become the beautiful, amazing, open minded persons we nowadays are, two persons that are not afraid to live their life to the fullest with no regrets. All these experiences have rendered us inseparable. Our lives, our futures are one. Our souls, our minds are one. Our destinies are one. We will always know that, no matter how many other people make us orgasm!
Sure there are times you're not easy to handle. Sure, in the wrong mood, you're scary. But my life would be empty without you. My life would be a desert without you. I'm blessed to have met you in this journey called life.
Once again, thanks to all you girls for existing!
Sorry that there was no sex today, but I just felt like writing something different for a change.
Also, I want to reply to an anonymous review someone posted. (You probably can't see it yet; wait a few days.) Anyway, that person spoke about my blog and what he made of me after 'skimming over it'.
Do you really think you can understand someone like me by merely skimming over my blog? Also, what gave you the impression that I believe that earthly life is pointless, that Heaven is guaranteed and therefore one does not need to do anything in this life to earn it? What I said on my blog is that I believe that everyone, one way or another, no matter how many reincarnations it might take, will someday open their eyes and earn Heaven. But that doesn't mean all you have to do is just sit back and wait for your epiphany to occur. You have to make an effort and go through stuff in this world before you evolve into what God wants you to be.
Do you really think it's that simple to understand someone as complicated as me? (I'm nothing like Kirito in my story. For him, things are straightforward; he has a harem, loves all his girls and is happy. But, myself, I don't know what would make me happy. I've got a long way to go yet before I finally discover the answer to that. If a genie showed up before me right now and offered to grant me one wish, I'd probably wish I knew what I want!)
Lastly, you accused me of ignoring reviews and never bothering with PMs either. Well, if I usually don't bother with PMs, it is because most people who review to tell me how shit this story is do it anonymously, so I can't PM them. Next time, if you have the guts to review under a username, I will PM you so that we can further discuss this.