Chapter 9

We found a good home for Shadow and Sebastian wasn't too upset about getting rid of the cat. I keep apologizing to him about losing his cat but he assures me that my life mattered more to him than some random kitten.

I go to get ready for school and I haven't gained my strength back from my recent asthma attack and I feel very tired lately. Sebastian is worried about me but I tell him it's just the asthma and weak lungs. He worries too much about me.

I make it to school and go to my first class of the day and try not to worry too much about the upcoming Thursday where it's the day I testify against Claude and he is currently out on bail and under house arrest until the trial date.

I hate that Sebastian's stepmother turned against Sebastian and me when Claude was arrested for what he did to me. She is on his side and believes he is innocent. I don't think his wife cares what happens to him. Sebastian actually admitted to his parents on what Claude did to him when he was a kid and his father took Sebastian's side and now his father and his wife are fighting constantly about it and he accused her son of being a child molester and a rapist, which he is. I mean Sebastian was ten years old. And Claude raped me so that makes him a rapist. They also found out his boyfriend was sixteen when they started dating so yeah he is a pedophile and rapist.

His mother is in complete denial that he even has a boyfriend. Well his is actually a stripper at a local gay strip club. I wonder if his wife will leave him? Sebastian says most likely.

We are going to meet Sebastian's mother on Saturday since she is coming down from New York to try to be supportive over her son and what happened to us. He testifies on Tuesday against him.

I'm so distracted by what is going on I didn't hear the lecture the professor was giving. I try to copy everything he wrote on the board down and focus but I can't. My head is killing me lately and I think it's a migraine coming. I've been getting them a lot lately and I'm constantly tired. Sebastian keeps nagging me to go see the doctor, but I tell him it's just stress.

We have a lot to be stressed about lately and I can just take some medicine for it when class is over. He's all about diagnosing every little thing now since he started medical school and interning at the hospital he works at. He also works at a free health clinic in the area too helping the homeless get medical treatment. I can't believe it's my third year of college. I will be a senior next semester in the fall. It's spring semester and it's been three months since I was sexually assaulted.

I pack up my things and stand up but sit back down when my head starts swimming and I feel faint. I rest my head in my hand trying to stop the dizziness. After a minute I stand up slowly and grab my backpack and leave the classroom. I go to my second class, which is my favorite class because it is world literature history. I get to re-read all my favorite books and study them in depth. I take a seat and get out my book and start reading.

I notice it's hard to focus on the words and my vision becomes blurry as I try to read a paragraph. I close the book and place my hands over my eyes and grip my head. It hurts so much. "Ciel? Are you all right?" I hear someone ask. I just nod and then a sharp pain shoots through my head and I nearly faint. "You don't look all right. Let me take you home." The voice says. I open my eyes and look and see it's my friend Finny. He is in the same field of study I am in.

"No. I'll be fine I just need to take something for this migraine." I assure him.

"Are you sure?" He asks with worry. I nod and he let's me be. He goes to sit by this girl he has been crushing on during the whole semester. Her name is Angela.

I dig through my bag for the migraine strength medicine. I groan when another sharp pain shoots through my head again. I find it and take two and sigh in hopes it will work. I try to focus on the lecture on Jane Austin and the words on the slide show starts disappearing as my vision blacks out. I give up and lay my head down for the rest of the lecture.

Class is dismissed and I leave. Luckily my last class is not until tonight. I go home and I'm feeling so bad that I nearly crawl up to our apartment and manage to get into bed. I fall asleep in the dark cool room, which helped a lot.

"Ciel…Ciel!" I hear my name being called and I open eyes to a pair of dark eyes looking at me in extreme panic and worry.

"What?" I ask in annoyance that he woke me up when my head is still pounding against my skull.

"Why aren't you in class? I came home and found you asleep and I've been trying to wake you for twenty minutes but you haven't responded." He says in worry.

"I have a migraine and it making me sick." I answer him as I keep my eyes closed.

"You've been getting them a lot lately. I'm worried about you. You barely eat. You've been having horrible migraines. And you keep zoning out at times. Please go see a doctor." He says and lightly strokes my head with a cool wet cloth and it feels good.

"Okay. I will later." I say and he sighs. He leans to kiss my temple and leaves me be.

I fall asleep again and wake the next morning to my alarm going off on my phone. I sit up and I feel weird for some reason. Something is off. Maybe I should go to the doctor.

I smile when his strong arms wrap around my waist and pulls me closer to him and he rubs his nose along the back of my neck. "Morning." He says and kisses me lightly at the nap of my neck.

"Good morning Sebastian. How did you sleep?" I ask as I rub my hand on his arm that is wrapped around me.

"Fine. How are you feeling? Is your head still hurting?" he asks as he rest his cheek to mine.

"Much better today. It don't even hurt anymore." I answer. He nods and sighs when his phone goes off. We get up and ready for the day. I kiss him as he leaves me and I don't have to be at school until noon. I call my doctor for an appointment and they say they can take me tomorrow since I won't have any classes.