Curling up under the covers Kate sighed. She had been feeling down for several days and something wasn't right, She couldn't put her finger on why she was feeling like this. Well, she did but she was just hoping the reason would just go away and she could get on with things.
Hearing her phone buzz loudly from the cabinet beside her bed she ignored it rolling over pulling the covers further over her head not wanting to engage with who was on the other end of the line. She had a good idea of who It was, she had practically run out of class on Monday and hadn't gone in for the past week.
He had been calling none stop everyday leaving messages, none of which she had listened to because she didn't want him to know where she was or that she had listened to them. He had even called round but she stayed as still as she could in the hopes he would go away, which he eventually did.
Her phone buzzed again. Reaching over for it she was going to reject the call in the hopes he got the message she wasn't in the mood for talking. Looking at the display she could see it wasn't his number flashing up. Pressing accept she lifted the phone to her ear staying silent
"Kit" Lisa's voice came down the line
"hey" Kate replied weakly
"so you are alive then. I was beginning to worry and all you can say is hey" Lisa said
"sorry" she said sadly
"are you okay?" Lisa asked
"no" Kate replied sadly almost in tears
"right, I am coming over. Can I bring anything?" Lisa asked
"a pregnancy test" Kate said holding back her tears.
Putting her phone back on the side she turned the volume right down just in case he called again. She curled up back under the covers.
Half an hour later she heard a knock at the door. Walking over from the bed she checked through the little spy hole to check it was Lisa and not Mike she pulled the door open.
"here" Lisa said sympathetically holding out a paper bag
"Guess what got here just before you did" Kate half smiled
"phew" Lisa let out a sigh of relief "well I did also get this no matter what the outcome" she smiled placing a tub of Ben and Jerrys ice cream on to the kitchen counter, reaching for 2 spoons from the pot on the side.
"thanks" Kate said taking the spoon
"So have you told him?" Lisa asked taking a spoon full
"no" Kate sighed "i didn't even tell him I thought I was pregnant. I just hid"
"Kit! You have to tell him; don't you think he has the right to know?"
"it's complicated Lis, we shouldn't even be seeing each other"
"He is not married, is he?" Lisa asked cautiously
"no. Well he hasn't said he is. He is my tutor, and you know what navy regs are like. It could end our careers well mine more if we are found out"
"Kit you dark horse" Lisa grinned "not so much of a princess perfect now"
"Thanks. I think" Kate half smiled looking up at her friend.
"Look I gotta go I have a class myself. But do you love him?"
"What?" Kate looked up
"it's a simple question kit. Do. You. Love. Him?"
"Yeah, I think so" said staring into the tub of ice cream
"Well, you need to tell him what happened. You never know, he might surprise you"
"You think?" Kate looked up
"Well, you never know, and he is a guy, but tell him how you feel. You need to if not for your own sake more than anything"
Nodding softly as Lisa slid from the seat at the bench.
"See you later kit" Lisa smiled wrapping her arm around her friend
"Thanks Lis" Kate forced a smile.
After Lisa left Kate sighed looking at the tub of ice cream on the counter. She knew it would do no good sitting here gorging on the whole pint but right now it's what she felt like doing.
Sitting at the look out by the lighthouse a few days later, she was feeling much better in herself and sitting up here really helped her get her mind together. It was rather peaceful despite it being on a popular walking track. The breeze was cooling and refreshing. Closing her eyes, she sighed feeling as the wind blew around her.
"i thought I might find you here" he smiled walking up towards her
"hey" she smiled weakly. "What are you doing up here?" she asked but already knowing the answer
"You haven't been in class and have been ignoring my calls" he said sitting on the seat opposite her
"sorry" she smiled weakly "it's just..." she began before the tears began to fall
"hey" he said softly moving closer wrapping his arm around her pulling her in to him. "what's wrong"
"it's nothing really" she looked up brushing the tears away from her face "i thought I was pregnant"
"What?" he said looking in to her eyes "your?"
"no, I was just late but I don't know it just freaked me out a lot."
"Hey it's okay" he said softly brushing a tear off her cheek.
"its not because now I don't know what I want anymore." she sniffed
"What do you mean?" Mike asked looking at her
Sitting upright she blinked back the tears. "i mean I don't know what I want anymore. All I wanted was to prove I could do this and get to be chief of Navy, prove everyone wrong who said that would never happen. But this has made me think about things and..." she paused
"What are you saying?" mike asked looking at her
"Oh, I don't know I guess it just made me think about things" she sighed "sorry for ignoring your calls" she smiled
"it's fine" he smiled "so long as you are okay"
"I am now" she smiled
"Although you have missed a lot of stuff..."
"i don't suppose there will be a chance my tutor could give me some private lessons. Just so I can catch up" she grinned coyly "I think I might understand the material a little more if I have it explained to me"
"i don't know" Mike grinned "that all depends on things" he smiled "what will you give in return for his time?" he asked
Looking up in to his eyes she leaned in teasing him in to a kiss
"how's that as a down payment" she grinned
"i guess I could give you a hand in catching up" he said softly brushing the hair off her face. "Shall we make a start on catching up" he smiled standing up holding his hand out to her.
Chewing on her bottom lip she grinned taking his hand following him back down the path towards the base and the accommodation.
Right now, she felt better than she had done in the last few weeks. She had time to sort everything out and who was to say she couldn't have her career and a family, it worked for the male sailors so why not her.
Watching as Mike turned around walking along the path smiling at him. She had fallen madly in love with him, although she had no idea that her world was about to come smashing down around her.
so sorry its been a while but we have had a bit of a heatwave over here and i lost all my motivation to write. i have sort of lost it with this one struggling to write to fit the episodes and also not write what happened, so i think i will have one more chapter for this one set at the end of episode 13 anyway let me know what you think x
also i should note the scene with kate and lisa is heavily based on one in the second sisterhood of the traveling pants move (tibby and leana )
