So this is Merlin's season two rant, I'm sure you know exactly what I'm talking about. ;)

WEast this is your request, I hope you like it.

I'm sorry this has taken so long. I am currently suffering from writers block. :( So that means my writing 'judgment' is temporarily out of service, so if this is bad/or not up to my usual standers or any of you aren't satisfied by it tell me please and I will fix it :)

Enjoy!


Gwen sighs, Arthur is driving her crazy. She knows he's the prince but really, can someone really be that rude and arrogant?

Let's not forget his thoughtlessness.

Gwen practically growls as she holds her skirts as to not trip on them on the stairs.

She's getting Merlin. How on Earth he puts up with the prat 24/7 is beyond her but he is going to do it again.

She has had enough.

Guinevere reaches the court physician's chambers and drops the wad of her dress she had clenched in her hand.

Gwen notices the door hasn't been shut properly and, peeking through without realizing it, she sees Merlin asleep on the floor, his hands still holding the brush and bucket from cleaning.

She falters for a second, maybe she shouldn't go to Merlin. Sighing she shakes her head.

She raises her fist to knock as she runs it again through her mind how she will do this.

Just before her knuckles touch the wood to make the deep thud the hears Gaius's voice. He sounds so irritated she pauses.

"Merlin, on your feet. Arthur may be away, but I'm not. And why is my leech tank still dirty? Where do you get the idea you can sit around all day doing nothing?"

Gwen's face softens, Merlin does so much for them and they don't even think twice. She bits her lip guiltily, why they're all worse than Arthur.

"Wha..? Do you think I sit around doing nothing?! I haven't had a chance to sit around and do nothing since the day I arrived in Camelot! I'm too busy running around after Arthur! Do this, Merlin! Do that, Merlin! And when I'm not running around after Arthur, I'm doing chores for you! And if I'm not doing that, I'm fulfilling my destiny! Do you know how many times I've saved Arthur's life? I've lost count. Do I get any thanks? No. I have fought: Griffins, witches, erm...bandits, I have been punched, poisoned, pelted with fruit, and all the while I have to hide who I really am, because if anyone finds out, Uther will have me executed! Sometimes I feel like I'm being pulled in so many directions, I don't know which way to turn!" Merlin's voice slowly grows into a shout.

Gwen's jaw drops, saved Arthur's life? Destiny?

Griffins and witches and bandits... Merlin? How on Earth would Merlin do those things? His own feet could kill him.

Merlin's words echo through Gwen's mind.

Uther will have me executed

Gwen's confusion grows

Why would he-

Magic

Gwen gasps loudly, stumbling back.

She forgets her knuckles are so close to the door, they shove the door open with a thump.

Merlin's head snaps to her direction.

Gwen staggers back, tripping over her feet and dress.

Merlin's face goes deathly pale.

He calls after her in desperation, "Gwen! Gwen wait! Please! Just let me explain! Please!"

Gwen takes off at a run and Merlin follows her, ignoring the looks sent their way.

Gwen's mind is clouded sh-she can't think. She doesn't know what to do.

She is vaguely aware of her body jumping onto her mare bareback.

She has done this before, on her days off. Just ride. Sometimes with a saddle some with out. She trusts her mare with her life.

She takes off into the forest at a gallop.

Tears flood her face, her best friend... A traitor.

How long would it be before he tried to kill her or Arthur?

Her mind is at war with herself.

One side screams at her, its MERLIN! He doesn't have an evil bone in his body. He trips over his own feet for God's sake.

The other only whispers, as that is all the impact it needs to tear her heart to shreds.

Magic

Sorcerer

Liar

Traitor

Evil.

Betrayal.

Her horse reaches the clearing they often stop to eat in.

Gwen slides to the ground, weeping.

She hears a soft crunch beside her and looks up to see Merlin hesitantly approaching her as if she were a wild animal.

Gwen recoils, scrambling away from him, "Nooooo."

Her body racks with another wave of sobs.

Merlin's heart breaks at the fear in her eyes.

He kneels by her and wraps her in his arms, she weakly fights him.

Merlin rocks her gently, cooing. "Shhhhhhh, its ok. I would never hurt you Guinevere. You or Arthur or anyone."

Merlin's voice, while still soft and gentle, takes on an edge of pain and sorrow, "please Gwen. If you were ever my friend, please hear me out."

Gwen stiffens as her tears subside, she pulls from him and looks at him in utter confusion.

The war rages louder than ever.

"My father was killed because of sorcery."

Merlin winces and his face fills with anguish.

"I know," he whispers.

"You lied to me, to us all!" Gwen's voice is filled with anger, betrayal and pain. Her body lauguage shows Merlin the true extent of her anger and hurt.

Merlin hangs his head briefly, "I know, and I am so sorry. I-I wish I never had to but I did. I had no choice, I never wanted it to be like this. Please Gwen."

Gwen's lip curls, it looks so unnatural on her. Merlin wonders if its the first time, "No CHOICE?! How bout DON'T LEARN MAGIC!"

Merlin stands and yells back at her, "LEARN?! YOU THINK I CHOSE THIS? TO BE THOUGHT A MONSTER? TO THINK YOUR SELF A MONSTER? I WAS BORN THIS WAY GWEN! I HAD NO CHOICE!"

Gwen looks back at him, stunned.

Her fire gone.

Her mind once again in turmoil but this time they were no longer tearing and screaming.

He... had no choice?

He was born like this? Into this world where he was hated?

Oh, Merlin.

My dear friend, I am so sorry.

And her mind was quiet.

She voices her calmed thoughts, "Merlin I'm so sorry. You've only ever been my friend and I reacted like this?" She buries her face into her hands. "please forgive me Merlin, I am so sorry."

Merlin smiles and wraps his arms around her once again.

Merlin chuckles lightly. It's ok, I've actually imagined you reacting worse. I mean you didn't even hit me." He grins cheekily at her, she smiles back at him.

Suddenly her eyes shine and Merlin's narrow with suspicion.

Gwen grins, giddy, "will you, will you show me?"

She bits her lip.

Merlin laughs and rolls his eyes.

Stepping back he brings his hands to his mouth and whispers something.

Merlin throws his hands up and balls of light fly out and dance in the sky, lowing to circle Gwen before fading from sight.

She smiles at the lovely display, she wishes she could share this beauty with her beloved Arthur.

She and Merlin can't wait for the day.