WHat?
More chapters?!
It's getting ridiculous what the hell, especially because this one just barely ends before 3k words. WHat the helllllll
Anyway have fun with the kissy-kissy chapter!
(Keep in mind these are all not proof read)
Sauntering up and down in her room, Amity didn't know how to calm her heart.
Shortly after graduation, she had moved into a house together with Willow and Gus. It wasn't much, just a small cottage in the outskirts of Bonesborough that her parents happened not to use.
She had repaired the little house together with her friends a lot and they had decided to become housemates as soon as her parents had given them the permission to move in.
The witch, now twenty years of age, had managed to get into the Abominations Coven and was content to work for them besides her other small job, some mercenary work that kept the bills paid and earn her a small income.
But she had recently rediscovered the bucket list that had gotten lost to her during the past few years and found why she had originally kind of brushed it under the rug.
Kissing someone was not something she had been looking forward to after Luz had died. Just because she was kind of, sort of over her feelings for the human didn't mean she was ready for any sort of relationship after the trauma that Luz's death had caused her.
Sighing, she fisted her hands into her hair that she was now allowing to grow out. Her brown roots dominated her head once again and only the tips had stayed faintly green. Rubbing over her face, Amity stopped pacing and came to a stop in front of her desk, grumbling when she stared at the piece of paper, the writing on it still glaring at her mockingly.
She wanted to do all these things, and she had never truly forgotten about it, but because she wanted to do all these things in order, she had kind of put the bucket list away for a more convenient time. Groaning, she sat down on the desk and stared at the paper.
Upon finding it, she had added a few more small checks to the filled-out space next to skiing, because her friends and she had actually started enjoying their little getaways to the knee by now and did it regularly, as well as another one behind the Azura book, but the task about kissing someone glared back up to her with a mocking emptiness.
Embarrassedly, she had also discovered that that meant she hadn't ever kissed someone in all her twenty years.
Well, but she had vowed to do the bucket list her old friend and she had come up with. She owed Luz that much. She had to do it, of course, she had to. Sighing and breathing through, she lowered her hands to the desk and stared at the writing.
Who even could she kiss?
For a fraction of a second, her mind jumped to Boscha, but she quickly shook her head. Boscha was not a good idea and they weren't that close. Willow or Gus?
It'd be super embarrassing to kiss either of them if she was being honest. While she didn't see them in the same light as her idiot siblings that she loved very much, she still didn't romantically see them either.
Someone else?
Grumbling, Amity realized that she didn't have anyone else. Sure, she still had some contact with her old crew, Skara, Amelia, and Cat, but they were all not close enough for her to knock on their door someday and ask for a kiss.
And she sure as Titan's asshole wouldn't ever kiss her siblings or Eda. Sticking out her tongue, she shook her head again, then she sighed and rubbed over her face once more.
She didn't have anyone she was interested in, anyway. She hadn't found anyone attractive to her. Ever since Luz, she hadn't even thought about any romantic involvement. She hadn't even considered it, not even when her sister and Viney had eloped for fun, only to marry for real some weeks later. Or when Edric had announced that he was in a relationship with an old classmate of his.
Or when Willow had a girlfriend for a short time.
She hadn't ever thought about it. She didn't have any interest in that.
All she had wanted, her first and her last crush until now, had been Luz. She hadn't even known she was supposed to search for other options when Luz had died, because in her mind back then, there had been no room for romantic involvement.
Sighing, Amity leaned back in her chair and shook her head.
How was she supposed to fulfill that task if she didn't want a relationship?
She hadn't realized for how long she had already been sitting there when suddenly, she heard a knock on her door and looked up to see Willow entering upon her call.
"Hey Amity, we were thinking of ordering in. Do you want anythi-… Oh.", her friend immediately recognized the little sheet of paper on her desk and she supposed, if her expression was anything to go by, Willow had already figured out what she was gnawing on.
"Yeah, I know… Uhm, I'll be downstairs in a minute.", Amity tried brushing it off, but her friend already came over and rested a hand on her shoulder, leaning down to brush over the worn and used paper, almost falling apart from the years of carrying it around religiously. She smiled when her fingertips brushed over all the checks behind skiing.
"… You thinking about her again?", she softly asked and Amity nodded, leaning her head against the hand Willow kept on her shoulder.
"Yeah… There are so many things she should've done, still.", Amity mumbled and Willow chuckled, tapping on the last task.
"… That idiot.", she remembered their friend fondly and Amity snorted, nodding.
"Yeah, that idiot."
Furrowing her eyebrows, Willow finally turned towards her and leaned against the desk to face her friend.
"Are you still doing these in order?", she asked, casting a side glance to the bucket list. Amity groaned, nodding. Talking about it wasn't embarrassing to her, especially not in front of Willow.
"Yeah, but I don't know who to kiss. Curse my dumb fourteen-year-old brain.", she chuckled, remembering the reason why she had said that to Luz. Of course, she had wanted to kiss her knuckle-headed human and had hoped she would get the message. As far as she knew, Luz had gotten where Amity had wanted to go but hadn't wanted to promise her something she couldn't keep her word on. A small pang of pain went through her heart when she once again imagined Luz lying under the stars, staring up there and talking to her while the blood slowly seeped from her body.
"You don't have anyone you wanna be with right now?", Willow asked with a testing gaze and Amity shook her head, rubbing her face.
"After Luz died, I didn't really feel the need to fall in love again. Or, rather, I just didn't.", she truthfully answered and Willow chuckled.
"Hey, you wanna kiss me?", she suddenly asked and Amity's eyes shot up at that, while her eyebrows furrowed.
"… What?"
"You heard me.", Willow shrugged and Amity just gave her a quizzical look, slowly shaking her head.
"I don't wanna kiss you. I'm not interested in you, romantically.", she truthfully answered and Willow chuckled, pretending an arrow hit her in her chest.
"Ouch! Why must you hurt me so!", she laughed and Amity loosened up a little before joining her laughter.
"You're a goof, Willow. But seriously, I love you as a friend but I wouldn't want more.", she finally readjusted herself on her chair, shaking her head, "Please take this seriously?"
Much to her surprise, her friend stopped laughing and she looked up again.
"I'm taking this seriously, Amity. You can kiss me, I won't mind."
Rolling her eyes, she looked away from the witch who was leaning on her desk, putting her head in her hands.
"I mean it, Willow, I have no idea who to kiss."
There was silence for a second before a calloused yet incredibly soft hand pried hers from her face and nudged her to look up, meeting Willow's earnest face.
"Why does a kiss have to imply romantic interest? Who cares who you kiss? I don't, and honestly, I'd rather you kissed me than, I don't know, Gus or Boscha. I don't want a relationship from you either, so you can trust me not to read anything into a kiss and make you feel uncomfortable."
Amity pondered over that while she stared at Willow.
Technically, she was right. The bucket list said to kiss someone, not to make a whole relationship out of it. And honestly, Amity would like to kiss someone at least once. Even better if it was someone who she could trust not to read anything into it and make her regret doing it.
Humming, she squeezed Willow's hand, before nodding.
"Let me think on that offer, okay? For now, let's order something, I'm actually starving.", she smiled at her childhood friend, who pulled her to her feet with unsurprising ease – Amity had once tried to join in on Willow's workout routine and had badly failed – before sighing in relief.
"Good, Gus is probably already in a bad mood."
It didn't take long for them to decide where to order their food and prepare for dinner until it arrived. Gus told them about his day at work, the Illusion Coven where he was rising fast, and Willow and Amity teased him a little while eating before they settled for one round of videogames. After that, Amity retreated to her bathroom and brushed her teeth, but Willow's offer hadn't really left her mind. Still considering, she spat out the toothpaste, before washing out her mouth and looking at herself in the mirror.
Was she really going to do this?
Wasn't that cheating of sorts?
Well, Willow and she were both single and friends and Willow was right, a kiss between friends was just as okay. Not every kiss had to result in a relationship.
Furrowing her eyebrows, she breathed through, then she washed her face and changed into her pajamas before exiting the bathroom and knocking on Willow's door. When she got called in, the familiar slightly humid air enveloped her in what felt like a hug while she entered Willow's plant-filled room.
There were pots of plants everywhere.
Humming, she rounded the small vertical garden and saw her friend sitting on her desk, just working on her report for the Plants Coven before she looked up.
"Hey Amity, what's up?"
Rubbing her arm and holding onto her pajama shirt, she breathed through. The air in the room had always soothed and calmed her, maybe due to the humidity, or because of some odors from the plants that had that effect.
"I thought about your offer and, uh, I'd like to try it out?", she mumbled and Willow shortly furrowed her eyebrows, before nodding in understanding.
"Oh, yeah, sure!", she got up and sat down on the edge of her bed, patting the space next to her, "Come here, we can do this nice and easy."
Amity followed her friend and sat down with her. She felt comfortable enough around Willow not to feel awkward or out of place, after all, she spent a lot of time in this room just talking to the other witch or tending to her plants when she was out, so this wasn't a problem for her. The problem was starting this, somehow.
"I-I just brushed my teeth, too!", Amity tried to reassure Willow, who laughed.
"If it makes you feel better, I did, too.", she noticed her fidgeting, so the plant witch placed a hand on hers and caught her gaze, "You don't have to at all, Amity. It was just a suggestion and this kiss doesn't mean anything, neither to you or me, okay?"
She nodded slowly, but couldn't stop the memories of Luz from flashing in her mind. Willow seemed to pick up on her difficulty to relax, so she picked something off her nightstand and snuck it between Amity's fingers. When she looked down, it was the Grom picture they had taken, Willow's copy of it.
Luz grinned up to her and she immediately felt at ease, smiling.
"Th-Thanks, Willow…", she mumbled, before looking back up to her friend who was looking at her with concern.
"Hey, we really don't have to. But maybe, that'll finally allow you to move on with the bucket list?", she suggested and Amity nodded, breathing through.
"I'd like to do this, Willow, I just-… It's-…"
"Painful?", her friend helped her out and Amity gave a defeated nod.
"I-… I just-… I miss her. It's been six years and I still miss her.", she admitted, pulling up her shoulders. When Willow answered and her voice sounded kind of shaky, Amity looked up.
"We all miss her, Amity.", she reassured her old friend, before tapping the picture with a small smirk, "I could pin the picture to my forehead if that helps?"
The small joke made Amity laugh, honestly laugh, and she shook her head, still giggling amusedly.
"No, please don't do that.", she finally mumbled and Willow chuckled along with her, nodding.
"Okay, I won't.", they remained silent for a few moments, before Willow squeezed Amity's hands which were still holding the Grom picture which was significantly less worn than her own, "Ready?"
Amity looked back up to Willow and nodded, ignoring the slight blurriness in her vision, tears in her eyes.
"Y-Yeah, I think so.", she confirmed and Willow nodded at her again, which she imitated before her friend lifted one hand to cup her cheek, so softly Amity had to close her eyes and swallow not to sniffle.
Slowly, she felt her leaning in, and with a soft nudge, to which Amity responded with a confirming nod once again, Willow's lips pressed on hers.
It was a brief kiss, very chaste and innocent, and Amity appreciated Willow's understanding when she broke away, squinting her eyes tightly. Her hand moved to the back of Amity's head and she pulled her in to rest against Willow's shoulder, a warm arm wrapping around her middle while Amity shivered. It had been scary and familiar and she didn't know how to feel when she hid her face in Willow's shirt, sniffling. But the tears subsided and Amity found the strength to breathe through, before finding her way back to Willow's lips, keeping her eyes closed while she – with Willow's consent – tried another kiss.
This one lasted longer because Amity wanted to know how it felt like, quickly falling into the rhythm Willow gave her, while her hands found their way to her cheeks.
It felt nice, admittedly, and she was glad that Willow offered the kiss. She didn't want to be thrown into emotional turmoil because of one kiss.
Everything was so Willow around them. It engulfed Amity and made her feel safe, calmed her down, to the point where even her shivering subsided. Everything smelled like fresh soil and watered plants and everything was so calm and collected like her friend.
Breathing through, the girls finally ended their kiss and Amity felt Willow leaning her forehead against hers, keeping her eyes closed, before pulling back and catching her gaze.
All she found was concern and reassurance.
"… You okay?", Willow asked and for some strange reason, Amity found the answer to be yes. Nothing between them had changed. She almost felt as if this kiss hadn't even existed when Willow looked at her the same way she always did whenever she was worried for her. Giving her a small smile, Amity nodded.
"Y-Yeah, I think so. Are you okay?", she gave the question back and Willow nodded, smiling.
"That wasn't that hard, see?", she asked and Amity shook her head, a bigger smile creeping on her face, making her giggle. The other girl tilted her head in question and Amity kneaded the hem of her shirt again.
"That was actually kind of nice. Maybe I still do want to have a relationship in the future.", she giggled and Willow playfully rolled her eyes, while speaking to her in a mocking serious tone.
"Amity, I fear I have to break up with you. This is not working anymore.", This was definitely a side jab at her for thinking every kiss had to result in a relationship. Pretending to be offended, Amity placed her hands on her chest and gasped.
"What?! I thought what we had was special!", she indignantly cried and Willow laughed loudly when Amity played along, prompting her to place the back of her hand on her forehead.
"I have to leave you! It can't be helped! I love someone else!", she explained wistfully and Amity's eyebrows immediately shot up.
"Who?!"
The way Willow started blushing immediately revealed that she wasn't playing anymore. Grabbing her shoulders, Willow got up and pulled her up along with her, talking louder than necessary.
"Nobody! Goodnight!"
Amity laughed and tried resisting her friend but Willow was way stronger than her.
"Nooo, Willow, wait! Who do you like?!", she tried but her friend shook her head, her face the same color of a tomato she grew by the windowsill by now when she relentlessly pushed her out.
"Nope! Byyyeeee!", she gave Amity a little wave and then shut the door. Still laughing, Amity pounded against the door.
"Willoooow! Let me back in, I wanna tease you some more!", she whined between laughter and she could tell her friend was also laughing, while still not budging.
"Nooo, go away!", she yelled from behind the door and Amity finally gave up, retreating to her room with a big grin.
She would definitely find out who Willow was crushing on.
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