"You sure you okay?" Dean asks me as we drive away.
"I just need a shower! Anywhere will do!" I grunt out, trying not to think about what was inside of me. Sam turns his head towards me from the front of the car but I keep my eyes trained on the road, feeling grotesque in my own skin right now.
Dean returns "Well if you can hold off-"
"No!" I interrupt him "I can't even right now Dean.. just find the nearest motel and let me clean myself up!" I half scream and beg to him.
"We will." Sam assures me.
We pull into a crummy motel and we all go inside to get a room "2 beds or 1?" She smiles at us as if she thinks she knows a secret.
I snort back at her "1" with an even wider grin and she types something into the computer.
"what?" Dean asks me in a whisper and I just ignore him. She hands us a key and I lead the way out of the front office. "1 bed Jackie?" Dean asks again now that we are outside.
"we're not stayin' here. What's the difference? Let the lewd girl think she knows somethin'" I return as we reach the door.
I open it and throw my bag down on the floor heading straight for the bathroom. "I'm gettin' some shut eye." I hear Dean comment and the door shuts behind me. I scrub at my ears first once inside the shower. I don't even let it warm up first. The feeling of that thing falling out of my head starts to slowly fade away as I rub my head with soap.
I walk out dressed again in the same close and see Dean asleep on the bed. I look over to the side and Sam is on his computer. He eyes me with a head nod and suggests I follow him outside. Once the door closes he wraps me into a hug "I'm glad you're okay," he says while smothering me into his chest.
"yea, me too" I say back. He lets me go and looks at me with his beautiful big eyes.
"what's wrong?" He asks, and I try to fight back from letting tears spill over.
I shake my head, looking down "I'm just exhausted." I say to him letting everything that just happened finally wash over me.
"well you went through some pretty dramatic electroshock therapy" he half smirks with sympathy.
I shake my head "I need sleep" I get out half falling asleep right there at the door to the room.
He pulls something out from his pocket "that's why I got you a room while you were showering.. go rest, we'll leave later." He hands it to me.
I take it from him with a grin and go to the number on the tag. Once to the door I turn it in but stop "Hey, Sam?" I call back to him.
"Yah?" He asks me.
"Will you come lay with me? I really don't want to be alone right now." I tell him. Which is true. I would've passed right out next to Dean with how tired I am. He smiles and follows me into the room. I lay down on the bed and close my eyes letting myself drift instantly to sleep.
"Calm down!" Sam's voice stirs me and I sit up quickly with worry "let her rest."
"What's going on?" I ask looking over to where he is.
"You have a lot of explaining to do!" Dean points at me, his eyes dark with anger.
I sigh, still too exhausted to do that right now "I get it, you're mad.. Probably have a right to be but-"
"Damn right I do!" He spits back interrupting me "and you had Sam lie to me about it too!"
"Can you blame me? Look at you! You're about to foam at the mouth like a rabid dog!" I insult him.
Sam keeps himself between us "Dean, we can talk about it on the way home but Jaclyn really needs to rest right now." He says.
I want to thank him for sticking up for me but I don't want to look weak in front of Dean. I know how angry he is, and I don't want to give him more ammunition against me. "I get it, but he's right. I'm exhausted.. and thirsty" I comment getting side tracked with how dry my mouth is. Sam lowers his arm that's stopping Dean from coming closer and looks to me. He moves to the bathroom to get me a drink and Dean just grills me down. I accept the cup and chug it down. When it's empty I place it down on the side table and bring my attention back to the angry Winchester "if you really wanna do this now, fine. We can, but there won't be much coming from me.. I'm really fricken sore from that last jolt of electricity you pumped through me."
"Sore, what kind of sore?" Sam asks sitting down on the bed.
I shrug "I don't know, my heart hurts a bit.. my lungs, chest." I try and explain.
"Is it tight?" He follows up with another question.
"I guess.. it's starting to beat pretty fast too." I let him know putting my hand to my chest. I start to feel dizzy and weird and shake my head "something's not right." I tell him.
"We should get her to a hospital." Sam says to dean coming over to help me stand.
"No, I'm fine." I try and push him away "just need to rest." I try to lay back down.
"I'll get the car" Dean grunts out with a sigh and turns to leave.
I yell after him "I'm fine, really!" but my heart begins to beat faster than it ever has before and I worry I won't make it to a hospital. "Sam.." I say his name as he lifts me up to sit up again.
"It's alright. You're gonna be alright." He gives up trying to help me walk and just carries me in his arms. "We've should've taken you there right away." I hear him mumble out while leaving the room.
"I'm sorry" I say to him as the cold air hits my face.
"For what?" He asks me as he walks towards the car.
I cough, air beginning to be hard to capture into my lungs "making you lie to you're brother. That's wrong. Family is the most important thing to you guys, and I... I ruined it."
"You didn't ruin it Jaclyn." He says back to me.
"Ruin what?" Dean asks as the car is in front of us now. Sam slides us into the back of the car from the passenger side and drives away.
"You're family. I ruined that. I shouldn't have had him lie, and if I die just know that I'm sorry." I tell Dean now.
"You're not going to die" Dean returns.
I chuckle as best I can "you don't know that."
"I do, cuz you're part of this family and we don't let family die. Ain't that right Sammy?" He asks his brother.
I keep my eyes on Sam, whose lap is now cradling my head "that's right" he returns with a soft smile and I let my eyes close to that perfect grin.
