A/N: Hey there, guys, this will be quick.
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(Dis)Sonant - (rE)Sonating (The full-of-kissing Finale)
It's impossible not to immediately spot him, even in the middle of the arriving crowd. He stands out not only because of his height but also because everyone around him turns their heads to look at him as he passes by.
I guess I should, but I really don't feel jealous.
He never sees any of those people… His eyes are focused on me from the moment he comes through the gate's sliding doors until he's right in front of me.
And then it's like the whole fucking airport is gone… there's only us and nothing more.
"Hey." He says in a soft voice, staring at me as if he hasn't seen me for a long while.
Well, I guess that, when you're in love, three weeks is a long time.
"Hey." I answer in the same dazzled tone.
Jasper looks down and takes my hand in his… we interlock our fingers and all my anxiety vanishes. I have him back.
We walk slowly and quietly to the parking lot and get in the car after he puts his bags in the trunk.
This will be the first time since we decided to start over three months ago that he's staying at my apartment. It's also the first time he'll be here in San Diego longer than a day.
Up to this point, we've been talking a lot on the phone and having some online conference time, but face to face we've only seen each other five times.
Five pretty normal dates that begun ending with a kiss on the second one… and we haven't gone further than that.
Fact is, we haven't talked about defining our situation yet, we're still taking things slow…
But I'm hoping to change that this weekend. That's why I invited him over.
By all our long daily talks I've learned that Jasper is truly changed… and for a long while now.
He hasn't been with anyone since Max, and his hookups were already long over even before all that shit went on…
That's basically why he's stronger, by the way. He's been redirecting his stamina to weight lifting and triathlon, which is also helping him a lot with his anxiety and anger issues.
I am not complaining at all… I haven't had the opportunity to check how different his body is yet but, that's something I intend on changing very soon.
Anyway, it wasn't just his words that convinced me.
Yeah, he told me he couldn't go back to his past self, and that he wanted to become the man I deserved, the perfect man to me, even though he thought he would never get me back… But really, it's the way he's been acting that's assuring me that I can trust him fully this time. And there's no more doubt in me.
That's the reason I'm willing to accelerate things a little. He's been thoughtful, respectful, and patient enough, he's behaved as a true gentleman. It's time for us to take another step… I'm decided.
"A penny for your thoughts." I hear him say in a guarded tone by my side.
I don't look away from the road ahead but I smile.
"Just thinking about the last three months." I reply while shrugging.
It takes a whole minute for Jasper to say something in return.
"Are you happy, Edward?"
It's not his question that makes me glance at him… It's the cautious way he asks it.
Since we're close to my building, I choose not to answer right away. I prefer to do it while looking into his eyes so he can read the emotion in them.
As I predict, Jasper doesn't insist. It's not in his nature to do so… but I can sense he's uncomfortable, I even dare to say insecure, because of my silence.
Soon the car is parked in the building's garage and we're walking with his bags to the elevator. He's looking down, his countenance serious, and my heart feels small as I understand he's trying to keep himself calm.
I live on the second floor, so the ride is quick, and I feel relieved once we're in the apartment.
"You can leave the bags anywhere, we need to talk." I say as he turns with a slightly questioning look.
He tries to disguise it, but I see him putting up his walls. He takes a discreet deep breath and his eyes are suddenly empty. He's bracing himself from whatever he thinks I'm about to say or do.
I can't hold off a sigh as I walk to him.
When we're close enough to touch, I raise my hands to his face and hold it as tenderly as I can.
"Ask me again." I demand in a soft tone.
He knows what I'm talking about and takes just a split second to act.
"Are you happy?"
"Yes." I answer confidently with an honest smile.
His smile in response is so beautiful that I have no time to think before the impulse takes the best of me.
I stand on my toes while pulling his face to me and kiss him… And I kiss him fiercely.
The kisses we've shared since our second date have been serious and deep, saturated with emotion, but this one… This kiss is like the kisses we used to share back when we started, this one is intense and filled with the passion that I've been holding off to be able to take things slow.
Well, I have no intention of taking anything slow anymore, so let me make things clearer for him.
I bite his lower lip before sucking it into my mouth. Jasper hums low and his hands come to my waist in a tight grip.
As I slip my tongue between his lips and swirl it with his, he pulls me against his body until there's not an inch of space between us and I can feel his racing heartbeats and the bulge in his jeans perfectly.
I can't wait anymore, this is torture.
I break the kiss abruptly and Jasper looks at me dazed, but I don't stop myself… I grab the hem of his shirt and pull it up, finding no resistance from him.
"You sure about this…?" His voice is hesitant. "You said you wanted to take things slo…"
"Shhhh." I cut him off while shaking my head and opening his fly.
He just smiles, kicks off his sneakers, and lets me undress him.
Once I have him fully naked in front of me and can see how bigger, stronger, and sexier he is, I take a step back and slowly roam my eyes along his body.
My breath is caught up in my throat… My heart is thundering inside my chest…
I get closer and, looking intensely into his eyes, I run my fingers unhurriedly from his neck to his pelvis and grab his cock with both my hands.
Jasper swallows hard but doesn't say a word… And then he releases a shaky breath as I drop my knees on the floor right before him.
Our gazes are locked… And they remain locked as I take him into my mouth inch by inch.
He moans huskily… I hum. His teeth find his lower lip while he grabs a handful of my hair and starts guiding my movements… I let him.
Jasper takes the lead and, for a split second, I think he's gonna do this the way he used to… fast and hard…
I should've predicted that his sexual moves had changed together with his new behavior.
His motions are slow while he looks at me with this tenderness mixed with desire, and it is so clear that he's enjoying the contact and how we're connected and not just simply the act itself…
"I won't last long, Freckles…" His words are whispered amid his gasps. "It's been a while…"
And that's when I let my impetus take over.
I slide my hands from his thighs to his hipbones and grab him firmly… His hand is still entangled with my hair but that won't make any difference.
It's my turn to guide his motions, and now I'm pulling and pushing him just the way I know that will bring him to the edge…
Certainly enough, half a minute later I feel his cock throbbing on my tongue…
I let go of him and stand up, my eyes still fierce into his.
"You'll cum only when I tell you to." I state in a confident tone, and I can see the amazement the second it crosses his stare. "Before that… There are some things I wanna do to you."
Jasper gasps quietly and nods so subtly I almost miss it.
I grab his hand and take him to my room, and once we're in there I splay my hands on his chest and push him until he falls backward on my bed.
Jasper props himself on his elbows while I undress in front of him.
I don't rush it… I take off each piece of clothing in my own time, enjoying the expression of expectation and hunger on Jasper's face.
I walk closer to him when I'm naked, and he straightens up immediately.
"Do you wanna touch me?" It comes out in a deep tone while I arch one eyebrow at him.
I can read Jasper's desire in his irises, but he closes his eyes for just a second, parts his lips, and sighs before finally speaking in a soft voice while looking again at me.
"Can I love you?"
It completely disarms me.
I'm still hot as hell for him but, the loving, pleading way he stares at me now makes me feel like mush immediately.
His hands are on my hips and he brings me closer slowly, never looking away from my face.
"I've missed you, Edward." He says with his eyes glinting and his voice saturated with longing. "So much… I want to love you. Just let me love you."
Before I even understand my motions, my hands are holding his face and I'm nodding.
I lean to him as he cranes his neck to me and we kiss softly.
"I want you back." He murmurs on my lips and I pull a little away to look into his eyes."Be mine again."
He's begging… and it's impossible not to see the sentiment in his gaze.
My heart feels so warm…
"I love you... like I've never loved anyone before, and I promise you that I'll never hurt you again…" He takes a deep breath. "I want to touch you and have you… so much it hurts… but only if you're mine… I don't want it to be meaningless."
"It's never been meaningless with you." I state. "And it'll never be."
We take a long breath in at the same time, our gazes locked.
"I just need to know one thing…" And right there I'm putting my walls completely down and utterly opening my heart to him again. Jasper nods. "Is it forever to you? Am I your forever, Jasper?"
He smiles softly as if relief is taking over him before he nods again… and I see clearly the sincerity of his emotion.
"Yes, Edward. You're my forever." He sounds solemn, and that's how I know he's vowing. "There's only you."
A relieved sigh gushes out of me involuntarily and I lean to him once more.
"Since the moment you first touched me…" I say earnestly, staring deeply into his eyes. "Maybe even before that… when I first set my eyes on you." I shrug slightly. "I've always been yours… and this has never changed." His smile is larger now. "I'm yours. I'll always be."
"Make love to me." He asks in an urgent whispered tone.
With my heart beating out of my chest, I nod one last time before molding my lips to his.
And it all starts, or better saying, restarts, with a loving kiss.
#(Dis)Sonant*The full-of-kissing Finale#
Three days later, I wake up in his arms feeling my heart small…
He's going back home today, and I wish we had more time together.
Being boyfriends again is making me truly happy, but the perspective of having a long-distance relationship is a bit daunting. Not that I don't trust him, I do now more than I ever did before but… we'll be miles away from each other and there's only so many times he can leave his business unattended to come to see me in a month.
I sigh. I don't want him to go.
"What's with the sad sigh?" I hear his deep voice and move my head on his chest, tilting up my face to look at his.
"Morning…" I greet cautiously.
Jasper smiles sweetly.
"Morning, Freckles."
I sigh again before propping myself on my forearms on his chest.
"I don't want you to go." I just say it point-blank. "I know you have to go back to take care of the club and… you have your life there, but… I want you to stay here with me."
Jasper takes almost a minute staring seriously at me before replying.
"I don't wanna throw you off guard here..." He starts carefully. "I'm not sure if it's too soon for you but…" He cuts himself off and swallows hard before heaving a sigh.
Jasper holds me securely before straightening up, making me sit, and leaning his back on the headboard.
"Edward, you're all I want." He states simply. "I'll do anything, and I mean anything, you want me to. You just need to say the words."
"I-I can't ask you to…"
"Yes, you can." He interrupts me softly. "I don't care about anything else, if you want me to stay, I'll stay. I'm just going back because I don't want to impose. I'm doing things here according to your pace and will, so… if you tell me right now to move here to San Diego I'll look for an apartment today."
"Are you serious?" I'm utterly astonished.
"Deadly." He replies soberly.
I'm rendered speechless for a moment, he really caught me off guard, but definitely not in a bad way.
Are you just going to sit here and gape at him? You know you want him to stay.
"Just say the words, Freckles…" Jasper says in a soft tone while looking at me with longing and expectation. "I'll do whatever you want me to."
"Please stay, don't go." I blurt out.
For just a split second he's surprised. Then he smiles his dimpled grin and I know how happy he is.
Jasper nods effusively.
"Will you go with me to look for an apartment today?"
I shake my head no.
"You don't need to look for an apartment." I assure him while smiling and he frowns. "Move in with me."
"What?!" He's the one stunned now.
I feel my smile broadening and I lean closer to him. I hold his face in my hands tenderly and gaze into his eyes.
"I love you. You love me. We're each other's forever. What are we waiting for?" I ask and wait for a couple of seconds. "Will you change your mind about me?"
"Never." He replies promptly.
"Me neither. So…"
"Okay." He says in a chuckle. "I'll move in with you."
I chuckle too, my heart feels so swollen inside my chest that I may start floating at any moment now…
Jasper brings me closer and ends the discussion the way we usually do…
Kissing.
#(Dis)Sonant*The full-of-kissing Finale#
Jasper has never left me after that day… Not even to reorganize his whole life and move it here.
It's been over a year now, and although he has a new project in progress, he still owns the (Dis)Sonant back in Atlanta.
Emmett is his associate now, and he's been administrating the club with Ryan, that's now the manager.
My best friend and his husband are arriving at the end of this week, by the way, to spend some quality time with us, and for the grand opening of Jasper's new club.
I park my car before the cozy blue house Jasper and I bought together five months ago. I've just arrived from work… I've been doing an internship in a local clinic during the afternoon. I'm working as an assistant for my psychology of trauma professor, Doctor Janssen. He treats kids and teenagers with PTSD and that's what I wanna do once I get my license.
Jasper's car is parked in the driveway, so I know he's home.
I smile while I walk the four steps to the porch and then open the door, feeling all sorts of happy for having him all to myself.
"Freckles?" His voice reaches me and my smile gets automatically larger.
He always knows when I'm around.
I know where to find him, so I pass by the living room straight to the kitchen.
Jasper is sporting his dimpled smile and opens his arms to me as I cross the sill.
"You're home early." I acknowledge, tilting my head up so as to look in his eyes as he holds me.
He kisses me softly.
"Today the contractors were done earlier, so I hurried home." He clarified simply. "Missed you. How was work?"
I raise my hands to his hair and undo the high pony-bun. His strands cascade around his face and over his shoulders as I watch them.
Jasper chuckles, knowing pretty well how much I love his hair…
"It was fine…" I finally answer his question. "There's a new kid… Doctor Janssen wants me to treat him by myself."
"That's great news. It means he trusts you."
"I know. I'm just a bit nervous about how I'll approach his case. But I don't wanna talk about work…" I kiss his lips briefly. "I wanna know about the club."
"I've found the perfect name." He tells me while arching his eyebrows.
I get excited.
"Tell me!"
"Have I ever told you the story behind the name of the (Dis)Sonant?" He asks after pulling away and entangling our hands.
"Not that I remember."
He takes me to the living room and we sit on the sofa turned to each other.
"When I decided to open the club, there was this one thing in my life that was constant… The lack of harmony." He says in a placid voice, unaffected by the memories of his past. "My life was chaos, I was chaos, inside and out… So I named it by what I knew better." He shrugs. "I did the same this time. But now what I know better is exactly the opposite."
I feel my heart full of love and warmth as I understand what he's saying…
"You brought me harmony, Freckles… You made me stop spinning, you pacified my anger, you obliterated the chaos…" He says all of it placidly, with a calm smile on his lips, and I smile too. "You're my axis. So that's what the name of the club is about. You."
I chuckle.
"Please, don't tell me you used my horrible name…"
He takes a small plaque from behind him and shows it to me. Against a dark-gray background, it's written (rE)Sonant in copper letters.
I look at him amazed.
"Re for restart… The 'E' is in uppercase because it's the first letter of your name… Sonant means sonorous and harmonic… and all of them combined is resonant, which means vibrant and rich, and conveys the idea of something that changes everything, that makes everything better." He sighs. "In the end… it refers to you and everything you brought to my life."
I release a puffy sigh, and I'm pretty sure he can see how stunned I am.
"Do you have any idea of how much you amaze me?"
Jasper looks down for a split second before blushing… It's not very common for him to blush, and I love it when he does… Then he smiles softly and looks timidly at me.
"Do you have any idea of how important you are to me?" He asks in a gentle tone.
And yes, I can see it in his eyes, in the way he looks at me, in each and every gesture and attitude of his...
"I love you." I blurt out while moving from my spot to straddle his lap. I hold his face in my hands. "I'll make love to you now."
He chuckles, but his eyelids are fluttering closed even before he nods.
Our lips mold against each other, and it doesn't take long before our clothes are tossed on the floor…
We spent the next two hours connected and loving each other.
#(Dis)Sonant*The full-of-kissing Finale#
The next morning Jasper is still asleep by my side when I wake up.
I take my time admiring the beautiful man I have all to myself… His gorgeous face, his perfect hair, his delicious body… and I feel so lucky because all that is just the wrap. There's so much more to him than his stunning looks.
He was once broken, lost, angry, indifferent… But deep down inside, his essence was securely kept, and when he finally allowed light to get in, the real him arose.
Jasper is thoughtful and generous, loyal, honest… he's intrinsically good in the purest sense of the word. And I'm so fucking lucky he loves me.
I love him so damn much that I know, I simply know, I can't live without him, I'll never let go of him again…
"It's Sunday, Freckles…" He says in a sleepy voice as he opens his eyes and catches me watching him. "Why are you awake? It's too early."
Jasper closes his eyes while wrapping his arm around me. He pulls me to him and my left hand, with a mind of its own, raises to his hair.
I tuck some strands behind his ear and then card my fingers through them.
"Feels so good…" He mumbles.
I smile… And I'm so fucking happy that I feel giddy, it's like I'm on high… So much so that I don't even think before I speak.
"Hey, love…" Jasper looks at me with a bit more attention. "Do you wanna get married?"
His sleepy gaze turns into a shocked one in a heartbeat, and now he's utterly awake.
"A-are you… are you proposing?" He stammers as his eyes widen and his pupils dilate.
I frown softly, feeling my heart suddenly pumping faster and stronger inside my chest.
"I wasn't…" It comes out in a low pensive tone as I realize the sudden will inside me. "I was just asking but… I guess I…" I gasp, surprised with myself, and then I turn serious as the idea quickly settles in my mind. "Yeah, yes I am, I'm proposing."
Jasper chuckles but I can see he's utterly dazed.
"Are you serious right now?" His tone is surprised and his eyebrows are arched high on his forehead.
I sigh and smile involuntarily.
"When was I ever not serious with you?"
Jasper is silent for a moment, and I know he's trying to assimilate what just happened, I am too, actually, but… I simply am sure about this.
I take a deep breath and hold his face in my hand while looking deeply into his eyes.
"Okay, let me try this one more time." I sigh. "Jasper… I can't live without you. I love you. Will you marry me?"
He gapes at me for just a couple more seconds before he closes his eyes, swallows, and takes a deep breath to center himself, I suppose.
"You're serious." He speaks as if he's absorbing it.
"Deadly." I state.
He chuckles again and, this time, I feel the joy in the gesture.
"Yes." He says in a big smile with dimples and all. "Yes, I will marry you."
I grin before I kiss him, and then I move to hover over him.
"Let's do this on my birthday."
Jasper wraps his arms around my waist and brings me flush against him.
"Your birthday is in less than a month, babe."
"I know." I say in a chuckle. "What the fuck are we waiting for?"
Jasper laughs softly.
"What the hell, you're right… what are we waiting for?" He nods. "Let's do this."
I nod too, and then I lean in and we end the conversation just the way all this started more than three years ago…
With a deep, serious, hot-as-hell, satisfying kiss.
The End
