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"I'm feeling, I've lost everything.. It's been more than fifteen days but Abhi has not even spare a glance to me. It's been freaking fifteen days to hear my name from his mouth that's choking me from inside. Even knowing it, his silence suffocates me to death, he pretends to not care and is busy in running away from me . First time in my life I'm unable to get what's going inside his heart and what's reason behind his silence ! ...sometimes I think the reason is nothing but me. My heart knows , still believes he can't think me as murderer of his child but what should I do to my mind which is only indicating he looks at me as a murderer of his daughter and not his beloved wife for whom he used to sprinkle his life at one time. My mind is started to giving up on him, i can't handle his silence any more ... it's kill..."

The word has ended there, Abhijeet's heart became heavy reading this..he got that , she would have broke down and so couldn't complete her sentence. He was hurt beyond words to know that Tarika was calling herself a murderer. But then it was he who has made her to think like that. If he would be more sensible then she didn't have to suffer all this alone !

But then the situation has become like this, he felt best to hide his emotions. He was running away from them cause he knew they would take out everything from his stomach. And he didn't want to share his grief with anyone, he wanted to hold everything related to his Aanya just inside himself. He was taking his time to prepare himself for facing Tarika . What a cruel joke , he was running from her cause he was feeling himself responsible whatever has happened...he always think If he would have not go to Mission then he could take care of her and babies very well then it's all have not happened. But he had not thought even for a second that due to his own regret he was hurting her and making his Tarika guilty .

Abhijeet flicked other page, thought it was scaring him but he opened and whatever he read just tore his heart into million of pieces...

" Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha mere saath kya ho raha hai...mujhe aisa lag raha hai mai bahut beemar hun...kuch...kuch ho gaya hai mujhe...mai khus nahi hun ...mai bilkul khus nahi hun ...Adi, mera beta hai...par uske saath mai bilkul connect nahi ho pa rahi hun ..I don't feel anything for him...kaisi maa hun mai mujhe apne bacche ke liye kuch feel nahi hota...par jab wo shreya ke godi me jake chup ho jata hai to mujhe dar lagta hai usse khone ka..mujhe lagta hai mai Aanya ke saath Adi ko bhi...Maine apne insecurity ke chalte shreya ko bhi hurt kar diya..she cried , maine rulaya use...I hate myself...I hate it...mai ye nahi hun...nahi hun mai ye "

Abhijeet can feel her confusion and her tormented emotions, how much depressed she would be when she wrote it. The person who loves other kids was feeling detached from her own kid is something no one can believe, he had also not believe when Dr Kalpana, pyscraterist told him.

He is driving recklessly on road breaking all the trafic. He was on crime spot when shreya had called Abhijeet and asked him to come hospital , saying Tarika has admitted there. From that time his heart has refused to beat in normal pace. It had finally took thirty minutes to came to his destination which was like hours for him...

Abhijeet raced up toward corridor and paused seeing shreya ...there she was sitting on bench with lost expression on her face .

" shreya "

His voice startled shreya..she came from her thoughts and got up " sir accha hua aap aa gaye "

" kya hua hai use ? " his voice was anything but calm.

Shreya reminded the terrible moment and her body shivered like a leaf. some tears creeped in her eyes telling about the incident happened at noon " sir aaj duty se ane ke baad maine Di ka mood change karne ke liye unko bola ki wo mere saath mall chale...mere kaafi jid karne par wo mere saath taiyar ho gayi chalne ke liye aur Jab...jab hum mall se wapas aa rahe the tab maine dekha...

Shreya has forgotten her some goods in mall so she asked Tarika to wait for her and went back to mall . Few moments later when she came back with shopping bags..her eyes became wide in fear...seeing Tarika standing in front of truck which was speeding toward her and Adi, who was lying on his travell stroller... truck was pressing the horn but it seems Tarika was not hearing anything, she was looking lost in her own world.

Shreya shouted in scare " Di hatiye samne se...( her body was trembling in fear ) Tarikaaaaaaa move...

She throw bags away which she was holding and ran toward her...she pulled her and Adi's stroller in time before they hit. Feeling stong grip on her arm Tarika came in her sense..she looked around and gasp the surrounding ..her eyes fall on arm which was helding tight by shreya...she looked confuse " kya hua shreya tumne mujhe iss tarah se kyun pakra hua hai "

shreya became so much enraged " ye sawal to mujhe aapse poochna chahiye...aapko kya hua Dr Tarika...deemag kaha hai aapka ...( she shouted in fear ) have you lost it...tum abhi truck ke neeche ane wali thi..wo truck itni jor se horn Baja raha tha tumhe sunai nahi de raha tha..haan...( her tone became teary ) agar mai wakt pe nahi ati to abhi tum aur Adi uss truck ke samne...( she stopped feeling lump in her throat )

Tarika felt chill rand down through her spine...she has been came out from the jaw of death and she has not even realised that ! And also, she has put her own baby's life in danger...how Careless mother she is..If something happen to Adi...no, it can't be...her heart shook in fear" shreya mujhe kuch yaad nahi...maine Adi ki jaan khatre me daal di...(she covered her mouth being shock) shreya Mai pagal ho rahi hun yaar...muj...mujhe kuch ho gaya hai...mai khudke bacche ke liye khatra ban gayi hun..

Shreya pulled Tarika in hug not being able to see her sister so lost and broken , she carresed her hair and said in teary voice " Di kuch nahi hua hai aapko...aap... aap bilkul theek ho..."

" Fir mai di ko yahan le ayi... Doctor unka check up kar rahe hai "

Abhijeet has been frozen ...his mind has felt electric zolt hearing all this...and was feeling thousand watt currents are running up and down inside his body...he is feeling chill Inside him..Abhijeet leans his head on wall and close his eyes...

" why are you killing me bit by bit... please kill me at once...My death is far better than seeing my close ones near to death again and again " he demands from God

Shreya and Abhijeet's thought disrupted when two ladies Doctors came from ward..

" Dr suman, Di kaisi hai ? " shreya asked anxiously

" she is fine but I need to talk with you guys... please come inside my cabin "

shreya looked at Abhijeet who controlled his fear and followed Dr suman and another unknown lady Doctor.

Inside Cabin

Abhijeet and shreya is sitting on chair .. they both are looking so axious and waiting impatiently for Doctors to say something as they were busy in discussing something

Dr suman turned her face to them a few moments later and started with serious formal expression " Abhijeet ye Doctor Kalpana hai ( Abhijeet gave her a small nod and she accepted it with a small formal smile )...Tarika ka case ab se ye handle karengi maine inhe uski sari medical history bata di hai inhe "

Abhijeet asked with confusion " par suman Tarika ka case to tum...I mean fir inki kya jaroorat hai ? "

Dr suman sighed and said " Abhijeet ab Tarika ko meri nahi inhi ki jaroorat hai, Dr kalpana is best psycretarist in our hospital...Tarika ko jo beemari hai uska treatment sirf yahi kar sakti hai mai nahi "

Abhijeet is turning more anxious with each words of suman and her round talking habbit is not helping either " please stop beating around the bush aur bataye baat kya hai...kya hua hai meri wife ko ? "

" shreya jaise ki aapne bataya ki Tarika aaj kal chhote chhote baato pe chid jati hai... hurt ho jati hai...unka sleeping habit aur eating habit me change hona...kisi bhi baat me concentration na hona..chhoti si chhoti baat me confuse hona aur khud ke bacche ke saath bonding utna strong nahi hona...ye sab baate sirf ek hi or ishara karte hai " postpartum Depression "

Abhijeet stuttering " Dep..ression ? "

Doctor suman in sad tone " Tarika has been gone through so much uska depressed hona bahut common hai...even 50-60 Percent new mother postpartum Depression ka sikar hoti hai... delivery ke wakt kafi physical aur emotional changes hote hai human body me jis karan hormones me kaafi changes ate hai...main reason iss depression ka yahi mana jata hai ...kaafi cases me agar iske bare me jaldi pata lag jata hai to patient ke theek hone ka chances bahut Jada hota hai par jo late kar dete hai unka depression aur badhta chala jata hai...even in some cases women took their life "

shreya hold Abhijeet's hand in fear...

" dekhiye mai aaplogo ko darane ke liye nahi bata rahi thi jo real fact hai bas usse rubaroo karwa rahi thi "

" Doctor Tarika theek ho jaegi na ? "

" Bilkul Abhijeet...roj medication lene se aur Excerise karne se wo fir se pahle jaisi ho jaegi ...but unhe sabse pahle aap unke dil ki baat samajhye...ye janne ki kosis kijiye ki wo kya sochti hai.. kya mehsoos karti hai ... unhe ek pal ke liye bhi akela mat chhoriye aur main baat unke saath bilkul normally behave kijiye ...humari dawa se jada unhe abhi Aapki jaroorat hai Abhijeet " kalyani said

Abhijeet nodded and shook hand with her and thaking the both doctor, they escorts toward home with Tarika and Adi..Abhijeet was just looking at her during journey but she had not glance at him even for once in whole journey, she was just looking outside from windshield of car.

Abhijeet came from his hurting memory lane feeling a soft hand on his shoulder, he hurriedly hide diary under pillow and composing himself, he turned and saw at his wife who was looking at him with concerning gaze

" Abhi kya hua aapko...aap ab tak jage kyun hue hai... tabeeyat to theek hai na aapki ? "

Abhijeet felt a crack in his heart, he managed to smile with difficulty " haan Tarika mai theek hun...bas wo pyas lagi thi to neend toot gayi "

Tarika placed hand on his cheek and asked " aap pakka theek ho ? "

Abhijeet kept his head on her lap and said in smile " pakka "

Tarika's heart melt seeing his cute smile..she loves his irrestible smile more than anything in the world..she bow down and dropped a kiss on his forehead..

Abhijeet close his eyes feeling the sooth...her touch is so pure, so magical..his wound has healed a bit which has opened up after long..his heart is still lurking at the past... but right now he just want to feel and enjoy this loving moment with his angel..

He opened his eyes and the first thing which welcomed him was her beautiful face and those black shiny eyes which were holding so much love and care for him..he just felt overwhelmed and strong sensation in his heart " I Love you " ...the words came out from his mouth without his knowledge , but seeing her beautiful sparkling eyes he is glad what he uttered.

Tarika said in earnest loving tone " Love you Too " and then smiled ...Abhijeet smiled too and burried his face on her lap .

Next Morning

shreya 's dreamland broke with alarm..she switched it off and kept back from where she had picked up and doing this her eyes fall on Anaya and Daya...she smiled in awe looking at them, they both were looking so adorable in sleep..she leaned her head on headrest and stared both of them with loving glance , her one hand was under her cheek..she was looking at them with dreamy expression just like the teenage girl who fells in love for the first time, used to stare at their crush.

Daya felt someone intense stare on him even in sleep..his eyes got open and shreya in time turned her face hurriedly..

He rubbed his eyes and smiled seeing Anaya's cute sleepy face..he kissed on her forehead softly " meri beti sote hue kitni cute lagti hai.."

Shreya heard this line and a tiny smile broke on her lips " jiske papa itne cute ho uski beti bhi to cute hi hogi na "

Daya looked at shreya with pleasant surprise hearing this...he was staring at her with a sinful smile on his face " Accha jee iska matlab mai aapko abhi bhi cute lagta hun ? "

" Daya aap mujhe har wakt cute lagte ho ...jab aap smile karte ho, jab aap kisi se baat karte ho , jab sararat karne ke time aapki ankho me baccho jaisi excitement hoti hai... tabhi aap mujhe bahut jada cute lagte ho " she said with loving smile on her face

Daya tried hard but redness crept over his cheek... shreya's open praise has caught him off gaurd...

Shreya knows it will happen..she said in flirty tone " aur aap jab aise sarmate ho na tabhi bahut cute lagte ho "

Daya shying like new wedded bride " shreya shut up..."

Shreya kept hand on her chest and said in dramatic tone " uffffff your cuteness !!!!!!

Daya threw pillow on her face and said in laughing " drama queen..bas "

Shreya giggled holding the pillow..

Daya said eyeing at her with a senere smile " shreya, you know.. you're "

shreya completing her sentence " mad...i know...i'm... "

Daya said in earnest smile " And i can't leave without this crazy woman who changed my life and made it like rainbow , full of colour from her madness "

shreya didn't reply but just smile deeply... sometimes we don't need word...silence can convey our feeling more beautifully.


Abhijeet was glancing his wrist watch again and again, he said in impatient tone " kaha reh gaye ye dono "

Daya who was sitting on driving seat replied " Boss hum indono ke chakkar me aaj pakka late hone wale hai "

" papa hum aaa gayeee "

Abhijeet and Daya looked each other and sighed with " finally they come "

Abhijeet opened the door for them , Adi and Dev get in the car and sat on back seat.

" kahan reh gaye the aap dono "

" Dadu aur nanu larai kar rahe the aur humdono "

Daya completed Adi's sentence with " maje le rahe the "

" No papa...hum jhagra solve kar rahe the " Dev protested, Adi nodded fully agreeing with his bhaiya

Duo smiled at them, Abhijeet closed the door and was going to open his side of seat when...

" bhaiya ek minute "

Abhijeet looked at shreya who was breathing heavily , he asked in perplexed tone " kya hua shreya "

Shreya took deep breath and resting for a while she said " indono badmaso ne apna lunch liya hi nahi "

Adi and Dev bit their tongue , Abhijeet shook his head in disappointment ..he took lunch from shreya's hand and passed them.

" Thank you chachi "

" Thank you wank you chhoro...aap dono ka lunch pura finsh hona chahiye " she said strictly

" Abhi jldi ayo yaar...hum late ho rahe hai "

" Haan bas aya "

Anaya clutched Abhijeet's finger " bale papa...meko bhi eeestool Jana hai "

shreya patted her forehead and said in tired tone " Anu baby fir se nahi...aapko bola tha na maine aap nahi ja sakte abhi school "

" Meko jana hai bacccch "

Shreya in strict tone " Anu ...no "

Anaya hugged Abhijeet from waist and looked at him with sad filled eyes.

And this is what Abhijeet can't endure, his jaan's sad face ..he picked up Anaya in his arm and said " meri kitty ...apne bare papa ke saath aaj unke school jaegi "

Anaya's eyes glittered in happiness and she asked in extreme joy " sacchi bale papa..."

" par bhaiya...ye aaplogo ko disturb"

Abhijeet said in soft tone " shreya mai sambhal lunga "

Anaya clapped her hands and kissed on Abhijeet's cheek " bale papa aap bahut cuteeee ho "

Abhijeet laughed hearing her lovely comment while Dareya looked at each other rembering morning's encounter hearing this word and smiled shyly.

Dev's voice bring them back from lala land " papa jaldi chalo na ..hum late ho rahe hai school ke liye "

Abhijeet looked at them apologetically and opening the door, he sat on passenger seat taking his baby girl on his lap.

After lot of halla gulla..they drop Dev and Adi to school giving them lots of instruction, they drove off toward bureau.

End of the chapter :)


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