Blaine woke early and having decided he was going to confront Kurt, he got up and went through to Kurt's room. He sat in the upholstered chair in the corner of the room by the glass window door and settled in to wait for Kurt to wake up. He'd been there for about 40 minutes before Kurt began to stir.

"Hey you." Blaine spoke startling Kurt.

"Blaine? Oh, my head." Kurt lay in his bed pressing the heels of his hands against his forehead. Blaine had had the foresight to place a glass of water and two Advil on Kurt's nightstand and after pointing them out to Kurt they were swallowed quickly.

"I think we need to talk." Blaine started quite matter-of-factly. He was determined to find out what was going on with Kurt and why it made him feel bad.

"Can we do it later? A band of doozers are working in my head and it's not as cute as it sounds."

"No, now Kurt." The sharpness in Blaine's tone made Kurt lift his head and realise that something serious was going on. He pulled himself up to sit with his back leaning against his headboard.

"Ok, what did you wanna talk about?" Kurt asked, rubbing the remaining sleep from his eyes.

"Things are weird between us and I want to know why. Ever since you missed my text you've done your best to avoid me or interact with me as little as possible. It's not my fault you didn't check your phone! And since when did you get drunk on a weeknight? Or even at all?! I wanna know what's going on with you and why you're taking it out on me." Blaine tried to maintain his tone, he didn't want to start fighting with his friend.

"Blaine….that's…." Kurt sighed heavily running his hands down his face. "I wasn't avoiding you because I missed your text. I was avoiding you because I was upset and disappointed and hurt and I didn't want to say something that made you feel bad but I guess….I guess I did that anyway."

"Why were you upset though? Who hurt you?"

"You did." Kurt admitted quietly, playing with the fabric covering his waist.

"How did I hurt you? I haven't done anything! I didn't do anything wrong!"

"That night we were…..intimate. It meant so much to me. I know we both agreed that neither of us was ready for a relationship at all let alone with each other but then you come home and out of the blue announce you're going on a date and all I could think was "why isn't he going on a date with me? Why aren't I good enough to date him? Why doesn't he want me?" Then when you came home I knew you'd want to talk about it and I couldn't just sit there and listen to you talk about your date with someone else, how you'd had a great time with someone else, how you kissed someone else. So I got drunk to try and distract myself…..but it just made me sadder." Kurt's shoulders slumped as his secrets were released into the wild. "Last night I was invited out with some people from school and I thought it would be a good way to test the waters. If you were gonna start dating then maybe I should too. But I couldn't do it. I ended up sitting at the bar all night drinking scotch while everyone else danced and partied. I got your texts but didn't know how to respond to them so I waited until you were in bed before I came home because I didn't know how to explain to you why I didn't reply."

"Kurt….."

"I know, I know, okay - I know! I agreed we'd just be friends and I know the whole reasons we're not together anyway is all my fault cos I'm the one who broke up with you but that doesn't mean I need to be happy about that or not miss you or not be excited when you start dating other people! You're supposed to be mine!"

"KURT!" Blaine yelled as Kurt's ramblings got louder and more emphatic.

"What?!" Kurt froze in bed where he was now in his knees gesturing wildly.

"You really need to learn when to just shut the fuck up." Blaine didn't move from his chair as Kurt sank down, resting his butt on his heels dropping his head.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to blurt all that out."

"I didn't think it was a date."

"Huh?"

"With Max. I didn't think of it as a date until you asked if it was. I thought it was just two friends grabbing some food. But it was definitely a date….but I thought about you the entire time." Blaine admitted.

"You did? Why?"

"Because I knew you'd appreciate the decor, the menu, the place settings, the distance to the nearest subway stop, the gentle breeze on the walk back. All of it made me think about you and just so you know - I didn't kiss Max. He tried to but I turned my head."

"Why would you do that though? If it was a date then why would you spend all night thinking of me and why wouldn't you kiss him?"

"Because I wanted to be on a date with you! I wanted to kiss you! I was going to talk to you when I got home but you were balls deep in a bottle of gin and then yesterday you were gone before I woke up and didn't come home until I was in bed!" Blaine stood up and began pacing back and forth at the foot of Kurt's bed. "I've tried to maintain some sort of distance from you since that night because I didn't think I was ready for anything more but every time I see you my heart does this stupid little dance. Every time I think about you I remember how soft your skin feels under my hands or how the muscles in your back move when you stretch or how you squeal when someone tickles your feet. I want to be with you Kurt but you've been so okay with us just as friends that I didn't think you wanted that anymore."

"I do, I do want that!" Kurt crawled over to the edge of the bed and grabbed one of Blaine's hands to stop him from pacing. "I thought you weren't ready for anything so I was waiting, I've been waiting for you to want me too but when you came home…..I thought I'd missed my chance." Kurt lowered his gaze focussing on the fingers intertwined with his own. Blaine used his free hand to tilt Kurt's chin up, allowing them both to look each other in the eye.

"You'll never miss your chance with me. You're the only person who has one."

Their lips crashed together as the tension between them evaporated into want. Pulling each other as close as possible, Kurt and Blaine slid their arms around each other, hands roaming over shoulders, backs and asses as the kiss turned more passionate. Blaine held Kurt's back and supported him as he moved them both back onto the bed. Kurt moved wordlessly, shuffling up until his head was back on the pillows, Blaine's strong body hovering above him. Hazel eyes scanned blue as Blaine took in the face beneath him. He tried to think of something to say but no words came to him. Instead, he lowered his face and pressed his lips to the soft ones he longed for.

Kurt shifted his legs allowing Blaine to slot between them, their synchronised groans breaking the silence in the room as their hardening cocks met through the fabric of their sleepwear. Kurt rolled them over, taking control of the kiss and trying to show Blaine how much he wanted him.

"Kurt….." Blaine broke the kiss and looked up at the chestnut haired man now straddling him. "Make love to me?"

Kurt's breath caught in his throat. Of all the things Blaine possibly could have said at that moment he was not expecting that…..but he knew he wanted it. He knew Blaine wanted it otherwise he never would have asked and oh god how was it not illegal for someone to look so innocent when saying something so sinful. Kurt swallowed hard and nodded, his mouth suddenly forgetting how to form words. A nervous smile slowly spread across Blaine's face as their lips met in a brief kiss.

They both wriggled out of their pyjamas trying to avoid separating their lips unless they had to. Interspersed with the moans and breaths, little giggles rang out when Blaine got his tshirt stuck in his head and when Kurt elbowed him in the stomach whilst trying to throw his pyjama pants away. Once they were naked, Kurt reached over to his nightstand and retrieved the box of condoms. He quickly grabbed three and tossed one to Blaine to roll on whilst he did the same to his own cock.

"Kurt…how are we-"

"Sshhh…I've been reading remember?" Kurt silenced Blaine's worries - and his own - with a finger to his lips following it with a kiss that once again turned heated.

Kurt unwrapped and slipped a condom onto his index finger and sat up briefly to coat it in lube. He leant back down to capture Blaine's lips and slowly pushed one finger inside past the tightness of Blaine's entrance. Kurt kissed along his jaw and down the olive skin of his neck nibbling gently at Blaine's collarbone.

Blaine groaned and arched his back as Kurt's mouth found his nipple and his finger moved inside him. When he felt the warmth of Kurt's mouth envelope his length he cried out in surprise.

"Oh shit Kurt…." Blaine watched as Kurt's lips stretched around him and as their eyes met Blaine was pretty sure he could cum just from that. As the second finger entered him his eyes fluttered shut and his mouth dropped open.

It didn't take long for Kurt to stretch Blaine fully and as he kissed his way back up Blaine's chest to capture his lips he felt his heart pounding in his chest. He paused and took a moment to gaze into the hazel eyes looking back at him, full of love and trust.

"I love you." His voice was no more than a whisper but conveyed everything it needed to. Blaine reached up and cupped Kurt's jaw and smiled softly.

"I love you too." Blaine leaned up to kiss him and slid his arm around his Kurt's shoulders pulling him down. He spread his legs a little further as Kurt lined himself up and pushed in slowly.

Neither of them could tell you how long they moved with each other or whose climax peaked first. All they knew was how amazing they felt, how tender their kisses were and how much they loved each other. Kurt lifted his head from Blaine's shoulder and pulled out carefully. They both took care of their filled condoms, tossed them in the trash and cleaned themselves up before gravitating back towards each other.

"We should probably talk." Kurt broke the silence from his position spooned behind Blaine. He lifted his hand watching their entwined fingers and kissed the back of Blaine's hand. Blaine rolled over until he was facing Kurt and took a deep breath.

"I want to be with you."

"I want to be your boyfriend again."

They both spoke at the same time then laughed at themselves.

"We are the worst couple ever!" Kurt laughed. "Ok, how about this - Blaine, will you be my boyfriend again?" Blaine pretended to think about it briefly with a smirk on his face before nodding.

"Yeah, I'd love to." Blaine's grin was nearly splitting his face making it difficult for Kurt to kiss him. They eventually managed to stop smiling enough to kiss each other properly. "Are you sure you want to do this? I mean, aside from all our history there's also the…y'know…"

"You can say it you know. You're HIV positive, Blaine. We both know it and we both know what precautions we need to take." Kurt brushed a stray curl away from Blaine's forehead and kissed it softly.

"It's like…if I say it out loud it makes it more real if that makes any sense?"

"It does but it's still gonna be real whether you say it or not. Besides, you've already said it once when you told me. And hey, it brought us back together so maybe other good things will happen too?"

"You think you're a good thing huh?" Blaine smirked as he pushed Kurt onto his back.

"Oh I'm the best." Kurt laughed as they lost themselves in another kiss.

A/N - so it finally happened!!! Yay! Please remember that this is fiction and although the risk of HIV transmission is lower when receiving penetrative sex you should always be safe and do your own research.

As always, a big thank you to everyone who reads and reviews, it means a lot that you're engaging with the story!