"Let's go!" Lucifer kicks at my feet. I stand up slowly and wait for the chains to disappear. They do shortly after and I sluggishly follow the man. It's been 3 days since I got Crowley out. I've been beaten and chained since then. The devil who was trying to be kind disappeared when Crowley did. The devil Dean once described to me is the man I am now following. I follow him for a mile before I fall to my knees of exhaustion for the first time. "Get up" lucifer demands of me.

"Sorry" I mumble out getting back on my feet. 30 minutes later and I fall again. He sighs heavily and I crawl forward to try and get up. I manage to before he says a nothing and continue to follow.

We stop after another 2 miles and I fall against a tree.

"Where are you, you son of a bitch!" I hear Dean yelling into the dark night.

I perk up, if he's here then they must've found Castiel's grace. He's okay. I stand up, using the tree as support. "Dean" I choke out in a whisper when 4 silhouettes begin to appear, I recognize Dean's instantly.

"Lucifer!" Sam calls out as well. They see us and their pace quickens.

"Castiel. I'm glad you got your grace back" lucifer smugly states to his brother.

"What happened to her! What did you do?" Dean lunges forward towards me but I'm trapped then in a cage.

"Metatron" lucifer states in a monotone voice.

"Let her out first" Dean grunts

"What? You don't trust me?" Lucifer grins

"Let's just be done with this" Sam speaks again on edge

"You don't want to do this! I can help you guys, with Paul!" Metatron pleads with the brothers.

Dean takes a step towards lucifer and pushes Metatron forward with an angel blade to his back. When Dean is just a few steps away from him he stops "let her go" he grinds through his teeth. Lucifer waves his hand and the cage around me is gone.

I walk forward and as soon as I pass lucifer Dean pushes Metatron forward into the dirt. I collapse into his arms and he holds me tightly "it's okay" he rubs my back

"Dean" is the only thing I can say. I look over my shoulder and see lucifer staring at me with a smile on his face. I turn my cheek back into deans chest.

"Don't come near my son again!" Dean threatens

"I have everything I need from him" he walks closer to Metatron, putting a foot on his neck "now I need something for you. Stand" he demands to the scribe who pout-fully obliges.

"You'll regret this!" We hear Metatron yell to us as they disappear into the fog.

"Hayden, what did he do to you?" Dean caresses my face.

"Nothing." Cough "I'm fine" I lie to him.

"You're not fine" he says feeling around me "your ribs are broken. Cas, can you?" He looks to the Angel behind him

"Of course" he steps forward. He gets closer to me and his hand lifts near my head. I flinch away, lucifers hand flashes in front of me.

"Stop. I didn't do anything." I cower away

"Hayden. It's okay. You're safe now" Dean steps closer to me, his face close to mine.

"I'm sorry, his hand was close to my face. I saw Lucifer.." I look to Castiel "sorry"

"It's alright. It won't hurt" Castiel says to me.

"We can fix her when she's sleeping. Let's just get out of here" Sam speaks up

Dean helps me as we begin to walk out of the forest. Things stay foggy even as the sun rises. We finally find our way out and get into the car. Dean tells Sam to drive so he can sit in the back with me. I let my head fall into his lap as the car begins to speed on the road. He holds my hand and I listen to them talking as they think I'm asleep.

"Do you think she knows?" Sam says first

"I don't know, she left with him right after it happened. I don't know if she could've found out" Dean says in a hushed tone.

"We should tell her" Castiel adds

"And we will, when she's better." Dean assures him They become silent and nothing but rubber burning on the ground is heard.

When I wake up I feel like nothing has happened, if it wasn't for my memories I might have not believe it. I sit up and Dean follows my movement "you okay?" He smiles softly. I nod my head. "We'll be back home soon" he says.

I forgot how fast they drive "where's Castiel?" I ask them looking at the empty front seat.

"He went back to the bunker to be with Paul. We left him with Jody but after he healed you we wanted him to have more protection, just in case with lucifer and everything" Dean explains.

"Ok" I nod my head not needing to say anything more. "Where did you find Castiels grace?" I ask next

"The first place he touched down on earth to show himself to me" Dean explains. I nod my head to him to let him know I heard him

"Metatron had a real thing for poetics" Sam chuckles out

I say no more as we continue our drive. Dean is holding my hand, gripping it tightly. I look at him and his eyes are eager to talk. I know he's mad about what I did but it was with good reason. Hours pass before we reach the bunker. I get out of the car, sluggish from sitting for so long. Dean and I walk hand in hand inside. Castiel is standing by the door, with Paul, waiting for our arrival

"Here's mommy" he smiles passing him to me

"Hey munchkin!" I kiss him on the forehead and hold him close. I'm too tired to cry and relief rushes me as he snuggles under my chin. "Let's go" I whisper to Dean. We go into our room and I sit on the bed. I look at Dean who takes something out of his jean pockets.

He pulls out the note I left "why would you do that?" He asks sadly

"I couldn't let Castiel die! We were so close!" I tell him what I was thinking

"Things could've been worse for you with him!" He goes on "I can't believe you put yourself in that position Hayden"

"He was surprisingly not that bad" I say, Dean raises his eyebrows and gives me a sideways glance "at first!" I add on

"What happened?" He asks me

I look to him and sigh softly, my breath brushing the little hairs from Paul's head in a wave "I let Crowley go"

"You what?" He asks

I recount what happens "He has a plan to open heaven again, so he can return and finish what he started. He needed Crowley's blood and when lucifer left I got the key and let him go"

"you got the key? That easy?" Dean asks

I shrug not thinking about it that way "I guess"

"That's not good, he wouldn't just leave the key laying around, no one would!" Dean starts to speak faster "you said he wasn't that bad? Shit, he was playing you! He wanted Crowley released! It's part of the plan!"

"Dean, stop. Slow down, I know his plan" I interject

"You do?" His eyes wide

"Ya, he needs Metatron's, and Paul's blood to open heaven again for himself and had Crowley because he needed the first blade" I explain

Dean looks at me confused "no. That's not it Hayden" he says flatly

"He told me himself" I pout

"He lied. You also said he was not that bad at first, and he left the key to let Crowley go in plain site" Dean adds on.

"He played me" I sigh out finally realizing it. Dean nods slowly and puts his hand over mine "then what is he planning?" I look into his soulful green eyes, waiting for his response. Only he doesn't respond and shrugs, but I know he's hiding something because they talked about it in the car "Dean, I heard you in the car ride, you know something" I push

He says "Castiel can explain it better."

I nod my head and we walk back out into the main room again. Sam is on his laptop, and Castiel is pacing in a small area. They look up when they hear us coming.

"Dean says you can explain what lucifers plan is"

I say to the Angel.

"Yes. He needs to open heaven through a back door like he escaped from for him to reenter heaven." He starts

"And he needs Paul's blood for that?" I ask

"What? No" Castiel looks confused but continues to speak "do you remember Dean telling you about the trials to close hells gate forever?" I nod my head up and down "well he has his own trials to complete, basically the same ones just reversed."

"What where all the trials again?" I ask only remembering the final one, curing a demon.

"Bathing in a hell hounds blood. Save an innocent soul from hell. Cure a demon" Sam spatters out the list memorized

"Why would he have his own?" I ask confused

"Lucifer was a powerful angel before he was cast into hell. Our father did not want to see it for a long time, and he did a lot of things just in case" Castiel explains. "Things deemed impossible. Like the seal that broke him free again. These trials for him will open a back door only he knows about, one he made"

"So how is it reversed for him? What does that mean?" I ask.

"We can only speculate." Castiel answers

"We were hoping you knew something" Sam adds

I shake my head "no, nothing. I mean, I thought he told me what he was planning but it was a lie then" I shake my head.

"He told her and Crowley he was opening heaven again for all the Angels including himself, by mixing the blood of Metatron, and Paul and that he needed the first blade." Dean catches them up on what he knows. "But he didn't really need Crowley's because he trapped him and let her think she freed him"

"Why would he do that?" Sam asks

"that's what we need to find out" Dean agrees

"And he has Paul's blood. we need to figure out why he has that" I add

"Research it is" Sam walks to his laptop and opens it.

"I'll go find the Angels and talk to them, see what they may know" Castiel nods his head at us before disappearing.

I turn towards Dean and open my eyes wide "when will this end?"

"What do you mean?" He asks

"Well.." I start to speak "we still need to figure out the way to remove the mark from Paul using you and now we are also working on figuring out what Lucifer is planning.. When will these impossible tasks end so we can raise our son?" I finish with the question

"They aren't impossible, we got Castiel's grace back. And we will find a way to remove the mark from Paul, these are just things we need to do Hayden" he responds "it will all be over when we take care of this" he puts his hand on my shoulder, squeezing it lightly

"Right" I sigh out, thinking back to what Lucifer said in the woods. "You're right" I shrug my doubt off; trying to keep my mind at the tasks at hand.