Chapter 12

It's been a couple of weeks and while I'm eating and not purging but I'm still really self conscious. Sitting at the bar, Tig is sitting next to me and we are drinking our coffee and I still won't look him in the eye. He tilts my chin up and says "I love you." before kissing me softly but I don't say it back. "Hey." he says and I look at him. "I love you." he says. "I love you." I whisper before pulling away from him. "I'm gonna see if Gemma needs any help." I tell him before walking away.

Bobby walks up and asks "She okay?" Tig looks at him and says "No. She's not. Her head's been fucked up since her fucking ex showed up." Bobby asks "What's going on with her?" Tig says "She was fucking purging everything she ate. Barely letting me touch her and when she does, she hides herself from me after." Bobby runs his hand down his face and asks "What does she need?" Tig shakes his head and says "I don't know. Think I might talk to Gemma and see what she thinks." Bobby nods and says "Good idea brother. Let us know what she needs. You too." he says before patting Tig's shoulder and walking away.

Tig gets up and heads outside to see me coming out of the garage. I walk up to Tig and say "I think I'm gonna lay down. My head hurts a little." He kisses me and says "I'll check on you shortly." before kissing me again. I nod and head inside. Walking to the dorm, I change into a pair of baggy sweats and a baggy shirt and get into the bed. I lay there and all I hear is Lucas in my head. I have to get Tig to let me go. But how?

Tig walks into Gemma's office and sits on the couch. "What can I do for you baby?" she asks. Tig leans forward, putting his elbows on his knees and sighs. "I don't know how to help my Old Lady Gemma. She won't look at me. She hides from me. She's pushing me away and barely even tells me she loves me anymore. How do I get her past this shit?" he asks, looking up at her. "Well, first, you take out that piece of shit that fucked with her head. Then you come back and you take your wife and spend a couple of days at the cabin, showing her how much you love her." she says. "The cabin. You think it might help her relax a little?" he asks and she nods. "I do." she tells him. He stands up and kisses her cheek and says "I'm gonna go lay down with my Old Lady. I'll have Juice look into him while we're laying down." he says. "You go ahead. I'll get Juice on it." she tells him and he nods. "Thanks Mom." he says before walking out of the office.

Walking into the dorm, he takes his kutte off and then his boots before taking his pants and shirt off. He slips into bed with me and sees that I am in baggy clothes again. He wraps his arms around me and I pull away from him. "Don't do that. Please." he says. I get out of the bed and he sits up on the side of the bed. "I want a divorce Alex." I say and he shakes his head. "I won't sign the papers. You got my crow. My last name. You promised me babies. We ain't getting a divorce Doll." he tells me. "I want a divorce Alex. I don't love you. I don't want to be with you anymore." I tell him. He stands up and walks towards me and I back away. "Don't." I whisper. He steps in front of me and tilts my chin up to look at him. "Everything you've done for me? You've done nothing but show me that you love me. You can tell me you don't love me all you want but your actions say different. I know you love me. You've my fucking wife. You're my Old Lady. Now, I'm gonna take care of that fuck that put that shit in your head and then we're going to the cabin for a few days so that I can knock you up. Then we're going to have our kid and live happily ever fucking after. You understand me?" he asks and I don't answer. He grips my chin tighter but not enough to hurt me and says "My crow my pussy. What I say goes and I say you're the sexiest woman I have ever fucking laid eyes on and you're mine." I look into his eyes and say "Okay." He kisses me hard and says "I love you." I nod and say "I love you too Alex." before he leads me to the bed and we lay down together and he just holds me close until I doze off.