I was sitting on the couch and I leaned back, resting my head, so I was facing the ceiling.
"You know, don't care what your next move would be. You can turn me in, give me to Danzo, do whatever you want." I closed my eyes. "Just, please. Please help me stop the nightmares." a tear escaped my eyes. "Every night I relive my last moments from my late life. I feel the pain, I hear my parents, I hear the dog and the sirens. Yet, when I close my eyes I only see the Kyuubi. I don't get it." another tear escaped and I snorted. "I should be twenty-seven years old and I should be a student, I had always thought by this time I'd be married, have a child, or more. The dream I was badly trying to achieve was a job in which I could help others, most likely, help children cope with life. But look at me now. I am a child and I'm the one that needs help." I sighed. "I didn't want this life. I should be dead. And yet, I was reborn as a surprise-child, again." I heard shifting and I looked at him, he walked closer and sat down next to me.
"Why did you come to me?" he asked, but he didn't face me.
"I know you had nightmares. You still have them, but I guess you managed to cope with them. Can you help me?" I turned my head to him and he looked at me, slowly he nodded. "Kakashi?"
"Hm?"
"Can I ask you something personal?" he shifted so he was facing me with his body, a sign of trust.
"Yes."
"Why did you let me walk into your life?" I watched him, but he only smiled under the mask, he then looked up at me and watched me.
"You feel like… Minato-sensei used to…" he admitted and I furrowed my brows in confusion. Of all the answers… "I'm not a sensory type, but if I stay around a person for a long time, I learn how they feel and you feel like… He used to…" he got up and went to the kitchen side of the room, there was an old notebook and he took it, then he brought it to me. "This was his, nobody understands what's inside, it's a coded writing, but I think you'd understand it." he gave the notebook to me.
'Property of Namikaze Minato.' I read the front 'Hiraishin no Jutsu' I froze. I was holding in my hand… NO FUCKING WAY. I looked at Kakashi with wide eyes and an open mouth.
"This-this" I chocked out.
"So, you heard about it." he eye-smiled and I nodded vehemently.
"I… I shouldn't have this. It's Naruto's." I told him, but I wasn't looking at him anymore, only watching the notebook.
"Nobody, not me, not Jiraiya, not the Hokage, could decipher it, I don't think an eight-year-old boy could do it."
"But you think that an eight-year-old girl can?!"
"No, but a twenty-seven-year-old lady could." he looked at me pointedly and I watched him, seeing that he trusted me… Because I felt like Minato… But why… I slowly opened the notebook and I saw something that made my heart stop for a moment and a tear escape.
Those letters.
Those were the letters I grew up with, the Latin alphabet.
"Impossible…" I breathed out and began going through the pages. It was all there, the entire technique written in English. English. How did Minato know English?
"You understand it." it was more of a statement than a question, but I nodded.
"It's a language from my old life, I learned it in school as my second-language, but those letters, those symbols, are the ones I grew up with." I kept scrolling through the notebook, not believing my eyes. Impossible. "You said I felt like Minato… Does that mean that…"
"He was like you." he confirmed and a few tears rolled down, I wasn't the only one. "He thought I was like him, given the fact that I was a genius as a child and that was why he told me some parts of his late life. He said he was a bad man, he was getting paid to abduct and to escort children so they could be sold." I shivered, human trafficking and… Minato? Impossible. And yet… "He said he was captured and killed, but by that time he felt really bad for what he did in his late life, that was why he tried everything in his power to help everyone around him in his new life." I nodded.
"Are there others as well?" Kakashi shook his head.
"No, Minato-sensei searched for them, but he had never met anyone like him." I nodded slowly.
"That was why you believe me, because of him." he nodded. "Did he know why we ended up here?" he shook his head.
"He had told me that it was a god's wish. You had a different god, right?" I nodded.
"Yes..." Kakashi nodded.
"He said he got a second chance so that he could prove his heart turned pure." I nodded.
"And I got a second chance because I had a childhood full with the disease, then I died early... I guess." I looked at him. "Thank you, Kakashi." he smiled.
"Well, it's what older brothers should do after all. In our case though, you might be the older sister." he rubbed the back of his head.
"You mean it?" I whispered in disbelief. "Are you really going to be my brother in everything, but blood?" he looked me in the eyes and nodded slowly.
I began crying of happiness, I was accepted, as my real self, somebody really accepted me.
After our little talk, Kakashi made some food and we ate in silence, I didn't look at his face, and I guess he noticed that, but he didn't tell me that I had permission to see his face, so showing respect I let him have his privacy and I didn't look up. After we ate I helped him put away the dishes and when he began washing them I went to sit on the couch.
It was surreal, he actually believed me and wanted to be there for me.
Kakashi had told me after dinner that I would sleep in his room, I was quite adamant about that one, I knew that meant he'd sleep on the couch, which wasn't looking comfortable, so I told him I should sleep on the couch since I was the little one, I didn't need that much space, but he didn't want to hear about that. He could be quite stubborn if he made up his mind. I could be stubborn too, but I just didn't have the energy for it.
"How can I stop the nightmares?" I asked him, while he was still washing the dishes.
"Sensei had the same problem. In his first life, he had a pocket watch with him all the time, so he bought one in his second life and held it in his hands when he went to sleep. He said it brought comfort and helped him sleep. Later on, the nightmares disappeared, but he had the watch with him all the time, hidden in one of his pockets." Kakashi explained, not looking at me. "All we need is something you had with you all the time in your past life." he looked at me and I nodded.
"When I was sixteen." I began. "My parents told me it was time to grow up and make my own decisions. They gave me a necklace with a cross on it. It was a sign of protection, I had never taken it off." I told him and he smiled.
"Then all we need is to get you a necklace." I nodded.
"I don't think there would be necklaces with crosses." I glanced at him to see affirmation and he nodded. "But then again, it was a symbol of protection, and right now that means a simple leaf." I saw his eye widen a little, I took him by surprise. "I have to accept the fact, that the Leaf will protect me, after all, Konoha is my new home." he smiled.
"Unfortunately, shops are closed by now." he looked outside through the window. "If you'll have any nightmares just call me, alright?" I nodded.
"That applies to you as well." I smiled a toothy grin and he chuckled.
"But there's something that's bothering me." I told him solemnly. "I see the Kyuubi when I close my eyes and I have no idea why." he finished the dishes and came closer.
"Maybe it's a link to sensei, after all, he died because of the Kyuubi and he had a second life, just like you." I nodded. That sounded logical enough for me.
So, I went to his bedroom and told him goodnight. Entering the room I saw one famous picture behind the bed. I instantly went there and took it in my hands, it was his team picture, and there he stood, next to Rin, then there was Obito and behind them there stood Minato. I traced his face with my finger and sighed. He was like me.
I wasn't the only one to get a second chance at life.
But the problem was, he had a plan, hadn't he? He had goals, he wanted to be a Hokage, to lead the people, and to be better than ever before. But what about me? I had no such dreams, I didn't plan for the future, I only wanted to have a simple life and yet I had no choice, I was born to be a kunoichi and I had no decision whatsoever about that. But even like that, I knew what would happen, and yet I had never done anything to stop things from happening. I helped Naruto, but then after the psychological test, I pushed him away. I sighed.
In a few years, when the anime's plot would start, I'd have to stop things from happening. But I still had no idea how to do it. Still no plans in sight.
The door opened and I turned to see Pakkun enter.
"Hey, pup, the boss told me to keep a watch on you." I put the picture down, in its place and smiled at the dog.
"Hey, Pakkun." I crouched down and he came closer, letting me pet his head. "Did he tell you anything else?" I asked the little pug.
"He told me you're like his sensei." I nodded and laid down on the bed. Pakkun climbed on the bed and came to rest next to me.
"You don't sound surprised."
"He said you felt like his sensei from the beginning. I knew he'd do the right thing and if he chose to believe you, then as his summon it is my duty to follow him and stand by his choice." I smiled at the dog.
"You really trust him." I stated and he hummed in confirmation. "Well, I trust him too. He's a good guy after all." I closed my eyes and let myself drift into sleep.
I was home, in my room, and I was sitting on my bed. But then I felt a weird presence and I turned to see myself on the bed, clutching my stomach. How could I see myself if I was standing? I chose to ignore the question as I walked closer to my pained form and then a scream erupted from the other me's throat. The door opened and my parents came rushing in, my mother put a hand on my forehead and told my father to call the ambulance. Then everything became a rush of motion and I heard my dog barking, I heard my father speak nonsense to somebody, my mother calling my name and I saw myself in the ambulance. Its door closed and the ambulance began moving, but I was standing outside, and then a huge terror engulfed me as I saw in front of my eyes as a car came rushing into the ambulance.
"NO!" I screamed with all my power and began running to the remnants of both cars. Tears began rushing down my face and I hugged myself, only to find that my hand went through my body.
I was a soul lost in the past.
Hiraishin no Jutsu = Flying Thunder God Technique
Kunoichi = female ninja
Gosh, I thought I'd never get to post again, the exams are killing me. Anyway, I don't remember if I specified it before, but anyway, just to be sure: there will be no weird underage romance between Kakashi and Shikanai.
I still don't own Naruto.
And so, first of all, I apologize for making Minato a bad guy in his first life... I just had to, so that he'd make a huge change in his second life. Secondly, yup, I just gave the Hiraishin to Shikanai, hehe. It just made sense that Minato wrote with the Latin alphabet. Thirdly, I might just have made a twist to the story? This part is a change to the story and it's really important, especially since we get a glimpse of her past life in her dream. And well, many things happen, many will come and I just can't wait until we enter the anime's timeline.
Have a nice read!
