Chapter 19

After the take down in Atlanta things were good. Therapy was working, Amanda felt like she had a family for the first time in her life. "Are you ready for your birthday?" Olivia smiled, "Yep, David has Noah. He even gave Lucy a clear weekend. What are you doing this weekend?"

Amanda squinted. Olivia loved their relationship. She was able to joke around and tease her without her getting upset. "I mean some hot blonde girl gave me a weekend stay, with a spa treatment, room service, and the works. The only problem is she never told me officially if she was coming with me or not. I think she was worried about punishment or something."

Amanda smiled wide, "I'm definitely coming with you and I have our sex toys packed. It's your birthday so you can pick who uses what first." Olivia laughed, "Oh really. I'm definitely going first. If I recall, my double thruster threw you into convulsions and I love watching your body do that." Amanda blushed, "You're lucky I love you."

They headed to the hotel after work. Amanda looked out the window at the city life at night. Amanda did love her and Olivia was the first ever. "It's pretty from up here. No noise, just lights and beauty. Dinner's here." Amanda joined Olivia at the table. They enjoyed steak, salad, Mac and cheese, and a bottle of wine. "Liv, are you trying to get me drunk to get in my pants?"

Olivia laughed, "Last time I checked, I didn't have to get you drunk for that." Amanda laughed, "Well, we did have a rough week so I'll take it easy tonight." Amanda ran a warm bath in the double jacuzzi tub and thought about the week.

Last Saturday night a gunman stormed a family's home, killing the parents and leaving their teenage daughter in critical condition. The squad found a gambling ring and everything went in the wrong direction to solve the case. Amanda was broken hearted when she had to arrest the teenage daughter for setting up the entire thing, because her father was raping her.

Olivia climbed in the tub between Amanda's legs. "You look like you're a million miles away." Amanda had changed so much, she talked when things bothered her, never asked for punishment, and was honest. "I was thinking about Emmy. Sometimes things don't seem fair." Amanda stroked Olivia's chest down to her stomach. "Yeah, I know baby."

Amanda dropped her hand lower and started massaging Olivia's front. Olivia laid back and moaned, "Ohhhh Amanda." Amanda kept rubbing and water was splashing around. When she used her free hand and squeezed her nipple, Olivia lost it. "Fuck!" Amanda kissed her bare shoulder. "Just something to help you sleep."

The next morning they had breakfast in the room. Then they headed to the spa appointment. They were pampered, massaged, and even had lunch served to them. "Liv, let's swim. The pool looks amazing." Amanda grabbed her and two towels along the way. They were at the deep end so Amanda jumped right in. "Liv, come on." They had the pool to themselves. Amanda had her arms around Olivia's waist. She looked down at the water, "Liv, will you spank me tonight?"

Amanda was testing her, she hadn't asked or given any signs that she wanted punishment. She wanted to know if Olivia would react badly if she ever asked. She didn't feel her tense up or even hesitate. Olivia just answered, "You know I will, but can you tell me why."

Olivia thought it was Emmy's case. Her life mirrored Amanda's younger days. Cases did that sometimes. Even Olivia felt it sometimes. Amanda laughed, "Gotcha!" Olivia rolled her eyes, "I'm going to spank you for that." They climbed out and headed to the room for dinner.

They took a shower and enjoyed dinner in soft comfy robes. Olivia sipped her wine, "Amanda, why did you ask about spanking?" Amanda sighed, she had a huge reason. "Things have been good." Olivia smiled, "I agree!" Amanda was truthful, "I don't want you to think I'm healed. I don't want you to think I won't ever ask. I guess I wanted to see your true reaction. Can you deal with me forever?"

Olivia smirked, "You have my word, that I will spank you whenever you want, because I love you. In the beginning it was different, but it didn't stop me from falling in love with you." Amanda heard everything she needed to hear and reached in her pocket. "Happy birthday Liv!"

Amanda slid her the small blue Tiffany box. Olivia was in shock as she saw a Tiffany True Diamond engagement ring in platinum. Olivia was silent and Amanda was scared. "I know it's soon, Liv you're it for me and we can wait as long as you want, but the ring just means I want to be with you forever."

Olivia just stared at her, "Liv, even if you say no, please say something." Olivia smirked, "No." Amanda scoffed, "Wow!" Olivia laughed, "Gotcha!" Olivia sat in her lap, "Amanda Grace Rollins, I will love you forever and yes I would be honored to be your wife."

They threw the robes to the side and Olivia grabbed her double thruster vibrating dildo. She inserted her end in her and walked over to the bed flipping Amanda. "You're still a fucking lightweight. Eat a burger or something. She pulled her up on her knees. "My birthday, my rules." Amanda was on the bed on all fours. "Whack!" Amanda yelled, "Shit!" Olivia laughed, "I warned you!"

Amanda's smart mouth started, "Just wait! When it's my turn and I have my hand on your aaaaa…" Olivia rolled her eyes and pushed all the way in. "Oh shit! Liv, that's deep." Amanda's breathing was fast. "Whack!" Olivia gave her a minute to adjust. "Still have something to say from that smartass mouth?" Amanda fell forward as Olivia pulled out and pushed in slowly. When Olivia only heard moaning and Amanda rocked back against her, she knew she could pick it up.

They were going at it and once Olivia turned on the vibrator, they were done in less than a minute. "Liv, I swear sex is better every single time." Olivia winked, "Agreed!" They were flat on their backs and they found enough strength to turn their heads, "l love you." It was cute that they said it at the same time. "Liv, one day when you don't expect it, I'm going to spank your ass." Olivia laughed, but she kinda got turned on, thinking about Amanda actually taking control. "Amanda, you better eat a lot of burgers before you try that."

The next morning Amanda rolled over to a naked Olivia holding her hand up in the air to admire her ring. "I love how it looks when the light hits it." Olivia leaned over, "How did you get the money for this? I mean we're going to get married, I should know all of your secrets." Amanda laughed, "One when my parents died, I collected something nice called insurance, plus I sold the house. You're getting someone with money."

Olivia rolled her eyes, "When are we telling everyone." Amanda bit her lip, "Well, I'm glad you said yes, because everyone knows." Amanda gathered their circle when she purchased the ring. Cragen and the squad were the first to know, because she wanted to make sure they were clear to continue working together. It wasn't a problem, they were always professional.

David, Noah, and Lucy were the next group. They were Olivia's family so she asked their permission. David hugged Amanda, "Thank you for making her happy and doing what I couldn't. She's Noah's mother and we will always be in each other's lives." Lucy clapped and smiled, "Do I get to be in the wedding?" Amanda laughed, "Of course Luce!"

David looked at Noah smiling and laughing. It was like he understood. "You know if you two decide you want Noah to have a sibling, I would be happy to help." Lucy squirmed, "Ummm gross David! I'm right here." David rolled his eyes, "Geez Lucy! You need to start reading. There are other ways women have babies when two women are together." Amanda laughed at them both.

She sent the group a message, which even included Dominick, Lucy's dad, and stepmom a thumbs up text. They all were a part of the family. When they got home, everyone was there to offer congratulations. They had a huge family dinner. "So when is the day?" Olivia smiled, "Well first, I need to get Mrs. Sneaky her own ring, but we were thinking of a fall wedding in Central Park."

Lucy's stepmom jumped in, "I would love to help you plan it. It could be part of me and Kyle's gift to you." Lucy heard her offering and rolled her eyes. Olivia smiled, "Ashley, that's very sweet of you." She smiled "I know Lucy doesn't like me. Looking back I did a lot wrong with her. She doesn't know this but her mom and I became friends when she knew she was sick. She told me she was sick before anyone knew. I was actually sneaking around and taking her to appointments."

Olivia knew the background that Lucy didn't, but she didn't know that. "Her mom told me Lucy would always hate me, but asked me to love her anyway. It's easy to love her, she's a great kid." Olivia smiled, "I appreciate you protecting Lucy, losing her mom hurt her." Truth was Lucy's mom cheated first and even when her dad took her back, she left him anyway and played dirty dangling Lucy as bait. Lucy only knew the good.

Amanda saw her peeking around the corner and she knew Lucy heard it all. They cleaned up and said goodnight. Ashley said she would email ideas and drop off samples next week. They thanked everyone for coming and said goodnight. David hugged them, "Congrats again! Amanda, make sure you tell Liv about my offer. I'll keep Noah, you guys get some rest." Olivia kissed her sweet baby. He was so big now. "Amanda, I'm walking with him and lay Noah down."

Amanda smiled, "Of course. I'm going to check on the big kid." Olivia saw Lucy and knew she heard at least part of what Ashley said. She also knew that Amanda had a way with her. Amanda knocked on her door, "Hey Luce!" Lucy had a small smile, "Hey. Congratulations Amanda." Amanda sat on the bed, "Do you want to talk?"

Lucy looked at her, "What do you know about her and my mom." Amanda shook her head, "I know as much as you heard. You would have to ask Liv." Lucy rolled her eyes, "Lucy, remember when I told you about grown up stuff?" Lucy looked up, "Yeah." Amanda explained, "Well, I learned a long time ago that inserting myself into my parents' issues wasn't exactly healthy. Life is crazy enough dealing with your own shit."

Lucy blinked, "Amanda, what are you trying to say?" Amanda sighed, "You heard what she said, if your mom trusted her with a life changing secret and asked her to love you, maybe it's your mom saying to give her a chance." Tears streamed down Lucy's face, "I miss her. I know she wasn't perfect, but she was my mom and she loved me the most." Amanda understood and heard Lucy and tried to help. "Lucy she did love you, but you have one of the biggest hearts I know. Maybe you could make a little room for your stepmom."

After loving Lucy a little more she left her asleep and in a better mood. They laid down for bed, "David explained his offer." Olivia looked at Amanda, "Amanda, do you want a baby?" Amanda didn't know. "Liv, I don't know. My life was something I never wanted to bring a child into. I was so messed up." Olivia responded quickly, "Well, life is different now and I'm behind you through it all."