Colorful Dreams (Conclusion)

The car ride was silent and awkward between Teddy and Tam. Teddy was on the verge of regretting what he'd done and Tamera was in deep thought about a lot of things. She sighed as she looked out the window and into the night. Those dreams from the past she couldn't even really remember consciously wanting Ted and it seems like from the beginning of time she wanted him to deflower her. She was in shock by how she didn't really know herself and how in denial she'd been. She was also, hurt by Teddy intrusiveness. He should have asked her before setting this up. She probably would've protested at first but then gone along with it because that's how things typically go. She huffed out a sigh. She watched as Teddy passed the exit to go to Shea's house.

"Aren't we going to pick up Tina?" She asked.

"We haven't eaten yet Tam," Teddy said quietly. He was still worried she was sore at him.

"I really don't have an appetite anymore Teddy. I just want to get comfortable and tuck my baby in and call it a night," Tam fussed and she felt a little emotional in the back of her throat.

"She's the only one you've been tucking in lately," Teddy muttered.

"Whose fault is that?" Tam asked outraged. "I don't want to argue!"

"Well then don't. I'm taking you home Mrs. Grey we are going to finish our night as planned," Teddy commanded as he took the next exit. Tam rolled her eyes and shook her head. She returned her gaze out of the window. She hoped he didn't think that anything romantic was going to cure her mood.

Tam entered their house with Teddy quick on her heels. The first thing she saw was a vase with a one white and one red rose. She tilted her head curiously as she approached the flowers there was an envelope addressed to My Friend, My Lover. She snorted a little before opening the envelope. Inside was an index card and Teddy's handwriting in red permanent marker.

Tonight I've seen your dreams and tonight I will graciously give you mine.

Tam looked over to her husband and was very confused.

"I feel it only fair that I share some of my personal thoughts after diving into yours so expectantly," he explained. "Can we finish tonight please?"

"In the car you were commanding it be finishing now you're asking," Tam chuckled and Teddy stepped closer to her. She cleared her throat and stepped back.

"I don't want to do it if you're not going to enjoy it," Teddy said bluntly with a shrug. "So it's up to you. I'd still rather have sometime alone together even if you're pissed so I don't plan to pick up Tina until later. Like I said earlier I just think we need some time Tam." Tam sighed and looked at the card again.

"So what's next?" Teddy smirked a little.

"It's upstairs … I'm a little disappointed at this next part. I didn't know you'd be wearing this dress. There's something for you on your side of the bed." Tam rolled her eyes and shook her head. She figured it would be some kind of lingerie. She strolled upstairs and saw the fancy wrapped box. She quickly opened it and saw her old cheerleading outfit and another note inside.

These three pieces of material were a test of my sanity back in the day. I used to hate when you bend over and I catch a little glimpse of your spanks. I used to tell you all the time guys like your ass. I was the guy that really liked you booty Tam. Back then I felt so guilty for doing the one thing I didn't want anyone else to do … objectify you. I convinced myself it was just the uniform and I had dealings with you friend. Plus, I thought I just had a fascination with ass so I figured she'd cure that itch. However, that wasn't it Tammy. It was the girl in the uniform that had me captivated and frustrated. That being said put it on Baby.

Tam shook her head she doubted the old thing even fit. She unzipped her dress and to her surprised it fit it was only a tad snugger than it used to be. She went downstairs and Teddy looked up at her with hooded blue eyes. He had been transported back to high school as she strolled over to him. He hungrily took in her breast, thick thighs, and plump behind. Teddy's stare was so invasive it had been awhile since he'd looked at her like that. It made the muscles below her belly button constrict.

"Hi," Tam said almost timidly.

"Hey Tammy Girl." He wanted to touch but if he did he knew they wouldn't get through the rest of the evening.

"Come on," he muttered before grabbing her hand and leading her into the kitchen. Tam entered the kitchen it wasn't until then that she noticed Teddy was wearing an apron.

"You cooked?" She said in disbelief. She knew he could cook but he never did.

"Yeah, with help from your Mamma Margaret," Teddy said proudly. "She gave me something quick and something I couldn't mess up." Teddy said as he brought the two plates to the table. Tam looked at the meal and she remembered it. It was one of the first things she made for him their first year of college.

"You remember when you made this for me Tam?"

"Yeah we were in college," she answered as she toyed with her food.

"Yeah you came over to my dorm room because you're roommate was annoying and mine was gone for the weekend. You brought over some groceries and a portable skillet and whipped this up. I remember this too because you were rocking a college tee shirt and some of the shortest shorts I've ever seen you in. That night I was tempted so many times to try something. I mean I kept looking for a sign. I remember tickling you and hoping your eyes would do that thing they do," Teddy said as he took a bite of his food. Tam searched her memory bank and reevaluated the night Teddy was talking about. He was a little touchy that night but he would always do stuff like that to screw with her. Was she to believe that each time he got like that he was testing her? She snorted and picked at her food.

"What's wrong?" Teddy asked and she just shook her head.

"I remember that night. I remember liking your touch a lot," she confessed. "I thought you were just fucking with me."

"I wanted to be fucking you that's why I was touching on you," Teddy teased. "I had conflicting feelings and even if you were okay with it … there's a chance it wouldn't have happened."

"Why?"

"I was nowhere near ready for a girlfriend. I wouldn't have wanted to use you. There were a lot of conflicted times for me regarding our friendship," Teddy stated with a shrug. "This is the memory I am the most fond of though."

"Oh." Tam quirked her eyebrows. She had most definitely learned something new. She took her last bite of food and went to stand up and take their plates. Teddy got up and took her plate from her. She went to sit back down and he stopped her.

"Stay standing Tammy we're moving into the bedroom next," he whispered. Tam's mouth went dry she wished they'd went into the bedroom in the first place. After Teddy put the dishes in the sink he led his wife upstairs.

"You look perfect Tammy, you're only missing one thing," Teddy said as he went to Tam's jewelry box. There wasn't much in there. He pulled out gift he gotten her the first time he asked her to go to Aspen with his family.

"This necklace represents the first time I wondered if you'd let me kiss you," Teddy confessed as he sat behind her and placed the necklace on her. "The first time I saw that look in your eye but I also saw a lot a fear and worry. I couldn't act on it but God I wanted to. Respecting you at times was the hardest thing I've ever had to do." Tam looked at her husband with loving eyes full of desire.

"That's the look I was talking about Tammy," he whispered as he scooted even closer towards her. "God, your eyes call to me." He smoothed his thumbs along the sides of her face. Tam felt her heart was aggressively pounding against her chest. "You want me Tammy?" She nodded and leaned towards him craving his mouth on hers.

"Say it Tammy," he ordered breathlessly.

"Kiss me Teddy," she groaned and leaned in again.

"Say you want me," he urged her.

"I want you Teddy," Tam quickly responded. She was willing to do or say whatever she needed to for him to put his mouth on her. Teddy leaned Tam back on the bed and proceeded to cascade his fingered along the outside of her thighs. She clenched her thighs together and led Teddy's face to hers. He pulled away only a little.

"Teddy please!" Teddy finally gave Tam what she wanted connecting their mouths and aggressively moving them to the center of the bed.

"I finally get to fuck you with this thing on. Are you gonna cheer for me while I fuck you Tammy," Teddy said excitedly as he made quick work of removing Tammy's spanks.

"You said I needed to fuck you more, Tammy Girl I hope you're ready!" Teddy started to undo his pants and went to enter her and Tam stopped.

"All of it off Teddy I want to see you," Tam had never been so blunt about her desires. It had been months and after waiting so long she wanted it the way envisioned so many times.

"Yes ma'am," Teddy said with a playful country accent. Tam only smirked a little but was more focused on undoing his shirt.

"There's too damn many," she said before ripping his shirt. He finished the task of removing his pants and pushed her back on the bed.

"Thanks one my favorite memories too. Fucking from behind for the very first time. You remember that Tammy?" He murmured as he entered her.

"Yes," Tam cried, he wasn't sure if she was answering his question or just in the moment. "If feels so good that way."

"You wanna do it like that now?" Teddy asked his question breathlessly.

"No I want to watch your face. Your eyes," Tam panted. Teddy gripped her waist and he began to pick up is pace. He wanted to be aggressive because tonight had brought up a whole bunch of skeletons that had created an intense passion inside of him, however it had been so long he wanted to linger.

"Teddy?"

"Yeah baby," he groaned.

"Faster … please," she begged as she pivoted towards him and began to gyrate against him. Teddy did as she request and his moments became faster and faster. He lay his full weight against her and cradled her face as he moved as quickly as he could.

"You have the most perfect face. Tam I can't get enough of you. I just" Teddy lost himself before he could finish his sentence. Tam unraveled at about the same time. Teddy lay his head on her chest and they just held each other in that moment. "I just love you Tam." Teddy looked up at Tam and she had closed her eyes and smiled.

"I love you too, Teddy."