Erin was now 38 weeks pregnant, she had already experienced fake labour which scared the hell out of her and Jay, still they still felt so unprepared and not ready for this baby. Jay was at her beckoning call which she loved but sometimes she just wanted to knock him out, he got so caught up in the moments sometimes that he would get a little close for her comfort, it wasn't about them it was about the baby, that's it.

Jay was flying out to New York with Hailey and Adam to help with a case SVU were working on. Jay thought it was a horrible idea and didn't know why Voight would sign him up for it when Erin was this close to her due date.

Erin was standing in the kitchen munching on her fourth piece of toast when she saw Jay fussing over his things in the living room.

"Jay relax, I'm not due for two weeks. I'm still only 1cm dilated and there's no movement, it's going to be fine." Erin said trying to reassure him that everything was going to be okay.

"But I will never forgive myself if I miss it." Jay said sadly.

"You won't Jay." Erin said walking towards him with a coffee in her hand to pass to him.

"Thanks," Jay smiled, "I just don't know why Voight would do this, not when your two weeks away from you due date anything could happen."

"Jay it's only going to be for a couple days."

"But if something happens.."

Erin quickly interrupted him, "I will call you and you will be on the next flight out."

"Okay fine." Jay said defeated as he continued to organise his things.

Suddenly Erin gasped and grabbed the bottom of her bump, "Ah."

"Erin." Jay said rushing to her side

"Ow, ow! ow." Erin said loudly in pain.

"Contraction?" Jay said panicked.

Erin just nodded her head continuing to yell loudly.

"Oh my god, your going into labour. Oh shit. Jay kept saying, panicked.

Then suddenly Erin stood up straight and started laughing, getting an annoyed looked of Jay who stood in front of her.

"Oh, I hate you." Jay said annoyed as he had a big smirk on his face.

"I'm sorry, it was just too easy." Erin said continuing to laugh.

...

Erin decided to invite Kim round for one of the nights Jay was gone, she had the apartment to herself and Kim had been begging her to get together, they hadn't really caught up since she had gotten back.

They were sitting down down on the lounge after they'd eaten dinner, Kim was sipping on wine while Erin was sipping on a mock-tail Kim had made her. Usually she wasn't one for sweet things but the baby definitely enjoyed it.

"So how is everything going? You excited?" Kim said turning to Erin.

"Everything is good, better then I thought to be honest. I met Jays dad last week, which was interesting I can understand now why Jay doesn't talk to him much, which sucks he should be proud of his son and what he's accomplished and what he does for this city," Erin sighed, she felt so bad for Jay, his dad just didn't want to accept what he done and he wasn't real pleased on the fact that he'd knocked someone up and wasn't marrying them. "I think I'm excited, more so nervous, I never thought this would be me."

"Poor Jay, oh really? Is he at least excited for a grandchild?" Kim said surprised.

"Uh, I don't really know. Jay kinda pulled us out not long after we got there, he started going on about the fact that we weren't married, this wasn't going to work, it was a mistake, what I was going to do about work after the baby since I'm a cop too. He just went on and on and was a little rude so Jay just wanted us to get out of there."

"Wow, that's crazy. What right does he have also about what you do after the baby is born? That's not his decision to make, sure he can have an opinion but keep it to yourself."

"Yeah I guess, really surprised me how protective Jay was, I mean we aren't together but he didn't want my feelings to be hurt even though he knows I can handle any type of parent."

"I'm really sorry meeting him didn't turn out for the better, maybe once the baby is born he will come around, that's going to be his grandbaby, he shouldn't not see it because of his and Jays relationship." Kim said.

"Yeah I guess, guess we will find out sooner then later." Erin shrugged.

"How are you and Jay? Relationship wise?" Kim asked curiously.

"Relationship wise," Erin chuckled, "Uh I don't know, honestly. We are trying not to go down that road, we don't want it to effect the baby in the long run and we both agreed that just because I'm pregnant and we are having a baby doesn't mean we need to be a couple again."

"Do you still love him though?"

"Of course, god it's so hard to be around him and be forced not to feel anything." Erin said as she laid back on the lounge.

"That must suck. So how was the doctors appointment yesterday, Jay said something about the baby being breech and you had been doing a few things? Is everything okay now?"

"Yeah no, everything is good. The baby turned itself so that's a big relief," Erin paused and got lost in thought, the suddenly Kim was clicking her fingers in front of her, "Sorry."

Kim looked at her confused, "What are you thinking?"

"Oh it's nothing. It's just at the appointment there was a moment." Erin said thinking back.

"That, there, looks like hair." The doctor said pointing to the ultrasound.

"What? You can see hair?" Erin said shocked.

"Sometimes." The doctor smiled.

"I was bald. That must come from your side." Erin said pointing to Jay with a smile.

"I did have a lot of hair." Jay chuckled and shrugged.

"Wait, like a weird amount?" Erin said raising her eyebrows at him.

"No, not a weird..." Jay said as Erin interrupted him.

"Come on, if you had a weird amount, just admit it." Erin said pointing at him with a smile.

Jay didn't say anything for a little while then just admitted to it, "Okay, it was kind of a lot." Then they both giggled between themselves.

"For a minute it felt like nothing had changed between us, that we were still together, that I'd never moved away." Erin said as she rubbed her eyes, trying to stop her emotions from taking over.

"So what happened next?" Kim said intrigued.

"Well he wanted to take a picture, he said that he wanted to cherish the moment. Cheesy I know especially for Jay but I thought it couldn't hurt," Erin paused looking down, "Then his phone rang and it was Hailey, probably a good thing."

"Why was it a good thing? You know there's nothing going on between the two of them yeah?" Kim said concerned about Erins thoughts.

"Oh yeah I know that, I mean it's a good thing because it snapped us out of that happy couple bubble. Reminded both of us that we are better off doing this how we are, with no feelings involved." Erin shrugged.

"Yeah I guess but if you's both feel the same way then what's stopping you?" Kim said.

"I don't know. I really don't, I guess we just thought it was better off this way." Erin said.

"Maybe not, I mean if It's this hard to tip toe around each other and if both of you are struggling, it's only going to get harder."

"Yeah I guess we just need to figure it out, one step at a time." Erin smiled faintly.

"I'm just glad your back, its good to have you around again and I'm so excited for the newest addition." Kim smiled and continued drinking her wine.

"Thanks Kim, it's good to be back." Erin smiled, thinking about what Kim had said, she was right why were the trying to hard to tip toe around each other when both of them obviously still loved each other.