Disclaimer: this is a work of fiction using a character from Given written and illustrated by Natsuki Kizu. I do not own any of the canon characters here. I only borrowed them.

A/N: hi there! It's me again, your blue fellow. This work of mine was purely made out of my growing impatience towards Ugetsu Murata's own happy ending. So I wrote this one to make up for that. And just like Dazai Osamu, I also like Ugetsu Murata, especially the way he was portrayed in the Given manga. In my opinion, I see him as a strong-minded person, but deep inside he's just a hollow, or should I say, vulnerable? Guess, I just see myself in him. Anyways, enjoy this for now and let's all suffer together. Just kidding!


It was Sunday morning of May, and the streets were crowded as soon as the old folks began to open their stores and welcomed the townspeople in the city of Paris. Amidst all the hustle and bustle of the town, Ugetsu Murata on the other hand was hanging on his balcony, looking bored and restless while taking in the views of the busiest street in town. He woke up at the break of dawn, and as far as he knows, he's not an "early bird." His habit of waking up always falls in the early afternoon, and sometimes late in the evening. But ever since he rose from above, everything has changed. His simple lifestyle turned extravagant as his small circle grew larger than he expected. Even his break, or time for himself, was slowly getting less and less as the world demands more from him. It's like he was just going with the flow. Yet, no matter how rich or famous he has become, nothing can stop the void sprawling out from within him. Funny as it may sound, his current glorious life only made him feel dull and empty, just like a puppet.

Out of desperation to flee from the blues, Ugetsu decided it's time to change pace, thinking a good fresh air might somehow get rid of the melancholic air surrounding him and his apartment. So, he took his keys and walked out the door. A change in pace can also mean a change of views, so instead of walking through the town, he chose its outskirts.

From his idle steps, Ugetsu saw a single conspicuous mobile food truck, standing in the middle of the park. Why is it standing alone? He thought. His curiosity prompted him to look closer and see what it was offering. He approached the truck and peeked inside when a head poked out of the concession window.

"Good morning!" Greeted the dark tan man in a red bandana, catching Ugetsu off guard. "What would you like to-ehhh?!!" The man made a shrill sound of surprise, giving Ugetsu a fright as he jumped out of his skin with both hands covering his ears out of reflex.

What the hell! Ugetsu frowned, rattled by his piercing sound.

"Wait, wait, wait! Aren't you… t-the…" paused the jolly man, too surprised that he couldn't make a proper sentence.

What's wrong with his head? Ugetsu thought, still covering his ears while watching the different expressions, from shocked to nervous to overly excited, on the man's face.

"Arrgh! I couldn't believe it!" Shouted the man out of thrill and joy. "I never thought I would be meeting the greatest violinist on earth! What to do?"

Huh? What is he talking about? Greatest? Me? So he knows me? But what's up with his overreaction? Ugetsu wondered curiously, unable to comprehend the man's exuberant behavior as he slowly uncovers his ears.

"I can't believe it!" the man gushed over him. He grabbed his hands from the window, shaking them freely. "You're Japan's number one violinist, right? You're Ugetsu Murata, right?" He beamed with delight. "I'm Adam Travers, you can call me Adam. My younger sister is a fan of yours-I mean, we are a fan of yours. I live just down that street-"

My hands hurt, Ugetsu thought, When will he stop babbling? His mood turned sour at his blithe chatter that his chaotic emotions has pretty much taken quite a turn for the worse.

"-and I watched your concert yesterday. I really loved it. I even wore my customized shirt with your face on it," Adam explained with a goofy smile upon his full lips. "It was a really great concert-"

"I got it!" Ugetsu said sharply, wincing as he tries to pull his hands away from his tight grip. "So can you please let go of my hands?"

"Oh, I'm sorry, I got too excited," Adam said with a rueful smile.

"You don't need to grab my hands that tight," Ugetsu sneered at him while kneading his hands. Is that how a fan should react? Talk about private space!

Adam seemed to notice Ugetsu's annoyance, even more so when he coldly turned his back to leave. "Wait!" He called, leaving his truck immediately after Ugetsu walked away from him. He ran after him and spun him around as he caught his hand. "Please don't leave, Ugetsu."

"HUH? UGETSU??!" Ugetsu said in shrill anger, tearing a strip off him. "First, you grabbed my hand, and now you shamelessly called my first name. Did I even gave you permission?"

"I-I'm sorry," Adam faltered apologetically, "I didn't mean to, I was just thrilled to see you personally."

Again? How far does he plan to stick with me! Ugetsu thought with annoyance, as if irritated to be grabbed over and over again by a stranger. Needless to say, the last thing he wanted was unwanted attention.

"It wasn't intentional, really. So please… come back." Adam gave him a puppy-eyed look that was totally unsuitable for a tall guy like him. "I'm sorry-"

"Let go!" Ugetsu struggled to pull his hand away, thinking, Why is he so strong? He pulled harder, but to no avail. "How dare you-"

"I will let go of you," Adam paused, not yielding from his death glares, "if you promise me you'll come back-"

"Why should I!" Ugetsu said briskly.

Adam pouted with downcast eyes, but he wasn't ready to let go of his hand.

Ugetsu clicked his tongue, and sighed, "alright." He gave up after realizing how stubborn the man is.

"You're not going to run away again, right?" Adam stared into his eyes with scrutinizing look.

"I won't," Ugetsu said, "but if you won't let go of my hand, I will shout 'pervert' at the top of my lungs."

In an instant, Adam released his hand and apologized right away after his threatening voice. He then asked if he was joking, only to see his stern face. So he surrendered and thought it was wiser not to provoke him any further.

"So what is your specialty?" Ugetsu said while browsing through a menu Adam handed to him.

Adam hesitates. "I, I can cook you a… um, pasta," he smiled tightly, "I'm good at it."

"Mm…" Ugetsu paused, propping his chin up on an elbow, fully focused on the variety of choices in the menu.

Does he not like pasta? Should I offer another one? Adam wondered, worrying about how to impress him with his skills.

Out of curiosity, and boredom, Ugetsu turned his focus to him instead. It might seem rude, but he was heedless of the outcome nonetheless. His eyes move up and down on purpose, enjoying the pleasant sight in front of him. He looks good up close, he arched his brow, watching his tanned face down to his very long legs, sizing him up. Not bad, does he frequent the gym too? Those pectorals might pop out of his uniform anytime soon. How tall is he? He wondered, so he asked with a straight face, "how tall are you?"

"W-what?" Uttered Adam, thinking, Suddenly? And why is he staring at me so intently? He blinked twice, then muttered softly, "six feet two… probably."

"Hmm…" Ugetsu hummed again and stared continuously, not withdrawing his eyes from the seemingly bothered man. That tall? He should be a model rather than a chef. His good looks will go to waste. The corner of his lips slightly turned upward, looking amused. He even reminds me of my old Bernese Mountain dog, minus his stubbornness.

Why is he smiling? Do I look weird? Adam wondered self-conscious while being put in an uncomfortable spot.

"Do you have any girlfriend?" Ugetsu placed his arm over the top rail of his seat, turning his entire body clockwise and then crossed his legs.

"I'm sorry, what?" Adam met his eyes, perplexed.

"You heard me," Ugetsu smiled wryly, "or are your ears clogged?"

"Of course not," Adam blushed, "they're perfectly fine." He fumbled with his hands. "I mean, I… I never had one, s-since birth," he whispered quite inaudibly with his ears turning red. What's with the sudden barrage of questions? Is he hitting on me? It's not that I'm complaining, I mean he's pretty-wait, wait, wait! Did I just think of him as pretty?

"So you're a virgin?" A coy smile formed on Ugetsu's lips. He never really intended to stay, but seeing him act all meek and shy changes his mind. He stood on tiptoe and leaned forward, smiling. "Is that a yes?"

Adam blushed from head to toe. He couldn't form a sentence to counter what he had said, because as soon as he opened his mouth, a small, delightful laugh burst out from Ugetsu's lips, then and there his heart began to throb and pulsate sporadically, and soon he was captured by his mesmerizing face. He stood frozen with his mouth gaping wide open as the series of inexplicable thoughts bombarded his mind.

What's this? Why is my heart pounding so fast? Why does the sky look so bright and beautiful all of the sudden? Last time I check it was cloudy and grey. Is that a wedding bell? Wait… am I hearing things now? Is it really the sky? Adam spaced out with a love struck face. No, it was him. He's sparkling… sorry grandma Claire, looks like the Travers' bloodline will end with me now, and It's this man's fault. Everything about him is just so perfect, from the way his lips curled when he laughs, or how the wind blows through his soft, jet black hair. To how his laugh tickles my ears… like a sweet, sweet sound of melody. And the way he looked at me, especially now, he licked his lips, so pretty…

Without seconds to spare, Adam leaned forward and sealed Ugetsu's lips with a sudden kiss. His bright green eyes closedmomentarily as the sudden rush of heat began to rise between his legs. His lips… so soft, he groaned.

At first, Ugetsu was taken aback, but eventually he gave in, accepting his sudden, unsolicited kiss. His body shivered when he felt his inexperience tongue gliding over his lips, asking for permission. So, he willingly opened his mouth and let Adam take the lead. How sloppy, he smiled between their kisses. He grabbed Adam's head, taking his red bandana off before gripping his short brown curls. Then, he deepened the kiss while guiding his tongue in the right way. He smiled even more when Adam elicited a sudden loud moan.

Adam took this as a sign. So in return, he, too, grabbed Ugetsu's face, brushing his soft hair with his big, calloused hands as he furthers the kiss to turn the tables.

"Mmn! Ahh! Haa…" Ugetsu moaned, letting out a raspy sound. "Mmn-wait, not here," he pulled back, breathless and looking aroused.

Damn, this is bad, Adam panted. He turned his head from left to right, scanning his surroundings, and without anyone in sight, he pulled Ugetsu's hand and led him to the back of his truck. Then, like a dog in heat, he pinned him against the hard steel wall of his truck and began to attack him with hungry kisses.

"S-slow down," Ugetsu breathed as he pulled back again, eyes filled with desire.

"Damn…" Adam clenched his jaw, seeing him all hot and bothered stirred him even more. He leaned again for a kiss, sucking the air out of him.

"Adam-mmph! Haa… wait." Ugetsu pushed him off as he gasped for air. His cheeks turned red once he caught a glimpse of his tented pants. "Adam-ah!" He moaned with surprise.

Adam grabbed his waist and lifted him off guard, slamming him once more to his truck and kissed him hard with raspy, wet sounds. "You taste good," he sucked his lips.

"Ngn! S-shut it-mmph!" Ugetsu trembles in his arms. He tightened his legs around Adam's waist, grabbing on his messy brown curls. "Wait, ngn!" He squirmed when Adam sucked and nipped on his neck, drawing out his tongue and gliding it up to his earlobe.

Shit! He smells good! How can a guy smell this sweet! Adam grunted, his green eyes exudes lust, and a bit of affection. He pressed him harder against the truck, thrusting his waist, rubbing his arousal in between their legs. "Hngh…!" he groaned and gritted his teeth while watching Ugetsu's face.

"S-stop staring, you perv!" Ugetsu uttered weakly, trembling in pleasure as his sensitivity turned haywire.

"I can't," Adam clenched his jaw, pushing his waist upwards, "you're making a lewd face." He fixated his eyes on his dreamy flushed face, like a randy teen on a first date.

"S-stupid, Ahh! Mmn!" Ugetsu moaned and flinched when Adam began to move his hands underneath his shirt, stroking his side and gliding his fingertips at the very bottom of his spine.

"You like that?" Adam whispered in his ear, his hot breath made him shiver. He squeezed his rounded ass and sneaked a hand up his black button shirt, brushing the erected nub with his fingers.

"Ahh! Hf, ngn-ah…!" Ugetsu squirmed, arching his back as he clings onto his neck. "Stop, d-don't… talk in my ear."

"It's your fault for teasing an innocent man like me," Adam breathed in a husky voice with a smug grin on his face. He approached his chest, and then bit his tented nipples, stroking them through his shirt with his excited tongue. "Do you prefer it here? You shuddered when I teased them," he grinned while poking the noticeable taut in his front-side shirt.

"Ah! Ngn! Mnn…" Ugetsu twitched, tightening his hold onto his runway-like shoulder as he tried to suppress his gasps. He pulled back for a bit, smiling coyly. "R-really? Ah! Tell me… where's that-ngn! Haah… innocent man you were claiming-mmph!" He whispered soft sexy moans, his eyes began to blur as his body shudders uncontrollably. "W-wait, ngn…!" he panted as Adam thrust his waist repeatedly.

Adam halts to kiss his hand fondly whilestaring deeply into his half-lidded eyes. I could watch him all day… if only time would stop here. He moved his lips and pecked his wrist. "Do you know how beautiful you are right now?"

Ugetsu blushed in deep shades of red. He turned away from his passionate stare. "Stop staring," he mumbled shyly.

"I can't," Adam moved to his ears and began to suck his already red earlobe. "I want to see everything."

"Ngn!" Ugetsu bit his lips, thoughts in haze. His face began to melt when Adam began to move erratically. "Ah! W-wait, You… you're too excited!" He squirmed, his body turning mushy and weak.

Adam let out a breathy laugh, feeling elated. He brushed away the wet strands from his face. "Am I?" He teased, smiling suggestively. "Aren't you also excited?" He thrust his hips again, pointing out the obvious bulge in his pants.

"Ah! S-stop! Please…" Ugetsu said in a weak voice. "Let's stop now."

"Why?" Adam breathed, thrusting nonstop while pressing his nose in between his neck and shoulder. The smell is too strong in here, it's making me drunk…

"Ah! Ngn! I said s-stop, I don't want to get caught," Ugetsu explained. He bucked his hips, panting incessantly. His rubbing so much! I have to stop it, or else, I might have to walk in sticky wet underwear, he fretted once his mind becomes clear.

Adam stopped, breathing deeply. He clenched his jaw, and said, "alright."

This guy! He seriously wanted more, Ugetsu thought after seeing the hesitation in his green eyes. "Hey, put me down," he said, but Adam was not budging in his spot.

Adam knew well enough that public sex is forbidden in Paris. Also, he didn't want to be seen as a selfish jerk after claiming to be his fan. So he obliged out of respect, putting his desires on hold. He heaved a loud, frustrated sigh, leaning his head on top of his shoulder as he tightens his grip on his waist. Arrgh! What is this feeling? I had never been so obsessive towards someone before.

"Adam, hey! Are you listening?" Ugetsu tapped his back, trying to get his attention. What is he thinking? He's killing me! I can't breathe! He squirmed and thrashed his legs. "Adam!"

"W-what?" Adam jerked his head upward, looking straight into his scowling face. "What's wrong?"

"You tell me!" Ugetsu grumbled, pushing him off. "Your grip is killing me! Put me down! My legs are numbed."

Adam refused. "I don't want to," he pouted with his best sad-puppy face. "Let's stay like this for a while," he pleaded as he nuzzled his face against his chest.

Now he's really acting like a dog, Ugetsu clicked his tongue. He almost got swayed, but his conscience was stronger than his carnal desire, so he pulled a handful of Adam's hair, and said, "stop acting like a kid and put me down right now!"

"No," Adam insisted stubbornly.

Ugetsu pulled his brown curls harder since he was being reluctant, and taking him lightly would only tire him out. "Put me down, Adam!" He thrashed his arms and legs, punching his strong chest.

Adam groaned, tightening his hold onto his waist when his once calmed member began to throb again. "Please stop moving, Ugetsu."

"Why are hard again!" Ugetsu blushed, wide-eyed. "Are you a dog in heat!" He pulled his hair so tight it made Adam lose his balance.

"Ouch!" Adam winced, steadying his feet, still with Ugetsu in his arms. "It's because you keep moving," he whined. "Why don't you just hold still-ow! Wait-my scalp! You're ripping them-ow!"

"Put me down, now!" Ugetsu said firmly, still pulling Adam's hair. "Or I will rip out all your damn curly hair!"

"Okay! Okay!" Adam gave in and let him down on the ground carefully. "Geez, you're going to make me bald. I'm too young to have a bald patch, you know," he whined while touching his swollen scalp.

Ugetsu ignored his pout and straightened the creases of his clothes. "Who's fault is that!" He glared at him. You even have the nerve to brag about how young you are… He froze in utter shock. Huh? Did I hear him right? He turned pale.

"Are you alright?" Adam said out of concern and worry.

"How old are you?" Ugetsu asked, crossing his fingers the same time. Please, tell me you're not "that" young. Please, please…

Adam gave him a confused look. Why is he asking about my age? Seeing his troubled face, he smirked when a sudden light bulb went on in his head. His eyes lit up. "Don't worry, there is no jailbait here." He winked at him, catching him off guard with a peck on his lips. "I'm at the right age now, turning twenty-three in July. So don't make that face like you've just been caught red handed," he smiled warmly while stroking his rosy cheeks.

"S-shut up," Ugetsu grumbled softly. "I knew that already," he muttered in his defense while looking away from his blinding smile.

"If you say so," Adam chuckled at his shyness, thinking how cute he is.

Both of them were in their own little worlds when a sudden loud voice called out from the front and snapped them back to reality.

"I guess that's our cue," Adam said, quite bashful. "I forgot about them."

Ugetsu made a small nod, tucking his hair behind his left ear. All the while his thoughts are muddled. What the hell am I doing? Gushing over a kid! This isn't like me! His cheeks flamed up after realizing how forward he had become. It wasn't what he had expected, nor wasn't in any of his plans since he knew his libido was still under control.

"Arrgh!" Adam slapped his face in dismay, giving Ugetsu a fright. "Sorry, I forgot about your pasta too."

"It's fine," Ugetsu reassured him, hiding his shame while pretending to look aroundwhen in fact he has become infatuated towards the bubbly young man. Still, he wasn't ready to admit it because the trauma he got from his failed relationships prevent him from pursuing love.

Same as him, Adam looked like he was about to punch the lights out of him from self-disappointment and frustration. His awareness over the heated passion they had earlier has started to come forward, thinking how badly it would end, especially for Ugetsu, if they were ever to be caught by the law. So out of his guilty conscience, he bowed down and apologized profusely to him. "I'm so sorry! I shouldn't have done that! I didn't realize I was forcing myself on you. It's so wrong, but I still did that to you. I am so sorry, I know that's not an excuse, but I hope you'll forgive me-"

"Isn't it too late for that?" Ugetsu said briskly. Let's get out of here before he gets too attached to me, he thought. So he waived him, and added, "it's not even a big deal, so don't worry about it." He turned around to walk back to the front, but Adam grabbed a hold of his hand.

"What do you mean?" Adam said, confused and saddened by his claims.

"It's just as I said." Ugetsu pulled his hand away and continued to walk again without saying anything back. Was he expecting something from me? Did he think I wanted to be in a relationship with him? He thought, then he turned around, and said, "if you're not going to make me a pasta, I might as well return to my apartment."

Instantly, Adam's world began to crumble into pieces as he got crushed by his harsh words. He didn't want him to leave because he knew that would be the end of it, and all of him would be forgotten over time. Despite his fear, he wanted to shake him up for some answers and ask him about his reason for not taking him seriously. He opened his mouth, but nothing came out. Dejected, he balled his fists, and then he faked a smile while pretending he wasn't affected at all. "Alright, I'll cook you a pasta, it was my promise after all." He turned away like an abandoned dog and went back inside his truck.

It's for the better, Ugetsu sighed with a slight frown on his face, not quite fond of his decision, and almost regretted it immediately. But looking back from his failed relationships, he dismissed every once of regret in him and thought Adam was better off without him. So he walked back to the front and settled down from one of the tables he used earlier as he waits for Adam's pasta, as if none of it has ever happened.