A/N: This takes place a few months after season 3 but instead of going to Rome, Chloe relapses into partying with some old friends. Chloe will be a little OOC for the first few chapters. Possible trigger of drugs and alcohol

"How did I get here?"

That's the question I ponder as I sniff in the white shimmery powder that lies in front of me and waiting for the high that it soon to come. I glance around the table, and see 2 people looking at me, one is a boy straight out of college with tipsy grin, the other is an older lady with lavender hair. I take note at her appearance, the dark circles under her eyes, her messy hair, the bulging veins in her arms. She glances back at me and offers a smile, she could tell that I was analyzing her. As we finish the lady comes up to me and whispers something I can't understand, I go to ask her to repeat it but I was to late as she slithered back into the crowd.

I make my way to the dance floor as I see the flashing lights becoming brighter and brighter as the music beats in my ear. I sway back and forth as I grind my hips into my mystery partner. He feels younger, I feel him smirk against my shoulder blades as we continue dancing, I feel a ring dig into my shoulder blades "married?" I dizzily consider. He continues feeling me up, I feel his hands slide down my back to grip my waist and grab my butt.

"He's handsy"

"Too handsy"

I slowly walk forward and zig zag my way through the crowd quickly loosing my overeager dance partner. I feel my excitement grow as I float higher and higher. Somehow I make my way over to the bar and decide to purchase a drink.

"One martini!" I smile, leaning over so that the bar tender can see a hint of cleavage, I watch his demeanor change as he hands me the drink

"On the house." he responds winking, "and here's a little something for later..." he adds sliding me a note with his phone number which I stuff in my pocket.

This had been my nightly routine after seeing Lucifer's devil face and learning that the celestial world truly exists. Lucifer had been kind enough to give me some space and time which I hadn't been using well. I've only seen Trixie briefly these last few months since I've been out partying and I hadn't been home in even longer. I also hadn't been working since I took a leave of absence, I had just been shot at so it was only natural that I'd need time off not because I had just seen the actual devil. Trixie had been staying with Dan who had been trying to convince me to get help for my recent behavior. If only he knew that Lucifer was the actual devil.

I wince at the thought and take another chug of my drink smiling at the light buzz that begins to overcome me. Making my way back to the dance floor, smelling the dingy smell of body odor and spilled drinks, feeling other bodies pressed tightly against mine, the loud music threatening to explode my ear drums. The high at full force now. My heart rate thumps so fast I wonder if people around me can hear, my euphoria blocks all my worries as I continue rocking to the music.

I don't even know which club I'm at, I had a few friends that went clubbing regularly- from my days as an actress and a simple ring of the phone had made them thrilled to take me along and show me all of the best clubs.

"I guess that's how I got here"

"Chloe!"

I jerk my head at the sound of my name, one of my friends (Rich) stumbles over to me, "Having fun?" he smirks at me

"Yeah!" I release a high pitched giggle, this voice sounds nothing like my detective voice, I sound like one of Lucifer's frivolous blond bimbos

"You know what would make it even better...,this!" he hands me a small bag with two little pill, I inspect them closely not recognizing them as anything I'd seen as a detective.

"Come on...It'll be much more fun" Rich gestures again, his eyes scream excitement- he's probably taken these same pills already. I go to reject his offer when I hear Mazes voice in my head "Throw caution to the wind, be impulsive instead of being... you". Maze and I always clashed, she had sex with random strangers while I went to PTO meetings, she was a bartender while I worked as a cop. She was a demon, I was a human.

"I'll take the pills." I nod as I pull the bag from Rich's weak grip. I slide the two pills into my hand and look at them again, still not recognizing their contents, but that doesn't matter anymore, I'm not a detective. I pop them in my mouth and down them with what remain of my drink.

Rich smiles back at me as two young ladies throw their arms around his shoulder, he slides back into them welcoming their warm kisses on his neck. I roll my eyes and walk back deeper into the crowd as time passes I feel my self floating higher I try to think but I can't, my mind jumps to several different places. I vaguely remember someone pulling me by my waist as I black out.

"Wake up Chloe, we' re at the next destination" I pick my head up off the arm rest, I still feel high, it hasn't been long since we were at the last club. My eyes focus on the person that just called my name, he has a plastic bag in his hand, three remaining pills for me.

The others in the car look at me, waiting for me to swallow them, I have nothing left for me anyways I think as I down those three pills with some water. I take a glimpse at myself in the car door and my appearance is vaguely similar to someone I'd seen earlier but I couldn't remember who. My hair was messily curled and there were prominent dark circles under my red tired eyes. my rather skimpy outfit clung to my curves as I stumbled out of the car following behind Rich, Emma and Sloan. I don't even look to see what club I'm walking into I just keep following the people in front of me.

My visions spots again, as I take a glass from Emma along with another mysterious pill. The detective in me screams that this isn't a good idea and that taking unknown pills can make me vulnerable. I get pushed onto the crowded club floor as I get shoved around, dizziness and nausea overcomes me as I make my way over to a nearby table. Leaning against it for support, I can't even remember what other pills and substances I'd taken today, my heart rate picks up as my euphoria grows. The lights feel bright, too bright. I wince, something feels wrong. Maybe I'll sleep for a little. No, I jerk myself up, the dizziness slightly subsides.

"Are you doin ok Chloe?" I look up to see a blonde dancer staring at me with concern in her eyes, she wore a short shimmery skirt and a pink top. I recognized her, but from where? "Um, yea" I respond shakily grabbing the side of the stage for support.

"I haven't seen you in a few months" she looks at me unconvinced that I'm ok. Then it hits me, I know where I am, I've entered the cave of the bear, the place I'd been trying to avoid for the last few months

I'm at Lux

"I need to get out of here" I ignore the dancer that starts calling after me, I shakily walk trying to find an exit, but my brain spins as I find it hard to look forward, I smile, why am I smiling. I feel eyes on me, someones watching me. I shove through crowds of drunk patrons and walk toward the backroom that I know is by the bar. My shaky hands desperately cling to the door handle as I push it open. My legs feel loose and unsteady as I stumble into the room falling on my stomach. I roll over to the wall and try to sit up against the wall, I giggle as I throw my head against the wall. "Seriously?" I think until I see a dark shadow in the room with me

Is this it?

"Damn Decker, I'll admit I didn't see this phase coming."

I look at the other figure in the room, her intrigued eyes bore into me.

I glance at her, I want to run, but my feet don't work I try to think of other ways out of this situation but I can't think.

Maybe I will sleep for a bit ...

A/N: Not sure if I'll continue this so let me know what you think!