Sorry

Beca Mitchell was one of the hottest things in the music industry since her arrival two years ago. The twenty-four-year-old first burst onto the scene as a producer/song writer working with some of the biggest names. Her resume includes the likes of Taylor Swift, Rihana, Beyoncé, The Weeknd, Halsey, Demi Lovato and had even worked on a song with Eminem. She was the most sought out up and comer in recent memory and there was no stopping her.

After about a year of strictly doing the behind the scenes stuff she decided to release some of her own music. Her songs were instant hits never having a song not make the top fifteen. She had requests from several artist asking if they can do a remix or even have a feature knowing how popular they can get off it. Beca, in her short time in the industry had amounted several awards and accolades at only twenty-four.

Despite all the success and fame, she still had her demons. Beca suffers from bi-polar disorder and has always been insecure about pretty much everything. Like many other celebrities that suffer from this, fame made everything ten times worse. Due to this she had pushed people away and threw herself into her work to try and distract herself. Beca had already struggled with maintaining relationships and friendships before fame, after making however it'd prove to deteriorate that tenfold.

The main friendship/relationship that had suffered the most was that with Stacie Conrad. Beca and Stacie had been as close as two people can be until fame struck. Stacie had always been by her side and helped her through the ups and downs but Beca pushed and pushed until Stacie couldn't do anything. Beca had started to treat Stacie like a work colleague instead of her best friend. She started to act distant and at times forget to even respond to the girl.

What had made it worse was the fact that the two had a conversation in the past about their feelings for one another. In that conversation they both admitted to having feelings for one another but decided to not act on it due to how much everything had changed. The way Beca had been treating Stacie hurt the taller girl to the core. All Stacie wanted to do was help but Beca's mentality was so screwed that she couldn't see that. Beca wasn't aware of the damage she was causing. So, Stacie took all this as a sign and gave Beca her space.

It's been three whole weeks of no contact between the two and Beca was just now starting to realize the damage. Beca had taken a week off as she had no projects currently and, in that week, her mental state had improved. She had shut off all electronics and isolated herself from the media and the industry. She worked out, went on hikes, did yoga and recharged her state of being. During this she thought back on how bad things had gotten and realized that she had major cleaning up to do. Deciding that Stacie deserves better than what she had been receiving, Beca did what she does best and started to write.

Beca wrote down exactly what she was feeling about this situation and twenty minutes she looked over it. She didn't really mean to write a song but that's what comes natural to her. So, she went into her home studio and played with some keys and beats till she had what she was feeling. Once she found the perfect balance, she went to record her work.

One week later

After her week off Beca went back to work but took it easy. Today was different however, today was the American Music Awards and she was scheduled to perform. She had told everyone that the song she was preforming was new and very meaningful to her. She was currently at her house and had two hours before she had to get ready and leave. Beca had an idea of what she wanted but was nervous about acting on it. So, after ten minutes of debating she decided to throw caution to the wind and pick up her phone dialing Stacie.

"Yes Beca?" Stacie answered with a slight edge to her voice.

"Hey Stace, can we please talk?" Beca asked pleadingly.

Stacie sighed hard "Oh now you want to talk?"

"I'm sorry Stace. So, dam sorry ok, I just-" Beca stopped and took a deep breath "I don't know, I lost myself big time. I didn't mean to push you away; you know how I am." Beca said.

"Yeah I do. But this isn't the Beca I know. Beca you literally treated me like nothing you realize that? You acted as if our friendship was interchangeable and didn't mean squat. You say you share my feelings then switch up and act like that? No, that's not my Beca. That is the fame induced Beca." Stacie said.

"I realize all that now Stacie. I took a week off last week and was able to relax and clear my mind, I realized just how shitty of a friend and person I've been to you and I truly am sorry for that. I need help." Beca said near tears "It's been two years and I still don't know how to balance any of this shit. I feel like I'm slowly losing my grip and when I get into work mode, I have no control. I don't want any of this to affect what we have any longer. Please just hear what I have to say?" Beca asked.

Stacie heard the hurt in Beca's voice and knew she wasn't just saying this to cover her ass "Ok what's up?"

"You know the AMA's are tonight right? And that I'm preforming?" Beca asked.

"Yes, I still follow up on you. It's a new song that has meaning." Stacie said.

"Extremely meaningful and personal. Anyways I just really want you to accompany me to the show. Please?" Beca asked.

Stacie took as few to think about it before Beca spoke again "It'll make everything easier afterwards."

"Alright I'll go with you." Stacie said.

"Thank you so much. I promise you won't regret it." Beca said before hanging up telling Stacie she'd pick her up.

An hour and a half later Beca had just finished getting ready. She had on a dark red dress with black heels and had straightened her hair. She got into the car and told her driver Stacie's a dress. Once there Beca got down and knocked on Stacie's door. Stacie opened up and Beca was in awe at the sight of the taller girl. Stacie had dyed her hair a light brown almost auburn like color. Beca then looked at her outfit, Stacie was dawning a black cutout dress with black heels.

"You just going to stare at me all day or what?" Stacie asked.

Beca shock her head "Sorry you just look well breathtaking if my reaction wasn't obvious. Absolutely gorgeous."

Stacie smiled "Thank you. You don't look too bad yourself."

"Thanks. I love the hair by the way." Beca said as the two walked towards the car.

After a fairly quiet car ride with the two talking about the show here and there, they'd finally arrive. Making a quick walk down the carpet and answering a few questions, the two made it to their seats. Beca was set to be the preform mid-way through the show, she was the third to last performer. Exactly an hour and a half later the coordinators came and told her to get ready. She gave Stacie a smile.

"See you in a few." Beca said before she headed towards the back.

After the she got ready and they introduced her the spotlight was on her. There was no theatrics for this performance, it was just her in the middle of the stage sitting on some steps. The piano melody started playing and she started up.

"I've missed your calls for months it seems
Don't realize how mean I can be
'Cause I can sometimes treat the people
That I love like jewelry
'Cause I can change my mind each day
I didn't mean to try you on
But I still know your birthday
And your mother's favorite song."

She sang softly before locking eyes with Stacie who was seated in the front center row right in front of the stage.

"So I'm sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really
Starts to fall in love with me
Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry I could be so blind
Didn't mean to leave you
And all of the things that we had behind."

Beca and Stacie's eyes were still locked and Beca now had tears rolling down her cheeks.

"I run away when things are good
And never really understood
The way you laid your eyes on me
In ways that no one ever could
And so it seems I broke your heart
My ignorance has struck again
I failed to see it from the start
And tore you open 'til the end."

"And I'm sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really
Starts to fall in love with me
Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry I could be so blind
Didn't mean to leave you
And all of the things that we had behind."

Beca put as much emotion into this as could possibly muster up.

"And someone will love you
Someone will love you
Someone will love you
But someone isn't me
Someone will love you
Someone will love you
Someone will love you
But someone isn't me."

Beca finished softly with her voice shaking towards the end as the tears were still falling. She looked into the camera, taking her eyes off Stacie for the first time during the performance, and smiled bowing her head. Once the camera panned over, she got up and made her way to the dressing room not before asking someone to lead Stacie to the room.

Five minutes later there was a knock on her down.

"Come in." Beca said.

Stacie walked in and locked the door before looking towards Beca who had one a hoodie and joggers. She walked up to her and smiled.

"That was beautiful Beca." Stacie said.

"Thanks. You umm, actually inspired it." Beca said leading them to the couch.

"How so?" Stacie asked.

"When I took the week off like I said it helped me realize things. Mainly how I treated you and how I just loss my grip mentally and push people away. My bi-polar makes me switch up and sometimes I take out my emotions on you, which is what that beginning verse is about." Beca said.

Stacie sighed and placed a hand on Beca's lap "Look Becs, I know how tough this can hit you at times, but you got to remember that I only want what's best for you."

Beca nodded "I know and I'm sorry for how I've treated you recently."

"I don't think I've ever heard you sorry this many times in a day let alone ever." Stacie joked causing both girls to laugh "But I forgive you. Like I said I understand."

"Thank you for always being the best I could ask for." Beca said.

"I do have one question." Stacie said.

"What?" Beca asked.

"The ending, why'd you make it sound like you can't love me? If it's about me or us, why make it sound like we can't have a relationship?" Stacie asked.

"Because it's how I feel. I feel like you deserve the best and I can't offer that. I'm fucked up Stace and you don't deserve the shit I've put you through. The whole song is pretty much about me being sorry that I can't give what you deserve. All I do is push people away and ruin everything." Beca said quietly.

Stacie squeezed Beca's hand "That's not true. There's no one else I'd rather spend my life with Beca, sure you have some issues, but we all do. We just have to work on balancing your schedule, so you don't lose your shit. No one can love me like you can, the past 10 years should prove that. If you haven't realized when you push me, I push back harder. Sure, sometimes we take a break like we just did but we always come back stronger together." Stacie said.

Beca looked at Stacie and cracked a small smile "So there's still a chance for us?"

Stacie smiled softly "Always."

Sorry-Halsey