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Songfic #39

Song: Despite What You've Been Told

Artist: Two Gallants

Pairing: Ethan/Rory


The sounds of pleasurable moaning could be heard coming from Rory's bedroom, as the blonde hovered over his victim in his bed, while practically naked, sucking their blood from their neck. The blood of this person tasted like pure sweet ecstasy as it hit his taste buds and ran down his throat, satisfying two different urges at the same time. The person under him didn't care though what was happening to them because they had wanted this. Ever since the day he had his heart broken by the only person he truly ever loved. His first and possibly only crush. A girl, who he had fallen head over heels for since the first day they met.

Once Rory was done, he lifted his head up to stare down at the person beneath him. Every time they did this together and when it was all said and done, the vampire couldn't help but to always feel nothing but guilt and remorse for the poor guy. Why Rory kept doing it though, was a mystery to the blonde himself. Maybe it was because of how delicous and delectable his blood had tasted and how he was now addicted to it's sweet taste, ever since the first time they started doing this together for almost a month and a half now. It broke Rory's heart evey time just thinking about how it all began and how depressed his friend had seemed. Well...still seemed, actually.

"How you feeling? I didn't take too much, did I?" asked Rory concernedly, as he gazed down at the person as his vampire eyes reverted back to their normal hue. He always asked this every time afterwards.

The person looked up at him with empty dark brown eyes. The light that once resided inside them now have since faded away ever since she broke his heart back then. It was nice that Rory still cared and all even with their strange little arrangement that they have. If he wasn't always feeling like utter and total crap these days he might've felt grateful and happy for once on the inside for the small bit of concern that his friend had felt for him each time. But no. So instead he gave the blonde a weak sadden smile.

"No. I'm good, Rory. Thanks." he answered back, trying to sound somewhat cheery but instead it came out more tired and depressed sounding.

Depression was all he ever felt these days. He tried to play it off that he was fine on the outside to everyone, which worked and they all believed it. But there was those who probably knew the truth, like Rory did. That he wasn't alright. That he was miserable and depressed all the time. He thought about many of times of just ending his life, but never could. He was always too chicken too. So, instead this was the next best thing to feeling dead. Having a vampire drink from you every few days in exchange for sex.

Well, I guess by the bloodstain on your lips

And the wander of your fingertips

I should prove true to my emptiness and

Stay here

Yes, strange I know. Why his blood in exchange for sex you might ask? Because he was a teenage hormonal boy who also happen to have needs of his own, too. So, why not sell your blood for something so innocent than a little bit of sex, right? It wasn't like he was doing it with a girl or anything and risk her getting pregnant and him ending up becoming a teenage dad or something. At least he was thinking clearly about that part. And he would've chosen a female vampire to perform the deed with (because having everybody at school thinking he was gay was the LAST thing he wanted, right now), but the only female vampires that he knew was the one who broke his heart and the one who couldn't be trusted when it came to blood. Especially, his blood. So, this was the next best thing.

"No problem, dude." spoke Rory sullenly. He got off of the person under him and moved to the side, as the other person got out of the bed to begin putting his clothes back on. Rory just sat there watching with a sympathetic look on his face. His own mind reeling with one thought in particular. "Hey, Ethan..." he started, trailing off, not knowing how to say what he needed to say.

Ethan didn't look at him as he slipped his pants back on, but hummed in reply, instead. Deciding not to go through with what he wanted to tell the seer, Rory just shook his head and blew it off.

"Take care of yourself. Alright?" he opted to say instead, flashing a small smile.

"Yeah." was all Ethan had said, dully, as he reached for his shirt and then slipped it over his head. Once it was on he glanced over to the blonde vampire in bed still. "Same time, same place?" he asked lifelessly, wanting to make sure that their deal was still on as usual.

"Yeah...I'll be here." replied Rory glumly, looking down while balling his hands into tight fists around the blanket.

"Cool." said Ethan, as he put his shoes on. "See you tomorrow then." he added, before walking out the door.

Ethan felt a small pang in his chest for having Rory do this. He hated how he used him only to get what he wanted...to actually be able to feel something again. That's why he chose Rory when he came up with this dumb plan of his to be able to forget about his pain and suffering for awhile for at least a few days during the week. Rory was the only one who he could trust (besides her) to have enough self control over their bloodlust to know when to stop.

Well I'm just a kid of ill repute

But the skin I wear is my only suit

And you, you're just a subsitute

For the one that I hold dear

Of course, he had no idea why Rory even went along with it to begin with, seeing as he once told him and Benny that the only people who his fangs would be touching were the ladies, before he went to blood bags and small animals for his meals, that is. He never thought that Rory would actually say yes to his little offer. Not that he cared or anything. He could always just try to find somebody else or just turned to cutting himself, instead but then he wouldn't be getting his kicks from the natural desire and bliss that having sex with an actual person would provided. Not too mention, there's just something about feeling the pain and pleasure, all mixed into one, at having vampire fangs dug deep into your neck's flesh that just gave you a certain thrilling euphoria like sensation from it.

So, why did Rory agree? Was it for a chance to get a tast of his special and rare blood? Guess he'll never the know the real answer to that one. Just another Rory mystery to him, he suppose.

You know you could be anyone

God forgive my tasteless tongue

I never should have been set free

Either way, he was glad on some level that the blonde idiot had agreed to do it. Ethan looked forward to this part of his day every time, ever since they started. His only escape it seem from life and all the heartache it tends bring him. If not for just a brief moment in time.

As for the rest of the day, well...it was nothing but dullness and emptiness inside for the seer. Putting on a mask of happiness that everthing was just fine. Like it was before she broke his heart by telling him that she didn't like him really in that sort a way and that she only agreed to go out with him on that date before the Lucifractor stuff happened only out of pity. That she saw him as nothing more as just a friend and confidant.

Then if that wasn't enough, she then proceed to tell him that the one who she really liked and had a small crush on for was his best friend, Benny. Can you believe it?! His BEST FRIEND, of all people! And of course, Benny said yes when she had asked him out on a date, but not before checking with him first to make sure it was ok. They both knew how big of crush he had on her and they didn't want any awkwardness arising from their new relationship together with him, either. They didn't want to go through with it if it had meant risking their friendship with him. And if he was against them being together then that was ok with them and they wouldn't pursue a relationship with each other.

Of course, he was happy for his two best friends to finally have someone special in their lives. He really was, but...it still didn't soften the blow any or the heartache and pain he felt once they told him. And being the nice guy that he was, Ethan told them to go ahead and that he had no hard feels about it. In which case, he did on the inside, but he refused to let them know that. He didn't want to get in the way of their happiness together. So, he just remained silent. Secretly torturing himself on the inside emotionally, which on occasion when nobody else was around would sometimes leak out on the outside, as well, in the form of subtle tears and crying. But he didn't care. He just went with it and continued on living his sad and pathetic excuse of a life in this world, like he had before.

I carve my eyes, I skin my face

And beg somehow to be replaced

That's how we deal with boys like me

So, that's why Ethan did what he did every single day, practically. In his own twisted mind it was the only way to feel alive again when he always felt so dead inside. Of course, it was only a quick fix. An ends to a means, but it was enough to help him get through the day. He just wished he didn't have to drag Rory into all of this. Rory was a sweet and kind person, who would do anything for his friends. And Ethan knew just how much Rory wished he'd stop feeling the way he does and be able to just move on and be the person he once was. It was sweet how he cared and God how he also wished that it was that easy to just...move on with life, but it wasn't. He suppose he could've if say...she would have just simply rejected him for someone else. Someone other than his best friend, that he's known for years and see's as a brother to him. But that wasn't the case, now was it.

Something deep down inside of him always told him that this was wrong. That Rory was his friend, not some...random person who he could call for a booty call. Ethan had to admit, he did always feel...something, other than guilt and remorse for what he's done after they had sex each night. But the seer would always just ignore it and shove it away deep down inside himself somewhere. To be locked away within the sudden deep dark despair and shame that he always felt inside.

I guess by this world so sick with loss

And your services so free of cost

I should climb down off my rugged cross and

Lay with you

Ethan Morgan was the living embodiment of what it had meant to be called the walking dead because that's all he was inside. Dead. Nothing but an empty shell of loneliness and regret. Always questioning his existence in this world and what his place might be in it. There was no longer any hope or light left inside him as long as his heart remained shattered into pieces. Love was a pointless thing in this world that only brings suffering and pain in the end.

But you know by now it's half past late

And I only came here for escape

You, you're just my next mistake

Like me to you

He hated doing this to one of his closest friends, but what's done is done. The deal was made and he didn't have the will or strength to end it, now. No telling what this has done to their friendship now. I mean, they're still friends and all, but...what if in the end it'll all change? Change into something that will ultimately lead to their friendship into ending. In Ethan's mind, he guess if it did ever come to that then he could just add it to his long list of idiot mistakes and problems that he would have to face in this misery of existence oh his, he suppose.

As Ethan exited the Keaner household, he stopped to check his watch to see what time it was. It was late, like it always would be after they had finished. He had already shot a quick text to his parents telling them that he was over at Rory's and would be late getting home again.

He looked back up at the house behind him and towards a certain bedroom window. There in the window he could see the silhouette of a person standing there staring at him from above. He knew it was Rory. Rory would stand there watching him from out his window, to make sure that he wasn't ambushed by any other vampires on his walk back home. In the past, Rory had offered to just fly him on home, but each time Ethan just refused and told him that he would be ok. Although, Ethan was pretty sure that Rory would still follow him home secretly from the shadows just to be sure that he made it back ok.

You know you could be anyone

God forgive your unborn sons

I hope they don't end up like me

Ethan smiled before turning back around and continued on his way. Ethan knew what he was doing was a mistake. Using your friend as a quick escape from all the pain and sadness inside for only a brief moment until the next time. Who does that? Oh, right...He does. Some friend he was, huh? Maybe one of these days he'll finally find the courage in himself to just end it all...permanently. So, that way he couldn't hurt anymore people that he cared about with his petty excuse of a life. Maybe then everybody would be able to just forget all about him and move on with their lives happily, not having to worry about the burden that is Ethan Morgan ever again.

I drag my mind through streets of shame

Blame myself, forgive the game

That's how we deal with boys like me

Perhaps he should tell his parents about how he's been feeling lately? So, that way they can get him the proper help that he deserves. But then again...he really didn't want to talk to some stranger about his deepest most inner thoughts and feelings, right now. He would've felt too embarrassed and ashamed if he did. Plus, it's not like the therapist would completely understand what he's going through or even know what he's even been through, to begin with. This was something that he needed to sort out for himself. Who knows? Maybe this was all just a phase and part of growning up? To feel so worthless and pathetic after being rejected by the one person who you saw as a high school goddess, practically. The only girl who you ever had a major crush on that wasn't fictional or a celebrity.

Maybe someday, he'll start to see the light again, but as for now he was trapped in the never-ending sea of darkness. A sea that he was currently drowning in, as he sank deeper and deeper into it's murky depths of despair.

But despite what you've been told

I once had a soul

Left somewhere behind

A former friend of mine

As Ethan walked the streets alone, he felt as soulless as a vampire did. If that was even possible. It was as if the girl he had been crushing on for so long now wasn't just a vampire, but was also secretly a succubus, too. Who had not only broken his heart, but had also sucked his soul and will to go on in life from him, as well. Of course, she really didn't do that or was even a succubus, for that matter. It had just felt like it because of how empty and dead he felt inside. Almost like a lost and wondering spirit who doesn't know what to do or where to go. So, they just wander around aimlessly in this world, as they try to figure it out. And that's exactly what he was doing. Wandering around aimlessly in a void of emptiness and confusion, as he tried to figured out what to do next to escape it.

But sadly, nothing seemed to worked. Except...for what he's been doing now with Rory, that is. Rory seemed to be the only person who he could turn to, it seems. If only it was in the right way though. You know...with talking and stuff and being more open about how he's been feeling lately. Instead, of it being the wrong way. Blood in exchange for sex and Rory's silence. But that's the path he chose, so now he has to live with it, all thanks to the girl of his dreams.

And I hate to speak so free

But you mean nothing to me

So if the streetlights, they shine bright

I'll be home tonight

On the bright side, Rory wasn't as bad as you would have thought in bed. In fact, to Ethan he was pretty darn good at it. Like a professional or something. Or maybe he was just a born natural at it? Or perhaps being a vampire might have something to do with it, too? Because you know, vampires are all about lust and sex. Heck! You could even say they were like the sex symbol for it!

But Ethan couldn't refuse to let it be anything more than that. He didn't want to be with Rory. The person who he really wanted was...well...the girl of his dreams, but she had blatantly rejected him in the sweetess and most kindess way possible for another. Which still didn't make it any less painful to bare. No. This thing with Rory was just that. A thing. With no strings attachted. To Ethan, Rory meant nothing to him (romantically, of course), except for only being a good friend who actually cares about him and that's all. Nothing more and nothing less.

I guess by the dim light in your eyes

And that to you all things comes as a surprise

I should set the steel trap of your thighs and

Dive right in

Rory watched from the shadows, hidden behind a tree just a few feet away from where Ethan walked. He did this every time after Ethan would leave his place after the blood/sex thing they had was over with. And every time he couldn't help but to feel guilty for letting this continue on like this. He was worried that with the bite mark still fresh on Ethan's neck that other hungry vampires might smell the small traces left behind of Ethan's delicous and tempting H-deficient blood and might want a bite of their own, but with more deadly results. And Rory couldn't bare to stand the thought of that ever happening to his friend. He already understood the reason why Ethan had chosen to ask him in the first place to do what they have been doing of late. He was the only one, besides Sarah, who could control themselves went it came to blood. Especially, with blood as rare as Ethan's.

He watched the seer with sad and rueful eyes. Oh, how the blonde wished that he could just make all of Ethan's trouble just go away and never bother him again. If only, he could bring an actual genuine smile to the seer's face once again. How he'd love to see that beautiful smile of his again. It was always so bright and cheery and it just made him want to smile even more. He missed the happy and always snarky Ethan that he once knew. If only his love for the boy would be enough to mend his shattered and broken heart and to fix the lost and lonely soul that laid deep inside the seer's heart, clouded by pain and darkness.

But to you I'm just a confused child

Insecure or in denial

Go raise your robes, go have your trial

I'll let you win

Yup! That's right! Rory had developed a crush on Ethan during all their little 'play dates' together during the weeks they had been doing this together. It pained him to see Ethan so down and blue over the fact of Sarah rejecting him. If only he'd see that she wasn't the only fish in the sea. That there was someone else who cared for him just as much as she did, right there beside him all along. Someone with blue eyes, blonde hair, and is a vampire himself. Someone who's practically into all the same geeky things that he's into. Someone like...him.

But Rory knew that Ethan would never notice just how much he truly cares for him. In Ethan's eyes, he was nothing more than just his sometimes idiotic and energetic friend, who happens to be a vampire. Now, Rory supposed he could just come on out and tell Ethan the truth about his feelings, but what good would that do? With Ethan so down and depressed over Sarah not liking him back in the same way (and for apparently dating his best friend, too), he didn't want to make the situation anymore worse than it already is for the poor boy. Assuming Ethan would even believe him or not, that is.

And knowing Ethan, he'd probably just deny the whole fact that he was actually into guys, too. Which could've been one of the reason why Sarah had turned him down in the dating department. She probably could tell that he was at least a little bit gay, if not entirely. Even with the fact that they have been sleeping togetherprobably wasn't enough the convince the seer of where his true sexuality lies. I mean, come on! He's been sleeping with a guy for weeks now! Surely, that must've raised a few red flags in Ethan's mind, Rory thought. But apparently it didn't. Not as long as he was too busy caught up in all his self pity and doubt as worthy dating material to anyone. So, it was best to just keep all his feelings in check and held inside for now until the day comes when the blonde can't take it anymore and confess his undying love for the seer.

You know I could be anyone

God forgive what I should have done

My thoughts enough to guilty be

Rory let out a small and very quiet sigh at his thoughts and feelings that he kept inside on the subject, as he followed Ethan down the street with a watchful eye on his surroundings.

For now, this was all he could do. Stalk his secret crush at night to make sure he gets home safe and sound without a scratch. And Rory supposed he should be somewhat grateful though that Ethan had picked him to help relieve him of all the deep and pent up dark emotions that he's been feeling inside each week. If it was with someone else then he'd probably would've flipped and went all psycho vamp on the other guy just for doing such a thing to his darling seer.

Granted Ethan wasn't technically his and the other guy (who he guessed would've also been a vampire) probably would've mopped the floor with him. But he didn't care! He would gladly defend Ethan's honor like the loyal and faithful friend that he was. Even if Ethan would've been too blinded by his own grief and despair to notice just how much he means to him.

And yes, I guess I made this bed

But I'll take the sidewalk instead

That's how we deal with boys like me

The blonde himself would of never of known himself that he was also into guys himself if it wasn't for little arrangement that they have going on. In fact, Rory would've never of even have known that deep down inside that he actually did find Ethan at least a little attractive to begin with. And thanks to the blood/sex exchange thing, it had only amplified that feeling even more. Now he actually wanted to be with Ethan. Or at least, he wished he could be. But Ethan's heart was elsewhere. Even long after it had been broken by the girl he'd admired and fantasized about for so long now.

And remaining silent about his true feelings for the boy only made it that much harder to look at the poor seer whenever he saw him. If only he had enough courage himself to just come on out and say it to him. Maybe then he would actually start to feel more better. Maybe Ethan could love him back and he could bring the light that once shone within Ethan back again. Maybe he could be the reason that finally brings the Ethan that he knew back.

But all of this was just speculation in Rory's mind. He knew there was no way he could ever tell the boy the truth. And who's to say that if he did find out, that he wouldn't just flip out and it only ended with more heartache and a broken friendship? It was better this way, in Rory's mind. And so...he remained quiet. Even at the cost of his own deep and hidden desire to love the brunette walking in front of him. In the end, the pain to his own heartache was worth it if it meant being able to spare Ethan a few small moments of his own pain and grief just to feel better if only for a brief moment.

But despite what you've been told

I once had a soul

Left somewhere behind

A former friend of mine

And yes, these nights they shared together might not of meant much to Ethan, but simply a way to shortly escape his miserable life for awhile. But to Rory, it was more than just making Ethan feel slightly better. To him, it was a way to get close to the seer. Even if the seer himself never thought of it like that. Though it did pained the vampire a little knowing that Ethan would probably never return the same feelings that he shares for him back, Rory was alright with that. He might've not meant anything to Ethan, but just someone to release all his frustration and anxiety out on, but to Rory he'll always mean more to him than that. That was simply just the truth of the matter of it. He'll always love Ethan no matter what the circumstance may be.

And I hate to sound so true

But I mean nothing to you

So if the streetlights they shine bright

I'll be home tonight

Rory smiled fondly as he stood there peeking from around the side of a tree, as he watched Ethan pull out his key and unlock the door to his house, just happy that he made it home safely, yet again.

"Good night, Ethan. I hope tomorrow you'll get to feeling more like your old self, again." spoke Rory softly into the dark at the person going inside the house, even though he couldn't hear him.

He then zoomed off back towards his own home, but missed the small smile that was on Ethan's face on the other side of the door.

"Night, Rory. And thanks, for always being my friend." said Ethan fondly, happy to have such an awesome friend like him there by his side. He truly was grateful for everything that Rory has ever done for him and he hopes that he'll never stop being his friend.


A/N: So, there it is. Another songfic tune for all my songfic loving fans out there! ;D

Sorry, if it kind a sucks. For some reason, I was having a real hard time getting motivated by the song into doing this one. But I got it done nonetheless! :)

I hope you all enjoyed it! (*whispers to self* "even if it does seems like more of a rambling mess, to me" *sighs disappointingly at self*)

Until next time, my fiiiine fanfic and music loving fans! This be DJ MBAV fan66 signing off for now! Peace! ;D