It's time to find myself again

A Lin Beifong Story

Setting: takes place after the final battle with Kuvira and Julie and Varrick's Wedding

(in other words her new home in republic city)

Ratings: T for Discussion of Trauma Events, Language, and A Dark Scene

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(Note if it becomes too much then do not processed to read)

(Her POV)

Well, here I go away, another typical day here in republic city as I Lin Beifong an retired chief of police is now ready to take on the next mission of my day, being a file administrator at Tax Form station which it's not so bad. I mean it's 4 days a week which I can handle the job no problem. I rather be fucking doing that than risky myself for you know chief of police.

As soon as I got up, dressed, feed and all I head out to work. People back then didn't notice me yet as time goes on they all wave at me as somehow they like me or something which I generally wave with a lightful smile and then leave quickly out of the scene before some say a word to me. I have to admit that life after team avatar went their separate ways, Republic City become a little calmer and peaceful which I like and all but it can get old quickly.

I finally got to my destination and before I know some of co-workers greeted me as I did in return. The closes ones I usually speak to where, Fang and Mira. Both funny and somehow have some similarities that I have which made work a little easy and fun for me professionally. Mira is my only trust worker out there to keep secrets and not share not to mention she's funny. Fang well, Fang is Fang so kinda like my nephew in law, Bolin.

"Well Lin, how was the weekend" A curious Mira

"Dull as always yet my sister and brother-in-law did stop by for a visit to see how I am doing?"

"Ah Baatar and Suyin, haven't see them since the party you had a couple weeks back, Lin. Are they well?"

"It seems so last time I check and anyways why you care!? Not to sound like an ass" she remarks as she does paperwork.

"Because they are cool people, and they like me! Well at least your brother-in-law thinks I'm cool anyways" said Fang as he took back a customer back to his desk to form his task

I turns on the radio and puts on some indy music to pass the time, I look around to see Fang and Mira smile at me for putting amazing music on for them to pass the time in a low volume of course.

You can say things in my life going well. Sure, I let my hair grow out a little more and vice versa yet sometimes I get this feeling of Dark cloud always buzzing inside my head which my workers knew I had this problem for quite some time after the battle with team avatar of course.

I understand I am alone with no family or children which I missed out on everything and gave up my life just so I can my mom to understand and love for who I am. 'A fool I am' I thought to myself and just get so depressed where I want to end my life here but why?!

I just can't not after everything I have been through with Team Avatar and how I help tenzin and his family stay safe from evil and sorts. Just why…. why I miss out on everything I had.

I made it to my room, took very off and stare into deep space just thinking where did my whole world go wrong!?

Why do I suddenly feel weak?! My mother was to blame or myself trying to be the best of the best in her eyes

Then as time goes on, my life started to grow once more, I mean gaining a few friends, my sister and I gotten better with each other and for the first time in my life I am starting to see the light again

You know? Who cares if I missed out on everything at least I still have my health and pride and besides nothing can take that away from me can it? Well I hope not I do not want to go back into this dark memory of mine where my life takes me away and lose all the people I actually for once care about like Damnit as I shook my head back forth to get the dark cloud out of my mind

It hurts it just hurts so bad then suddenly I begin to slow faint away until I heard muttered in the background then a splash of water hit me as I suddenly started coughing to gain conscious and breathing

"WHAT THE FUCK! WHO DID THAT"

"Ssssssooooorrrrrry" Fang said with fear and use the bucket as shield until lin snapped

"I…I how did you….how did" she cut off my none other than her sister

"We heard screaming and I have your back up key just in case of emergency which it was and then we race upstairs here to find you lying down on the cold floor, LIN! Are you alright?" said suyin with concerned look in her eyes

"I guess….. I am okay" I spoke softly with sweating dripping

"DAMN IT LIN! WHAT THE FUCK! Lin! I can see you are not, please girl! Snap out it! You do not have to be sad anymore! We are here for you!" Mira shouted as she hugs her friend in tears

Lin could not believe that her sister and friends did what they did to save me. God I am pathetic piece of trash how I took everyone for granted and not seeing the big picture here

I hugged her back

"I'm sorry my dearest friend, I'm just trying to shake away this ugly pain I am feeling. *she lets go and continues* Just understand It's gonna take time for me to heal. After all my adventures with team avatar, I needed to get back into my routine of things and see where I go in life. What I do know is that you guys and my sister *looks at her then back to mira* mean everything to me. However as far as mentally goes I'm just gonna be some time and think about things I need to fix, forgive, and let go. But I know I can do this, however, *she looks at everyone* I can't do it alone I'm gonna need-"cuts off by Suyin

"You don't need anything, lin. All you need is yourself, faith and of course us. You got it all! Now enough sappiness and come over for dinner, what do you say sis?!" she said as she reaches for my hand

I looked around my friends, my sister and me because once I take her hand it will be start of the new chapter of recovery I know it will take time, but I know things will get better, so I took and hand and off we go I said.

"Yay party at Suyin's!" said Fang cheerful running towards the car

"I gotta say Lin, you sure got some good friends here" Suyin said as she heads to the car

I gotta say myself too I am grateful for these guys because without them not sure where I'll be at today and I told myself as I got to the car that I sure do have amazing friends. Then were on the road to the sisters! With a breath-taking breeze I inhale I am sure to find myself again.

End!

Thank you guys for reading my first legend of korra story

Many more to come soon!

Just a hit of reminder to always check in on your buddies and yourself for self-care moments!

Reach out for help! Take action and support one another!

Til next time

Jericho64