"Shikanai!"
I heard somebody shout my name, but I didn't give a damn. I was crying, lost and alone, I had nobody, I had nothing. Why did it have to happen to me?
"Shikanai!"
"No…" I whispered back.
I didn't recognize the voice, and I didn't know what was going on, there, in front of me was the death of me. I was trembling and I rushed to get the other me out of there, but I could only see smoke and fire. Then I saw, my body, lifeless as it was, I began crying harder. What was going on?
"Wake up!" I heard the voice.
Wake up? Had it all been a dream? I saw the other me, not moving, not breathing and that looked so inviting, like that body was mine and I should go lay down in it, so that I could finally be free.
"Wake up, Shikanai!" I felt like somebody was touching my shoulder and I turned to see myself.
I was in Kakashi's arms, and he was shouting for me, trying to wake me up, next to him stood Pakkun and other summons. What was going on? I looked down and I saw that one of my feet was in the world of the ambulance accident and the other was in the world of Kakashi trying to wake me up.
I didn't know what to do. I felt so lost.
But then I looked up and I saw myself as a toddler, father was walking besides a deer and on the deer was Shikamaru leaning on me. Shikaku was smiling at us lovingly and I closed my eyes. 'I had lost a life, but I gained a new one, and I would make sure I lived it to the fullest.'
Tears were streaming down my face. That was a promise I made myself back then. At that moment, I made up my mind and I turned my back on the accident scene. I heard my mother calling my name, I heard my father talking nonsense, I heard my dog bark, but I began walking and I kept walking until I was back with Kakashi.
"Shikanai, wake up!" I heard as I opened my eyes slowly.
"Ka…ka…shi?" I asked and I tried to get up, only to realize I was in his arms, held there, securely by him. "What…" I whispered.
"Pakkun woke me, you had a nightmare and began screaming, but when I tried to wake you, I realized your heartbeat was getting fainter…" he explained. "You were dying." he sounded so afraid, so broken and I realized why.
He just let somebody in his life. He hadn't let anyone this close since his sensei died and I was dying in his arms. He didn't let anyone close to him, because he was afraid that they would die and he would feel that pain again, and there I was, pulling that card on him.
"I'm… sorry…" I breathed out and he shook his head.
"It's alright, you're alright." but it sounded like he was trying to assure himself.
"Kakashi." I put more strength in my voice. "I saw my death." I felt his arms go stiff against me. "And I wanted to die for a moment." I admitted. "But then I heard you calling and I saw you."
"You-you saw me?" he asked in disbelief and I nodded.
"I was outside of my body…somehow… You saved me, Kakashi. Thank you." I smiled tiredly at him and I saw a tear escape his lone eye.
This chapter is kinda like the metaphoric version of letting her past life go away.
I still don't own Naruto.
Isn't Kakashi cute and sad at the same time? I sooo wanted to portray him vulnerable in this story, but he's acting like that only around Shikanai. Oh, and don't forget that the last time, when Iruka appeared he was saying the exact words he says in the anime, so there's a link to an episode, and the stuff that happens in that episode will happen here as well.
Have a good read!
