A/N So here is chapter two. I have heard that I have made several people cry and I'm sorry about that, but I want everyone to know that Eric is not going to stay dead. I have always been an Eric fan and I couldn't leave him dead even if I wanted to. Now for this chapter I stole a little something from the books that will lead up to Eric's return in the next chapter which is about half written. So read, enjoy and send me some love so that I'm inspired to write more.
The night of the Festival of Tolerance when I thought that Eric was going to kill Bill I thought that that pain was the worst I would ever experience, I couldn't have been more wrong. Watching what was left of Eric blow away in the wind was a hundred, no a million times worse than that pain. I had fucked things up so badly with him and I would never get to fix it now. The pain I felt was absolutely crippling to me. It was hard for me to believe that this was even true even though I was seeing it with my own eyes.
I wanted so badly to pretend that this was a very bad dream and that I would wake up from it, but I knew that I couldn't. My Eric was gone and there was nothing that I could do about it.
I wanted to stay on that snow covered mountain top and weep for the love that I had lost without even really having it, but Niall had other ideas. He grabbed my arms and popped us both back to the farmhouse. That set off the hysterical, crazy bitch inside me that was just hiding under the surface. "NO! TAKE ME BACK THERE RIGHT NOW! I can't just leave him there like that. Please, I need to go back to him." I was pounding on his chest with tears flowing down my cheeks to try to get him to take me back, but I knew that it was pointless.
"Sookie!" He grabbed my hands to stop me from hitting him anymore. "He's gone my sweet girl."
"No, I can't believe that. I love him. I know that I fought him for so long and denied that to myself, but I really do love him. I can't lose him now before we've even had the chance to be together that I denied both of us." I paused for a second to wipe the tears from my eyes. "There's a hole inside of me now that he's gone. I don't know if I can go on without him." I started sobbing as Niall pulled me to him and led me into the living room.
He sat us down on the couch until started to calm down a bit before he got up and disappeared. I should have asked him where he was going, but I just didn't have it in me. All I could think about was Eric and how I fucked things up with him.
I looked around the room and all I could see was him here with me when he had no memories of who he was. I remembered washing his feet and the way he smiled down at me when I tickled him. He had been so innocent in those moments, but those weren't the moments that I fell in love with him, I just fell harder for him without realizing.
Letting my mind wander I couldn't help the night that we finally made love and all the different places and positions that we'd tried on that first night alone. I could feel my face start to heat up, but then that just made me even sadder. There would be no more nights like that ever again.
I was lost in my thoughts and my regrets that I didn't notice that Niall had come back. He sat back down next to me and took my hand in his. "Where's Jason?" I knew that I should have asked about him sooner, but I just couldn't until now.
"I sent him home. He doesn't need to see you so upset."
"He'd better get used to seeing me like this because I don't see me getting over this anytime soon."
"You really loved the vampire, didn't you?"
"I fought my feelings for him and him for so long, but now that he's gone, it's like I can see and feel things so much clearer. He was the one that was there for me, who told me the truth about things that I needed to know. Yeah, he may have done some horrible things in the past, but he had his reasons.
"He bought my house and fixed it up when he didn't have to because he had faith that I was going to come home. He risked his life to save mine several times when he didn't have to. If I could do things all over again I would do things so differently."
"What if I could give you that chance Sookie? Would you take it?"
"What do you mean?"
I watched as he pulled a small, green box out of his pocket that was shaped like a compact. "Here, I want you to have this."
"What is it?"
"We call it a cluviel dor. It's a fairy love token that allows the possessor to make one wish, but the wish has to come from a place of love inside of them. If you love your Eric as much as you say you do, than you should be able to change things."
I could feel hope building rapidly inside of me. I would do just about anything to get Eric back. "What do I need to do?"
"You need to have an open heart and your wish needs to be pure, but there is the possibility that there will be consequences you need to consider before you make your wish."
"Anything. It doesn't matter as long as I get Eric back."
"That's just it, depending on how you word your wish, you could be brought to another time when Eric is still alive, or there could be some other difference to the time line that could change what happened if the wish is not worded properly."
Niall placed the CD in my hand and I could feel the power emanating from it. It was more intense and stronger than anything I'd ever felt before in my entire life. "It's so powerful."
"Yes it is. It's also potentially very dangerous. Promise me that you will think about how to word your wish for a while before you actually make it."
"I promise."
"Good girl." He leaned over and gently kissed my forehead before he vanished into thin air.
I sat there for a few minutes just holding the CD and thinking about Eric. It was just so hard to believe that he was actually gone and that this small object had the potential to bring him back. He'd been a big part of my life for so long now that I couldn't' imagine the rest of it without him.
I stood up and was going to head upstairs to my room to think about my wish, but instead I turned and made my way down to the cubby instead. Being down there made me feel closer to Eric and that's what I needed right now.
I sat down on the bed and twirled the CD in my hands. Could I really bring Eric back? Could I do things right by him this time? Would I be able to put my stupid pride and stubbornness aside and be able to follow my heart for a change? Without thinking about what I was about to say, I opened my mouth and words started spewing out. "I wish that I could go back to when I started falling in love with Eric and make sure that he doesn't suffer the same heartaches that he suffered in the past again."
I froze as I watched the CD float up in the air and pop open. "Oh Shit!" I'd just made my wish; hopefully it wasn't a wasted one.
