For a moment there I believed he would just get out of his bed and ask me to get dressed and leave.
Jasper looked at me with this scrutinizing stare for what seemed to me to be a long while, and then he sighed and came to hover over me.
I almost got distracted by the flow of his hair as it hung loose on the sides of his gorgeous face and touched mine subtly.
"Have you had romantic expectations about it?" He asked softly, which made me frown a little.
"About sex?"
"About your first time." He clarified simply.
"No." I answered honestly.
He squinted.
"So you've never fantasized about having a prince charming making sweet slow love to you on your first time..." His intonation was slightly skeptic, borderline defiant.
"I'm not romantic." I stated undisturbed. "I don't believe in this prince charming bullshit and I don't fantasize at all."
He nodded slowly, the tips of his hair caressing my cheeks.
I couldn't help raising my right hand to tuck some strands behind his left ear. He smiled subtly and it warmed my chest from the inside.
"I can try to be gentle, Edward," His tone was mild, and his eyes seemed oddly affectionate, but I dismissed my impression. "but even if I don't get caught up in the moment and lose control to my wild side, it'll still hurt." He said leaning in.
"I'm aware of that. I'm not completely inexperienced." I replied in a murmur, more focused on his lips getting closer than on the discussion.
He licked his lips while nodding again, his eyes flicking from mine to my mouth and back.
"So you really wanna do it now?" He whispered getting even closer, and I could feel his cock poking the inside of my thighs.
The air seemed scarce all of a sudden.
"Yeah..." I gasped.
"You want me to do it." It wasn't a question but I nodded anyway.
He sneaked the tip of his tongue in the space between my parted lips and licked them. I sighed heavily.
"Then say it." He kinda demanded, which made my core twitch. "Spell it out to me."
I took a deep breath as I felt one of his hands gliding over my cock.
"I want you to fuck me." My voice came out a bit choked.
I moaned as he grabbed me and squeezed me softly.
"Ask." His tone was earnest.
His thumb played with my precum, smearing it around the head of my member.
I squeezed my eyes.
"Oh, fuck." I gasped again.
I felt his lips on my ear.
"Ask, Edward." He commanded, and his tone was severe.
My reaction was immediate.
"Fuck me, please." I uttered urgently as he played with my length. "Please."
"Such a good boy..." He whispered in my ear sensually and I got goosebumps. "Pleading suits you, Edward." He added in a kind voice. "Now ask me while looking at me." And right then his tone changed abruptly and he sounded like a General.
I promptly opened my eyes and my breath got caught up in my throat...
The way his pupils were dilated, darkening his eyes with sheer lust, scared me just a little bit. It was clear he was a wild man, and I didn't doubt for a second that he was a fierce lover... Deep down inside I feared for my body, if it would bear his intensity, the intensity that was plainly obvious in his hypnotic eyes... But it didn't stop me from doing what he'd demanded... I did want him to take me and have me anyway that would please him...
The desire I was feeling for him was insane.
"Fuck me, please." I heard myself saying in a deeper tone, and I didn't recognize my own voice. His eyes got even darker. "Do whatever you want to me, just, please, fuck me, Jasper."
He smirked while speeding up his hand's moves on my cock...
"My name falling from this ravishing lips of yours..." His voice sounded raspy and then he hissed. "You have no fucking idea of how crazed I am right now."
He indeed looked crazed and so devilish that it stirred up something potent in me. The fear and the want merged together... And the alien emotion resulted from that, combined with the fact that he was seriously jerking me off, plus the intensity written on his face that was enhancing everything, made the heat, that was already coiling in my core, flare uncontrollably and I jerked my hips up, thrusting my cock into his grip.
"Don't cum." He warned me before leaning in and biting my bottom lip.
"I won't." I kinda promised, writhing under him.
He sucked my lips unmercifully before shutting me up with a smoldering kiss that, unfortunately, didn't last long enough...
Too soon he let go of my cock, was off of me, and sitting on his heels again. I Propped myself on my elbows once more, panting and trying to regulate the beats of my heart, while watching as he coated his index finger with lube a second time.
He raised just his gaze to me, looking into my eyes through his thick eyelashes, his light-brown waves graciously loose along the sides of his face.
I sighed.
"Ready?" He asked with his trade eyebrow quirk.
I could just nod.
He prepared me patiently... I had not expected him to be so caring to me. He didn't hurry me, he didn't haste his motions. I felt like he was taking care of me, assuring that my experience would be pleasing as much as possible. And I confess that made me feel weird...
I had never been treated like that. No one had ever cared for me nor been gentle with me like he had then. It made me feel slightly uneasy with the way my heart raced and my stomach flipped as if I was anxious for something... I was anxious, sure... But there was something more in those emotions, something that I couldn't put my finger on because I had never felt them before, at least not like that.
I didn't avoid the feelings and sensations Jasper incited, though. On the contrary... I embraced every single emotion he provoked in me as he touched me and made sure I would be prepared for having him.
It didn't take long for my body to be burning... The initial discomfort provoked by the intrusion of his fingers faded easily and way before I had expected.
"You can do it now..." I panted, the urge for him still increasing impossibly much. "Do it now, Jasper."
He looked at me in a way I didn't really recognize. I just shook my head positively.
"I'm ready." I assured.
He furrowed his eyebrows.
"I'm not in a hurry, red..." He said softly, and his whole countenance softened as well.
I held his neck and brought his face to me. He came easily, presenting no resistance.
"I am." I explained, my breathing irregular. "I need to feel you, I can't wait any longer. I'm gonna explode if you make me wait any longer. Please, Jasper..."
He chuckled lightly and kissed my lips briefly. Then he was sheathing his beautiful cock with a condom and coating it with lube.
I closed my eyes and took deep slow breaths. I couldn't even understand why I felt nervous all of a sudden. I knew that was bound to happen when I had accepted going with him, I actually had wanted that to happen, and I still did, like crazy!
But my heart was thundering inside my chest, racing so much I couldn't breathe well. And my stomach was filled with butterflies...
I felt him hovering over me again. I opened my eyes to him and focused on his powerful stare.
"I'll go slow..."
Am I crazy or it sounded like a promise?
"I don't do slow." His earlier statement popped up in my head.
I looked at him more attentively. His eyes were so focused on me that I had the impression I could have seen my face reflected on his irises if it wasn't for the dim light.
You said you don't do slow.
My mouth opened of its own accord to blurt that out, but I never really voiced my thought... I couldn't... The feeling of his cock pressuring my entrance shut me up completely. The curious thing was... I didn't close my eyes, I actually caught myself diving into his entrancing stare.
"Breathe through it..." Jasper instructed me gently as his cock forced the way passed the ring of muscles. I gasped. "Relax, Edward."
In an impulsive motion, I wrapped one hand around his neck and pulled him down to me, capturing his lips in mine.
I just needed to anchor myself.
Jasper drove his pierced tongue into my mouth promptly, and I eagerly welcomed it, trapping mine and his attention into the hard kiss. Jasper wrapped one of his hands around my nape, angling my head to the side and deepening the kiss as I felt him sliding torturously slowly deeper into my body.
I focused on the kiss, his scent, and on his strong hand that was strangely keeping me grounded, to relax. My body was naturally resisting the intrusion, but I knew that if I didn't loosen up, it would take longer to get to the good part, so I inhaled as deeply as I could, forcing my body to ease up.
Suddenly Jasper stopped. He broke the kiss gently and gasped, resting his forehead on mine, his eyes closed.
"You're too tight..." He breathed. "And your kiss is too damn intoxicating... I need a second."
I would give him a minute if he asked me to, but I couldn't just wait while doing nothing with a God-like man like him over me. So I ran my hands along his strong back and dropped open-mouth kisses on his neck.
Jasper sighed and tilted his head to the side, giving me more space to explore.
The more I felt his skin between my lips, the more of his scent that invaded my nostrils, the more of his heat I absorbed through my hands and body, the more my desire spiked.
Suddenly any nick of time seemed an eternity...
"I need to feel you all in me, Jasper." I uttered without even realizing it. "Please..." I wrapped my legs around his hips. "Go on..."
He groaned as I pushed my heels against his asscheeks, driving him deeper into me in consequence.
Gasping he went on, and soon he was completely inside my body. He gave me a moment to adjust, to get used to the sensation of having someone within me, and I was really grateful for that, but the truth was... I was truly aroused and impatient.
"Please, move."
"You're so eager, freckles..." He murmured in a chuckle. "And to think I was worried about you..."
I took his face between my hands.
"You don't need to be careful with me." I spoke urgently, in a way and in a voice that were truly alien to me.
His eyes flickered with something latent, and again he was looking at me in a very scary way. I felt my core titillate... And then he started to move, slowly in the beginning, but in earnest sooner than I had predicted.
The potent thrusts drew out loud groans from me... At first, out of pain... But just a couple of minutes later, out of pure lust.
All of a sudden I could barely breathe.
I could hear Jasper grunting, I could see the intense look on his perfect face, but all I could really focus on was his body over and within mine. I could feel every inch of him moving in and out of me, and continuously hitting a spot that was making me escalate fast.
There were flames coiling in my core and my cock was throbbing... My heart was flying out of my chest... My body felt like a bare wire, sparking incessantly.
I was all over the place... And it felt amazing like nothing else I had experienced before.
"You keep moving like that and this will be over very soon..." I heard Jasper's choked voice and promptly focused on him.
His face was blushed, his eyes seemed bigger, his bottom lip was swollen, probably because of how hard his teeth were bitting it repeatedly.
I didn't even realize I was moving...
An uncontrollable urge made me splay my hands on his broad chest and push him suddenly. I have no idea how I managed to swap our positions and straddle him without making him slip out of me, but I did...
Feeling my whole body flaming up, I released a guttural moan.
"Fuck, red." Jasper groaned as his cock sank farther in me.
"You feel so good inside me." I panted while starting to move on him. His hands came to my waist, his fingers sinking in my skin. I looked at him from above. "I want to ride you."
He grunted and moaned before quirking one eyebrow at me.
"So ride me." He said and gasped.
Moving slowly felt good, but I was burning, I needed more and I needed it faster and harder...
"Guide me?"
Jasper smiled the most lascivious smile I'd ever seen... That gesture alone made my cock twitch in anticipation.
Holding me by my waist he sat up, our chests clashing together as he looked deep into my eyes and wrapped his left arm around me, making our bodies as close as is could get and trapping my cock between our abdomens.
I gasped.
"Give me your tongue, red." He demanded and I obeyed.
Jasper sucked my tongue into his mouth while he guided my motions. I got quickly lost in the intensity of the kiss and didn't even realize when my instinct took over and my body started to move of its own accord.
I focused on the moment...
My hands were tangled with Jasper's hair, tugging on it so hard I was sure he was hurting.
He wasn't complaining though... His tongue was deep in my mouth as I sucked it in earnest, and all he was doing was moaning.
I was riding him hard and fast, drawing out groans and gasps and making him sink his fingers deeper into my skin.
Our bodies together, moving together, it all felt so hot, so sexy, I was so into it and getting so high...
I can lose myself in him...
Jasper's gasp broke our kiss. I forced my eyes open to look at him.
"Slow down a bit..." He asked in a breathless murmur and joined our foreheads together while I decelerated my motions. "You feel too fucking good, I don't want it to end so fast."
He's close?!
"You're close?" I blurted out, surprised.
"Too close." He kinda chuckled. "You sure this is your first time?"
It was my turn to chuckle.
So I'm doing this right...?
"You think I'm good?"
Why the hell did you ask that?
I felt my cheeks blushing and looked down, but never stopped moving on him.
Jasper held my face in his big hands and made me look at him.
"You're great, Edward." He assured me with intensity. "You're fucking great."
Right then, when those words left his lush lips in an earnest tone... That was when I felt the first spark.
Something flickered in Jasper's amber eyes and his stare changed... He looked at me in a different way, in a way I was unable to identify... His eyebrows even twitched slightly. And his countenance, his brilliant eyes, his piercing stare... They pulled me strongly, they incited my curiosity deeply, and then I wanted to know him more, to have him more.
I kissed him... I just leaned in and captured his lips in mine hastily and kissed him profoundly as resuming my motions.
Hesitation didn't seem to be a trait of his personality. He readily wrapped both his arms around me and tightened his hold... We were so close together that I wouldn't be able to move if he didn't do it with me.
And so our bodies got into this perfect entrancing sync... And each and every motion seemed to pull me further, to absorb me more, to make me closer to losing myself completely.
I knew it wouldn't take long for me to cum... My whole body was charged with this blazing energy.
"I can't hold off anymore." Jasper panted on my lips before resting his forehead on my shoulder. "You feel too good..."
With my hands on his nape, I forced his head up and made him look at me.
"You can cum now." I practically moaned. "I'll follow you."
He squeezed his eyes for just a split second, and when he reopened them, his pupils were so dilated his eyes were almost black. His lips formed a perfect "O" just before he released a long loud moan and I felt his cock pulsating inside of me.
The unmistakable delight written on his face incited my own... And just some seconds apart, we were reaching the intense high of our climaxes.
Every inch of my skin was tingling... My head was fuzzy... My heart was racing...
Nothing had ever been that good.
Nothing has ever felt this good.
"Yeah..." I heard Jasper's panted agreement and realized I had said that out loud.
I just didn't bother to get angry at myself and my Jasper-induced big mouth... It was the truth anyway.
He took my face in his hands again. He looked into my eyes as if he was about to say something... But he never did. He just kissed me... A slow deep kiss that was the perfect ending for a perfect experience.
He kissed me for a long while... And when it was over I felt light-headed.
"Let's take a shower."
It was all he said before we disentangled our bodies and got out of bed. He took my hand in his and walked me to his huge bathroom.
He took me again against his gray-tiled bathroom wall, under the hot water, and made me cum twice more...
I went out like a light when we lay in his bed almost an hour later.
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I was feeling so comfortable... I didn't want to wake up but I could feel the sunlight warming up the skin on my back, I could see its light through my eyelids.
I huffed, just a tiny bit frustrated, but I wouldn't go back to sleep anyway, so, I opened my eyes.
His amber shimmering ones were the first thing I saw.
"My favorite color used to be blue..." He said softly as he raised his hand to my hair. "Light blue, just like your eyes."
"Used to...?" I felt myself frowning subtly. "Has it changed?"
Jasper got even more serious than he already was, if that was possible. He took longer than what I thought necessary to answer.
"I'm really more into copper these days." He replied simply.
My face was promptly burning. I was probably blushing five shades of pink.
Jasper chuckled lightly.
"Learn how to take a compliment, red. It's always obvious when you get embarrassed." His tone was plainly amused. "Although pink does look gracious on your skin."
I looked away from him, but Jasper wasn't having it. He lifted my chin up.
"Last night was... Amazing." He spoke earnestly, and his intense gaze made me feel weak on the knees all over again. "Thank you for letting me be your first. But there's something I need to make clear, just because I don't want things to get messy." I could easily suppose what was coming, so I nodded calmly. "I don't do relationships, Edward."
I smiled naturally.
I never deluded myself.
"I assumed as much." I said in an unconcerned tone. "Don't worry, I won't get clingy or anything. I won't try to win you either. I'm not that kinda guy and I'm aware that what happened between us was just a one-night-stand."
He seemed slightly admired.
"You're okay with it?" His countenance was placid, but his voice gave away his surprise.
"Yeah." I shrugged.
Why does it feel like I'm lying?
"Good." Jasper sighed. "There's something else..."
I smiled more broadly, again knowing what he would say beforehand.
"I'm not one to kiss and tell, Jasper. Nobody will know, don't fret." I assured him.
He chuckled. And just as fast he got serious and we were sharing a charged stare.
I want you again.
I shook my head only half-consciously.
"I guess I should... Get dressed and go." I spoke hurriedly and sat up on the mattress.
I heard Jasper sighing.
"I'll take you." He said without moving from his pillow. "I brought you here, I'll take you home."
Less than an hour later I was hopping off his fancy bike in front of my building.
"Do you want me to pick you up tonight?" He asked when I handed him the helmet.
"No need." I smiled.
"Your car is in the club's parking lot"
"I can walk, it's not far." I replied in a thankful smile.
Jasper smiled such a sweet smile, and I fought the urge to touch his gracious dimples.
"Okay, then." He quirked his eyebrows. "See you at the club, red."
"See you later."
I turned and climbed the first two steps of the front stair before stopping and turning again, just in time to see him riding away.
Why do I feel frustrated?
I was just so joyful a second earlier...
#(Dis)Sonant*Chapter4#
"Leo." I heard as I felt a hand on my forearm.
I looked at the hand owner.
"What?" I asked Ryan, still a little distracted.
"We need more lemons, can you go take some from the back fridge?"
"Sure." I nodded.
Ryan squinted a little and let go of my arm. I could've gone then, but something in the way he was looking at me made me wait. I had the odd impression he wanted to tell me something.
He leaned on the counter sideways.
"Can I give you a piece of advice?" His tone was hesitant. "I'm not the kind of person that pries into people's lives but..."
"Go ahead, Ryan." I said calmly, smiling to him.
He sighed. Then he glanced at the stage, where Jasper was supervising the instruments with Emmett, and looked back at me.
"Aiden." He said in a cautious low voice while arching his eyebrows. "Don't go there."
I gasped quietly.
"I don't..."
"I've noticed the way you look at him." Ryan hasted to say before I could deny anything. "And everybody has noticed how he looks at you... Not that it surprises us, because it was very predictable."
"What are talking about?" I tried vainly to temporize.
Ryan smiled and looked away for a second. Then he got closer and his slanted brown eyes were into mine, serious.
"I don't need to know whether something has already happened or not between the two of you." His tone sounded caring. "I like you, kid, you are a good guy, and a very young vulnerable one. I just don't wanna see you get hurt. So, don't go there, at least not with your heart."
I was confused and surprised, and I didn't know what to say.
"Don't get me wrong, Ade is a great person, a very caring friend and an amazing boss, and he's definitely the perfect company to party and to have fun." Ryan just went on. "But do you know his nickname around the community?"
Which community?
"What is it?" I heard myself asking.
"Heart-eater." Ryan's voice got even graver. "I guess you can deduce the reason behind it. It's pretty self-explanatory."
I just nodded, my head spinning a bit.
I was just puzzled... How did Ryan notice anything? Was I being too obvious? And why would he think that, if I was somehow involved with Jasper, I would go with my heart...?
"Thanks for the advice." I said to him honestly. "But I'm okay."
Ryan nodded, smiled softly, and started to organize his station.
I went to the back to pick up the lemons, my mind still a little addled.
#(Dis)Sonant*Chapter4#
"I'll go pick up more sodas, do you need me to bring anything?" I asked Ryan later that night.
The dance floor was filled, the thumping electronic music was resonating. The club was buzzing with excitement and energy.
I was feeling a bit off, but I was trying not to be in my head. I didn't want to understand why I was so uncomfortable in my own skin at that moment.
I got in the storeroom hurriedly, because there were a lot of people lining up in front of the bar, I needed to be fast. I didn't really notice the sounds as they became louder after the door closed behind me. I was so out of it that I only realized what was happening inside the room once I laid my eyes on it.
There was a blond guy with his upper body leaned over one of the horizontal fridges... His face was turned away from where I stood, so he didn't see me.
But the gorgeous tall guy standing behind him with one hand wrapped around the guy's neck and another holding the guy's waist firmly... He saw me... And he stared at me unabashedly as driving his long cock into the guy's ass relentlessly...
I tried to move... But I was stuck on the spot.
Jasper just kept staring into my eyes while fucking the blond stranger.
Why does it hurt?
