Memento Mori

A Selection of shorts and unrelated one-shots. Mostly stuff that comes to my head while watching the show or things I think should have happened. Things I would like to see. Jane Centric, but there will be shorts about the other characters as well.


Here is another one for you to enjoy. Hope you like it. It's another way that the last episode could have gone with Jane and the party.


Jane leaves the party early


Where We Don't Belong

As soon as she walked through the door, she realised coming here was a mistake. Allie had greeted her with open arms, a wide smile on her face as she brought Jane into a tight friendly embrace. Jane's arms awkwardly wrapped around the woman, her body tensing involuntarily at the unfamiliar contact. She forced a smile, already disliking the warm brightness in the apartment.

Allie pulls her into the apartment and forces a cold bottle of beer into her hand, she can feel eyes on her back. Cold, suspicious glares burning gruesome holes into her already scar-riddled skin. She glances over her shoulder, her eyes coming to focus on both Reade and Zapata. The later held her gaze. Glaring at her behind dark painted lashes. Jane offered the younger woman a small smile, Tasha simply broke their gaze, turning to face her friend instead. Jane cast her eyes to the floor.

They didn't want her here. Nobody wanted her here.

It took her a moment to realise Allie had been talking to her, her voice, seeming so far away as she got lost in her thoughts. She took a sip of her beer, grimacing at the taste.

"So what do you think?" Allie said, her kind eyes gazing expectedly at the tattooed woman for an answer.

"About what?" Jane shook her head, narrowing her eyes. Allie smiled.

"The baby names…Kara for a girl and Joshua for a boy."

Jane smiled at the names. Her first real smile in months.

"They sound beautiful."

"I can't wait to raise this kid Jane." Allie's smile widened. She watched as Jane silently listened to her. The dark haired woman's brilliant green eyes not quite meeting her own. "I can be the kick-ass Mom, Kurt can be the superhero dad, you…you can be the badass tattooed aunt that gives them desert before dinner." Allie giggled.

Jane's heart skipped a beat at the words that had just been said. Her chest becoming tight.

As if Kurt would let you anywhere near the kid. A familiar voice told her. It was cold and angry, but it was right. Kurt didn't even want her anywhere near the party. If it hadn't been for Patterson's slip up, she would never have known about it. Kurt would never have been forced to invite her out of pity.

"Anyway," Allie said, placing a gentle hand on Jane's forearm. "I have to go and mingle. Come see me later. We'll chat!"

Jane simply nodded as she watched Allie disappear into the throng of unfamiliar faces.

An hour that seems like an eternity passes. She sits on the chair by the window, out of the way of everyone else, a half-empty bottle of beer held between two fingers. She watches as people she doesn't know smile and laugh at the other end of the room. Watches Patterson and Borden sitting alone, their hands entwined as they talk. Borden says something like makes Patterson burst into a fit of uncontrollable giggles. She watches as Naz speaks to Reade and Zapata. Their bodies are relaxed and their smiles are wide as they quietly converse among themselves, but she can see the sideways glances she gets from each of them.

She doesn't belong here.

She puts her beer down on the table and looks around once more. She sees the bright, vibrant apartment, sees the happy faces of the many people that filled it. She sees the delicious looking cake on the table, surrounded by happy pictures of the family.

This life doesn't belong to you.

The voice in her head almost seems to be mocking her.

She stands, grabbing her jacket and moves towards the kitchen. The tightness in her chest increases as she moves through the crowd. Here she is, in a room filled with people and yet she had never felt more alone.

She finds Kurt and Allie conversing in the kitchen. Kurt's smile is genuine as he turns to look at her.

"Jane. Want another beer?"

She shakes her head slowly. Looking at the floor.

"No. I think I'm just gonna go."

Kurt's smile faltered only slightly.

"What do you mean. You just got here?" He asks. Jane's eyes move anywhere but his face.

"Yeah. We haven't even cut the cake yet." Allie chimes in.

Jane swallows hard before she answers.

"I don't belong here. This is a family thing…"

"Jane, what are you talking about, you are family?" Allie says. Kurt remains silent.

"No…I'm not." The words are like a knife to Kurt's chest.

Jane turns to leave but glances over her shoulder one more time.

"I wish you all the best Allie." She moves her gaze towards Kurt. "See you at work tomorrow."

She leaves without another word, feeling eyes on her as she exits through the door.

This life doesn't belong to her.

It never really did.


I don't know what it is, but I just love writing angst! There will be some happy ones coming...just need to think of them!

Hope you enjoyed this one. I know it's a short one, but it's just something that popped into my head when watching the episode. Please tell me what you think!