Big thank you to everyone that has commented, half of the reviews that I have seen in my emails haven't come through for some reason but I do appreciate all of them!

I don't dislike Hailey's character in any way shape or form that's why in this story I don't want to make her out to be the 'bad guy'. She is a good actor and I think she has done well filling the shoes of Jays new partner, my opinion is that that's all they should stay but only because I don't feel like Jay should go through the whole partner/girlfriend thing again, but that's only my opinion and again doesn't mean I have anything against her, but also saying that she is good for Jay whether that be as a friend or girlfriend.

But again this isn't about Upstead! But I just wanted to shed some light because a lot of reviews were about being glad Hailey wasn't a 'Bitch' and trying to get between them, I'm going to try make her be as supportive as possible, yeah sometimes she might disagree and give her opinion but you will just have to wait and see. Now, let's get to it.

Erin rolled out of bed, literally. She was finding it hard to do absolutely anything at this stage. She made her way to the bathroom and had a hot shower, as she was in there she heard a knock at the door. She quickly stopped the water and got out, wrapping a gown around herself. She waddled down the stairs, careful not to slip because her feet were still wet.

Once she got to the door she opened it and didn't expect to see the tall figure in-front of her. He was still the same handsome guy she loved, beautiful green eyes, freckles, clean cut hair and just the right amount of facial hair.

"Jay," she said shocked as she stood in the doorway looking up into his eyes.

"Erin."

"Do you want to come in?" She said stepping aside, hoping he would take the invite. She watched him contemplate for a short minute when he finally stepped inside.

"Sorry, I just got out of the shower. Give me a minute." Erin nodded as she walked as quickly as she could up the stairs to change. Questioning whether he had noticed or not.

Jay stood there in shock, was his mind playing tricks or did he just see what he thought, was she pregnant? After this whole time this is why she's here? To drop this on him, he was barely ready to talk to her let alone this. He wasn't sure whether to be sad, angry or just stay quiet and walk out but his feet were glued and his mind was blank, he had no idea.

He walked towards the kitchen and sat down at the table, waiting patiently for her to come and explain her side of things, not knowing how he'd react.

Erin made her way back downstairs after changing, she had a loose shirt on and a pair of track pants on so the bump wasn't entirely noticeable but you could still tell. She walked towards the kitchen looking at him as she entered, "Uh coffee?"

He stayed quiet but nodded, she walked over to the pot and poured him a coffee, then she placed it in-front of him. She could tell he was tense, she didn't expect anything less, this was a massive thing to drop on someone you hadn't seen in 5 months and you didn't say goodbye to them when you left.

"Jay, I'm really so..."

Jay interrupted Erin, "Your pregnant?"

She looked towards him and all she could see was the pain in his eyes, he was so hurt, "Yes, I'm really sorry I didn't tell you earlier. I didn't know how'd you'd react."

"Gives you no right to keep this from me, why now?" He said bluntly.

"I don't know, honestly I guess I just figured if I didn't do it know maybe I would never had and I would have regretted that for the rest of my life and I couldn't let our baby grow up not knowing their father like I did. I want to give it more then that, a better life."

"Wow Erin, I honestly don't know what to say." Jay said, slouching back into the chair.

"I know it's a lot." Erin understood how he felt, she didn't expect for it all to be okay straight away, just hopefully one day.

"Why didn't you say goodbye?" Jay paused, "Did you know you were pregnant? Is that why? Because you wanted to run away?" He had so many questions.

"I didn't know I was pregnant, I found out not long after I got to New York and for the reason I didn't say goodbye I'm sorry. I just thought it was best, I wanted to protect you from what was going on and we weren't in the right place."

"Protect me from what Erin? I could have handled it." Jay said angrily.

"I had a decision to make, I made what I thought was best and I didn't look back. Sure I regret it now and I will for the rest of my life and I'm sorry but I would have never been able to get on that plane if I had tried to say goodbye to you it would have hurt to much." She explained sadly, holding back her tears.

"You didn't have to leave, everything could have been worked out, that's what Voight always does."

"Not this time Jay, my job with the CPD was over and if I didn't take the job and tried to fight to stay they were going to take intelligence away, I couldn't do that. Chicago needs your unit, so I did what I needed to do to prevent that from happening. So Voight got in contact with the FBI and they offered me a position in their Counter-terrorism Bureau, undercover. Which never actually happened because of this," she said gesturing to her bump, "Also I accepted it in order to keep Bunny out of jail, for some reason I needed that in order to find peace. Still I haven't heard from her since then and I don't plan on it, she's on her own now."

"So let me get this straight, they used you to try and get rid of Voight? You caved in, helped your mother stay out of jail where that's probably the best place for her and you ran?" He said frustrated.

"If you want to look at it like that, sure." Erin shrugged, she wasn't going to fight him.

"Who knows about the baby?" He questioned.

"Benson from SVU, couple people that were going to be in my new unit, the people I worked with while I was on desk duty, Hank and you," she paused and had a flashback of herself bumping into Will, "Oh and your brother, I kind of bumped into him when I arrived last night."

"Great, so my brother found out before me and he didn't care to tell me."

"Look Jay I told him not to, I wanted to tell you. I didn't want it coming from anyone else, you didn't deserve that."

"Didn't deserve that? But I deserved everything else? Not to be told that I'd be a father, not be given closure or a goodbye, to stand in front of Molly's with an engagement ring burning a hole inside my pocket." Jay paused and tried to stop himself from saying the last part but it just came out, he couldn't help it.

"What?" Erin said shocked.

"Don't worry." Jay said bluntly.

"You were going to propose? Jay we weren't together."

"Yeah I know but I already blew it once, I was ready. You were all I thought about, I wanted you in my life. I wanted to be there for you like you had always been there for me."

"Jay I didn't need saving and we weren't ready for that." Erin said, she was being honest, they weren't near ready for that kind of commitment.

Jay bent forward and rested his head in his hands, prevent himself from becoming to emotional, Erin slid her hand over and rubbed her fingers along his, her touch was so familiar, he had forgotten how much he loved it.

"I'm really sorry Jay, you have to understand that. If I could go back I'd change everything, but it's done. We have to figure out a way to move forward with all this, together."

"Are you moving back?" Jay said, looking back up at her, his eyes were red, she knew how bad he was trying to keep his emotions in check, she was doing the same.

"I haven't really make any concrete decisions yet, for now probably. I can't fly and I don't exactly want to be crammed in a car on a long drive back to New York. All my stuff is in New York but I guess I will be having this baby here, then decide what's best."

"You can't just have our baby then move away? That's not fair, I want to be in this babies life, you can't stop me from doing that."

"Jay I know, that's why I'm here but you have to understand my job isn't here anymore."

"Well maybe by the time you come off maternity leave they will consider giving you your job back, I'm sure Voight can work something out." Jay shrugged, he didn't want her to walk away again especially with his kid in the picture.

"We will cross that bridge when we come to it."

"So where are you going to live then? Where are you going to bring the baby home to?" Jay pushed more.

"Here I guess, I mean I'm sure Hank wouldn't mind and if I plan on going back I don't want to waste money on rent when I'm already paying rent in New York."

"Move in with me." Jay said quickly.

"Jay that's not a good idea, we aren't in a good place and I really think we need to be in a good place when they baby comes." Erin said, she didn't want to hurt him but she had to be honest.

"Do it for the baby and I want to be there for all of it, I don't want to miss anymore, I already missed most of your pregnancy, don't let me miss the most important part." Jay said grabbing her hand.

"Let me think about it?"

"Okay, sure." Jay said pulling his hand back.

"Jay, I promise I will consider it." Erin assured him.

"Okay, so do you need things for the baby? Let me help with that at least?

"Well I have a fair bit in New York but I'm not there, I might organise a moving truck to go pick it all up, I'm sure Liv wouldn't mind going over there to put it all together." Erin shrugged.

"Let me sort it out, I have the weekend off I can go with one of the guys from work or Will and we can pick it all up."

"Jay I don't know."

"God Erin just let me do something!" Jay yelled, startling her, "Sorry, I just want to help."

"No it's okay, sorry." She said, she knew she needed to let him back in, he deserved that much.

"So will you let me do that then? And you will think about what I said?" Jay questioned.

"Yes, that's fine. Thankyou Jay."

"Look I need to go, need to sort some things out, but call me if you need anything and we will talk more soon?" Jay said getting up, Erin followed suit.

Jay smiled and looked down at her, she felt her heart race, god she missed that smile, "So this is where my shirt went?"

"Oh Jay, I'm so sorry I didn't mean..."

"Erin it's fine, looks better on you then it did on me," Jay stopped and walked closer to her, "Can I?" He said gesturing to her bump, she nodded and he placed both his hands on the top of it, then it hit him and hard, he was going to be a father.