Youth, a term commonly used by people. If you ask someone for the definition of this word, they will simply answer something like this.
It is the golden age of young people, in which they live their life to the fullest and take advantage of every moment to enjoy it to the fullest.
This definition is nothing more than a vile lie.
I'm not saying it because I had a bad experience or anything like that, but I have a friend who in middle school decided to declare his love to a girl, after all she showed signs of being interested in him, she greeted him every time he passed. He needed something besides exchanging emails, however every time he texted her she was busy or fell asleep so it was totally understandable that she couldn't reply to him.
What happened next is obvious, he was rejected and if this was not enough everyone in the school found out about this, then the teasing and insults began. He was always harassed and insulted, but after that confession, everything got drastically worse and he just kept isolating himself from everyone.
I mean, my friend had to be alone and face very difficult things. Not that it was me or anything like that, well, where was I? So.
He thought that in high school everything would be different, too bad since a dog and a car destroyed his illusions, sealing his first year as a loner.
Although if you asked me if he could avoid that accident, would he? Although it sounds strange, my answer is no, after all, it was thanks to that accident that I was able to meet her.
Don't think that after I was run over, a beautiful girl got out of the vehicle and comforted me, and made sure I was okay. It would have been a cliché for that to happen, sadly I was only 2 weeks in the hospital. But you could say that this time was our first meeting, although it would be a long time for me to find out.
Everything went well until my second year. Yes, I'll stop saying it's a friend's story after everything that follows is too personal for someone to tell me.
On the orders of a nosy teacher I ended up in a club called the service club, made up only of Yukinoshita Yukino, the most beautiful girl I have ever seen, after all, I boast of being a good observer, as far as I can say with certainty that she was the most beautiful girl in Sobu High.
She was sitting quietly reading a little book with a cat cover, while she was looking at her, she just ignored me and called our sensei's attention to her manners.
I was left as an experiment in the club with the purpose of changing my rotten personality, something that I am sure has nothing wrong ; after all my personality adjusts to how society treats me.
During my time at the service club, many things happened, I got to know more deeply people with whom I never thought to relate and discovered something that I always longed for, but was not sure about that, after all, I was against it. But, that, was something genuine.
I can say I had it in my hands, but I didn't have the courage to pursue it. Now that I remember it, I still don't understand why I didn't run after her at that moment, perhaps the fear of being rejected or the doubt that I would tell her when I stopped her. Who am I kidding, I knew exactly what she meant, but at the last moment I regretted it, asking her to be with me for the rest of my life was too selfish of me.
I don't gain anything by remembering those moments, after all, 60 years have passed since that happened.
Nothing better than using one of my 108 skills, monologue, so far I am proud of it.
Lying in a bed most of the time becomes boring, in my youth this would have been a dream, now it is somewhat tedious. Over the years my body was losing strength to the point that it is difficult for me to stand up, if it weren't for the employee I hired, I suppose I would already be dead.
At my age talking so easily about death is sad, but not for me, since I have no regrets.
Why do I say this? The answer is simple, when one passes an age limit, mundane things like unrequited love or painful experiences become simple memories that you can put in the corner of your mind and never dig them up again.
Based on this, I can assure you that when Hikigaya Hachiman's time comes, he will die without regrets or worries.
But, even a loner like me used to have someone to worry about, to the point that I was able to drop everything if she asked me for help. By her I mean my beautiful inmouto Komachi, she was always with me in all the difficult moments that happened.
After graduating from Sobu High I attended college, when I finished I had to abandon my dream of being a householder and become a corporate slave, my days became monotonous. They consisted of having breakfast, going to work, working, having lunch, working, coming home, having ramen for dinner and sleeping. This was repeated for many years until my body couldn't take it anymore and I had to withdraw.
With the money I got from my job, I bought an apartment and a car, they were certain luxuries that they could give me. After all, I didn't have a family to support.
Sometimes I would bring some gifts to my nephews, to think that my little Komachi got married and had children is hard to believe, since for me she will always be my little sister.
When I visited her, I avoided touching on those issues that bothered me, because after what happened last time, I swear I will never bring them up again. This due to an accident that occurred, I say accident to my own irresponsibility and poor control with alcohol.
I suppose there is nothing wrong with remembering that moment since at this moment all I have left are the memories.
This happened in my early years as a corporate slave, taking a day off I took the opportunity to give her a surprise visit, after all, what little sister wouldn't be happy to have a surprise visit from her onii-chan.
When I knocked on her door, she took a long time to answer, when I thought to knock, she opened the door, she was surprised by my unexpected visit, I guess she accomplished the task of a surprise visit.
'' Gomi-chan, it's rude to come unannounced, you know? It is even common sense to advise when you visit someone, but do not worry, since your cute little sister will always be willing to welcome you with open arms. That must have earned a lot of Komachi points" She said this while she gave me a sarcastic smile.
"I had a day off and I took advantage of it to go visit my pretty little sister." That must have earned me a lot of Hachiman points. I said this while making the least repulsive smile I could have.
"Onii-chan, could you stop doing that? I'm even embarrassed that the neighbors know that you're my family."
"Komachi, those words break the heart of your beloved onii-chan" I said this with a sad and sarcastic tone since it was not the first time she said such things to me, I guess yelling outside her door that I was hired did not cause her good impression to her neighbors.
"Stop doing a drama and go right in"
I nodded and went into her apartment; I see that nothing has changed since my last visit.
"And what brings you to my humble abode onii-chan?"
"I came to hang out and talk a bit with my beautiful inmouto"
"Oni-chan, it was not necessary for you to come, a simple call was enough", while saying that I could observe small changes in her face and a slight sleight of hand, I did not spend several years living with her without knowing what these gestures meant, she was hiding something from me.
Now the question was what was she hiding, nothing comes to mind, maybe I'll be uncle very soon? Mmmmm no, this is out of the question as Komachi told me that she would only think about having children when she had a stable job, both herself and her partner.
She started dating the little bug months ago, you could say that he earned my respect, after being several years after my sister he finally got her to accept him, it would have been difficult for Komachi to stop seeing him as his best friend, I suppose he will be happy that so many years of effort had finally paid off.
I'm deviating from the topic; I suppose it will save me time if I ask you directly.
"Komachi, is there something you want to tell me?"
"What are you thinking, onii-chan, why would I be hiding something from you? After all, I have no reason to do something like that" As she said this, I saw her gaze change between me and an envelope. Maybe that's it, a pregnancy test result and she want to hide it from me? After all she promised not to have children until she was financially stable, but as an understandable brother, if she made a mistake, I will be there to support her.
"So, you don't mind if I check this out, do you?" As I said that, I could see a surprise on her face.
"Onii-chan, for your sake, I recommend that you do not see the contents of that envelope, but if you wish to do so, I will not stop you."
"I think I'll take a look" so I started walking towards the ledge while giving Komachi a look who had a pained face, what could contain that envelope to put her in such a state?
When I opened it, I could see that it was a very striking golden color with the naked eye, inside the envelope, there was an invitation, but not just any invitation but one for a wedding.
I get it, maybe it's an invitation to Hiratsuka-sensei's wedding, I guess after several years she finally managed to catch someone and since I have not been in contact with her for years, Komachi thought that I would feel hurt since I did not no invitation came. You underestimate your onii-chan, this is not enough to take away my good mood.
At that time, I would have liked the wedding to have been Sensei's, but the reality was different.
Dear Hikigaya Komachi, You are cordially invited to the wedding of Yukinoshita Yukino and Hayama Hayato, which will take place ...
After reading the couple's names, my mind went blank, I couldn't even continue reading the invitation, I understood why Komachi didn't want me to read the contents of the envelope.