Dear diary,
Hi! My name is Sawada Tsunayoshi. I'm 6 years old and I like playing with robots. I love my mama and the way she sings. I like eating ice cream.
I don't like meany bullies. They push me and want to make me cry.
I want to be a robot when I grow up. Robots don't cry when they get pushed by bullies. Robots are strong and I want to be strong so mama can stop crying.
Stupid papa for making mama cry.
Dear diary,
Papa finally came home! I hope he stays for a long time before he goes back to work. Mama always feel sad when he isn't home.
I hope she's happy now that papa's here.
I wonder who's the grandpa who came back with papa. He feels like danger.
Dear diary,
I found a baby cat but the bullies took the kitty from my hands. I hope the kitty's okay.
Dear diary,
I have a new friend. His name is Hibari Kyoya-senpai. I just call him Hibari-senpai. I gave him a pretty flower earlier and he smiled! He's scary but also nice.
I'll try to have more friends.
Dear diary,
I feel cold and dizzy and wrong. I can't feel my arms and legs and I vomited because my tummy hurts.
Papa told me I will be okay but I don't feel okay.
I just want to sleep.
Dear diary,
Mama and papa are fighting again. I can still hear them from here, under my blankie. Kuma-san also seems scared so I'm keeping him under my blankie with me. I hope they stop shouting. I don't like it when they fight.
Aah, Kuma-san is a gift from Kyo-nii. He told me to call him that so I did.
I don't when he gave it to me. My head hurts when I try to remember.
Dear diary,
Mama's crying again. Papa's not here.
I want to hug mama but she locked her room again.
Dear diary,
It's my birthday.
Mama says I'm 8 years old but I don't remember my last birthday.
Did I have a birthday cake when I was 7?
I can't remember. Is that bad?
I'll ask Kyo-nii tomorrow if forgetting a birthday is bad.
Dear diary,
Kyo-nii was so angry because he said not remembering birthdays is a bad thing.
We went to the hospital and talked with a doctor called Hibari-sensei. Kyo-nii said he's an uncle from his kaa-san's side.
I don't understand what he said so I just nod.
Hibari-sensei asked why I'm cold.
I told him I don't know.
Dear diary,
I fell down the stairs at school. There's a lot of blood and it's so sticky... but it's also so warm.
Can blood make me warm again?
Dear diary,
I learned something new today. Making blood CAN make me feel warm. Jackets and thick clothes don't make me feel as warm as what I do every night.
I hope no one sees.
It will be like a little secret.
Dear diary,
Kyo-nii found out. He's angry at me and would check my arms and wrist for cuts.
What do I do now? I want to feel warm.
I hope he doesn't tell kaa-san. I don't want her to worry.
Dear diary,
I want to go away. Far, far, away. Kaa-san and tou-san were fighting on the phone again because tou-san won't go home. There was a lot of bang and crash outside my room and I locked my door because I don't want kaa-san to come into my room.
I'm scared.
Is it my fault that they're fighting?
Dear diary,
I saw mama earlier when I opened the door after going back from school. She was cold and pale and... is mama dead?
There's so many blood on mama's favorite yellow carpet. Just red, reD, ReD, rED.
Why isn't tou-san answering his phone?
Dear diary,
Tou-san's still not answering his phone.
What do I do? Should I call Kyo-nii?
Dear diary,
I don't want to remember.
