Rather Morbid

Further down the calendar, Penny finds something disturbing...

"Ok. Sheldon. Why do you have your projected date of death in here? And why do you have Mine?! that's just gone off the scale for super creepy. How do you even know?"

"I've checked with several very reliable actuarial tables, but you'll notice the accuracy is still painfully low. "

"Still, it's kind of really morbid."

"Oh, don't worry. See the link to "Death plans" document"

She opens the document and starts to read looking more and more astonished

"You're looking into freezing your head ?!"

"It's the most reasonable way to currently survive death. That is if uploading into the Matrix , cloning or robot bodies are not available by my time of death. "

"Ok, That's very weird but very you."

He looks dejected. "Sadly Mother and Mee-maa do not want to take part. They'd rather risk it all on Faith."

"Well, it is their choice."

"Yes." He screws up his face and stamps his foot, "But it's stupid of them and it makes me sad. If Heaven was real why do people cry at funerals? surely they'd be happy if someone stopped hurting and went to a better place? Why don't the dead return to visit us if they've just moved on to heaven? Logic shows its false but no one listens."

He sits down and draws his legs up to his chest and softly starts to cry.

She hugs him close, holding his head to her chest and stroking his hair.

"Oh my god Sheldon. You honestly think you're going to live forever and everyone else is going to leave you, don't you."

"Yes. Too many people just ignore it or put it off as it's too big and scary for their tiny human brains to contemplate. But I don't intend to give in." He looks up at her "Will you stay with me?"

"Stay with you?"

"It'll make the future easier to face."

She goes pale as she feels the panic rise suddenly.

She has to stop and think about this. Really think hard, Sheldon style. She'd found being with Sheldon she'd made a little inner Sheldon in her head, to help her predict his moods. Her Inner Sheldon is saying He honestly wants to live forever and is asking you to be with him. This isn't just normal Sheldon crazy, this is massive commitment crazy. If I say no it'll break his weird little heart, but if I say yes I'm tying myself to him forever and ever. Her gut instinct is to cut and run NOW, head to the hills. But she calms herself, yoga breathing and submissive training slowing her heart rate, calming her breathing.

hesitantly she says "I don't know what they future holds, Sheldon. but if I can I'll be there with you and for you"

he nods. it seems to be enough.