It's been month since I overheard Em on the phone. Let me tell you what. It's been a mad house around here. If I just wanted to go out for something I had to run it by Paul. Who is the head of my body guards. I had about five now and I hated it. I couldn't even take a shit without one of them outside the door and that's in my own house. I won't even say what they do when I want to go out with my girls. The worst part of all of this is that Em is never around anymore. It started to feel like I have to be doing all of this on my own. I mean his family comes and spends some time with me.
But I really do miss the man I love. How he sometimes pushes me out of bed because he takes up most of it. I still talk to him on the phone three times a day but it's not the same. I just want him here holding me with those strong arms. His body so I can just jump him! Fine I miss the sex so much. Since I found out I'm going to be mom. The only thing I want to do is fuck like a bunny. We try phone sex but didn't do much because he always has to cut it short. He always had something to do. When I try to talk about what going on it was the same old stories. " Babe don't worry we have this covered or Bells just worried about you and little bug or Bells please...Wait babe ….. I have to go love you bye." One time I even tried to ask Paul what's going one. Let just say that was dead end.
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On a Friday night you think I would be out with my man or friends. Nope , I'm home making brownies because it's to soon go to bed. I was making browning mix when I heard someone walk in.
"Oh god she making brownies Kim!" I heard Angela yell as she and Kim walk in the kitchen.
"So what if she making brownies. We've like her brownies dumb ass." Kim hiss as she sat at the table.
I turn around and saw them. Kim got much bigger and Angela was all smiles. "What are you guys doing here and how did you pass all the guys?"
"Well your last phone call you sounded like you're ready to shot yourself of boredom. So I got Miss. Dumb head here and came see you." Kim said to me.
"Yea, what's with all the hot guys around?" Angela said looking around.
"I would love to tell you guys but I have no idea. Em won't tell me anything." I said as I pour the brownies mix in the pan and put it in the oven.
"Wait the man that knocked you up won't tell you anything?" I just nodded to Kim as I sat down. "How in the hell you okay with that?"
"Who said I 'am?"
"Well Bella you do you look happy just sitting here making brownies on Friday night." Angela said as she started to lick the spoon.
"Guys I'm not okay with all of this but I knew what I was getting into when I said yes to him and this life. I love him so I have to trust that he's doing the best he can." As I was saying this it sound like I was trying to make myself to believe it.
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After the girls left I find myself all alone in mine and em's room. It's felt odd being in here without him. And it had been over three weeks since I moved in with him. It was sad saying goodbye to my place and the girls. But now if I need milk I just have to ask one of Em's guy to go and get it. Something I could get use too. I even left my job I didn't missed it at all. Only the friends I made like Molly and Sam, they've always been there for me when I needed them. As I was sitting in bed watching a movie, I heard my phone go off. Reach for it and saw it was Seth. Why in the hell is he calling this late?
"Hey Seth , what up?" I ask
"Hey Bell, nothing just wanted to see how you and the baby are doing?" he sound like was calling for something else.
"We are doing just fine. How is everyone and stuff?" I ask playing along with this.
"We are great." He said
"Okay Seth, What's going on you never calls this late?" I said trying to find out what really going on.
"Well I am thinking when you first moved to NY. You said word by word. 'I'll fly you over here and show you around when I can.' Well I was just sitting thinking you never did that yet." AH! Now I know where this going. The little bone head want come and nose where I live now. "Okay Seth I got the hint. Did you talk to mom and dad about this? "
"Yea, they said it would be good for me to see something other than here, before I start college here soon."
"Okay I'll talk to Emmett about it and I'll get back to you okay?" I said. When Seth and I hung up I looked at the clock and wondered if he would still be up. I call him anyways even if it goes to voicemail. I can still hear his voice. It rings about four until his pickup.
"Hello." I look the number see if I had the right number because there was another man on the other side of the phone.
"Who this?" I hiss that the woman who pick up Em's phone.
"Ray, Who this?" he asked confused.
"Bella , the woman carry Emmett 's kid!" I didn't mean to yell.
"Oh Bella hold let get him. He was in the shower it got a little messy tonight." He said happiest
What the fuck going on!? Why was a guy naming Ray picking up his phone and why is Emmett messy?
"Babe is everything okay?" I heard Emmett ask when he got on the phone.
"Yea everything fine. Why did Ray pick up your phone?" I ask playing dumb
I heard him sighing on the other side "Don't worry about it babe." That's it I can take this any anymore. I know I should trust him but how can I trust a man won't tell me the truth. "Emmett I've been good the past month. Please tell me what the fuck is going on." I beg him
"Bella I just don't want to bring you into this okay now drop this." He said in his Mob boss voice.
"Fine I'll drop this and I'll drop this phone call." With that I hang up on him. I know its a little kid move but I knew it wasn't going to go anywhere. Plus I wasn't in the mood to have fight over the phone.
I had my phone go off about five times. Then when it stops I guess he got the hint. I look at the clock see it was almost midnight. I needed out of here. I got dressed and call a taxi and told them to meet me down the road. I knew if they heard one of Emmett's cars, they'd be on me fast. I left the room and full on ninja mode kicked in. I was walking down the hall making sure I wasn't making a sound. When I got down the hall, I put my back on the wall looked around it and saw the guys watching tv.
I got outside and ran down the driveway to get where I told the car to be. When I got in the car I told the man to go to Kim's place. I pass the man the money for the ride. I look at the place that I used to live at. I wasn't ready to go in there yet. I started to walk to Sam place. On Friday night he stayed open until two. And I was in the mood for some that shitty ass pie.
As I started walking the blocks to get there, I was getting the feeling that someone was following me. Maybe one of the guys knew I left and found me. I saw an alley that would take me right to the back of Sam place. As I turn down it, I heard someone still following me. My heart started to jump in my chest. I started to run to down the alley. Then someone jumped in front of me. It was Riley and I started to calm down little.
"Shit Riley you scared me." I said trying to stop my heart from popping out of my chest.
"Oh sweet heart you have all the right to be scared." I turned around and saw a guy I didn't know. He had gold teeth. "You were right Riley. She would come right to us." I turn back to Riley and I was going to ask what's going on but the man behind put something over my mouth and nose. I heard them laughing and Riley say how easy it was to get Emmett's little bitch. Then everything went black and the last thing on my mind was I would never see what my baby whether she or he would be like. Plus the last thing Emmett heard me say to him was me hanging it up on him.
