It's Holiday season and I decided to write one, due to my broken state because of Episode IX: Rise of Skywalker. Well, hope this fanfiction healed our disappointments if you know what I mean.

Rey snapped her eyes open, with such horrifying events occurred after the death of Snoke - seems to relieved her for awhile. General Leia Organa may worry in her current state after Luke's sudden death or she considered as he became one with the force. A hint of tears flow down in her right cheek, she highly admit - hating the feeling of losing her master seems affected her whole. After escaping Kylo's defenses, she seems to lose hope in redeeming him back to himself...as Ben Solo.

Her knowledge mostly about him seems not enough to truly convince her that his persona..Ben Solo is indeed scorched in ashes - according to him. She let out a deep sigh and stood up, stretching her both arms and it's truly a relaxing euphoria for her to feel this way for the first time after escaping the first order. Her both eyes glimmer when a memory came upon her - a connection she mysteriously shared with Kylo - Ben.

She is did regret for not asking herself why the bond between him happened, as if she was overwhelmed and ignored her curiosity of Snoke's attempts in bridging their both minds with the force. Yes, according to Snoke. it was a lure..a trap for her to have an encounter with him..for the first time. Yet, she suddenly wonder what Kylo came to his senses that his action lead to kill his master, It is indeed a strange act that she truly can see the conflict outside of Kylo Ren's self to the dark side.

And once in a while, she chuckled knowing she is still thinking of him. Oh Rey..I need to stop thinking about him..but, the vision I saw..It's so clear... she muttered to herself. The first time she felt her touch against his hand, oh how that moment would be another one of her treasured memories. She never felt ease on thinking about him this way, at first, she denied the bond and keep asking him questions..perhaps the reason why he killed Han Solo..his own father.

Yet, the bond between them - gets stronger every time they encounter each other. She hated it, for his countless attempts persuading her on standing with him..in the dark side seems a torment for her. She couldn't understand why she even had this..connection with him. Why Snoke chose to bridge their minds than chase her off. She shook and ignore this..thoughts. She needs to think how the resistance will thrive now that Luke is gone..and she is now the only hope they can rely on.

Rey walk towards the window and glanced a countless stars that she can see through her perspective, she wonder how is Luke now..and, she suddenly reflect in her life, of what will be her next journey. The past she can't ignore nor forget, she hated the fact Kylo seems in fact knew about her parents and not herself..did he found out during the force bond? she mutter to herself.

"Is everything alright, Rey?" a voice asked and suddenly startled her. She turn and saw General Organa standing beside the door, she can see her both tired eyes and seems she didn't care about it, After all, the resistance needs more organized instructions from her; "I-I'm fine", Rey replied, with her hair down between her shoulders seems to create a sudden shiver crawled up in her spine. General Organa nodded and walked towards her, not until she sat down in her bed and stared at her - observing her features.

"You still think of him do you?" her eyes turned to her and out of curiosity, she let out a deep sigh - this confused her which 'Him' she is referring to. "Um, pardon?" she asked, General Organa smiled and suddenly chuckled - which in Rey's surprised, Leia stood and walk towards her, she hold Rey's both hands and stared at her - for Rey, Leia somehow knew her unraveling feelings for him.

"My son...it seems I can sense you are struggling about him."

"I-I...", left speechless and her mind began to swirl for no reason. Rey sighed and stared at her.

"General..I..don't understand anything anymore...this bond...i know the bond between your son and I-"

"Rey, Snoke maybe the reason of this force bond between you and him...Yet, I assume, I can feel your bond is still there."

Rey raised an eyebrow, confused on what Leia meant. The bond? is still there? Could it b-

"You know..a force bond didn't end if the maker dies. You, as a force-sensitive one like my son seems to have this bond is so strong..I can feel him to you."

"General..I.."

"Rey, don't doubt about my son never going back in the light..you knew..you knew there is hope." General Organa let go of her hand and leaned against the window frame of the ship, her eyes seems show a lot of sadness written all over face. Rey could tell Leia went through a lot..after Ben turned to the dark side..it must be really hard for her. "I did a mistake as well to him..he despised me every since I take over the resistance and continuing guided this...there are times..that I cried..and regretted if I take care of Ben...he's still the Ben I ever known", her eyes filled with sadness and Rey could tell how much Leia had regretted of lacking a motherly bond with K-Ben.

Leia stared at Rey and hold her both hands once more, a smile stretch both of her cheek. Rey feel a relived sensation when Leia stared at her..its like she never felt a motherly love from her real mother. A sudden glimpse of his voice ached her heart and remembered what Kylo told her during his plead in hopes of standing by him..and only him.

" Do you know the truth about your parents? Or have you always known? You've just hidden it away. Say it." the way he speak..it hunted her, - a distorted memory of who she is began to crumble her.

" They were nobody." she replied with a hint of a tear flow down in her left eye.

" They were filthy junk traders. Sold you off for drinking money. They're dead in a pauper's grave in the Jakku desert. You come from nothing. You're nothing. But not to me... "

Tears flow down both of her cheeks seems to make her quiver even more. Oh how Maker she is beginning to become tensed and numb; She couldn't do anything but resist this sensation as if she suddenly felt a warmth force through her. Can it be? She ignored the bond existing through her, she could feel Kylo's presence. Oh how she admittedly missed this, As the bond continued to flow inside her, she ignored the feeling that perhaps Kylo would be aware of her presence.

She sigh and replied, "Don't blame yourself..you only do what you need to do for the greater good. Kylo is the one who turned against his will..not you" Leia stared at her after her response and seems she began to be relieved by her. Rey smiled as Leia smiled as well, the two stared in eye contact before Leia replied. "But..Rey, promised me..you'll turn him...you'll turn my Ben back..." she pleaded as Rey smiled, "I will." Leia embraced her not long enough until she could feel Kylo's aware of her presence through the bond. Rey sighed and smiled at her.

"After all..he is just misunderstood.."

Edit: I decided to make a short story about this pair and, with or without requests in proceeding this one, well as a imperfect writer - I'll proceed in writing this ^^ part 2 of this is ongoing. I'll published it soon :)