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Chapter Twenty-Three
Seleine P.O.V.
Tears streamed down my face as I stormed out of the room. My head was pounding. My heart was pounding. Blood was rushing to my head. The rage filled me. It felt like my body was on fire. All I wanted to do was scream. I wanted to kill something.
I turned to walk out onto the courtyard. Immediately, I let go. Thunder boomed, lightning struck, the earth cracked, and fire struck. I continued to walk. I wanted to get as far away from here as I possibly could. I started to run. I was suffocating in the palace walls and couldn't handle it any longer.
I made it to the gates. The guards took one look at me and saw all of the destruction I had already caused. They opened the gates instantly and let me through. Wise choice.
I made it outside. The palace gates closed behind me with a loud bang. Instantly, I let out a breath that I didn't realize I was holding. I let the tears turn into waterfalls. Then I screamed. I screamed again. Then I screamed again. My throat felt raw, but I felt a giant weight lifted from my shoulders.
"And Haruka calls me a drama queen."
I snapped my head to my right. Neptune was sitting on the ground with her arms holding her legs to her chest.
"Under the circumstances, I think I'm allowed to be a little dramatic," I retorted. She looked me up and down and then turned back to looking at the view in front of her. It wasn't much of a view. It was mostly a desert of white sand in front of us. There wasn't another village for miles.
I plopped down next to her. I felt tension and anger radiate from her. I sighed deeply and dropped my head to my knees. I could sense her shaking. Either she was crying, or she had just as much steam to blow off as me.
"Want to spar?" I asked casually.
She turned back to me. I suppose she was looking for something irredeemable in me. "That's the nicest thing anyone has asked me all day."
We both got up. We positioned ourselves a few feet from each other. She didn't bring her fists up or make a fighting stance. I didn't fight her on the moon kingdom in the past very often. She was one of the few people that I found difficult to actually fight with.
I turned in on myself and unleashed some of the power that has been contained inside for so long. Then I heard her footsteps. They were fast and purposeful. Then I heard nothing. I instantly kneeled down. I felt her sail over me. But she was prepared for that. She grabbed my hair and pulled me down with her. She slammed my head down ferociously.
When I jumped back up, she was already three feet away from me. She lunged toward me and let her fists start attacking me. Whoever trained her on earth trained her very well. She was much better than she was on the moon.
It became difficult to fend off her fists. When I went in for a hook, she dropped down and kicked my ankles forward. I instantly crashed onto my ass. She came back with a knee to the chest. My body lurched up around her knee at the force. Before I could bring my fist up to a jab, she jumped off of me.
I stood up and she threw deep submerge at me. I crossed my arms in front of my face to absorb the majority of the damage. My wrists stung from the damage. I looked back up from the attack and saw Neptune was gone. I looked up and saw her plunging down in front of me. I called on Mars sniper and struck her. I jumped out of the way as she crashed down.
She jumped back up and ran toward me. I blew out freezing cold ice on the ground and she slipped and fell. I raised my arm and brought them down to produce world shaking. Just before it connected with her, she had pulled out her mirror and used submarine reflection. The blast destroyed the energy I blasted at her and went straight into me. I didn't have time to react.
I was lying face down when I came to. I slowly began to get back up. I looked at her and saw triumph in her eyes. I was so angry that I unleashed something that I hadn't meant to. I released something that hadn't seen the daylight in so long. Instantly, I felt ten times more powerful. Neptune noticed it too.
I cocked my head to the side, my signature move, and allowed the dead to rise. They launched their fingers up and grabbed onto her ankles. They began to pull her down. I called onto a tornado and sucked her up into it. Then began to freeze it. She commanded tidal wave to disperse my tornado. I called lightning to slowly wrap around her body and squeeze. As it squeezed, it electrocuted her.
It had electrocuted her for a few seconds before she used splash edge to break free. She got back up and used dragon rise. I used snake fire to diffuse her power. Then I called up the tendrils. They latched onto her skin. Hands came up from the ground to hold her in place again. The tendril wrapped around her body pinning her arms down. I froze her from her feet to her chest.
I levitated toward her. I looked into her eyes and saw fear. She looked away from me, and I grabbed her chin. Her eyes sparked when I made her look at me. A corner of my mouth drew up. My eyes began to glow as I filled her lungs with water. Water began to profusely come out of her mouth. I drowned her in the salt water she loved so dearly.
I stopped drowning her. Her body was dry and demanded hydration. So naturally, I burned her. I called on my beloved fire to course through her body and heat her up. I watched my fire rise up to her beautiful face. She began to gasp for air. She cried out when she'd had enough.
I suddenly felt drained and could no longer levitate. That's when I knew she did it. That she finally ascended. Her head leaned back as her body floated up. A bright flash of blue told me her fuku had once again changed. She didn't wear that feminine skirt that she loved any longer. She wore tight-fitting black pants with an open sea green skirt fanning around it in waves. She wore a deep v tunic that hugged her body in just the right way. In between her breasts was a sea green shell that flowed with her power.
Her tiara was now silver with waves etched into the silver. Her sea green crystal in her tiara was now properly placed on the top of her forehead where it should have always been. Her earrings were replaced with a sea dragon looping through her ear up to her cartilage. Her gloves were shorter with sea green thread at the very end.
She opened her eyes when she finally stood on the ground. Her eyes were bright. I was so entranced in her beauty that I didn't even notice the violin playing in the background. I couldn't look away from her eyes. I was trapped in them.
I didn't even know she was right in front of me till she kissed me. Her kiss was cold and salty because this wasn't her kiss. This was a kiss of her power. She was torturing me by showing me just the smallest bit of her power at first. Then she drew her hands up, and a typhoon encircled me.
She rose up above the typhoon right into the eye. She circled her lips and blew out a tiny sea dragon. The sea dragon traveled toward me and forced my mouth open. The dragon dove inside of me and sent cold sea water throughout my entire body. The sea dragon began to expand. Water began protruding from my eyes. My skin began to tear for not being able to hold all of the water inside of me.
Suddenly, I dropped to the ground. Immediately, I began gasping for air. It felt like I was gulping down air for hours. She just stood there watching me. Finally, I felt like I had the strength to look up at her. She was radiant. I could feel her power even though she was a good five feet away from me.
I sat up on the back of my legs and looked at her. She sat down and looked at me too. We just stared at each other for the longest time, saying all the things we could never say to each other.
"I always felt powerless compared to you," she finally said without looking away.
"I was always jealous of you," I returned.
She blinked in surprise. "I guess we both have our insecurities," she said looking down. We were both silent. I couldn't get the courage to say anything to her.
"I want to hate you," she whispered. She was still looking at the ground. "I want to hate you so much. If I were stuck with the memories of just this time, I would easily be able to hate you. But now I have the memories from my past life and I can't fucking do it. I want to hate you for taking everything away from me, but then I remember how much love you gave me on the moon kingdom."
I closed my eyes as a tear slowly crept out of the side of my eye. I opened my mouth and took a breath of air. Why did it take us so long to do this? Why did it take us so long to finally be honest with one another?
"Part of me wishes you'd never come back. But then another part of me longed to see you. It's so frustrating! It's like I have two people inside my body and I can't separate the two to figure out what I want!" She cried. Her body was convulsing with all the emotions she was feeling in this very moment. There was nothing I could say to make this easier for her. I turned my head to hide the fresh tears coming to the surface.
About a minute later, Neptune scoffed and got up and went back inside the palace walls. I felt so numb. The sparring didn't help me. Yes, it got my anger out and Neptune got her full powers, but now my despair is real. I don't have my anger to hold onto any longer.
I looked up at the stars and remembered my mother. I remembered what she said to me before she left me. She told me she loved me. She told me that she always loved me but had to harden her heart against me. My mother loved me.
I sat down, and a sob ripped from my chest. My heart hurt from all the despair that I had gone through in the past forty-eight hours. The cries that came out of me were more than I thought I could ever emit. I hadn't realized how broken I was till this very moment.
After a few minutes, I could no longer cry. My breathing slowed down and slowly got up from leaning down over my legs. I looked up at the sky and all the stars above me. I searched the sky for answers. There were so many answers that I needed but knew I would never find.
"Why?" I whispered sniffling. "You made me think that you hated me for my entire life. All I wanted was for you to love me. You couldn't show me that you loved me at all? You just had to hate me. You just had to drive a wedge between us because you were so damn afraid I would destroy your world?"
I got up from my seat in the white sand. "Well, congratulations! I feel nothing! I'm still floating around in the cosmos from when you killed me. I'm not really even here and I'm trying so fucking hard to save the god damn world that you didn't want me to fucking see!" I screamed. I kicked up sand. I punched the sky and felt a surge of light shoot out of my hands. I used the sniper to fling shots of fire into the night sky. I screamed and sent tremors into the sky.
I dropped to the ground and pounded my fist into the sand. "I'm so tired. I'm so tired of trying to be the savior that no one sees when I myself need to be saved. I'm not alive anymore Mama, but I continue breathing to save the people I love. I'm trying to heal the world of all the treachery that desperately tries to destroy it when I've been trying to piece myself back together. You and this world destroyed me, and yet I'm still trying to save it." I whispered my secrets into the sand till I felt nothing. I curled up in the sand and watched the stars fade away as I began to fall asleep.
