Chapter 4

We went back to school and I went to my dorm room that I have and bury my mind in my studies and I have decided that I want to major in journalism and be a writer. Sebastian was happy that I finally decided on what I wanted to major in.

Tonight is valentine's day and he has something special planned but I don't know what. I get ready for our date and look myself over in the mirror. I look flushed for some reason. I've been looking forward for this date for a week now and I'm not going to let sickness take it away. I take something for my headache and sigh as I leave the dormitories and meet Sebastian.

"Hi beautiful!" He greets as he pulls me in his arms and kisses my forehead and pulls away to look at me with concern. "Are you okay? You feel warm." He says as he feels my head and cheeks.

"I'm fine. Let's go." I say. He nods and we go to dinner and I pick at my food. I really don't feel good and I can barely stomach my food.

After dinner we go to the skating rink and I look at him as he purchases ice skates for us. The lake is frozen solid and that's not what I am worried about. I have never been ice skating before in my life.

"Oh come on you will be fine. I won't let you fall too much. I promise to not let go of you." He says as he hands me the skate boots. I sigh and sit down and take off my shoes and put the skates on. He helps me up after he gets his on and we slowly go to the frozen lake. He catches me when I slip and about to fall. We go very slowly and he never lets go of my waist and hand as we go slow. "This can't be fun for you to keep holding me up as we skate." I say as we go slow.

"I'm having the time of my life as long as I am with you." He answers with a smile. He grips me as I start to slip again and he guides me around the frozen lake before we go back and take off the skates. It was actually fun. Especially since the medicine kicked in to get rid of the fever. We wind up in his room and in his bed.

I sit in his lap grinding my hips against his with my arms around his neck as he thrust into me. He kisses my throat and I lean down to kiss him as we moved with each other. He pulls his face from me and looks me in the eye. "Ciel are you feeling alright?" he asks as he stops with his thrust and I eagerly grind my hips against his for friction.

"I'm fine. Hurry up and fuck me already." I answer. He nods and thrusts into me and I throw my head back as I near my release. We hit it and I sit in his lap panting for a minute. I get off his lap and lay down on my back. God he feels mind blowing inside me.

He lays next to me and pulls the blankets over our naked bodies and I snuggle close to him and fall asleep.

I wake the next day and I noticed the sun in an odd position in the sky and I feel someone holding my hand. I look to find Sebastian on the floor sitting with my hand in his. He's dressed in a t-shirt and jeans. I notice I am still naked in his bed. How long did I sleep.

"Finally you're awake. I was worried I'd have to take you to the hospital." He says with his voice drenched in relief. What happened? I try to remember but the last thing I remember is us making love.

"What do you mean? What time is it?" I ask in a hoarse voice. Why is it so sore and dry?

"You got a fever during the night and it was so high you were hallucinating most of it. Ciel why didn't you tell me you were that sick?" He answers and moves to sit in the bed next to me.

"I didn't want to worry you. Sorry!" I say.

"It's okay and yeah you were in and out of hallucinations for a day and a half. My friend who is in medical school came to check on you and he said you had the flu and that to keep an eye on your temp. He said if you don't get better by tonight to take you to the hospital. It finally broke thirty minutes ago and you just now woke up. I called your professors and told them you were sick so don't worry about that." He explains.

"A day and a half?" I instantly sit up at the thought I missed school. I instantly regret the action and fall back down.

"Easy don't over do it." He says as he brushes his hand along my cheek. I notice sorrow in his eyes for some reason and I can't figure out why.

"What's wrong?" I ask in confusion.

"Its just some stuff you were saying during the fever kind of worried me." He answers.

"Like what?" I ask confused.

"Well first you cried out for your parents a lot. And then started having hallucinations about playing with dragons then you started fighting invisible beings and kept saying you were hurting and telling them to stop. Did something happen to you in the past that you haven't told me about yet?" He asks with deep concern. Shit! I curse myself for getting that sick.

"You weren't supposed to ever find out. You won't want me after I tell you." I say as I groan and stare up at the ceiling.

"Let me be the judge of that. Just tell me." He says in his sweet velvety voice of his.

"My aunt sold me to a man when I was seventeen to pay off her debt and he….he raped me. I soon packed up my stuff and left her after that. I went to my father's sister and finished school while staying with her family. Once I turned legal age I left London and came here to get away from it all. I plan to get a citizenship here and stay her but for now I have a school visa to stay in the country until I complete my education." I explain. He looks at me then suddenly I am in his strong arms as he holds me tight to him.

"I thought so but I wasn't sure. Then Claude dared to touch you like that must of brought it all up again. I promise to never let that ever happen to you again. I will always protect you." He says as he holds me.

"Sebastian I can't breathe." I say in gasps. He lets me go and I smile without humor at him and he kisses me.