Chapter 17

Olivia was pulled from her sleep, "No! Don't! Stop!" She saw Amanda shoot up in the bed. Olivia didn't make any sudden movements. She sat up slowly and rubbed her back. She was soaking wet, "Amanda, Are you ok?" Olivia turned on the light. Amanda was frozen with fear.

She walked around to her side of the bed. "Amanda, come on. Get up." Amanda didn't speak as Olivia helped her to the bathroom. She spoke to her softly, "I need to get you in the tub and change the sheets." She filled the tub up with warm water. Normally she wouldn't ask the next question but Amanda was a victim not her girlfriend. "Amanda, Is it ok if I take off your clothes? I need you to help me here. I don't want to do anything to scare you."

Olivia looked into her blue eyes. She didn't speak, but she nodded. She helped her out of her clothes and into the tub. "I'm going to change the sheets and I'll come right back." Olivia didn't want to leave her, but she wanted to get her back into bed quickly.

Olivia changed the bed and hurried back to Amanda. She was sitting in the water holding her knees to her chest. The water was clear and she hadn't used any soap. "Amanda, I'm just going to wash you really quick, rinse you, and dry you off." Olivia did that, put her in new pjs, and helped her into bed.

When Olivia laid down Amanda started to climb on top of her, but Olivia stopped her. "Amanda, we're not doing that." Amanda jumped out of bed, "Fuck Liv! Don't do that! Don't treat me differently because of what I told you." Amanda tried to leave and Olivia quickly stopped her. Olivia put one hand on the closed door and the other around her stomach.

She rested her head on her back. "I love you so much. I'm not treating you differently because of what you told me. Im treating you differently because you are the love of my life and I will not be another punishment fuck." Amanda turned to face her. They were forehead to forehead and she finally heard Amanda's normal self. "I'm sorry Liv. Please hold me."

Olivia held her until she woke up. She saw her sleeping peacefully. "Cap, I'll be a little late and Amanda isn't feeling good." She promised to fill him in once she got to work. She picked up Noah and went to the kitchen. She made breakfast as fast as she could.

Lucy came in and kissed Noah. "Liv, is everything ok? Where's Amanda?" She grabbed breakfast, "Amanda, had a rough night. I'm going in a little late. Will you finish feeding him, while I get dressed?" Lucy gave him a spoonful of applesauce, "Sure!"

She went into her room with breakfast and Amanda sat up, "Morning." Amanda sighed, "Morning." She was embarrassed, "I'll get out of your way." Olivia grabbed her hand, "You're not in my way. I want you to eat and stay here today." Amanda ate and watched Olivia get dressed. "You're going to tell him aren't you? You're going to tell Cragen."

Olivia sat in front of her. "Do you trust me?" Amanda looked at her, "With my life." Olivia kissed her cheek, "I love you. Please relax today." Olivia went to work with one goal, to take those fuckers down. Once Olivia left, Amanda joined Lucy and Noah. "Morning Luce!" Lucy smiled, "Hey! I'm glad to have company. Amanda got a chance to see just how responsible Lucy was.

When Olivia got to work she saw Cragen immediately. "That son of a bitch, I knew it. I was hoping it didn't happen, but all the signals were there." Cragen looked at Olivia, "You said she told Reynolds she did a rape kit." Olivia looked up, "Yeah, but she didn't." Cragen smiled, "But he believes her. Liv, he transferred her on her request. He's contacted her to see her in New York. Why was he even here? Patton is putting him up to it. They believe her and that's really all we need."

Cragen had friends down south. He was a Sergeant in Florida before transferring to New York. He understood running, he ran too. When his wife's plane crashed over a swamp, he lost everything. She was a flight attendant and had recently found out she was pregnant, it was supposed to be her final flight. It ended up being her final in more than one way. That's when his drinking started. "Liv, we need her. Is she strong enough for a setup?"

Cragen had friends. Patton was high in the ranks, but Cragen knew the highest in Atlanta. Cragen had a plan. He wanted to tell the Chief of Police and get Amanda to set a meeting with Reynolds and hopefully Patton. "Feel her out Liv. If you get an inkling that she will break, I will call it off."

Olivia headed home and called Lucy. "How's everything!" Lucy had no clue what was going on and put her on speakerphone. "Hey Liv! We're making dinner and I invited David. He said he loves spaghetti and meatballs." Olivia was relieved to hear happiness in Amanda's voice. It was soothing. "That's great! I'm on the way."

Olivia walked in and smelled the aroma. "Smells good in her girls." She picked up Noah, "Hey sweet boy! Mommy missed you today." She walked over to Amanda, "I missed you too, you know." Amanda kissed her. Once David came, they enjoyed dinner and watched Noah have fun grabbing plain noodles on his food tray. David stood up, "Well, y'all cooked, I'll clean."

David cleaned the entire kitchen and Amanda laughed, "Umm, taking food to go?" David laughed, "Hey, it was delicious and this is my lunch. See y'all tomorrow. Night little man. Daddy loves you." David rubbed his hair, "Liv, he has your hair. We need to cut it." Olivia frowned, "No, he's too little and his hair is beautiful." Amanda found a curl forming, "David look! He has brown hair, but natural streaks."

Olivia ran a nice warm bath for them after putting Noah to bed. "Oh gosh! Liv, it's that bad? You need this to break it to me?" Amanda sat in the tub opposite of Olivia. "Just spit it out. What did Cragen say?" Olivia told her truth and she was worried when she saw Amanda's face.

Amanda scoffed, "So let me get this straight. You two want me to go to Atlanta, a place I told you I never wanted to go back to, set up a meeting with two high ranking officers who spent over an hour raping me over a desk in my own squad room, and try to trap them with evidence I lied about and I don't even have." Olivia had her answer or she thought she did.

Amanda moved and straddled Olivia in the large whirlpool tub and smiled while biting her lip. "You two are fucking geniuses, but don't use that language with the Captain." Olivia smiled, "Amanda, I don't want you to do this if you aren't…" Amanda kissed her, "I'm tired of being scared. I don't want to be a victim. I want to heal Liv."

Amanda wrapped her arms around Olivia. "Amanda Rollins are you grinding me?" Amanda laughed, "This is grinding you!" They got into bed and prepared for the next day. "Liv?" Olivia turned her head, "Yeah baby?" Amanda looked at the ceiling, "When this is over no matter the outcome", Amanda looked her in the eyes, "Can we make love?" Olivia smiled, "Absolutely!"

Wednesday morning Amanda jumped up to run. Olivia wasn't surprised, because she knew the stress she was under. She ran hard, harder than usual. Olivia just let her work through it. "That was a good workout. You ran hard Amanda." They stepped in the elevator, "Liv, I'm ok. I trust you and when I'm not ok, I promise you, I will tell you." Olivia felt like they were making strides. Things weren't going to be perfect, but she was hoping little by little they would get better.

Once Cragen understood Amanda was ready to go he set the play in motion. He called his friend. "Don, Patton doesn't surprise me. We've heard whispers but he's been untouchable. I am shocked about Reynolds, but Patton is above him. If you can get them, bring the evidence." He offered Cragen the manpower and they had no connections with Patton or Reynolds. "Ok Amanda, you're up." Amanda pulled up Reynolds on her phone. She didn't put it on speaker. She didn't want any red flags.

The phone rang, "Aman…" Amanda stopped him, "Why the fuck are texting me and showing up at my squad room. I was on official business, doing my job. Are you dumb? Did you not understand my warning?" Cragen and Olivia smiled, and knew how she became a detective at 25. She was so smart. "Look, I'm flying into Atlanta to handle my final business. If there is something you need let's meet but all this other bullshit will stop." Amanda laughed, "Goodbye Sam." She had him, "Wait! Thursday, come by the squad room after 8 PM." Amanda smiled, "Ok."

Cragen purchased the tickets for Thursday after work and told Fin he was in charge. They had a plan and Amanda would be fully protected in the squad room. Olivia needed to come clean. "Captain, we are in love. I want to be with her." Cragen smiled, "You've done everything by the book. Higher ups already know, anything else is up to my decision."