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Tarika became totally numb seeing Abhijeet in colour of mourning. Her legs turned into jelly and she fall down on her knee. Each and every Moments she spent with her baby revolved in her mind ...those priceless nine months which she has been with her daughter...those moments when she heard her first heartbeat. Tarika recalled the best pleasurable and soothing moment of her life when Doctor has kept her baby's petal likes body on her chest and how her body was filled with thrill and happiness..she was feeling herself complete. Aanya's lovely face , her innocent brown eyes..was flashing in her eyes. she was feeling lifeless and shallowness inside her , a mother's heart was shattering into Zillion of pieces thinking she would not get to see her moon's face ever...she would not get to hold her little princess in her life ever !!!!!!
With this, she just broke down into tears badly ...Abhijeet took her into comforting hug and rubbed her back , a silent drop of saline peaked out from his corner..but he wiped it instantly before it came out...
Tarika's crying voice was cutting his heart into slices , his voice was itching..eyes were burning to release some grief in form of tears but Abhijeet's mind was acting opposite of his heart. He doesn't want to break down cause it will give him sofe relief that he doesn't want ..he wants to suffer pain so that he could punish himself for neither saving his daughter's life nor saving Tarika from heart break and intense pain.
15 Days Later
" Haan Daya kuch pata chala khooni ke bare me ? "
" Nahi sir, hume jo clue mili thi bas usike bare me pata karne purvi aur Sachin gaye hai "
" hmmm "
" sir, may i go now ? "
" Daya mai ye baat kisi aur se bhi jaan sakta tha ...( he sighed) sit..mujhe tumse kuch jaroori baat karni hai "
Daya sat on opposite chair, he could say from Acp sir's serious face that the matter would be serious.
" Daya , wahan sab kaisa hai ? "
Daya chukled sadly, he turned his head and found Abhijeet working on laptop with tense line on his forehead, he turned back and looked at Acp sir whoes glance was still fixed on his elder kid " Jo hai wo aapke saamne hi hai sir... Abhijeet ne khudko apne aapko itna busy kar liya hai ki use baaki kuch ka wakt hi nahi milta..usne apne aapko bureau aur Adi me samait liya hai sir...( his eyes filled with sadness ) mera bhai Mission se teen mahine pahle hi aa gaya par mujhe to aisa lagta hai jaise wo wapas aya hi nahi wahan se.
Daya's eyes became teary but he composed and said in pain-filled-smile " sayad..maine apne bhai ko kho diya sir "
Acp sir kept his hand on his palm and said " Daya kya bol rahe ho tum...ek baap ke liye apni bacchi ko khona kitna muskil hota hai pata hai tumhe aur tab jab usne uske ane ke liye itne sapne sajaye ho ...usse thora wakt do beta "
Daya asked in hurt" sir, kya Aanya meri kuch nahi thi...chhe mahine jab wo mission pe tha..mai aur shreya jate the Tarika ke saath,...(his voice clogged in his throat ) use pahli baar jab monitor screen pe dekha tha aur uske dil ki dharkane suni thi..tabhi mujhe usse pyar ho gya tha...aur kaise nahi hota, wo mere bhai ki beti thi sir..Mere Abhijeet ki ...to kaise mai usse pyar nahi karta ?
Daya ssaid in sad-filled smile " jaanta hun uske jitna nahi par Aanya mere liye bhi bahut keemti thi sir, bahut hi jada...(he said with dreamy smile) sir, aapko pata hai jab Tarika 5 months pregnant thi tab pahli baar dono baccho ne kuch movement ki thi...mai usi ke paas baith ke TV dekh raha tha and she just took my hand and pressed it on her tummy...wo feeling mai bata nahi sakta sir, mai aur Tarika itna jor se chillaye the ki Dev joki bagal me soya tha uth gaya..(he laughed a little ) aur fir shreya ne mujhe itna danta ki poochiye mat !
" uss wakt mera itna man kiya Abhi ko jor se gale lagane ka ...usse apni khusi share karne ka...uss raat mai so nahi paya tha sir ye sochke ki aaj mere bhai ne kitna pyara Moment miss kar diya apni jeendgi ka aur ye bhi soch raha tha ki aaj Agar wo humare paas hota to kitna khus hota .."
Daya in tears " khoya sirf usne nahi hai sir... fir wo apne aapko kyun dur kar raha hai mujhse, kitna taras gaya hun mai apne bhai ke saath wakt bitane ke liye...par sayad ab use meri koi parwah hi nahi hai "
Acp sir in pain " Daya "
Daya cleared his vision and sighing deeply , he said " Mai...Mai theek hun sir "
Acp sir said after composing himself " Daya tum fikar mat karo...mai baat karunga usse...( in hope ) sayad wo batade ki uske dil me kya chal raha hai "
Daya nodded being normal..
At home
Tarika has healed physically but her mentally condition was being worse.she always felt low , distracted, confuse, and guilty. If she did something her mind was wavering somewhere else, she can't able to concentrate herself.
Tarika was trying to read some story book to distract her mind , but she was not able to focus her mind..she was being frustrated to herself and on top of that Aditya got up from his nap and started crying.
Tarika hold her head and said in angry n helpless tone " kya museebat hai yaar...(she picked up Adi and tried to calm him ) sush...baby chup ho jao...chup ho jayo na bacche please... "
Adi's hollering voice has made her headache worse..she was feeling herself useless for not even able to calm down her own son and she vent up her anger on poor soul "chuppppppp ho jayo...kyun nahi chup hote tum..haan ...( she was going to put Adi on bed in rash )
When shreya took Aditya in her arm and was looking tense and bewildered, she said in pain " Di ye aap kya kar rahi ho yaar, chhota sa baccha hai ye...( she cuddled Adi to her chest ) na na gudde aise nahi rote...ssss mera baccha...chachi aa gayi hai na...hmm ( She patted Adi's head and feeling magical touch on his forehead, Adi drowsed in sleep )
Tarika was looking at the scene with mixture of hurt, pain , insecurity, and guilt. When shreya could sleep Adi, then why not she...she is his mother...damn it !!!!!!!
Shreya kissed on Adi's forehead and said in inaudible tone , " Di, mai Adi ko apne room le ja rahi hun.."
" Nahi...tum...tum ise rahne do mai sambhal lungi "
" Di, aapki tabeeyat theek nahi lag rahi mujhe...mai le jati hun Adi ko , aap tab tak aram karlo "
Tarika said in blank tone " shreya i can manage my son...(she took Aditya frok her hand ) mai sambhal lungi ...haan, mai sambhal lungi ( she was blabbering to herself )...tu...tum jayo Dev ke paas "
" Di aap "
Tarika looked Angry now " maine kaha na tum jayo ...( she said in serious tone ) aur kl se duty bhi join karlena tum, kitne din mere liye apna career barbad karogi tum..."
shreya asked in hurt tone " aap mujhse iss tarah se kyun baat kar rahi hai Di..."
Tarika put Adi on bed and said avoiding her eyes " Shreya mai aise hi baat karti hun humesa ...aur maine aisa kya keh diya...yahi to kaha na ki duty join karlo...Adi aur Dev dono ko mai sambhal lungi aur mere help ke liye Meera ( care taker of kids ) hai na"
shreya wiped her tears and left the room hurriedly. She got that Tarika didn't want her to spent more time with Adi..and this has hurt her badly ..
Tarika was sitting numb on her bed...she had seen shreya's tears and her pain-filled-tears had left her in gravity of guilt. she was feeling to kill herself for acting like moron..how could she behave like this with her sister , who had taken care of her and tried every was possible to make her feel better... feeling ashamed on herself, tear slipped down from her eyes...she was feeling so lone and helpless.
At Night
It was midnight when Abhijeet came back his home. He was looking dead tired, his eyes were red which was telling about his lack of sleep. He has taken meal which was kept for him in microwave . No one, wait for him...why will they...when he was the responsible for it. He had given a big scolding to Daya for waiting for him.
' Daya kitni baar mana kiya hai tumhe .. Mera intejar mat kiya karo tum "
" kyun nahi karu ? "
" Daya mera behas karne ka bilkul mood nahi hai "
" Kab tak Abhi...kab tak tum yun bhagte rakhoge...humse...apne aap se...( in pain ) kyun khudko itni takleef de rahe ho tum ? "
Abhijeet laughed on this question " Daya tum yaar aankhe check karalo apni...mai kis angle se takleef me dikh raha hun tumko ...(he controlled his laugh ) mai bilkul theek hun Daya ..koi dukh ya takleef nahi hai mujhe "
Daya chuckled " ye khokli hansi dikhake kisi aur ko befakoof banana tum...mujhe Nahi...(he sighed deeply and said ) aur agar tumne apne aapko aiena me dekh liya hota na ekbaar to sayad samajh jate ki tumne kya haal kar liya hai apna "
Abhijeet became totally silent after that, Daya asked in rueful smile " kya hua Abhijeet chup kyun ho gaye...hoge bhi kyun nahi kyunki apni sakal dekhne ke baad tumhara aiena tumhare iss bejaan aankh aur jhooti muskurat ko jhoota Jo saabit kar dega...(his voice became teary ) waise mai jaan sakta hun ki tum khudko aur mujhe kis baat ki saja de rahe ho...kya aisi galti ho gyi mujhse jo tum ab meri sakl bhi nahi dekhna chahte "
Abhijeet closed his eyes in pain but soon he composed himself " Daya tum bekaar ki baate sochne ke liye bilkul ajad ho ..par kl se mere liye table pe itnejar mat karna tum warna sayad kl se tumhe raat ko bhi mai ghar me nahi dikhunga "
Daya was numb after listening this...he felt someone has choked his voice " tum...tumhe aisa karne ki koi jaroorat nahi hai ...mai kal se nahi dikhunga tumhe ...pakkka...par tum ghar aa jana please "He left the spot immediately with heavy and shattered heart.
Abhijeet pulled back his chair and filled his plate, he took a morsel on his mouth ... his eyes were filled with tears, his food pipe was restricting him to eat but hr was pushing down bite ...at one moment, he couldn't hold himself and pushed back the plate , he burst out in tears hiding his face inside his elbow .
Abhijeet came from his memory lane hearing Adi's soft wailing. He picked up his son in his arm and cooed him lovingly . Adi stopped crying feeling warmness of his father...Abhijeet sat on bean bag , holding his little angel in his hand " to pata lag gaya aapko mere ane ka...hmm ? "Abhijeet kissed on his forehead " accha batao aaj din bhar mere big guy ne kya kya kiya...mumma ko Pareshan to nahi kiya...hmm ?" Aapko pata hai aapke chachu mujhse naraj ho gaye hai...maine unhe daant jo diya...(he tried to justify himself ) par unhone bhi to saitani ki thi na...itni der tak jagte mere liye to unki bhi tabeeyat kharab ho jati na...aap hi bolo papa kaise hone dete ye...( Adi smiled ) yahan papa pareshan ho rahe hai aur aapko hansi aa rahi hai...huh
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Abhijeet turned his face other side pretend to be angry " papa gussa ho gaye ab jayo...( he looked at his chhotu from corner of his eyes , Adi has hold his finger from his small fist) okay okay...ab itna sorry bolne ki jaroorat nahi hai...papa maan gaye
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Abhijeet smiled tearily looking at his son, Adi was sucking his finger " bhook lagi hai mere bacche ko...( he put Adi in cradle ) aap rona mat okay betu...papa bas abhi kitchen se doodh late hai aapke liye...(he kissed on his tiny hand ) okay baby ?
He went off from room...Tarika opened her eyes..." subah aap mere uthne se pahle bureau chale jate ho aur raat ko ate ho mere sone ke baad...kyun mujhse bhaag rahe ho aap...kya aapko lagta hai ki Aanya ki maut ki wajah ( her eyes became teary )...kya ye sach me aisa sochte hai mere bare me...? "
End of this chapter
A/n ;. Any gues ki Abhijeet ke deemag me kya chl raha hai ?Aur Tarika ke strange behaviour ke peeche kya reason ho sakta hai...?Next chapter will have a big twist ( wink )I"ll update after getting all your reviews :)Love you allBubye...tc :)
