DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN VAMPIRE KNIGHT!

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Zero could tell something was bothering me, and looked a bit annoyed I wasn't saying anything after I was done drinking his blood. I decided to change into more comfortable clothes since in any moment there will be a battle no doubt to stop the purebloods from interfering with Kaname's plan also so I could gather my thoughts and deal with the turmoil in me.

I was feeling guilty for keeping a secret from Zero, but I was scared he would hate me. I mean yeah I never drank a human's blood and it was always the targets that were to either be killed or brought in I was hunting for Yagari and Kaito, but that didn't make what I did any better considering since I would either drain them dry or almost fully drained because I couldn't quench my damn blood lust.

In a way I probably had gone insane from my blood lust and that thought terrified me because all I could think of was that nightmare I had when I was human.

I knew I had to tell him, because it would make me a hypocrite for keeping a secret from him when I was upset about his, but I wasn't sure how he would feel about it. He has gotten angry with anyone you even dares describe me as a monster but if he heard the woman he loves and he has defended from such accusations might indeed be one, I don't know how he would feel or react.

I pulled my hair out from my leather jacket and took a deep breath. It's best he knows, but how I was going to explain it to him? Maybe Kaien kept records on how the hunts were brought in...but again if he did those records would be buried in the rubble of what once was the Hunter's Association Headquarters.

Guess I would have to just tell him and not have a piece of paper help me explain.

I opened the door and yelped when I saw Zero I front of it, ready to knock on the door. "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.

You were in there for a while and I was just going to check on you." He told me. Well now I just feel even more guilty for worrying him.

"Sorry...can we sit down?" I asked. He eyed me curiously but nodded. We headed back to the sitting room and sat down on the couch. I fidgeted in my seat and twirled my thumbs as I tried to figure out how to start. "Must be pretty serious if you're fidgeting like that." Zero commented. I nodded and took a deep breath.

"You want to know how I didn't become insane from blood lust, but the truth is in a way I probably did." I whispered. Zero gave me a concerned look and I looked down at my hands. "I took advantage of the fact I was helping Kaito and Yagari by drinking the blood of the vampires I was hunting for them." I whispered. I yelped as I was pulled over to Zero as he wrapped a comforting arm around me.

I squirmed in his grip and he tightened it. "Don't comfort me like a child who thought they did something wrong! I know it was wrong and it's sickening!" I hissed. "I'm not, I'm trying to comfort you because I did the same things." He argued which caused me to stop squirming in his arm. I looked over at him surprised and let him pull me back into his side.

"When?" I asked. "When I lost my memories of you and before we met." He confessed. "But...you can take the tablets." I argued. "Sometimes no matter how many I take it couldn't quench my thirst." He told me. I made an "o" shape with my mouth and Zero pulled me away little. "Was that what was bothering you when I asked? The fact you drank some blood from criminals?" He asked. I shook my head and looked down. "I would almost drink them dry or till they're nothing but dust. I just didn't want you to realize I apparently can be the monster that scared me to death when I was human." I whispered.

"Iris, you're not a monster. Just because you drank a large amount of blood from those vampires doesn't mean anything. You can only do so much considering-and I'm trying to say this to offend you-but your transformation was a unique case. You are a pureblood but you have the same issues like any ex human vampire. I just the fact the woman I love was belittling herself this whole time due to the lengths she had to go to calm her thirst." He told me as he pulled me back into his arms and held me closely.

"I won't ever let you get to that point again, I promise." He assured me. "Well as long as no one tampers any of our memories, we'll be fine." I teased a little. Zero and I both stiffened when he heard the front door burst open. "There's a pureblood at the gate wishing to see the Kuran sisters." Kaito announced. Zero and I relaxed a little and I got up. "You didn't need to come in like that. We thought we were under attack." I grumbled as I walked to the front door as Zero followed behind me.

"Did they say who they were and why?"

I asked. "He said he came to honor his promise to your brother and his name is Isaya-" "He's a family friend, so it's okay to let him in." I assured Kaito. Kaito nodded and looked at me curiously. "Do you know why he is here though?" He asked. "I don't know what he promised to Kaname but it must be pretty damn important if he's here when we're about to go into battle." I told him.