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Have A Happy Reading nahi bol sakti (as it's emotional chapter with roller coaster ride )


Abhijeet sat on window seat, he stretched out his legs and glacing at Tarika's face once he opened diary's first page...

Monday

Maine kabhi socha bhi nahi tha ki mujhe Iss diary ki help leni paregi apni dil ki baat share karne ke liye...waise to mere paas bahut koi hai jo mujhse bahut pyar karte hai, mere har khwaish puri karne ki kosis karte hai...par mai apne Abhi ko bahut miss kar rahi hun...aaj pahli baar mere Babies ne movement ki ...haan, babies.. Sahi suna... Mai ek nahi do jindgi ko apne andar seech rahi hun...Aur mai Kitna excited thi Abhi ko ye baat batane ke liye ki unke chhote saitano ne pahli baar kick kiya mujhe...sach me, tab mujhe itna gussa aa raha tha na unpar...par unki bhi to galti nahi... unhe thori na pata tha, Achanka se mission pe jana parega unko warna wo hum teeno ko aise chhorke kahi nahi jate...

Abhijeet was feeling numb.. tears appeared on his eyes , feeling his soul's hurt , anger and desperation...he can feel how desperately she wanted to share this news but he was not with her..he remembered that day when they broke the news to his family and how much happy they were after listening this and more than that they got on Tarika's second ultrasound that Abhijeet and Tarika having twins...

Daya in naughty tone " kya boss tumhare gift ke badle hume return gift dena tha..par tumne aur bhabhi ne to hume issme bhi peecha chhor diya "

Abhijeet in stern tone with hiding his shy smile " Daya "

Daya in teasing smile " dekho to man me ladoo foot rahe hai aur hume jhoot ka gussa dikha rahe hai janab "

Abhijeet ruffled his hairs and smiled lopsided shyly.

Daya laughed and hugged Abhijeet tightly and said in so much enthusiasm " Abhi Mai sach me bahut jada khus hun yaar..mai do bhteejo ka chachu banne wala hun "

Abhijeet who was smiling till now , frowned and sperated him from hug " bhateejo ka kyun...(in twinkling smile ) mujhe to do pyari pyari pari jaisi betiya chahiye...aur maine to unka naam bhi soch liya hai Aanya aur Anaya..

Tarika interupted " par mujhe to boys hi chahiye "

Abhijeet in confusion " boys kyun.."

" kyun ka kya matlab...aapko betiyan kyun chahiye "

" kyunki ladkiya jada samajhdar hoti hai aur pyari bhi "

" Ladke bhi samajhdar hote hai aur pyare bhi, mujhe to bete hi chahiye "

" Tumhe jo kehna hai kehlo mujhe to pura yakeen hai humare yahan do chhoti chhoti princess ayengi "

Tarika stood up and said in anger " what means tumhe Pura yakeen hai...(she kept hand on her belly and said firmly in smile) mai inki mumma hun aur mera mother instict kehta hai ki boys honge ...(in sweet smirk ) aur maine bhi naam soch ke rakhe hai Aditya aur Atharv"

Abhijeet in cute anger " Mujhe na tumse baat hi nahi karni...huh...Mai bureau ja raha "

Tarika in same tone " to mujhe bhi nahi karni ( she grumbled under her breath)

Daya gained his senses and Rushed outside to follow his anger brother while shreya helped Tarika to move upstair..

In Evening

Tarika was standing near window and was checking her mobile again and again " Pura din nikal Gaya aur ek baar phone tak nahi kiya...unhe kya lagta hai sirf inhe hi gussa aa sakta hai kya...ane do inhe mai inse baat bhi nahi karungi "

She was planning to talk not with Abhijeet... little did she know her wish is going to true..

Abhijeet entered Inside room, Tarika felt his presence and looked at him from corner of her eyes...

" Tarika mujhe tumse baat karni hai "

" par mujhe aapse koi baat nahi karni "

" It's Important Tarika " his voice was serious

Tarika turned listening his grave serious tone... Abhijeet hold her hands and made her sit on bed..he sat on floor near her knees " Tarika, ab mai jo kehne ja raha hun... please dhyan se sunna "

Tarika fumbled " kya hua hai Abhi...aap...aap dara rahe ho mujhe "

Abhiieet avoided his gaze and sighing heavily he said " Tarika head quarter ne mujhe Ek Mission ke liye appoint kiya hai...mujhe kal hi nikalna hoga Mission ke liye "

" Aap majak Kar rahe hai na ...subah humara jo jhagra usika badla le rahe na mujhse " her voice was shaky

Abhijeet took her name in pain " Tarika "

" Abhi please kehdo ye majak hai...(tears were running down from her cheeks ) please Abhi.. please...

Abhijeet stood up and hugged her instantly from his waist..his one hand was on her hand and other was holding her tightly from back .." Tarika please jaan aise mat karo...tumto janti ho na humare duty ke bare me...(he kissed on her forehead and said gulping his tears ) meri jaan to bahut strong hai na "

Tarika burst out in tears...her tears were absorbing in Abhijeet's shirt.. Abhijeet kept rubbing her back until he felt her calm..he seperated from her hug...his heart pinched badly seeing her teary eyes red face. He wiped her tears and bending down he lifted her up in his arm ..and moving other side of bed, he laid down softly on her bed and gave soft kiss on het forehead...A lone tear again slipped down from her eye.. Abhijeet wiped it in pain and shook his head in no slowly telling her please don't cry ...

Tarika asked in innocent tone " tumhara jana jaroori hai kya... koi aur nahi ja sakta "

Abhijeet nod his head ..he got up and about to go somewhere when Tarika hold his wrist and asked instantly in panic " Tum Abhi ja rahe ho kya ? "

Abhijeet was feeling really low...he knows how much Tarika is strong and if the situation was like before she would never show her emotions like this...From then when she got her pregnancy, she became so sensitive and emotional...a little matter can hurt her so much and now after getting this news her behaviour was expected...and he was prepering himself from bureau to home how will he composed himself but now, his resolve was breaking seeing her tears..

Abhijeet said in soft tone " Mai bas saman pack karne ja raha tha "

Tarika said in teary tone " Mat jaye na, mujhe bahut jaroorat hai aapki ...(she looked Abjijeet's helpless stare on her and came in senses, she composed herself and said in low tone )...mera matlab hai aap baad me packing kar lena, thore der raho na aap mere paas...

Tarika moved aside making place for him...he sat down stretching his legs while Tarika kept her head on his lap..

" Aap kab aoge wapas ? "

" Do - teen mahine lag jaenge ...par mai jaldi ane ki Puri kosis karunga "

" Aap promise karo, aap apna khyal rakhoge aur befaltu ki koi herogiri nahi karoge..."

" promise " Abhijeet said composing himself

" Mai aur babies aapka intejar karenge ...(she looked at him hopefully ) aap aoge na Abhi ? "

Abhijeet's tears clogged in his throat " Mai puri kosis karunga Jaan ( Tarika buried down her face in his both legs, Abhijeet said in light tone Changing the soginess of environmental ) mujhe apne betiyon se bhi to milna hai na ...unhe bhi to pata chale ki unke papa kitne handsome hai aur cool bhi "

Tarika smiled a little and said tiredly " aap kuch bhi kehlo , Adi aur Aru hi aenge "

" ye kaun hai ? "

" Mere dono prince... Aditya aur Atharv ka nickname " Tarika said proudly

Abhijeet sighed and knocked her sill wife's head who made babyish face and closed her eyes circling her hand around his waist.

Abhijeet kissed on his forehead and sat whole night kept talking to her and his babies silently...not knowing will he made up his mission or not, so he didn't want to waste his time by sleeping...he wanted to convey all his feelings to his little one who is still in her mother's cocoon shell that, their father love him so much and not wanting to leave them but he was helpless, so please they forgive their father.

Abhijeet inhaled deeply and came out from his memory lane, that teary farewell still hurts him..he readFurther

Tuesday

Daya aur shreya to bilkul strict teacher ban gaye hai mere...kuch karne hi nahi dete mujhe...Lab se bhi chhuti karwa di aur ghar me bhi kuch nahi karne dete...har wakt bas bolte hai " Tarika aram karo "...huh kitna aram Karu mai...aur khane ke baad wo itni moti pills khani parti hai mujhe, use khake humesa vomit jaisi feel hoti hai par shreya humesa jabardasti khila deti hai...aur Daya wo to ghar me kuch unhealthy banne hi nahi deta, kitna man karta hai mera teekha teekha chaat khane ka, golgappa khane ka par mere devar jee ko bas mere aur apne bhateeje ki health ki pari hai...Abhi aap aa jaldi aa jayo fir aapko bataungi mai ki aapka Daya kitna julm karta hai mujhpe...uski daant sunkar papa ki yaad aa jati hai sacchi, par khusi bhi bahut Hoti hai jab unhe mere liye itni care karte dekhti hun...sach me mai bahut lucky hun Daya jaisa dost aur shreya jaise behan ko pake...

Abhijeet was having soft smile while reading this, he remembered how much his brother scold him when he agreed to go on Mission without even consulting him.

" Tum samajhte kya ho apne aapko , ye jante hue ki Mission se wapas ane ke chances 1 percent se bhi kam hai.. fir bhi haan kar diya tumne...pagal ho gaye ho tum ? "

" Daya "

" Mar gaya Daya " Daya said loudly in anger

" Accha to mere samne uski atma khari hai kya ? " Abhijeet said smiling naughtily

" Abhi ye majak nahi hai yaar...tum mission ke liye haan kaise kar sakte ho boss... Pregnancy ke wakt ek aurat ko sabse jada jaroorat uski pati ki hoti hai...tumne dekha tha na dev ke wakt shreya ka kya haal tha...moring sickness, mood swings, cramps, pain ...kitna kuch sehna parta hai unhe aur uss har wakt me shreya mujhe paas dekhkar hi comfort feel karti thi aur Tarika to twins carry kar rahi hai...socho, kitna sabkuch endure karna parega usse...ab tum sirf mere bhai nahi ho , ek pati aur pita bhi ho...tum ab aise faisle bina humse consult kiye nahi le sakte...kyunki tumhare saath ab kai sari jindgiya juri hai Abhijeet..."

Abhijeet in low tone " Daya jab des ki baat ati hai to mujhe uss wakt kuch yaad nahi rehta...na hi ye ki mai kisika bhai hun, kisika pati ya kisika pita...mujhe bas itna yaad rehta hai ki mai ek cid officer hun aur apne des ki raksha karne ki jimmedari meri hai..aur mai apne parivar ke liye dusre deswashiyo ke saath partiality to nahi kar sakta na ...(in sad smile ) aur tu jada lecture matde mujhe , meri jagah tu hota to yahi karta "

Daya shook his head , Abhijeet patted his back and said " mere bina soche " Haan " karne ka sabse bara reason tu hai Daya... kyunki mujhe pata hai mere absence me tu Tarika aur mere babies ka pura khyal rakhega..."

Daya 's tone became teary " aur mera kya...mera Kaun khyal rakhega...mai jo tumhe itna miss karunga itne din, uska kya ? "

Abhijeet squeezed his shoulder, Daya turned and hugged him tightly and said in pain " Abhi tum please mere bhai ko sahi salamat rakhna... agar usse kuch bhi hua na to mai tumhe terrace se neeche fek dunga "

Abhijeet laughed in tears and carresed his hair" ab to mujhe pura dhyan rakhna hi parega bhai...mujhe taang haath nahi turwane apne "

Daya smiled in tears and apart from hug..they remained silent for sometime composing their emotions..Daya looked at Abhijeet whoes were filled with tears thinking something deeply...he asked in panic " kya hua Abhi "

Abhijeet asked in pain " Daya mai apne baccho ke mooh to dekh paunga na yaar...unhe apne godi me khel ( he stopped)... unke mooh se papa to sun paunga na mai...ya mere sapne sirf sapne reh jaenge "

Daya couldn't even speak anything after word..he was just staring at his brother who was trying to be strong but breaking from inside.

Abhijeet again said looking at his eyes " Daya agar mai wapas nahi aa Paya to tu unko meri kami kabhi mehsoos mat hone dena aur meri Tarika ko sambhal lena yaar... please"

Daya composed himself and asked " tumhe ye sab kahne ki jaroorat hai kya boss... ( in bitter tone ) kya agar mujhe kuch ho jaega to tum Dev aur shreya ka khyal nahi rakhoge kya "

Abhijeet instantly " tumhe kuch nahi hoga kabhi "

Daya in harsh tone " tumhe bhi kuch nahi hoga samjhe tum... chupchap mission complete karke ayo kyunki mai tumhari koi responsibility nahi lunga ...unhe tumhe khud nibhane parenge, samjhe "

And he just went off from there hiding his teary eyes.

Abhijeet murmured " pahli baar Mission pe jane ke liye mera dil mujhe gawahi nahi de raha tha , pahli baar officer Abhijeet dar raha tha maut se...pahli baar "

He pinched air through his nose and read further with raising heart beat of each passing time..

Wednesday

Aaj pure 5 months ho gaye mere babies ke...har baar inki heartbeat sunti hun aur har baar mujhe inse aur bhi jada pyar ho jata hai...pata nahi kyun par aaj ke test ke baad Doctor kuch pareshan lag rahe the aur Daya bhi...kahi koi problem to nahi, mere bacche to theek hai na...kya, Tarika tu kuch bhi soch leti hai...mere bacche bilkul theek hai...fir Daya itna pareshan kyun tha... ABHI, please jaldi aa jayo...Tumhari Tarika ko bahut dar lag raha hai...tumhare seene se ek baar lag jaungi na to mera sara dar dur bhaag jaega ... please aaj jayo ab, do mahine to kabke pure ho gaye...kyun itna intejar karwa rahe ho mujhse itna

Abhijeet 's tear fall on Tarika's diary ...he could feel Tarika's fear ..his Jaan needed him badly and he was not there for her, he wasn't !!!!! she had endured everything silently without any single complain..Abhijeet came closer to Tarika and hold her hands...he kissed on her palm and then on her forehead dropping his tears " I 'm sorry jaan "

He looked at her face and remembered the pain which he saw today, he knew the pain..which they both went through..he has recovered though but she was still stuck at the point, after all she was a mother who carried her baby in womb , suffred all the pain alone..

His head fall on backrest and he remembered the day when he had come back from Mission..

Tarika was sitting on couch looking outside with blank expression , 7th months bumb was clearly showing..on pregnancy, every woman had glow on her face but hers was pale..she was having dark circles on her eyes...her weight has reduced so much instead of gaining..

Daya felt pain in his chest seeing her like this, he kept a hand on her shoulder .. Tarika turned and looked at him with same expression ..

" Tarika kyun itna exert kar rahi ho khudko itna... Doctor ne tumhe mana kiya hai na stress lene se " he said softly

Tarika in low tone " kaise stress nahi lun Daya...pichle 1 mahine se Abhi se koi contact nahi ho paya hai humara..hume pata bhi nahi ki wo kis haal me hai...(her voice shivered in pain ) Jinda bhi hai ya nahi "

Daya took her in side hug and rubbed her arm softly " Abhi bilkul theek hoga Tarika.. Mission me kabhi kabar aisa ho jata hai ki hume apne disguise ko bachane ke liye sare contact break karne parte hai...( In tears ) mujhe pura yakeen hai mera bhai theek hoga...wo humdono se kiya wada aise nahi tor sakta...use wapas ana hi hoga "

Tarika In broken tone " use bolo ab jaldi wapas aa jaye...mujhse ab aur bardast nahi ho raha...bahut dar lag raha hai Daya mujhe, please use bolo ane... please "

Daya closed his eyes in pain and seperating her from hug , cupped her face and said " mai aaj hi sir se baat karunga...par tum rona band karo...( Tarika wiped her tears ) good girl...(he filled water in glass from jug ) chalo ab pani peelo...you"ll feel better

Tarika drank a little and pushed softly the glass from her lips..

Daya kept the glass on table and said " Tumhare meds ka tims ho gaya...mai leke ata hun "

Tarika in sad tone " Mujhe nahi khani please "

Daya tackles her softly " Tarika tum janti ho na wo dawai kitna important hai babies ke liye ( Tarika lowered her eyes , her eyes were verge on tears as she will cry )...accha accha okay, I promise ki mai tumhe dawai khane ke baad pani puri khilane le jaunga "

Tarika's eyes twinkled like a kid " sacchi ? "

Daya in smile " Bilkul...( in strict tone ) par jada spicy nahi "

Tarika pouted but agreed with slow " okay "

Daya smiled on her and ruffled her hairs " mai abhi aya "

Daya had just come back with meds when his foot became stop and shock and panic expression came on his face seeing Tarika unconsciously dangling on Abhijeet's arm..

" Abhi " he was sure his voice was not higher than whisper

Abhijeet was patting Tarika's cheek in extreme panic ' Tarika ... please ankh kholo...kya hua tumhe... please mujhe Dekho...open you eyes jaan please..."

Abhijeet's panic voice helped Daya to come out from shock ...he reached near them , ask worriedly " kya hua Tarika ko ? "

Abhijeet looked at his brother and felt air again filled in his lungs which has been stopped due to fear " pata nahi yaar...ye mujhe dekhte hi achanak se aise..."

" Pahle isse room leke chalte hai fir mai doctor ko call karta hun "

Abhijeet nodded and hurriedly bend down and took Tarika in his arm lifting her up from floor under her knees...his heart pained realising her low weight instead of more than 7 months pregnency.

He laid down Tarika on bed carefully and sat beside her while holding her hand on his..he gave soft kiss on her Palm..

Daya came with " Meri Doctor suman se baat ho gayi hai.. she is on her way "

Abhijeet just nod slowly..He was looking very afraid seeing her pale face , his instict was saying something is definitely wrong..he looked at Daya and asked " Daya, Tarika theek hai na...kuch hua hai kya ise ...itni bejaan kyun lag rahi hai ye "

Daya * Abhi ko sab batadu kya...par Abhi Abhi ye Mission se aya hai , pahle hi Tarika ko behos dekhkar iski saans atak gayi hai agar Tarika ke pregnancy complications ke bare me bataunga to aur bhi pareshan ho jaenga...nahi, abhi batana theek nahi rahega "

Daya said ' wo tumhara ek mahine se contact nahi ho pa raha tha na isliye bas Pareshan thi...baki sab theek hai, Tarika aur bacche dono theek hai "

Meanwhile Doctor came there and checked Tarika, she talked Daya for sometime privately and left from there giving some medicine.

" Kya kaha doctor ne ? "

" Yahi ki iss dauran chakkar ana bahut normal baat hai.. ghabrane jaisi koi baat nahi hai...Tarika bilkul theek hai , aur use thore der me hos bhi aa jaega "

Abhijeet sighed in relief and hugged Daya in happiness " mai kitna dar gaya tha yaar...thank God sab theek hai "

Daya * I 'm sorry Abhi , par mai tumhe sach nahi bata sakta... sayad wo bahut takleef degi tumhe *

Abhijeet seperated him fr hug and asked in loving tone " Tu kaisa hai aur humara Dev, wo to kitna bara ho gaya ho ga na...aur shreya wo kaisi hai ? "

Daya in smile " hum sab bilkul theek hai aur ab tum aa gaye ho to aur bhi theek ho jaenge...shreya aur Dev Mummy jee se milne gaye unki tabeeyat theek nahi thi to "

" Oooo "

" Accha tum fresh ho jayo , mai lunch ka dekhta hun "

Abhijeet nodded and Daya leaves while patting his cheek lovingly.. Abhijeet sat beside Tarika and looked at her face, oh goodness..how much he missed seeing her...he kissed on her forehead and then his eyes fall on her swelled belly where his and Tarika's babies are growing...he felt overwhelmed looking at her bump...he kept his hand softly on belly and cold sensation passed through him when he felt kick ...yes, babies kicked recognising his father.

Abhijeet laughed in tears " oh my, itna miss kiya mere angels ne mujhe...(he kissed on belly two times giving kisses to his both babies ) papa ne bhi bahut Sara miss kiya aap dono ko.."

Abhijeet was having soft smile on his face remembering that Day, how much he was happy feeling his babies kicks under his broad palm ..he opened Tarika's diary and read further page .

Saturday

To My Babies,

Aaj Abhi ko aye hue 15 din ho gaye...aur mai itni khus hun ki bata nahi sakti...pata hai usne kya kiya ate hi dusre din usne pure ghar ko khilona se bhar diya...aur to aur aap dono ke liye prams bhi le aya ..mujhse jada to wo excited ho raha hai mere muchings ke welcome ke liye...Abhi ke ane se meri khoyi hui takat bhi mujhe wapas mil gayi..ab aisa lag raha hai mere pregnancy me kitne bhi complications kyun na hoaap dono ko kuch nahi ho sakta...aap dono ke saviour jo aa gaye hai ab...aapke papa aapdono ko kuch nahi hone denge , kyunki wo bhi jante hai mumma aap dono se kitna pyar Karti hai...agar aapdono ko kuch bhi hua to wo jeete jee mar jaegi...I promise my Babies, mumma aapdono ko protect karengi air kuch bhi nahi hone dengi... aur ab to papa bhi aa gaye hai na, sab theek ho jaega ...Love you so much my darlings.

Abhijeet caressed the diary...he can feel the love emitting from each words..* kitna vishvas tha Tarika ko mujhpar ki mai apne baccho ko kuch nahi hone dunga... par mai fail ho gaya...uss din ek pati bhi fail ho gaya aur ek pita bhi *

Abhijeet, Daya, shreya , salunkhe , Acp sir, Freddy , Rajat along with purvi was standing on corridor with tense expression on their faces..

More than Abhijeet, Daya was looking frightened as he was aware of Tarika's complexion..* please bhagwan meri bhabhi aur un masoomo ki hifajat karna...agar unko kuch bhi hua to Mera bhai tootke bikhar jaega bhagwan...use msine itna khus jindgi me aaj tak nahi dekha, please mere bhai ke chehre se wo khusi mat jane dena... please bhagwan " a tear rolled fown from his cheek while praying.

Shreya hold his cold hand " Daya you have to be strong...(in hurt ) Doctor ne hume pahle hi worst ke liye prepare rahne ko bola tha..hum Bhaiya se jada mentally prepared hai agar kuch galat hua to Bhai wo shock bardast nahi kar paenge Daya... please unhe bata dijiye Sab kuch '

Daya in pain-filled-tears" shreya mujhse ye nahi hoga "

Shreya in strong teary tone " agar aap Bhaiya ko kam pain dena chahte hai to please unhe bataye isse pahle ki Der ho Jaye...aaphi unhe mentally prepare kar sakte hai Daya aur koi nahi "

End of this chapter :

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