A/N I am so sorry about the long wait for this, I have no real excuse except real live and my muses are bitches. I hope the next chapter doesn't take so long, I've got it started and I have chapters for my other stories as well, but my arms are already starting to crap typing this, but hopefully there should be more later this week. Leave me some love:)

I looked down at Eric and he was surrounded by a bright yellow light and that light was coming from my hands. I could also feel warmth flowing from my light inside me into him and I started to panic. "Oh God! Eric, are you all right? Am I hurting you?" I tried to pull my hands away from him, but he quickly placed his own hands on mine to stop me.

"Don't, you're not finished yet."

"Finished doing what? Eric, you're getting hot. You're not suppose to be hot. What if I'm killing you?" I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks and the thought that I was hurting the man that I love. "Eric please, i need to stop. I can't stand the thought of hurting you in any way."

"Lover, I swear that you are not hurting me one bit."

"Baby, I can't bare to lose you again."

"You are never going to lose me. You are giving me everything that I never dreamed was possible." I had no idea what he was talking about, but seeing that gorgeous smile on his face was enough to keep my hands where they were.

Whatever I was doing to him, it felt like it was taking forever, but in reality only took a few minute to complete. I watched the last of my golden light absorb into Eric and I felt only mildly relieved that it was over. I had no idea what I had done to him, but I was still afraid that I had hurt him somehow. "Sweetie, are you sure that you are okay? I have never done anything like that before. I don't know exactly what I have done, but I know that I would never intentionally do anything to hurt you."

He looked up at me with such shame in his eyes. "I don't know how you can even care about me at all after all of the horrible things that I did to you." The confused look on my face was enough to make him continue talking. "Giving you to Russell Edgington, pretending over and over again that I didn't care about you, when I did care, when I do care about you more than any other being besides Godric. Then there was the way that I tried to make you mine." He took my hand as i just looked at him, completely shocked. "I never should have let you walk away that night without convincing you that we didn't get our chance, a chance that we both deserved to give each other."

"You know about that? How is that possible?"

"It's all you my little sea goddess. You showed me time together while you slept, every detail of it." He smile grew even bigger and I knew that he was remembering the day that he spent out in the sun playing in the water. I hadn't accepted that I had cared for him yet that day, but seeing him so happy and carefree had warmed a part of me deep down inside.

"I wish that I could see you out in the sun again, that you could experience that joy for real and not just have it for a memory. I'd never seen you looked so carefree and happy as you did that day, or as handsome with the sun glistening off of you like it did."

"What if I could actually do that again?"

"What do you mean?"

He gently lifted me off of his chest and set me down on the bed. I watched as he vamped over to the covered windows and I had a bad feeling about what he was about to do. I looked over at the clock and saw that it was only four o'clock in the afternoon and the sun would still be high in the sky.

i turned back to Eric as he pushed the button to open the shutters. They were quickly starting to rise and the sun was flowing into the room. My mind instantly took me back to that mountain top and I couldn't stand it. "Eric NO!" I was off the bed and in front of him before I even realized that I'd moved.

I clung to him as tight as I could, covering him as best I could while trying to push him into the dark. "Please Eric don't do this. I don't want Bill or Alcide or any other human or fairy or werewolf or vampire, I just want you It should have always been you. I can't live without you. Please don't leave me again." I couldn't stop the tears or the sobs that were ravaging through my body in that moment.

He held me tighter and i just stood there waiting for him to move or to close the shutters or horribly, to burn, but none of that happened. "Sookie, look at me." I shook my head that was pressed against his chest. "Look at me." He gently pulled my face up to his and I looked at him through me tears. He was bathed in sunlight, but he wasn't burning.

I reached up and caressed his sun-kissed face. "How is this even possible?"

"It's you Sookie. You have given me the gift of your light. I can feel it pulsing through me making me feel alive for the first time in over a thousand years."

"You have always been alive Eric, no matter what anyone else says. I've never met anyone more full of life than you."

He took my hands in his and held them tight. "I wasn't so full of life on that mountain top."

"It was an accident. You didn't know what was going to happen."

"I took for granted the advantages that Warlow's blood afforded me. In my thousand years I have never been as reckless as I was that day. I have always taken into account every contingency especially when it comes to my safety. There was a part of me that wanted to die on that mountain no matter how much faepire blood I had inside me."

"Oh Eric."

"Pam had Tara, Nora and Godric were gone and you wanted nothing to do with me. What did I really have to live for?"

"For yourself. Eric, there is so much for you to live for, but I want you to know that you never need to feel like that again. I choose you like I always should have and I'm not going to let anything happen to you or the people you love now that I know what could happen."

"No, none of that shit is going to happen this time around. We are going to stop Russell long before he can even consider killing a man on live television. I went about things the wrong way before, but now that I have seen my mistakes and there consequences and now that I have the incredible gift of day-walking, I have definite advantages."

"You also have a more practiced fairy at your disposal. We can take down Russell, then maybe we can have a life together, one that we should have had all along."

He took my face in his hands and looked me right in the eye. "We will have a future together Lover. I want to show you the world and I want to see it through your eyes. I want you to experience everything that you have ever dreamed of. The world shall be your oyster my love."

"As long as you are with me, nothing else matters."

He let out a breath that he didn't need before he continued. "I wish that you would let Godric and I handle Russell. I don't know what I would do if anything were to happen to you."

"Sweetie, I feel the same way about you, but I know that you, that we need to do this to have our life together." I took his hands and I led him over to the bed. We sat down and in that second I made a decision that I had been fighting for a long time, but that I now realized had been foolish of me to fight at all. "I think that I can say something to you that will make you feel better about my helping you fight Russell."

"And what might that be my Sookie?"

I took a deep breath and exuded all of the confidence I had as I spoke. "If something happens to me that I can't recover from, or you can't heal me with your blood, I give you my permission, my blessing to turn me."