A/n: Please enjoy!


My heart was pounding in my chest as we speed home. Bucky had his hand on my upper thigh and was giving me the side eye while he drove. I was squirming with the anticipation. But I was also incredibly nervous. Growing up, Steve and I would often here of Bucky's "conquests", and this whole night my mind had been racing wondering if I could measure up...

The glimmering lights from the compound's windows began twinkling into view and my stomach was in knots. I knew I wanted this, I knew I wanted him desperately. But he was going to be my first time... some people said it hurts, others said it felt amazing...I guess I would find out soon what it would be for me.

Bucky smoothly drove the car into a parking spot and jogged around the car and opened my door. "Come on doll," he said, extending his hand as he spoke. I felt all jittery when my hand touched his. God, I wonder how he was feeling?

Hand in hand, we walked silently towards the front door. The stars were twinkling brightly in the sky, and the only noise was the gentle chirp of the crickets in the bushed lining the walkway. Bucky opened the door and let me in, tapping my ass gently when I walked in front of him. The living room was empty I noted, as I walked through the first section and headed towards the stairs. Bucky was swift to follow, being barely a step behind me. I felt like I was going to throw up. Pull yourself together, I scolded, willing myself to not be so damn anxious for once in my life. I reached the top of the stairs and hesitated, wondering if I should just say goodnight and go to my room? Or better yet, Natasha's so I could tell her everything that happened. On the other hand, I could go to his and-

Bucky lifted me up into his arms and marched us swiftly to his room, shutting his door soundly behind himself. Guess that solved the problem, I chuckled to myself. Bucky let me down before swiftly spinning us around and pinning my to the door. His eyes were dark and he stared deep into my eyes, licking his lips like an animal ready to eat. With one hand on either side of my head, he leaned forward till his lips tickled my left ear.

"You were such a beautiful tease tonight, doll. It was all I could do to not have you right there on the ferris wheel," he whispered huskily, his voice dripping with desire. A cold hand trailed its fingers up my left thigh till it reached around and gripped my ass firmly, pulling me tightly against him. I inhaled the delicious pine cologne he wore, and felt a warmth between my legs. Fuck. He got me going so easily.

His lips began slowly kissing my ear and trailed down my jaw until he pressed a single, gentle kiss on my lips. His other hand gently reached around and grabbed the rest of my ass, giving it a squeeze while he did. "Mmmm you've got such a plump ass, baby," he cooed, giving it another firm squeeze. In one swift motion he lifted me up and wrapped my legs around his waist. He pressed me to the door more forcefully and began fervently kissing me. I replied with passion, my tongue slipping into his mouth, grazing across his lips and teeth, toying with his tongue.

He turned on his heel, carrying me towards the bed. He tossed me down and stood above me, admiring me as I lounged across his bed. My desire felt all consuming. I needed him, desperately. I climbed on top of me and continued his kissing, this time working his way down my neck. Biting, licking, sucking, kissing, it felt like heaven. I moaned softly and felt him smile against my collarbone.

"You like that, baby?" He purred, nipping me gently. I nodded. His hand creeped up my inner leg and slowly to my pussy. I squirmed again, this time not from nerves, but excitement.

He paused and looked up at me. "y/n, do you want to go all the way or just what we've done in the past? There's no pressure okay?" He spoke tenderly, his words full of care and consideration. Did he know it cold be my first time? I racked my brain trying to remember if I had ever told him I was still a virgin. My drawn out pause made him retract his hand, and he began slowly rubbing my thigh.

"I do want this Bucky, I'm just a bit nervous..." I felt his gaze on me while I bit my lip. I felt my anxiety rushing back as the adrenaline faded.

"Doll, we don't have to you know. We can go as slow as you like," he reassured me, continuing to rub my leg gently. I reached down and grabbed his face, drawing him in for a soft kiss, hoping it would convey my feelings. I did want this, but I didn't know if I could do it just yet. Bucky felt the hesitancy and moved up till he was sitting beside me.

"Y/n, I'm not the guy I used to be. I care about you, deeply. So if you want to take it slow, then go as slow as you want. Because this-," he gestured between us, "-this is more important to me than the physical intimacy. You have the ability to strip me down to my bare soul, and I welcome that. I welcome that vulnerability with you. You probably know me better than I know myself. So if you're hesitant, than let's wait. Let's wait until you're sure, and confident. Because, doll, I will wait as long as you need, I promise."

I felt tears pool in my eyes at his words. All my life, Bucky had been there for me. No matter what the problem was, if I needed him, he would be there. And while I had always had love for Bucky, it was in this moment that I knew that that love had grown and morphed into a romantic love but I was too naive to say it.

"Thank you Buck," was the best I could muster. Even to me, my voice sounded raw with emotion. His arms slowly wrapped around me, tugging me against him, and I nuzzled into his chest.

"Let's get changed and go to bed," he whispered, tugging at my top. I nodded against him and leaned up, removing my white shirt and wiggling off my skirt. I unhooked my bra and tossed my clothes onto the floor. Not bothering to remove my makeup, I crawled under the sheets and Bucky wrapped his arm around my shoulders while I cuddled against his bare chest. He placed a gentle kiss on the top of my head, and before I knew it, I was sound asleep.


A/N: I hope you guys can see how much Bucky cares for you, and clearly wants what's best for you. He's such a sweetheart 3