Lose You to Love Me

It had been six long months since the nasty breakup between Chloe and Beca. The breakup at tore the friend group apart. Beca and Chloe had been dating since Beca's freshmen year and had just celebrated seven years together when all of a sudden, they broke it off. Beca had told her best friend Stacie that she needed to break it because the relationship was doing more bad then good for her. Beca told Stacie that Chloe wasn't the same Chloe she fell in love with. She felt like she was slowly losing herself trying to please the red head.

Chloe meanwhile had tried to make it seem like Beca was at fault. She told everyone how she just abruptly ended it despite Beca talking to Chloe how she was feeling. Something that always lead to Chloe fighting with Beca about how wrong she was. To make matters worse two months after the split, Chloe started dating a fellow co-star on her TV show. Something that tore Beca up even more and tore the Bellas more. The Bellas didn't know whose side to be on or what to believe. They were torn between their two captains and best friends. Stacie and Emily had obviously stuck to Beca while Aubrey and Ashley had stuck to Chloe.

After news broke that Chloe started dating, Beca packed her bags and booked a flight to her "Get away" house in Colorado that was in the mountains. She loved going here when she felt suffocated by the press and work. She told Stacie and Emily that she needed this and didn't know when she'd back. She had been in Colorado for the last four months and had pretty much isolated herself from everything. Social media obviously talked about the breakup constantly and even now six months after they still bring it up. Beca has spent this time in Colorado sorting out her emotions the only way she knows how to, music and exercise. The only people she'd talk to were Stacie and Emily, she'd pass news to them and they would keep Beca up to date on any major news.

Today however was the day that Beca was flying back. No one knew she was flying back, and no one really knew she left for Colorado. She hopped out of the jet and quickly made her way to her driver.

"Welcome back Beca." Her driver said as he grabbed her bags.

"Thanks Dame." Beca replied getting in the car.

The two arrived at Beca's house, a place that felt so odd being in without Chloe. Beca had done a great job at getting all those thoughts and feelings out of her and she was actually happy with the songs that she made. She checked her e-mails and saw a request for her to appear on SiriusXM for an on-air interview. Deciding it'd be the perfect time to just clear the air and release a new song she accepted and told them she wanted to debut the song and talk about it. The two sides quickly sorted everything out and were scheduled in two days' time. Beca took to Twitter breaking her silence and sent out a cryptic like tweet.

_beca: 2 dt lytlm. SXM.

The tweet meaning "two days' time lose you to love me. SiriusXM." The moment she broke her silence her tweet instantly blew up with millions of people throwing out theories of what it could possibly mean. As she was unpacking her phone went off. She didn't even have to check to know who it was.

"Yes dear." Beca answered.

"Umm what the hell does that mean?" Stacie said.

"Use that degree of yours. You should be used to cracking codes." Beca chuckled.

"My degree isn't in computer science genius." Stacie joked back.

"I have an on-air interview in two days at Sirius and I'm debuting a new song." Beca answered.

"What? Your flying back?" Stacie asked.

"I'm home already. Just got back actually." Beca answered.

"WHAT!?" Stacie shouted.

Beca flinched at the high pitch "Jesus Stace. Just come over and we'll talk." Beca said before hanging up.

Beca explained everything to Stacie and Emily about her time away, the song, how she felt and why she wanted to this interview so soon.

Two days later

It was now the day of the interview and Beca was feeling a bit anxious, but she still felt great. She got ready by putting on a black bra under a red hoodie topping it off by putting a white button-down sweater that was unbuttoned. She paired that with some black joggers and a pair of red and white Jordan 1s. She met up with Stacie and Emily who were waiting in Emily's car and they were on their way.

"How you feeling?" Stacie asked.

Beca nodded "Great. But anxious but that's because I haven't done anything public in a while."

They arrived and the girls were quickly escorted to the studio.

"Beca, thank you for agreeing to this." The host said.

"Thank you for having me." Beca smiled back.

"Before we start, I just want to know if there's anything you don't want to talk about. We want this to be comfortable for you." The host said.

Beca shook her head "You can ask anything, just you know please don't push you feel me? This is my first public thing in six months."

The host nodded "I completely understand, if at any time you feel uncomfortable give me a signal like adjust your headphones and I'll change the subject or back off."

"Will do." Beca smiled.

Ten minutes later once everything was set up and they got the green light the host started the introduction.

"Good morning my fellow music heads. Hope you all are having a blessed morning as we have been blessed by the presence of non-other than the Beca Mitchell. Welcome to the show Beca." The host said.

"Thank you, great to be here." Beca responded.

"Now talk to us, what has the great Beca Mitchell been up to?" The host asked.

"Took some time off as you all now. Spent four months in Colorado up in the mountains isolated just sorting things out dude. It's no secret what happened, and I needed to get away and heal my mind and emotions." Beca answered.

"How'd that go for you? Do anything special like hike or ski?" The host asked.

"Nothing like that unfortunately. Just exercise and do music, the two things that always calm me down and help me relax. As for the first part, it helped big time. I feel a thousand times better and happier. Almost as if nothing happened." Beca replied.

"I'm glad to hear that. I know this may be a touchy subject, but I wouldn't be doing my job if I didn't ask, any post breakup thoughts?" The host asked.

"It's alright man you can ask. Uh as far as she goes, I just hope she's happy with her decisions and you know stays healthy, fame can do damage if you're not careful. As far as I go, I'm just trying to live in the moment like I always do. I got the best crew I can ask for and the best fans. Not to mention my right-hand women and my left-hand women, Stacie and Emily. So yeah, I'm over everything, the music really helped me get it out of my system." Beca answered.

"Can't ask for anything better than that now can you. What can you tell us about the music?"

"It's obviously personal and more on the soft emotional side. It's just my inner thoughts and emotions during the past six months. Hopefully this can help people going through similar situations you know. At the end of the day I just hope my music can help people get through tough times." Beca answered.

"And that is why you are one of the best people in the industry. You care more about the people then the fame and accolades. That's what it's all about, connecting with the audience and making something meaningful." The host smiled.

"Exactly that's all I ever wanted to do." Beca answered.

"Now time for your surprise. Take it away." The host said.

"Alright my people here is my newest single 'Lose You to Love Me' hope you all enjoy." Beca said as they transitioned into the song.

The first piano note hit and everyone in studio as well as the world was focused on the song.

"You promised the world and I fell for it
I put you first and you adored it
Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn
Sang off key in my chorus
'Cause it wasn't yours
I saw the signs and I ignored it
Rose colored glasses all distorted
Set fire to my purpose
And I let it burn
You got off on the hurtin'
When it wasn't yours, yeah."

Beca's voice was so soft and full of emotion. It was beautifully soothing to hear.

"We'd always go into it blindly
I needed to lose you to find me
This dance, it was killing me softly
I needed to hate you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me."

Beca looked around the room and saw everyone nodding their heads and listening intently. She looked over to Stacie and Emily who looked back with a small smile. They understood how tough this must have been to make.

"I gave my all and they all know it
Then you tore me down and now it's showing
In two months, you replaced us
Like it was easy
Made me think I deserved it
In the thick of healing, yeah."

You could hear the hurt and emotion behind this verse. It hurt Beca to see how easy and quickly Chloe jumped into another relationship and posted it all over social media. She made seem like she was the victim at times which made Beca receive backlash from Chloe's fans. To the point where people were saying she deserved to be sad.

"We'd always go into it blindly
I needed to lose you to find me
This dance, it was killing me softly
I needed to hate you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me."

Beca by this point has wiped away a few tears as she thought back to the process of making this song. This song had taken a lot out of the smaller girl at the time.

"You promised the world and I fell for it
I put you first and you adored it
Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn
Sang off key in my chorus."

At this point there was a few people who had teary eyes from the emotion and wording.

"And now the chapter is closed and done
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
And now it's goodbye, it's goodbye for us."

The song finished with Beca's voice going to the soft soothing tone she had in the beginning. The room started clapping and whistling before the host gave a signal.

"I mean wow folks there you have it. Beca Mitchell's newest single, "Lose You to Love Me" and my god that was beautiful yet tough. Talk to us about it." The host said.

"Firstly, thank you. Secondly, yeah as you can imagine this has been the toughest song, I've ever written it worked on. It took me a week just to be able to get through it, I made this right when I got to Colorado when I was still in a very emotional state. Finishing this song was the turning point of sorts in my recovery. This song definitely took a lot out of me but also helped me to realize you know self-love and how I don't need another person to be happy." Beca said before taking a pause.

"I was in a relationship where I always put her first before anything and everyone in our circle knew that. I did everything to make her happy and, in that process, I lost myself. I lost my true self, the person who didn't need others approval or others validation. I loved me for me and when you're in a relationship like that, you tend to change to please the other person and if you try to much you end up losing control. I realized what was happening towards the end of the relationship and that was a huge part of what happened. This song is pretty much about me finding myself again. I just want to be the old me that I was prior to the relationship. And to anyone in a similar situation, just know you will come out on the other side as a stronger and better version of yourself." Beca finished.

The interview finished shortly after that and the world was buzzing about the song and what Beca had said. Beca quickly tweeted out that she didn't want people attacking anyone and this was nothing more than life being life itself.

"That was amazing Becs." Emily said as they all got into the car.

Stacie sat in the back with Beca and threw an arm around her.

"I'm proud of you for everything you've done you know that." Stacie said softly.

Beca leaned into the embrace "Thanks Stace. Thank you for being my best friend and sticking by me through all this."

"Of course, B. Love you." Stacie said.

"Love you to." Beca said back.

"Geez I love you guys too." Emily said sarcastically.

Beca laughed "Thank you Em, you know I'll always appreciate you being by side. I love you to death sunshine."

The three girls laughed and joked on the way back to Beca's.

"Yeah I already feel better." Beca thought to herself.

Lose You to Love Me- Selena Gomez