Chapter 10
I sit in the doctor's office. It's been a week and they called me saying they needed to talk to me. I rather be there for Sebastian right now since he is due to testify against Claude and tell the court and judge on what he did to him as a kid. He needs me and he told me to go here to see what the matter is and not to worry about him.
"Sorry to keep you waiting." The doctor says and he looks at my chart then at me. He takes a long pause. This isn't good. "So we need to run more test but the CT scan shown a tumor in your head and it's on the left side resting against your skull. We don't know if it is cancerous or not but it needs to be surgically removed soon. It's what been causing the migraines and loss of appetite and other things been effecting you. I wish I had better news but it is operable and you can make a full recovery after surgery but it is a pretty large tumor and it is wrapping around some parts of the brain. If not treated it can go further into the brain and cause brain damage." He explains and my heart stutters for a minute.
"Wait! What?" I ask in confusion. How can this be? I'm only twenty-two.
"It's pressing against the front left lobe of your brain and that's why your vision has been effecting you and causing the migraines." He explains.
"Okay so when do I do the surgery?" I ask.
"You need to see a neurologist and go from there. We are going to take blood today and test your levels to see if there is cancer cells in your blood. You might need to do chemotherapy to shrink the tumor before taking it out. It depends what the specialist says." He answers. I nod and I feel numb. I'm at a loss of what to say. What will Sebastian say?
The nurse comes in and takes blood from my arm and says I can go home now. I go home and wait for Sebastian. Three hours later he comes home with his mother behind him. She has been staying at a local hotel since our apartment is too small for her or so she says. She can't believe her son lives in a small apartment instead of a lavish home like she is used to having.
"So how did it go?" I ask after he kisses me.
"Fine. He wasn't there and I just told them everything that happened that night." He answers. "What did the doctor say?" he asks as he runs his fingertips down the side of my face.
"Umm that we should talk in private about." I answer and his smile fades and he nods.
"Well I should go. I love you son and I'm proud of you for coming forward and telling us what he did." His mother says and hugs him.
"Yeah thanks." He says and she smiles and leaves us.
"Okay what's wrong?" he asks when we are alone and he sits next to me.
"Okay, don't freak out or anything. But…I have…a…brain tumor." I answer slowly. He gasps in horror and grips my hand as he holds it.
"Okay! Does it…is it…" he can't form a coherent sentence.
"They don't know. They are running more test and they said it is operable and can be taken out without any damage to my brain. It's slowly wrapping around some parts of my brain and if not taken out it will spread." I answer what he couldn't ask.
"When will they take it out?" he asks after a minute of silence.
"Don't know. I have to go see a neurologist as soon as possible." I answer.
He nods and sits here staring at me for a long while. "Say something?" I say when the silence is too much.
"What is there to say? I mean it's a brain tumor. I know all about that and what it can do to you." He says as he looks at me with panic and sorrow.
"Yeah well it's my life and for some reason it likes to kick me down when I'm already down." I answer.
"Don't say that. At least it isn't cancer." He says as he places his hand on the side of my face.
"They don't know that yet." I answer. He sighs and leans to kiss my forehead.
We sit here for a while as he thinks about it and I worry this will chase him away from me. I mean it's a lot to take in. I'm sick! I could die from this.
"I want you to know just because you are sick I won't leave you like that. We will fight this and you will be fine." He says as he kisses my hand. I nod and sigh with relief.
"Why do you love me so much?" I ask with confusion to why he would love me so much.
"Ciel that is a stupid question to ask. How could I not love you!? You are beautiful inside and out. You are the strongest person I know. You've been through so much in your life and come out strong at every throw that has been thrown at you. You have a pure heart and I love it so much. You are the purest person I have ever met." He answers and leans to kiss me.
"I love you too." I say when he pulls from me.