Things stay low key for another 4 days. Paul will not sleep in his crib anymore. When either of us try to put him in there he screams and cries. I'm finding it harder and harder as the days pass to keep these things from Dean. I asked Castiel to stop reading until they get back. I can't learn anything more about it without him with me for support.

I lay on the couch with Paul, trying to get him to sleep when Castiel comes running in.

"It's Dean!" He thrusts the phone my way.

"We got him!" I hear Dean say over speaker phone. I sit up straight and Castiel plops down next to me. "We got him Cas!" He says again, we can hear his smile over the phone

"Where was he?" Castiel asks

Sam chimes in "hiding out with some Navajo Indians in Arizona."

"What the?" I spit out. That is so random

"Not surprising. He was around similar people the first time we met him. Should've thought of it sooner" Dean adds "anyway, we'll be back soon! Driving straight through"

"Good. I miss you." I tell Dean. It sounded more desperate then I intend it too.

"Thank you Dean. Thank you Sam." Castiel says over the phone.

"Hey, can I talk to Hayden off speaker for a second?" Dean asks clicking himself off.

I look to Castiel who leaves the room with a little more pep then I've seen him have in a week.

"How is he?" Dean asks

"Well" I start to say "he'll be better when you guys get back here and Metatron gives us some answers"

"And what about you? Is everything okay?" He asks

I lie "oh yea, everything is good"

"I know you're lying. What's going on?" His concerned voice rings in my ears.

I bite my lower lip to stop myself from spilling. I take a deep breath and speak slowly "I just miss you, it's hard taking care of Paul without out.." I tell the partial truth

"You sure that's all?" He asks

"I'm sure" I force a smile, hoping he believes me

"I'll be back soon. I miss you guys too. It'll be better when we finish this grace thing" he tells me

"Mmmmhmm" I say into the phone, he doesn't know we have more problems now. "I love you."

"I love you too. See ya soon" he replies hanging up the phone. I place the cell on the table and lean back into the couch. One of the problems being that we've been lying to him.

I'm in Paul's room, feeding him when I hear the commotion upstairs. They must be dragging him inside through the living area to the dungeon.

I try to block out the noise by singing to Paul

"Amazing grace! How sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me!

I once was lost, but now am found;

Was blind, but now I see.

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,

And grace my fears relieved;

How precious did that grace appear

The hour I first believed."

"Hey babe. You sounded beautiful!" I hear Dean say. the door pushes open and he has a smile on his muddy face.

"Hi" I whisper back, my face lighting up. I feel the tears begin to well and I quickly stand up to give him a hug to try and cover it up.

"Hey, hey" he pushes me back gently "what's wrong?"

I wipe away the falling tear drop "nothing, we just missed you" I adjust and move Paul up showing him his face.

Dean lights up again when he sees his son face "I told you not to get any bigger!" He smiles taking him from me.

"A pound and a half while you were gone! He's been hungry!" I button up my blouse.

"Hey, where's my show?" He winks at me, while rocking Paul in his arms. I roll my eyes "it's good to be back" he says to me while looking down.

"Where's Cas and Sam?" I ask him

"With Metatron, trying to get answers out of him. We need to find that grace quickly!" He tells me

"You think he will help?" I ask

Dean smirks "he'll help if he wants to live. Let's put this one down for a nap and see how it's going" he says going to put Paul down in his crib

"Wait" I try and stop him but Paul already starts to cry and scream. Dean looks up to me with confused green eyes "he isn't sleeping in his crib anymore." I say as a fact.

"Why not?" He asks. I just shrug my shoulders as a response. "Well, he'll just have to get over it" he says back going to put him back in it again.

"No!" I reach my hand out

"Hayden, it's fine. He's a baby. He'll cry for awhile then fall asleep" Dean places him down. Paul's cries are agonizing and I pick him up.

I shake my head while rubbing Paul's back "I can't, you need to know"

"Know what? What's going on?" Deans voice raises a little catching on to my tension.

"We all need to talk. Now" I say to him before walking out of the room.

Dean collects Castiel and Sam quickly, his face eager for information.

"You're gonna need to sit" I tell him when they are all in the room.

Sam and Dean take a seat while Castiel comes around to the side of me.

"Are we about to have "the talk"" Dean whispers jokingly to Sam with a chuckle "cause it's a bit late" he gestures to the baby I'm holding.

I roll my eyes along with Sam"Dean. This is serious." I say with urgency

"OK, what then?" He asks

I look at Castiel whose looking at me, neither of us know where to start. He nods towards me with tired eyes and I cough. "Well, we learned something from the book" I look down at my feet "there's only one way to remove the mark from Paul, and it's not going to be easy.." I trail off

"Whatever it is, we can do it" Sam assures waiting to hear what else we have to say

I look to Castiel, and he speaks the words translated from the book "The one who gave life bearing the mark has to bare complete innocence as well. When the mind is cleansed, the blood mixed together cleanses the body and soul"

The room is silent and I watch Dean as he processes what we just said. After a few moments he finally speaks "so, I need to obtain an innocent mind? How the hell am I suppose to do that?" He asks the room

"We haven't gotten that far" I share with him

Sam sits up straight "I get that Paul is an innocent child, he hasn't been corrupted by the world, but Dean" he gestures to his brother "With everything we've seen and done, there's no way that can happen" he moves his hand through his hair

"We'll have to find a way.. It's all there is" I speak back to him.

"Then we will" Dean gets up walking towards us "good job you guys" he gives Castiel a hug. He comes over to me a hug as well, only I don't reciprocate. He pulls away and looks me in the eyes "what?"

"There's more" I say lowly so only he can hear me. He lets go of my arms and moves backwards back down into the chair. "Paul is an anti-Christ" I spit out looking down at our son, not believing the words.

"He can't be" Dean says in disbelief "No." He says with anger.

"Dean was human, there's no way" Sam adds in with disbelief as well.

"You were being controlled by the Mark" Castiel speaks to Dean "you were as dark as a demon. You might have been fighting it, but it was inside of you. I'm sorry, Dean." His friend says with a somber tone.

"No. He's not. Hayden, he's not. I wasn't, I didn't.." His eyes move quickly through the room.

"Dean.. It's alright.. He's our baby, just because he's an anti-Christ, doesn't mean he's a bad person.. He also has grace inside of him. Something countering that dark" I try to encourage him with something positive. "There's just as much good!" I smile

Deans eyes adjust and he stares at Paul in my arms. I walk over to him and place him in his arms. I sit on the side of the chair, waiting for the right moment to finish telling him everything.

"When did you learn this?" Sam asks from his chair

"A couple days ago" Castiel answers him

"Why wait to tell us?" Sam follows up

Castiel responds again "we didn't want to distract you from your search" It sounds selfish coming from him

"Castiel needs his grace back and fast. We needed you to find Metatron" I add in. "And Dean, there's something else" I say biting my lower lip

His eyes burn with anticipation as he looks up to me "What else could there be?!" his voice screeches exhausted.

"Lucifer" is all I can say, scared of his reaction I move away from the seat.

"Lucifer?" Sam repeats the name

"He's out of the cage" Castiel explains

"How? There has to be seals broken" Dean replies

"There was a secret seal. And it's the only one that has to be broken. It's a back door out of the cage" Castiel says

"What was it?" Sam asks

"Heaven and hell colliding" I speak the words

Sam and Dean look at me confused. Castiel speaks up "it meant if an angel and a demon ever had a child the seal would be broken.."

"But we're not Angels or demons" Dean turns his gaze to me

"No, but you had angel and demon in you.. I guess that's all it really needed" I shrug my shoulders as Castiel explained this.

"And you're sure he's out? How?" Dean asks. Me and Castiel look at each other and don't say anything. Dean must've sensed something and stands up. He passes Paul over to Sam and his voice rises "how?!"

I take a step back before telling him "he was here, in Paul's room"

"What?! When?!" His eyes are burning with rage

"A few days ago" I say feeling 2 feet tall. I knew this would happen. His jaw is tight as he clenches his teeth together "we were going to tell you but knew you would come back right away" I try to say more but he interrupts me

"Damn right I would've came back! What the fuck was he doing here?!" He yells

"We think he knows he's the anti-Christ" Castiel speaks up "that's how I figured it out.."

"The friggen devil, who took my brother to hell, is back! And now he wants my son?!" His voice getting louder with each syllable he breaths

"We don't know that he wants him" I say to Dean

"Oh right, he was just stopping in to say thanks to a baby!" Dean begins to storm out of the room

"Where are you going?" I go after him. I grab his arm but he flings his hand back around to get me off of him. The back of his hand finds my face and I fall to the ground, landing on my ass. I squirm up and grab my pained face.

He turns to me on the ground "I can't be around you right now" and turns back to leave.

I stay on the ground, holding my cheek in awe of what just happened. Sam walks over and helps me up. He hands Paul back to me.

"He'll come around. It's a lot to handle. He didn't mean what just happened either" he defends his brother

"I know" I say back to him, still angry at the older Winchester for hitting me, unintentionally or not.

"I'll go talk to him" Sam nods to me leaving the room after his brother.

Castiel walks over "are you okay?"

"I'm fine" I rub my cheek, the warm sensation slowly fading.