5YL Let the Encore Commence

Part 82

Although Sebastian and Blaine had gotten to spend time with Anastasia once the show was over, Sebastian still needed more time with her. Thankfully, she accepted their invitation to join them for the weekend. Upon meeting up to load up the tour bus, Sebastian took his cousin aside, as Blaine talked with his band. "Care to tell me what really prompted you to come into town four days early, since your meetings don't start till Tuesday?"

"Why Sebastian, are you implying I have an ulterior motive?" Anastasia replied.

"No, I'm flat out stating it." He told her, garnering a bit of a smirk from her. "You just proved it, so what gives, not that I'm not happy to see you, the same goes for Blaine by the way."

"How about you shouldn't have let your family be blindsided by what the two of you did, and to echo your sentiment, not that we weren't elated by what we heard, a heads-up would've been nice." Almost instantly he raked his fingers through his hair. "Relax Sebastian, it merely caught us by surprise, particularly…"

"Grand-mère." He said softly before glancing over at Blaine. "I, I should've called her."

"You're right, you should have, particularly given how she has missed hearing you sing." She told him while taking ahold of his hand. "For the record, the two of you sounded wonderful. I'm certain Grand-mère has been playing it on a loop since we downloaded a copy for her."

"It's actually the song Blaine wrote for me, for our first anniversary."

"I recall you telling me that after another version was played at your wedding." Anastasia replied. "Honestly, I was a bit taken back hearing it due to the sentiment."

"Blaine and I talked, a lot about it, and what the song means to us. And while it feels strange sharing something so personal to us, the original version is for our ears only."

"I hope you got that in…"

"Already done, it was a sticking point for the two of us."

"Good to know." She said before giving him a kiss on the cheek. "Now, about you singing."

"Singing with B is different. When I look in his eyes, I…I really don't want to do this right now."

"Fair enough, but…"

"I know, this isn't over, by a long shot." Sebastian said. "I promise you though, I made peace with this a long time ago."

"Is that your way of telling me, you might not have been completely upfront with…" She didn't need to finish, as he nodded. "Sebastian."

"You've gotten to know him, although it's been years, he'd feel guilty."

"I thought he knew how you reacted."

"He did, outside of that one tiny bit of information. Much as I loved singing, my passion for it is nowhere close to where Blaine's is, he's meant to be doing this professionally."

"I understand the difference Sebastian, but, you should…"

"He should what?" Blaine asked happily as he joined them, earning him a look. "Ummm, did I interrupt?"

"Absolutely not." Sebastian replied before giving him a kiss. "Anastasia here was letting me know we should've let everyone know what was going to happen regarding the song. Seems threw them for a bit of a loop."

"That was never our intention, it's just, everything happened so fast." Blaine said in response, yet managed to catch the look between the cousins. "Why do I feel there is more to this?"

"Because you're observant, and my dear cousin is as stubborn as I am when she has a point." Sebastian told him. "It's really nothing for you to worry about B." He then proceeded to take a deep breath. "Anastasia merely reminded me how happy hearing us sing made my Grand-mère and…"

"This has to do with you not singing, doesn't it?" Blaine replied, to which Sebastian confirmed. "Why do I feel I'm not going to like what I'm going to hear based on your expression?"

"Because you know me well, but honestly, you have nothing to worry about."

"Bas…"

"Blaine, he's telling you the truth." Anastasia chimed in. "I possibly overstepped and, didn't take into account some of the reasoning Sebastian had, and for that, I apologize."

"You're apologizing, yet I shouldn't be concerned."

"Correct, as this is more about Sebastian being the man you love, than anything else. Again, I'm sorry as this is the last thing you needed to be dealing with today."

"Does it pale in comparison to everything else we've dealt with as of late?" Blaine asked his husband.

"Yes, but you're probably not going to like what I'm going to tell you, but not because it's anything bad, it's just…help me out here Stasia."

"The circumstances which played into it, were emotional."

"Bas."

"Everything's okay Killer, I promise. This is something I should've told you the moment my Grand-mère touched upon it, yet, I wasn't ready and, didn't want to upset you."

"But…"

"B, you're part of the reason, yet the very reason I sing again at the same time."

"I, I don't understand." Yet before Sebastian could respond, Tess told them all it was time to go, leaving them to table the matter for the time being. But knowing his husband the way he did, Sebastian gave him a longer than usual kiss before winking at him, putting him a smile on his face before making their way into the bus.

Even though Sebastian seemingly put Blaine's concerns at bay, those around them could tell something was off, shortly after they set out on their way. In turn, Blaine took ahold of Sebastian's hand and escorted him to the back so the two could talk, in private. Once the door was closed, all eyes fell upon Anastasia who sat quietly. Morgan didn't hesitate in asking if they should be concerned knowing how Blaine tended to channel his emotions into his performances. After glancing back at the back, Talia told her the room was sound proof so there was no way of knowing what was happening, before referring back to Morgan. "Personally, I don't believe you have anything to worry about, if anything, what Sebastian's going to tell Blaine, will only reinforce his love for him."

"If so, why does Sebastian look uneasy?" Morgan asked in response.

"Because he knows Blaine's not going to like hearing what he has to say."

"Yet, we're not supposed to be concerned?"

"Do any of you recall Sebastian's reluctance to sing back when you were on tour and visited with his family?" They all nodded in response. "This is what the two of them are talking about."

"Why do I feel there is more than you're saying?" Justin replied.

"Because there is, but it's not my story to tell." Anastasia told them. "If I know Blaine the way I believe I do, he'll tell you when he deems fit."

While they were talking, Blaine was looking at his husband who was pacing the small area as he sat quietly, waiting for him to speak. "Given what you, and Anastasia said, why are you so reluctant to open up to me?" Blaine asked, surprisingly calmly based on how he was feeling. "I'm not going to judge, just as you never judged me, regardless of what I've told you."

"I know, and it's not that type of situation." Sebastian told him before kneeling down before him. "Do you remember what Jeff and Thad told you about, about how I reacted after you proposed to Hummel?"

"I do." Blaine replied as Sebastian took ahold of his hands. "Wait, you not wanting to sing is…" Sebastian simply nodded. "Why?"

"Because it was a harsh reminder of a moment I'd rather forget, pathetic as that may sound." Sebastian said to him. "I plastered that smile on my face for your sake, no one else when…"

"When you would've rather been anywhere but there." Again Sebastian nodded. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I didn't want you to blame yourself, and based on the look on your face, I can see you are."

"You loved to sing, I, I thought you still did."

"I did, and I do, but only when it relates to you."

"I, I…"

"Don't, as it isn't your fault. I easily could've declined, like Jeff and Thad, yet, I wanted to show you…"

"You'd changed."

"Why didn't you…"

"Because it wasn't something I wanted to talk about, not to mention, I'd come to terms with it, long before you reentered my life." Sebastian told him before bringing his hands to his lips to kiss. "I really don't give it much thought anymore Killer."

"Yet Anastasia…"

"She brought it up, because hearing me sing made my Grand-mère happy. I'm sure if I made a call, I'd get a similar statement from Aurora."

"You should've told me."

"Fair enough, but does it change anything, I mean, we're together now, the past doesn't really matter."

"Except for the fact Kurt's still causing issues for us."

"None of which are your fault." Sebastian reminded him. "If I told you this early on, how would you have reacted?"

"I probably would've been more emotional than I am right now, blamed myself."

"Which is the last thing I wanted, especially…"

"Since you'd come to terms with it." Sebastian nodded. "Do I really overreact that badly?"

"Your reactions vary when Kurt becomes part of the equation." Upon seeing Blaine cock his eyebrow, Sebastian pressed a kiss to his hands once again. "Yes, I know I used his name, as this really isn't a time for sarcasm. And after his latest outburst, I wasn't sure how you were going to react, no matter how well you handled the situation."

"Does anyone else know?"

"No, as the guys chalked it up to my crazy new schedule, plus it's not as though they all continued to sing either." Sebastian replied. "I'm sorry if this was built up to be more than it was."

"The fact I was so blind back then, I never would've asked you if I knew."

"I know, as it's not your style. It meant a lot to me back then, that you came to me, to the Warblers after everything that happened. Which was why I agreed, no matter how badly it hurt."

"I wish I'd known."

"Why, it's not as though my broken heart would've stopped you from proposing to him? And we've already talked about the fact that at that point in my life, we never would've worked. I needed time to grow, figure out who I am and what I wanted out of life."

"Something I should've done, yet I was so hell bent on proving people wrong and…I hurt so many people Bas, simply because I…"

"You thought the two of you were meant to be, you had no clue he was going to turn out to be the person he is."

"I…"

"B, you can ponder all the signs you possibly missed, but that's not going…"

"To change anything, I know." Blaine replied. "I just hate that I was so blind."

"Don't take this the wrong way, but you weren't blind, you simply see the best in people, something which I benefitted from."

"And which Kurt accused you of playing me, because of it. Yet look who in the end, hurt me."

"Unfortunately, we each did."

"Differently, yet you felt, showed remorse, he doesn't give a damn, even now. Hell, he doesn't believe he did anything wrong, in his mind, I deserved everything that happened to me."

"No one deserves to be treated that way, don't you ever forget that." Sebastian told him. "This conversation right here, is why I hate bringing him up, as no matter what we're talking about, you end up putting some blame on yourself, in one form or another. While my grandparents were disappointed in my choice, they would've understood, especially now that they've met you. No one I ever dated, made me feel the same way I do as I do for you, and I had a few serious relationships."

"I wish I understood my feelings for you better back then, yet…"

"It's hard to put things in perspective when you have people constantly telling you I'm the devil in your ear." Sebastian said to him. "They weren't necessarily wrong, as I did have impure intentions at times when it came to you, but…"

"They also didn't know you, something all those close to me back then have learnt since." Blaine told him before leaning forward to give his husband a kiss. "Yet look at us now, no one I'd rather be sharing my life with, and having a family with."

"That feeling is one hundred percent, mutual." He then glanced back at the door, before looking back at Blaine, an all too familiar smirk on his face. "What do you say we make the most of our time, no one would need to know?"

"While the room may be sound proof, they aren't blind." Blaine told him as Sebastian's hands released his and moved towards his waist. "Not that I wouldn't love, a bit of spontaneous fun with my husband."

"I'm sure they'd rather see you looking happy and content, than upset or angry." Sebastian replied, while undoing Blaine's belt, which he made no attempt to stop.

"True, but I think you're just feeling mischievous."

"Me?" Sebastian feigned innocently, while his actions were far from it, as he gently stroke him.

"Yes, you." Blaine replied as he leaned back, a soft moan escaping from him. "And for the record, I love that side of you."

"I know."

By the time the two reemerged, Sebastian shot Anastasia a wink, before the two got settled once again. "Everything, okay?" Talia asked as Justin played his guitar beside her, as they were all a bit concerned.

"Yes." Blaine assured them, before looking at Anastasia. "You have nothing to be sorry for, and know, I understand why he was hesitant to tell me, based on history."

"Are you sure?"

"He's sure, otherwise he wouldn't have said it." Sebastian replied while slipping his arm along the back of the small seat, behind Blaine. "It was something he had a right to know, especially based on things he's aware of. Now, that we've cleared that up, we miss anything?"

"Not a thing." Todd told them. "But given we're on a bus, are you really surprised?"

"One never knows though." Blaine said before reaching for his phone which he'd left. "For all we knew, Tess could've called."

"Good point." Morgan replied before tossing Blaine his video camera. "I think it's time you pick up where you left off when tour ended, we all do."

"And why is that?" Blaine asked before glancing at Sebastian.

"It's become a tradition of sorts." Justin told him. "And you know your fan love these inside glimpses, especially those which include your hubby."

"He's referring to B's vlogs." Sebastian said to Anastasia.

"I figured as much, and they're right, as I know Lily loves them." She replied. "I can't even count the number of times she told us to check out a particular vlog, and sorry Sebastian, you weren't in all of them."

"And here I thought she loved me." He teased before getting serious. "Trust me, I understand, as when I wasn't with B on the road, I watched them too, simply to see what was happening. It gave me a better grasp of what was going on when we talked."

"While I knew people enjoyed them, I guess I never realized how much."

"That's because you never read the comments." Talia told him. "The only ones you were aware of, were the ones the rest of us brought to your attention. One could literally get lost in the comment section. Your vlogs, give your fans a much appreciated glimpse into what goes on when you're on tour or in the studio."

"For the record, these vlogs would be boring if it weren't for the rest of you, it's a glimpse into our lives, not only mine."

"Oh, we know, but we love teasing you." Morgan chimed in. "But we'd be remiss, if we didn't point out the highest viewed videos, are when you do allow glimpses into your life with Sebastian. Your fans love seeing the two of you together."

"Now that, is something I'm fully aware of based on how they react whenever they see us." Blaine replied. "Just so you all know, including you Anastasia, the fact none of you have judged me, or us regarding…"

"Blaine…"

"Todd, just let me finish, okay?" Todd nodded. "This situation with Kurt, does loom over us, much as we don't want to admit it, and, it really means a lot knowing you all support us, regardless of what's said."

"We support you, because we love you, and know how unhinged he is." Talia told him which they all agreed with. "The two of you have handled this situation with more grace, than I think the rest of us would've."

"Don't sell yourselves short." Sebastian told her. "You don't know how you'd react, till you're in this type of situation. If I wasn't intimately involved, I'd feel the way you do, yet, once you know everything you do has a ramification, you step wisely, even when you want to lash out."

"Everyone has their limits, Sebastian." Anastasia replied.

"We know, which is why we're grateful to have one another to lean on, as we've yet to each hit our limit at the same moment. Meaning, at least one of us is always thinking clearly."

"Yet, you shouldn't be in this situation." Todd said to him. "The four of us were on hand when things were really nasty. Little did we know, what we were witnessing was only the tip of the iceberg. Then when he finally seemed to disappear, we thought he finally got a clue. Again, little did we realize what would happen once Blaine found happiness with you."

"If you guys knew the history, you…" Blaine stopped as Morgan looked at him. "Okay, but you know what I mean."

"Even with that history, he's got issues." Justin stated. "He's proven that over and over again, as his attacks have escalated."

"Another reason why we try not to react, as we don't want anyone else in the crosshairs." Sebastian replied. "The best thing we can do for those we care for, is not react, though lately it's been tough."

"Will you two be going to his next court hearing?" Anastasia asked.

"Probably not, and honestly, I'd rather not be there." Blaine told her. "Our presence only agitates him more. I want nothing more than to get to the point where we don't have to take him into account when it comes to how we live our lives."

"We all want the same thing for you." Todd replied. "We want the two of you to be able to be you, enjoy your life and everything your success offers." As he finished, Blaine thanked him, but soon excused himself to take a call. "Bet you never expect this atmosphere when you agreed to join us for the day, did you?"

"Honestly, I wasn't sure what to expect." Anastasia said in response. "I learnt rather quickly, to expect the unexpected when it comes to my cousin and his husband, which really isn't all too different from when they weren't married."

"Hey now." Sebastian replied, causing her to giggle.

"You know exactly what I meant."

"Yes, but they don't." He added. "What my cousin failed to state, is often when we were together we lived in the moment, instead of making plans, we embraced the moment."

"Mostly because he wanted to make the most of his visits." Anastasia told them. "I want you and Blaine to have that same freedom, well, as much as his success allows. That should be the only thing the two of you have to concern yourselves with."

"That's all we want." Blaine said as he rejoined them, before giving Sebastian a kiss prior to sitting back down. "Cooper wants you to call him when you get a chance."

"Did he say why?"

"No, and I know better than to ask when he makes a direct request."

"Very well, I will give him a call when you're in your tech meeting. Now, I think it's time you get to recording, as it's been a long time and after everything that's happened, your fans will appreciate it."

"That's one way to change the subject."

"He's right, it's time to embrace the moment now that we've had our serious moment." Justin said. "Just remember Blaine, and this goes for you too Sebastian, should you guys ever need anything, don't hesitate."

"Will do."


Just wanted to let you all know we're just about settled so updates would get back on track soon. Till then, the next chapter will be up next Friday, hopefully earlier than this one.


Hate to do this, but due to the Nor'easter, the chapter won't be going up until Monday, as I didn't bring my drive with me(won't make that mistake again) Again, sorry.