"I'm not going!" Bella yelled from the bathroom, locking the door to stop Paul from dragging her out.

"Come on, babe, I bet you look beautiful," Paul insisted, putting on his cut offs.

"I look like a beach ball," Bella turned to look herself in the mirror.

She was wearing a bright blue and yellow dress, the one that Angela and Emily bought for her baby shower.

"Can you please unlock the door?" Paul asked, now standing in front of the bathroom door.

"I'm not going!" Bella repeated again.

She had just hit the eight month mark, and she was more than eager to get her old body back.

She loved her boys, but she missed the control she had over her old body. The last trimester is the worst; she'd been going to the bathroom every ten minutes. And she misses walking long distances without walking like a penguin.

"You're overreacting," Paul sighed, resting his head on the door.

He loved Bella more than anything in the world, but he couldn't wait for her to give birth already. Her moods had changed drastically as she approached the end of her pregnancy. He understood how tired she was – he would be too, if he were sharing his body with two other people.

Suddenly, the door opened, Paul nearly falling flat on his face. He caught himself, staring up at Bella who was frowning.

"Do you still think I'm overreacting?" she inquired, hands on her hips.

Paul tried his best not to laugh. The dress did make her look like a beach ball. Her baby bump accentuated the colours.

Paul ended up laughing.

Bella stood there, shocked, as Paul continued to laugh at her. Her eyes started to tear up, and Paul quickly dropped his attitude.

"Oh, babe, I'm sorry," Paul pulled her into an awkward hug. "You're not that big, but that dress would look awful on anyone."

Bella weeped before giggling. "Yeah, I know, but I feel bad not wearing it."

"Maybe the beach ball look is very in this year?" he chortled.

Bella pulled away, wiping her eyes. "Maybe."

Paul kissed her forehead, giving her a smile. "Let's find something more suitable, something that makes you look less like a beach ball."

They picked out a blue dress with black leggings; the beach ball look wasn't really fitting for the winter.

Paul and Bella trudged through the snow and towards Sam's house. When Sam's house came into view, Bella could see blue balloons and streamers made into bows. The balloons have the names Jackson and Daxon printed on them.

They entered the house and were warmly welcomed by everyone.

Angela ran up to Bella, squeezing her. "You're finally here! We thought you didn't want to leave the house. We were about to send the guys over there to carry you here."

"Yeah, I almost didn't come. You know I hate parties, and especially when they're mine…but I do appreciate this," Bella assured. She really was appreciative, but parties just weren't her thing. They always made her feel uncomfortable.

"To tell you the truth, Gummy Bear, this party is more for the pups than for you," Embry pointed out, wrapping his arm around Angela.

Angela smiled at the touch. Bella immediately praised the fact that Angela managed to find a really good guy, someone who could love her properly and take care of her. Her past exes definitely weren't winners, not for a long shot. As the old saying goes: "You have to kiss a few frogs before you meet your prince charming!" Or, in this case, a werewolf.

"I know it is, but I'm just not in a party mood. I'm ready to just get them out of me," Bella sighed. "I can't remember the last time I saw my feet. Nothing even fits me anymore and I even eat more than Paul does."

Angela laughed melodically. "Don't worry, it will be over soon. Until then, try to get in the party mood! Celebrate the fact that you're having babies!"

She took Bella's hand, guiding her into the kitchen. As soon as they walked in, Bella smelled baked goods. Her mouth started watering when she saw peanut butter and apples. That's basically one of her favourite snacks, and one of the reasons she gained so much weight.

Bella grabbed the apple and jar of peanut butter. She sat at the table, munching. Emily and Kim stared in awe, trying to hold in their laughter.

"Oh! Sorry, did you need this for something?" Bella looked up.

Emily shook her head, grinning. "Paul told us that you craved them, so we just thought we'd have them out. I used to crave for anything covered in chocolate."

"I craved blueberry cheesecake! We know exactly where you're coming from, hun," Kim assured.

Bella dipped the apple slice into the peanut butter, throwing it in her mouth hastily, moaning slightly.

"I remember where I last heard that sound," Paul walked into the kitchen, smirking. Jared and Sam followed in behind.

When it comes to their sexual life, Bella wouldn't let Paul do anything to her, but she still took care of him; hand and blow jobs all around. Bella just never felt sexy enough and she was never in the mood considering she was in constant pain.

"You will again when the twins come," Everyone burst into laughter.

Sam pat Paul's shoulder. "Even if you guys do find the time, you're going to be too tired to do anything but sleep."

"Very true. When you have kids, your sex life starts going down hill," Jared said, sipping from his beer can.

Paul didn't look very happy. She knew sex wouldn't be at the top of their priority list. She also heard that people don't usually pick up their sex life until a year after the baby's born. It made Bella think; maybe they should have sex now? But would it be more difficult having sex when you're pregnant, let alone pregnant with two babies?

Emily started talking about how sex feels different after having a baby. Bella stared at her while she and Kim started babbling on about their experiences, and the guys ended up leaving the room.

"After I had Sammy, I wouldn't let Sam touch me until I lost some of the baby weight. I felt really thick next to him," Emily confessed.

"See, I didn't have that problem. I didn't gain too much, but it still didn't feel right," Kim replied.

Jacob's wife, Kelly, glanced over at Bella, noticing the fear on her face. "Guys, I think you're scaring Bella."

Angela marched in. "That's not too hard to do. Bella overthinks everything. She needed to take her roads test five times before actually passing; she kept overthinking!"

"I can't help it, I've been doing this since…God, maybe seven? I don't know, I just don't want to mess anything up or do something wrong. And thinking about my body might be scarier than trying to pass a roads test."

Kim shot her an understanding smile. "I can help you with that one. To be honest, your old body might be gone forever. Bella, you have two little people in there. No one's going to be exactly the same after a pregnancy like yours. The guys have it easy, they just have to put up with us bitching and stuff."

"Do you think it's easy to put up with you guys?" Jared shouted from another room.

"I don't want to hear it, Jared! You're the one who keeps knocking me up, so you get what's coming to you!" Kim growled.

"Love you, baby," Jared yelled, a hint of a smile in his tone. Kim rolled her eyes.

"Bella, don't freak yourself out. We might bitch about everything, but we wouldn't give it up. I mean, we got our kids and they are worth more than sex or body changes. Not a big deal." Emily touched her arm.
Bella looked at her half eaten apple. She knew freaking out wouldn't help, but she did have people who wanted to help her, which eased her mind.

After the party, Bella laid down in her and Paul's bed for the rest of the night. Paul put all the gifts and toys in the boys' room. She couldn't believe the amount of gifts the pack got for their boys. She kept thinking about the conversation they had in the kitchen, the one about sex and how it changes after a pregnancy. She assumed Paul didn't care, but it somewhat bothered her.

She smiled at an idea. She got out of bed and walked to her closet, pulling out a pink box. It was a black baby doll dress that Angela bought for her. She took it to the bathroom, locked the door, and shrugged it on. It was a little tight, but she wasn't going to be wearing it for long.

She stared at herself in the mirror and finally felt a little confident.

"Baby? Where are you?" Paul called out.

"I'm in the bathroom! Sit on the bed, I have a gift for you."

"A gift, huh?" he uttered.

Once the door opened and Bella was in view, Paul licked his lips. Paul really didn't care how big Bella got, it was even sexier knowing that she was the mother of his babies.

"What did I do to earn this wonderful present?" Paul pulled her into his arms, kissing her collar bone.

Bella grinned, and felt a slight kick. Then, her stomach tightened, and she pushed away from Paul. She felt water run down her legs, and she had to catch herself.

"Um," she squeaked. "Paul?"

Paul stared, heart racing. "Well…let the cock blocking begin."


Hey my little readers

I know I know it been a long time but its been crazy. Don't worry im not going to i'll try dated every week because that would be lie. I will give you this I'll try my best to update once a month. So what did you y'all think about this update? let me know if you love , like or hate.

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